ouch

dunno how to tell u.

how bad i feel.

i felt like i messed up n din do it right.

n i m really really sorry.

i really need wisdom.

to know how to continue walking.

holidayssss

i so have the feeling.

that it is holidays.

because tmr is a public hol and there is no work.

and next week i’m off to m’sia!!!

oh man.

holidaying mood.

when bad things happen to good people

one of my fave verses.

约伯记42：5

我从前风闻有你， 现在亲眼看见你。

awesome post by Pst Kong on job and suffering.

check it out!

www.konghee.com/blog.

:)

2 years

saturday boys have been ard for 2 yrs already.

2 years since i shocked wj on msn that day.

2 years since u guys accompany me to love sean kingston.

2 years since we went night cycling.

2 years felt like yesterday.

so near yet so far.

nostalgia.

let’s celebrate.

sat boys 2 yrs anniversary.

xmasssss

the first thing that greeted me today, was the christmas carols that playing in suntec.

:))))))

im just happy. that xmas is coming. :)

oh the things to look forward in life! :)

为谁而活 为谁而战

reluctant to come online at this time, but i just wanted to blog, before my thoughts escape me.

今天的心情，沉淀了许多。

和五六年前的我相比，差得很远。

但是总不能忘记，奥夫牧师来到的那一天，讲到中国，燃起我心中的那把火。

the fire cannot go off.

今天，看到一个人道出我的心声，是很奇妙的感觉。

是啊，我花了好多时间，读了宋尚节（john sung）的故事，读了jesus in beijing，读了天上人（the heavenly man）。

他提到戴德生和很多很多其他的宣教士。

听到大跃进、文化大革命、天安门事件，突然有种熟悉不过的感觉。

这就是我为什么，那么爱历史，特别是中国历史。

因为我知道，要接触这群人，你需要明白他们的文化，背景和历史。

突然间在回来的路上，感觉到自己的渺小。

人长得越大，应该越懂越多，但我在越懂越多的情况下，也渐渐发现自己懂得却是那么少。

a finite me, an infinite God.

人生充满着好多好多的未知数。不确定性。

how do i know.

霎那间，我那些微不足道的关心和渴望，和我那伟大的神相比，变得好渺小。

但又偏偏，我那伟大的神，对我那些既渺小又微不足道的事，关怀备至。

how would i know.

i remembered my prayer.

my pillar of support.

and the vision.

God show me?

counting my blessings

many days that i wake, counting my blessings.

days that i m just in gratitude, thanking Him for using me, and the chance and opportunity to serve Him in such a manner.

today woke up and felt like, i love you Jesus.

want to touch lives, be used, and also see my life changed.

and through me, lives will be touched and changed.

love You Lord.

monday bluessssss

seriously, it has been 2 mondays in a row, that i just can’t sleep properly on sunday nights.

i have no idea what is wrong really.

on every single day except monday, my body is so resistant to wake up, but only on monday, it refuses to go back to sleep.

it’s driving me nuts, by waking up after 6 hours, and refusing to go back to sleep after. and making me feel exhausted. :(

my dear body, recognise that monday is R n R day can? pretty pls.

oh and next monday i can’t sleep. :(

anyway, random blogging.

was talking to lulu jie last night, and she mentioned that i changed. in some really interesting ways. i’m not putting it up here though.

had a great time w xq last night, my dearest friend. i love times like that with her, she’s probably one of the few that i can walk for so long with at ecp, and chill, and talk abt life and everything under the sun.

i miss those times.

sometimes i think, we just need to get away from the city, and while we were walking back to parkway, i love the breeze!

counting down one week to retreat. i’m excited.

God works in ways that amaze me, and still does.

till now, i’m going back to my Monday, and while waiting for ms sher to wake, i’m wondering what should i do.

hurhur.

happy monday!

updates on matt

oh man. i had such a great time talking to my cousin about my fave boy in this world. and i cant help but blog abt this. haha.

in social studies class, they learn about different races in singapore. and…

they r supposed to draw the difference races and write down the race.

in the centre, they r supposed to write their own race.

now readers, make a guess, which race does Matthew belong to?

if u guessed it right, (other than jon that i have told to) i will give u a prize. lol.

ready?

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Matthew wrote.

THE SINGAPORE F1 RACE.

 

he is the next louis hamilton, and he belongs to the s’pore f1 race.

LOL.

leaders

this year, i wished 2 of my greatest leaders happy birthday.

one told me, that he’s so glad i’m on full time.

the other said, that he is so proud of me.

i felt overwhelmed on both occasions.

and in reply, i told one of them.

i stand on the shoulders of giants.

indeed, we stand on the shoulders of giants.

without them, where would i be?

without You, where would i be.

i hope that i’ll nv forget, it is, and will always be a privilege.