I m back!!!!

hey hey! i m really back! haha. it feels really good to be typing away on my keyboard again.. sho sorrie to u john! haha. to all mugging all there, jia you k.. cos i finished my prelims! hee.

got a great greeat testimony to share.. will share on sat in cg den i put here k.. not to break all of ur surprise. finally prelims is over. haha. it jus doesnt feeel like it. yesterday went to watch 13 going on 30 with cecilia. it is not over yet u noe! the show is really nice, such a sweeeet show. oh n i bought jerry's album n boy, he is jus totally cuuttteee!!!!! haha. ask cecilia n she will noe wad i mean.

dun u just like my new blogskin? man, i m falling in love with it. n it is playing destiny's child emotion. quite nice lah, but i m looking for another song actually. yeeppp! any ideas?

that is all i guess. really like my new blog now. haha. anyway i will be back again, take care guys!

back again..

hi guys! back after many many days of no com, haix. i feel like something is missing from my life. u noe.. haix.

studying is not really that fun leh.. quite tiring n exhausting at times. haix. but then it is okie.. with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. hee.

today had my gp paper. it was okie lah.. but on another note, my revision is really slow leh. i think i m so lag now.. haha. all my revision schedule all messed up. GeeZ. but i m glad i m going to hols again. haha.

last sunday was good.. svc was really good. ;) Sun rocks at zPop~ although there were some stupid pple who did silly things.. saw jj also, stella and a lot others. not bad lah..

i think i m crapping a bit. jus feel like logging on to say some stuff. hee.

com crashed!

:( my com crashed on me!!!! sobz sobz. my com is not working anymore. haix. wanted to blog but din manage to. so sad!! haix. haha.

anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.

but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.

got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!

everybody......

it's countdown to prelims!

com crashed!

:( my com crashed on me!!!! sobz sobz. my com is not working anymore. haix. wanted to blog but din manage to. so sad!! haix. haha.

anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.

but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.

got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!

everybody......

it's countdown to prelims!

Love

1 Corinthians 13
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

God loves.

God is love. n He loves. So much. Just had a great dinner with my aunty where the love of God just ministered to me in an amazing way. amazing amazing way. thank you Jesus..

great night!

was really glad that i had a chance to go down for service 1. pst ulf is just phenomenal! seeing him n hearing the word "CHina" out of him jus stirred me up totally. i almost forgot how amazing he was. even as he spoke abt china, i was jus reminded in my heart wad God has put in me. Put 1.4 billion pple in ur heart.. he said. 1.4 billion. The Chinese of tomorrow will be the CHinese of Jesus Christ! wow!

today attended a ntu tok.. it was really good. n frankly speaking, i think i m going to ntu. haha. although i m not realy supposed to decide so soon, but i feel like God put sumtin in for that place more than nus. morever, they r going to offer translation course which i really really wanted. Chinese as major n translation as minor?

jus finished packing my room. feels good but exhausted. check out the time.. haha. for those in e18, see u guys for cg tml.. ;)

mugging!

haha. i was typing the mugging title n i realise that hey.. i have used that title before. haha. missed blogging a bit. it has been a while since i blogged. actually, i m not supposed to be here. haha. tml got cha guan test n i m supposed to study. but haha.. nvm lah hor..

today i went all the way to compass point! ate a bit of jack's place n studied at the library. studied until i fell asleep. hopefully i can do well for tml cha guan test ya..

always out with wei biao n we will touch sensitive topics. okie.. maybe not sensitive but erm.. a lot of things that require thinking. haha. but anyway he really has not bad ideas.. joining the moe is a good idea after all huh.. haha. tml we r attending a tok by ke xi ren.. toking bout NTU chinese, n i m excited about it u noe. hee

back to the mugging thingy.. yup.. prelims coming.. n mug hard all u a levellers n o levelers out there!

cs

urgh. kanna detention AGAIN. jus for the sake of being late last term. wad is wrong with me that i keep on getting cs? the whole world is late n only i get it. worse still it is on wed. i was thinking it is a good day to give my bible studies. haix. now the whole week is taken up. really want to leh.. haix haix. very upset now noe.. becos cs is such a waste of time. jus now i snapped at my fren. geeZ. pls God.. no CS?

xiaoting lost her phone

haix. u cannot imagine my devastation when it really hit me that my sony ericsson is not with me. yesterday at powerhouse, i was still praying that i will bring many frens this week n den i lost my phone. was so discouraged! geeZ. i m serious. so so discouraged. cos i do need my phone very much.

i m feeling quite tired acty. afraid of burning out. i have another 2 or 3 days more to go. really need strength from my DAddy in Heaven.

let us see a great harvest this weekend..

maths make me mad?

haix. dunno since when i jus lost my confidence for maths. this lack of confidence of mine caused to be stuck at always every single question i do leh. can somebody pls help xiaoting? i m really feeling very frustrated. i can be stuck at a question for 2 hours leh. n go on to the next one to be stuck again. i very much want to complete my tutorials but i keep getting stuck! help!

God is a good God!

my God is a good good god.. haha. u noe wad? i never thot that it would come true liddat. n so fast? i remembered God told me that this yr it will come to pass. i prayed for it, hoped for it, but! wow! u mean it is coming to pass!?!?!?! haha. i still cant believe it.. i remembered when i first knew, my question was how can God be so good to me? n it went well. superbly well. yep yep..

my prelims is coming soon. to be exact, in 1 months' time. haha. coincidentally on 2/9. i really need to start mugging. but there r so many things going on.. n i pray God will enlarge my capacity that i may be able to do more things. in the midst of exams.

yesterday service was great! acty i thot i din need to go down for the altar call n God keep telling me to go. haha. yah.. n i went. man.. it feels so great to cry everything out in the arms of God.. i think everything have been hidden n buried inside. but when i jus begin to cry n cry n cry.. i feel everything pouring out. n thanx to that cgl who prayed for me. ;) she spoke a great word!

it's mugging time!

i feeling a bit frustrated now. doing normal distribution n i just simply cant get to the answer. Urgh. So frustrated! haix.

but anyway, jus wanna blog about my birthday. really feel blessed this birthday!
first of all, special thanx to..

1. Ailing! for buying me Daily Encounters with God. hee. God is good.. cos i was thinking of having that.;)

2. Fi! for celebrating my birthday with me n buying me First Samuel.. u noe wad? i will learn to be a woman after God's own heart.

3. Helen ahma lu jing.. for the presents.. i really like it! thanx!

4. xueqi.. for bringing me flowers on that day.. haha. though it was a bit inconvenient, but it was really nice, n it brightened up my day!

5. wei biao.. for the book. thanx for the effort.. n i really like guo bao kun u noe.. haha. really really..

5. Hoi fai n soon kiat.. for the trucker cap.. ;)

6. all those who msg me n wish me happy birthday n all those who celebrated my birthday.. ;)

7. xian liang.. for teaching me a lesson on life to kick off my 18th birthday

really feel an expectancy. God is really moving working. Oh! 2 more pple in HC city harvest family.. Praise the Lord!!! yep.. n i feel that God is moving in me n thru in this coming 18th year..

let's keep on keeping on!

he fought the good fight of faith..
xiaoting is so encouraged. by his life.
last time pastor toked about living a life of significance -- n leaving a legacy behind.
i saw it in him. he did it. he ran his race. although it was short, but it was a good race ran.
he fought till the end.

hey frens,
let us not stay where we r. there r greater more impt things for us to do out there. the kingdon of God is out there. let us not lose our focus, being bored with our daily lives, today, get up on ur feet! live a life worth living! noe wad u want in life.. dun merely exist, live!

he touched my life, my heart. when i fall, i will remember my fren who fell n got up again.
this is his favourite psalm.
Ps 27

A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!

renewed passion..

*hiak* guess wad is the renewed passion for? yeah.. haha. acty the renewed passion is for guitar. haha. cant guess right.. maybe i shld acknowledge terence's guitar for it. haha. yep.. yesterday n today.. realise that i m falling in love with my guitar all over again, when i use it to worship God.

acty this weekend, i was really sad n discouraged abt soul-winning. i was feeling so discouraged that i did not have strength to do anything else. but today, our cg had many frens! n wad is better is that many of them were saved! Praise God! yah.. it is really exciting.. tears filled my eyes when i accompanied one of the frens down.. as i saw the pple who jus went forward to receive Christ.

oh.. n an added piece of good news.. SUN is pregnant!!!!!!!!! haha. i think that is really great news! i cant believe it!@ God is such a good God!!!

haha. n one last thing. serving on fri is not that bad. haha. not that it is bad.. u noe y? cos i saw yang jun wei.. den i ask janice if i shld go tell him that i really liked him.. in the end i mastered the courage to tell him. this is wad i said..

jun wei! I jus want to tell u that i used to appreciate your program a lot.. yah.. thank you
den he said.. that is very nice of you. thank you.
den i said.. welcome. hahahahaha. it was so scary! i was honestly sho sho nervous okie.. hee. but i m glad i did it.. yeah yeah.. he is such a nice dj! haha.

God is a good god... 

dunno really noe wad to say. for those who r visiting this webby, it is still under construction. feeling really happy now.
 
this is for helen. if she happens to read this.
my dear girl..
Jesus is for everyone. I din realise that telling u so much yet u still thot that there will be pple who is not in the plan to noe God. That is not true! u may not become a missionary, a preacher, but yet u can be a Christian in any area of this world influencing ur part of the world for Jesus! who says u cant give ur life over to God? n who says u cant achieve a lot for Him? God's plans is not for you to know Him thru me, but for u to know Him thru yourself. geeZ~

another word from God..

haha. today i toked to raymond again. he brought another word frm God again. i think he is really my guardian angel. cannot stand it. no, i shld say that he is God's messenger. like that kind of prophet liddat. haha. no lah.. but jus that dunno y he is jus able to bring up matters to tell me to face up to them.. n so qiao we always face the same problems. so he will breakthru liao den tell me abt it. den supposingly be my turn to break thru. interesting right? although the last issue he toked to me was not settled yet..
 
 

fri team?

i m changing team. to fri team. God told me yest that He was bringing to a place of greater challenge. i was feeling quite happy! i noe that sumtin is going to happen there for me. BUT! yesterday morgan told me how the fri team is like... haix. den my heart sank. it is not wad i thot it to be. he said that the team was super quiet, everything moves very fast. b4 u noe it, closing is over. geez! although i always felt super tired after duty on sat, i enjoyed myself so much. oops. i m starting to grumble. geez.
 
but u noe wad? i have trusted in God's plans. Like wad pst said, I may be unwilling, but i will do it. I always knew that God had sumtin greater in store for me. ;) there is no need for fear. yup..

food for thought

The Power of Holding Hands
By Rabbi Harold Kushner

I was sitting on a beach one summer day, watching two
children, a boy and a girl, playing in the sand. They were
hard at work building an elaborate sandcastle by the
water's edge, with gates and towers and moats and internal
passages. Just when they had nearly finished their
project, a big wave came along and knocked it down,
reducing it to a heap of wet sand. I expected the children
to burst into tears, devastated by what had happened to all
their hard work. But they surprised me. Instead, they ran
up the shore away from the water, laughing and holding
hands, and sat down to build another castle. I realized
that they had taught me an important lesson. All the
things in our lives, all the complicated structures we
spend so much time and energy creating, are built on sand.
Only our relationships to other people endure. Sooner or
later, the wave will come along and knock down what we have
worked so hard to build up. When that happens, only the
person who has somebody's hand to hold will be able to
laugh.


Another quote:
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

on another note, i did pretty well for LEP. the best for all these years. ;) God is good.

update again

hey i m back again. hee. yesteday had a great day at church without walls seminar. haha. it was really good; hey! reaching out is not so difficult after all! geeZ! there is no need for fear of rejection yah.. even if u have fear, be courageous! Courage is moving on in spite of ur fear.

Yesterday listened to this really good speaker by the name of Dr Ng PAk Tee. He was a pretty amazing guy considering that his speech moved me to tears. Aint that amazing? U noe something, after that, i felt that though i will not consider myself patriotic, i consider myself loyal to hwa chong. yuPPpp! really inspired by him that today i absorbed all my carnival tickets! haha. dun worry.. i will sell them all.

i just came to realise that i m 7 weeks away from my prelims.. counting down pple. buck up! For some reason, i m still in holiday mood. Geez! Xiaoting u got to study study study!

recently i also came to realise the importance of the presence of God. (so many realisations hor) Really that is the key in a sense that will unlock so many things in the supernatural realm.geeZ! n His presence is the best place u can be.

there was something that i wanted to post but could not remember what it is. haha. nvm lah. i will be back again. ;)