reminisces

was jus reading my blog in another place. was so amazed by the things that God brought me through. yet reading it put a once new desire in me. i really want to love God more than i ever did before.

u noe pple once asked me.. how can a person keep on loving the Lord? and i asked myself before too. u noe like Pst Kong.. He has been a Christian for 30 yrs.. y is he able to love God more n more?

den i remembered i told the person. u can love Him because He first loved us. u noe sth.. we cant love God on our own. we dun have the strength. we love Him becos the Holy Spirit will put that desire within us to love.

so here i m once again Lord..

asking that u help me to love you so much more.

that every single day i will love u more than my yesterday..

and keep me close to u every moment of my life.

i wan to live for You.

help me Holy Spirit..

久久无法释怀

i simply live for You

SAY THE WORD AND I WILL SING FOR YOU
OVER OCEANS DEEP I WILL FOLLOW
IF EACH STAR WAS A SONG
EVERY BREATH OF WIND PRAISE
IT WILL STILL FAIL BY FAR
TO SAY ALL MY HEART CONTAINS
I SIMPLY LIVE
I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU

AS THE GLORY OF YOUR PRESENCE
NOW FILLS THIS PLACE
IN WORSHIP WE WILL MEET YOU FACE TO FACE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
TO WHICH YOU CAN BE COMPARED
GLORY ON GLORY
PRAISE UPON PRAISE

YOU BIND THE BROKEN-HEARTED
AND SAVE ALL MY TEARS
BY YOUR WORD
YOU SET THE CAPTIVES FREE
THERE IS NOTHING IN THIS WORLD
THAT YOU CANNOT DO
I SIMPLY LIVE
I SIMPLY LIVE FOR YOU

失望

哈。当我们写“失望”时，常常是写自己的失望。往往没想到今天写的失望是我让别人失望。

好想大声地说“对不起！”好想大声地喊“对不起！”

对不起 对不起 对不起 对不起

好希望时光能倒流。这一切像是一场梦。噩梦。

对不起
有人曾告诉我，这句话有无穷的力量。
今天，我好用力地说对不起，却发现这三个字失去了他的魔力。
那我该怎么办？

我讨厌让人失望，难过的感觉。
宁可天下人负我，我绝不负天下人？

现在连文字都失去它的魔力。

。。。

chatting

jus finished chatting with helen. enjoyed it so much. missed the times when i can jus pick up the phone or sms her to tok to her! now i cant do that. gee.... now online it feels a bit different. but i still enjoyed it. :)

thank God for friendships. :)

new blogskin!

yay! i have finally changed my blogskin! haha. i m sho happy. isnt this nice? i really really liked it! Jesus is the reason y i live! yay!!!!

i feel sort of evil cos i m wasting time sitting in front of my com. but these few days i have been really happy cos God really has been good to me. On wed i had such a great time in sch! this week we start lecture with a wonderful lecturer from bei da. hee. half of my dream coming true? even liang wen fu was there. n i absorbed during sociology class though i dozed off la. hee. n i had great lessons nowadays n there is jus such a flow in my life.. the oil of the Holy Spirit.

n i have a magic weighing machine! it makes u lighter! haha. my dad stood on it and he lost 7 kg. muahahahaha. jus last sun i went ikea to buy a lot a lot of things to decorate my room. n i packed my room for like 8 hours???? can u like believe it? but there is a great sense of satisfaction looking at my room now.. haha. it is so much neater. :)

xiao ting is a happy girl.. jus on tues God started another work in me again. man i m telling u.. it is jus absolutely awesome to live for God!

i love You Jesus!!!!!!!!!!

jus wan to blog b4 i slp. i really like penning my thots down. now amidst my busy schedule, i seldom have time to think except maybe during travelling. n that is y pple ask me if i mind the long distance frm ntu. not really becos i appreciate that time in which i think and sleep too. haha.

tdy was a rainy day. i used to dislike rainy days thinking that they r inconvenient n troublesome n they make me wet. but i enjoyed the day. :) i like the freshness in the air after it rains. i like the cool breeze that it carries. i like walking after it rains.

jus now was jus teaching tuition n God awakened this in me. shall pen it down in chinese.

每个人一生下来都有这样东西“童真”。而今天我好像看到“童真"的再现。哈哈哈哈。轻描淡写的几句话，提醒了我我们每个人都有着一份上帝赐的礼物。只是因为现实的残酷，生活的步伐，罪恶的恶心，把它淹没了。我好想唤起心中那一份“童真”。难怪人家说童年是最让人怀念的。而看到别人能够那么单纯，才发现能拥有单纯，童真是一个福气。：）

back frm service n tuition n stuff. glad that the week is over. cos it has not been ez. but service was great! love it when pst toked abt it n stuff. cos it is jus amazing. the heart of worship.

jus feel that all of us really need to have the heart of worship becos this is wad it is all about. u noe everytime u think bout pple like abraham n david n stuff u really wonder.. how do they do it? but yet u also yearn to walk with God like that. to be so entwined around Him. yep. that is the heart of worship.

tdy took a walk around bugis. finally after so long. kind of missing shopping but kind of tired of getting things as well. though i m also quite tired of my wardrobe. :) but gave wei yi bs tdy n enjoyed it. :) and enjoyed toking to my members as well. :) it is nice to have fellowship.

this week is my mid term break!!!!! yay! although i still will be as busy as ever, let us hope i will have a teeny weeny little bit of more time to catch up on my studies!

n let us have a breakthru this week... revival revival revival.

and helen jus emailed me! man.. it is like that kind that makes u all sentimental n wanting to cry. i miss that ger! n i noe she is reading this. u noe sometimes i really wish i can be overseas studying.. but guess that is jus not the will of God for me. but i really wanna experience it if i ever get a chance. if God wants me to, that is. if not den i will make ntu heaven on earth. :) i will really really try. haha. and helen, gambate! behind u all the way n praying for u gal. love ya lots.

okie going off. think i gonna blog more often. wanna change my blogskin too.

anybody want to do it for me? hee. nite.

hihi. i m in da bian room now blogging. jus feel that God has been such a good God to me since sch reopen. that God has been really guiding me and giving me strength to work, lead cg and study at the same time. now i noe what does it mean that the steps of the righteous r ordered by the Lord. yep.

chan eng n i was jus toking abt it. how can Pst Kong do it???? where does he get his strength from? den the next day i was jus praying and the presence of God jus came and God told me this is how Pastor does it! and now i really know what it means by "cant live a day without Your presence" Lord. the presence of God is jus so precious in my life and i m really sustained every day by that. gee i love Him and His presence!

yup God is good and i got nice tuition assignments and good frens and fantastic cg members! haha.357 i love u. hee. jus realise that u guys get more n more adorable as the days go past. haha. thank you for standing in prayer with me to believe for a breakthrough in the cg! love all of u!

:)

ello all out there! sorrie for not blogging for so long.. haha. so laggy. well here i m in ying hse accompanying her to study. haha. this ger is super distracted.

but it has been such an eventful life that i jus cant tell u all about it.. becos so much have been happening in my life or should i say in my life and also the pple ard me that i m flabbergasted. ying claims that she is not distracted but the fact that she is looking at the screen shows that she is. muahahaha.

yest and tdy we had a tremendous svc with pst ulf. i really really love him. that kind of freedom he carries in the Spirit that i see in nobody else. wow. wow. caught a new word, brought up another level in Him.

and another thing that happened tdy is that helen left for US. this morning i woke up thinking i m strong and good and i wun really feel very sad. but shows that i m wrong. i still cried at the airport. gal if u r reading this, i wan u to noe that i really miss u. but i guess that i dun really have this kind of chance to miss pple and i seldom cry over pple. she is one of the fewest ba.

God is a good God. :) and i love Him with all of my heart.

boy oh boy i really had a fantastic weekend. haha. God is a great God. recently i m really treasuring God's presence so so much. jus love to be in Him. and the anniversary was great! 16 wonderful yrs in God.. and FOP was great too.. Darlene is such an amazing worship leader.

God is a good god.. a great god.. an amazing god.. a fantastic god.

i realli like the song..

C'mon C'mon
We will tell the world about You!

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
Tell the world that He died for them
Tell the world that
Tell the world that

thank you..

this is a bit overdated. but well it is really a 'thank you' entry for my members who really put it a lot of effort for my birthday.

to my dearest cg.. my favourite gp of pple in the world! (i think, haha)
guys thanx for celebrating my birthday.. for the efforts u guys put in.. for the brainstorming.. and everything.

it has been a priveilege and it always will be ur cgl.. to lead such a great bunch of pple like u. though i had my share of frustrations and worries(though i try not to) for all of u, it has been a great joy leading all of you and see all of u growing in God. u've been thru trials and testings.. and i see each and everyone of u grow. and really.. it put great joy in my heart.

i know that some of u guys really get scolded by me and stuff.. and there r times that i get angry, but i wan u to noe that i always always love all of u.

and let's us as a cell group go up to the next level.. being mature sons of God.. walking in the Spirit and getting to know God even more. Let us arise and go up the next level..

thank you for being my members. (:

and to continue from my previous post.

3. qi n ce. :)
thanx for coming out n watch a movie with me becos i wanted to and thanx for being my frens. one of the greatest gifts God has given me is the both of you! i m glad we r all 19, loving n serving Jesus. love u guys lots.. n i absolutely love that wallet. but love ur company even more.

4. all who wished me happy birthday!

seriously, i feel so loved on my birthday. n God told me that He is not the only one who loves me.. there r so many out there who also love me. haha.

Lord.. this year i pray You teach me how to come in and how to go out.. how to lead and how to be led.. how to love and how to be loved.. how to serve.. how to give.. how to live.

Let this be a yr marked by Your presence, power and love.

Let this be a yr that i lean on Your presence.

Let this be a yr that i love You, more than i ever loved You before Lord.

hello!

haha. i intended to blog yesterday cos it was my birthday! but well.. i had such a great time that i was jus too tired to blog. hee.

okie.. acknowledgements to the pple who made my day..

1. my beloved members!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my the thot of u guys put a big grin on my face.. not the surprise at the esplanade, or the big box or anything else.. but it was the me discovering the surprise that was the most fun of it all! ahahaha. gee.. i m so sorrie that i foiled ur plan.. haha. next time i will try very hard not to be intelligent okie? hee. but anyway.. u guys REALLY MADE MY DAY! haha. i seriously cant think of a better way to celebrate my birthday. n in advance.. thanx for the ADIDAS JACKET! hahahahaha.
special mentions to ying and eugene. the "ceo"s of xiaoting proj. and yiwen who came all the way!

2. jc cluster :)
hey u guys r really awesome. thanx for celebrating my bday and putting a smile on my face and being such a fun n sporty group to lead! i enjoyed every minute with all of u.. i promised u i will get a v cam to record down the NGE square AN square! haha. n N-O-R-T-H i say N-O-R-T-H! n.. erm too many to name.

got to go for lecture. later i will continue k.. bye! btw now in ntu library! :)

tdy is arise n build sunday.

after so long we r back. to arise n build.

pst was jus toking abt ur precious. ur benjamin. n tears rowed down my eyes.

wad is my precious? i asked Him.

and He said " ting i wan ur life."

not like killing me like isaac.

but God wants me. my life.

that is my precious.

and that is my best offering to Him.

had a great time with the cg at pasir ris park yest. God answered my prayers. ;) God is a good god. Recently jus came to the place of totally thanksgiving n submission to Him. God is good.
we really had a fun time in the water! splashing.. playing.. and all the stunts the guys try to do. check out the pictures! i m amazed by my photographing skills.. haha.

community.webshots.com/user/s_targazing

watched a lot like love too. it's been a long time since i watch such silly shows. haha. but it was really nice. i really really liked it. but poor chan eng has to watch it with me which is quite sad. haha. but it's nice! if u like silly romance comedies.. u will enjoy this.

went shopping n swimming tdy. din buy anything except for this pair of sandals that look almost identical to the previous one. haha. well.. that's all.

love Him more n more each day.

first time xiaoting m blogging from the office. for those dun noe, i m working in chec, a wonderful job God has blessed me with. :) blogging now cos there is a big restlessness in my soul from the Holy Spirit. that kind of feeling that something really bad is going to happen. yeeks.

it has been a long time that i have been blogging about how i feel but well i feel that i m really blessed. this June has been such a great month for me. from emerge to the israel trip. it really has been amazing.

it has been great going to israel, stepping on the same places Jesus stepped, being in the same places the Holy Spirit fell, how can words do justice to that very place? i din noe how it was like to be in Israel but seriously it is a spiritual trip, not jus a trip that u have fun. the Spirit of God was so strong in that very place and u jus encounter God in a measure like u nv did. u really feel that in the place it has a tremendous anointing.. coming back to spore u feel a bit suffocated. hahaha. kind of lame but that is part of the truth. hiak.

but well israel trip is over. n time to get on with my life. to see my cg grow. to see schs having revival. to see the power of God move in Singapore like it moved in Israel. the same spirit of God that raised Jesus from the dead is in us! n so we can do mighty things for God..

revival. revival. revival. revival. revival.

xiaoting is back frm israel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha.

well, to put it shortly, it was a fantastic trip. not jus one full of fun, but it was one filled with encounters with Him. hallelujah!

it was really a gr8 trip. being in the Holy Land is really different and u can see how God moved in that place. i m really tempted to type down how God spoke to me every day but.. haha. it is really too long. i m too lz to do it.

well, my heart is filled with joy even as i type abt it. i miss israel but yet i dun really miss it that much becos i brought a piece of the Holy Land back with me! haha. and that is wad i m really happy abt.. those encounters and the very presence of God, i brought it back with me. haha.

love the jews! and love the land of Israel and u r greatly encouraged to go to the Holy Land yah? ;)

btw jc cluster.. i did bring back some small gifts for u guys. pls do get it from me n all the best for ur exams!

oh.. n i forgot to announce that i m going to ISrael! on tues!!!!! ;)

feel free to tag abt wad u want ya? i will try my best to get it for u. hiak. ;)

hi guys.. i really broke my record for not blogging for such a long time. hiak. but well it has really been a busy time so i m glad i can rest yet sad at the same time that emerge is over!

i think it was an amazing idea to have emerge conference.. really. it is such an amazing time in the presence of God. i really pray that in our lives we can have the same kind of presence n power of the Holy Spirit..

and really this entry i wanna first write to my cg.

hey guys,

i pray that after emerge u will be really different. be a people of a different spirit like Caleb yet love the presence of God like Joshua. I pray that even as we have touched Heaven, we will nv be satisfied with something less. let's go for sth greater in our lives! n we all can see a revival in our schs ya? so let's keep on loving God more n more.. ;)

and to the jc cluster..

u guys rocked my world! man i nv thot this is wad i will get by joining pos. and boy oh boy u guys blew my mind! n God blew my mind too!! haha. the rest i will post on our blog k.. ;)