family

family day 2007. 1 may.

R we a family?

R u part of this family?

In a family,

We give because we love.

We give our time, our finances, our energy.

We sacrifice because we love.

In a family, we go all the way out not because u r asked to, but becos u love this family.
And because you love, you will do anything for ur family members.

Do you love ur family? Do you love the vision? R u a part of this family?

We do wad we do, becos we love.
We love, because He first loved us.

not because we r told to.

I wish you will read this. I wish you will understand.
Becos i love my family. But i m heartbroken. Becos u dun love our family. You noe that?

What happened has really broken my heart.

By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love, one for another.

You dun have to do it if it is too hard on you really. You dun have to bother if u dun love our family. Really. You dun.

woooooo

suddenly i was looking at the past yr papers. n i got a little bit scared. ok. thou shall not be scared. i think i really nd God to take me thru. gee.

简单

那天在报纸上看到一则有趣的文章。文章的结论是：

人生可以简简单单美满，美美满满简单。

今天在走路时，感到心情很漂亮。今天发生了一件令我好高兴的事！但是这里不方便说。。 (: God is so good.

人生可以是简单的。一个心想事成就让我好不开心。

i m happy. sho happy. sho sho happy.

做你的公主mv

this is really very nice. awesome.

散文日记

看到很多朋友的部落格。好想念这样写部落格的方式。所以我决定了！考试后我真的会set up wordpress blog. 我想开始用华文记录好多东西。。好想念





近来有很多扰人的事，脑海里一直围着那几件事打转。考试有像是个摆脱不了的负担，这也不是，那也不是。又有几件烦人又缠人的事，想摆脱也摆脱不了的东西。haix.





一件令我超级开心的事。是跟我的陈资凯聊天。对了，他使我的新上任男朋友。没有啦。。他是我的5岁外甥。他最近超可爱，而他是令我最开心的聊天对象。((:





上个星期和他妈妈聊天，然后和他讲话，他开始问我又可爱又好笑的问题，让在念书的我好不开心。





matthew: yiyi.. where r u now?


me: yiyi is in sch.


matthew: how come u still in sch?


me: becos yiyi is studying in sch. tml got exam.


matthew: how come u still studying in sch? how come u nv go home?


me: becos yiyi is studying in sch lor.


matthew: how come ur sch so late still haven close? how come u nv go home?


me: yiyi's sch dun close one. yiyi's not going home. going home tml.


matthew: how abt the tchers? are the tchers there also?


me: no matthew.. the tchers have gone home.


matthew: how come the tchers go home? then who teach u a lesson?


me: becos the teachers need to rest. yiyi studying myself..


matthew: how abt ur frens? r ur frens in sch..?





and so the conversation goes.





then he asked..





matt: is ur sch in frankel ave? (which for ur info is the add of his sch. ha)


me: no.. yiyi's sch in jurong west..


matt: how come ur sch not in frankel ave? how come ur sch in jurong?





...





matt: is ur sch like brighton montessori? (which is the name of his sch btw)


me: no.. yiyi's sch much bigger than brighton montessori.


matt: but brighton montessori is also very big! ur sch got toys?


me: no yiyi's sch no toys..


matt: how come no toys.. then then .. how about lego? does ur sch have lego?


me: no matthew.. yiyi's sch no lego..


matt: how come no lego.. then.. what about toilets? ur sch got toilets?


me: yes matthew.. yiyi's sch got toilet..


matthew: how come ur sch only got toilet.. (drifting away)





my beloved nephew. can u believe he is five? a few days.. he asked his mum to call me becos he wants to tok to me. to cont this conversation. and what i heard is before i picked up.. he is already toking to me. and after he hung up on me, he was still toking. haha.





my fave boy.

have u fallen in love with him? haha. i noe he is absolutely adorable. love him to bits.

there r many fantastic kids in my family. jus love them.

另外一件事，就是星期四是我最后一天在kumon。我会好想念。。我的同事，更会想念我的学生！下次才给你们照片看！(:

i thot this is a pretty interesting post. muahaha. self praise is no praise.

you are sovereign

God. you are sovereign.

yes i noe u r sovereign.

as ur child, i dun have to beg, dun have to lower my standing, dun have to try in that manner.

yes i know that.

i know that u reign.

i know that vengeance belongs to u.

i know that you reign.

i know that u will fight for me.

i know that u will protect me.

i know that u will come through for me.

i know that no weapon against me shall prosper.

i know that u r on my side.

i know that u r sovereign, so sovereign.

so i will fear not, fret not, worry not.

you r in absolute control. n no weapon no weapon no weapon formed against me shall prosper.

他们真的不了解。

嗯，我知道，没有几个人其实能够了解。我知道。

多么希望会找到一群能了解的人，会在等待，会两肋插刀。

你们常说你们会，有时候，在我最需要的时候，你们会在的。

有时候，在我最需要的时候，我是一个人躲在一旁哭泣的。

你是没有看到的。

我仍然觉得

友情是需要培养的。

但是，不想一个人去培养。

我不是无聊。不是寂寞。不是可怜。只想要有一个陪在身边的人。

就这样而已。

你真的了解吗？

我要友情。我要quality time. 我不要你施舍时间来陪我。我不要觉得自己好像在祈求别人的时间。我不要，我不要，我不要！

你了解吗？你们了解吗？有人了解吗？？

你们有尝试了解吗？

benny hinn

one of my fave christian books is good morning Holy Spirit. this was the book that really taught me how to get to know the Holy Spirit. and tdy even as i attend pst benny's meeting, i think it's just amazing.

this is what happens when u simply walk with the Holy Spirit, right?

i really crave to have such a relationship with the Holy Spirit, that when u sing and worship, the room is filled with the presence of God. that u can invite the Holy Spirit, and becos of ur relationship with Him, he will show up when u ask me to.

Holy Spirit, teach me how to noe u more.

Pst benny said. Jesus is coming back. We r running out of time.

urgency!

i have decided to move on

i have decided to move on.

i have dwelled too long in the past.

Jesus said, follow me.

noe wad?

even if u dun follow Him, He will still move on.

His life is to do the will of the Father.

i have decided to move on.

i have issued to all an invitation.

if u r with me, come with me to change the world.

if u r not with me, and u dun wan to move on, u can stay where u r.

it's not that i dun wan to bring u along, but u chose to stay where u r.

i m moving on. with or without u.

u choose.

i m NOT staying back. i m going where He wants me to go.

R u with me?

sun 做你的公主

或許你沒看出來　周圍的人都在猜
有種感覺正在我們之間展開
喜歡你偶而作怪　
不經意留露的壞 其實體貼實在　
孩子氣的胸懷
曾經有過的戀愛　彷彿一片空白
直到遇見你 我才真的存在

我只想做你的公主　
擁有那平凡的幸福
華麗的珍珠　不如眼底的專注
對我深深呵護　
我想我是你的公主
終結這多年的追逐
當你抱著我　地球也暫停腳步
我剎那間清楚　
你是我的幸福
沉潛太久的孤獨　這一刻獲得救贖
我忽然好想哭　感激你這一路
陪我笑　陪著我辛苦
無悔的付出

i really love this song.

thoughts

God looks at the heart.

sometimes i cannot understand, y people try to be someone else. is it in front of me, in front of others, y try to be someone else? even if tdy i can't see, God sees.

guys, God is not interested in the outward. God is not interested in wad u say, wad u promise, sometimes even wad u do, if wad u do is different from wad u feel.

God wants commitment and passion, from the inside out.

pls dun hide. be totally honest before God.

on another note, it's back again.

felt like God is putting me thru that test again.

i din make it the other time and God is a wonderful tcher.

he makes sure that i pass it. haha.

so it is back again.

brace urself to pass the test girl.

although i have been whining abt the tons of reports that i have to write, especially 342, i still kind of enjoy really doing it. it has been pretty exciting getting down to writing it and also to research and find out all those things happening in the international society, a quest for knowledge. i never thought i could digest a book as theoretical as this, i thot it would be really tough to "swallow" it all. but i was wrong. i did enjoy reading all these things. (: though sometimes i can get a bit sleepy.

but now, 515am in the morning, sitting at canteen b and attempting to do my 342 is an achievement indeed. go for it xiaoting.

easter is coming!

He is the reason for this season.

jia you.

朋友

nothing happens by chance.

nothing happens automatically.

昨天很不经意的。。 这样对朋友说

“感情是需要我们去刻意经营的。”

这次。。 我对友情的感受很多

无可逃避的，在不同的地方念书，自己和别人的距离越来越远。
但是，我非常非常珍惜友情。
真的
不管你是在新加坡
或是在美国
只要你在我心里占一席之位
我就一定会抽出时间
和你聊上那一句话

我知道
时间很少
事情很多
never ending projects, reports, essays, tut, homework

but u noe sth?
frens r still so impt

“友情是需要你我去刻意经营的”

sometimes we think that.. even if we dun spend time with one another
it is ok.

things will still remain the same.

really?

有时候我觉得。。
有些东西真的已经变了。

pretend this does not exist.

我真的不想放手
好久都没有这样的感觉
这次没有让我感觉想要窒息

晓亭成长了吧

i really dun wan to let you down.
in the grandstand, the only audience in you.

有时候会觉得
我是不是做错了

只希望你脸上
可以出现满足的笑容

pls take care of everything

sun

好爱你的新专辑《拥抱》

谢谢你的勇敢
给我力量一直不断的走下去

谢谢你的歌声
给了我无限感动
让我在最黑暗的夜晚
也不觉得孤单

是你的坚持
让我坚持到底
不停下来

是你的阳光
照亮我的心

我没有听到另一把能让我如此感动的声音
谢谢你的坚持
谢谢你不放弃
一直一直透过音乐把感动和爱带给我们

love u sun.

read an article that moved me so much. i love her courage. thank you.

戏剧

今天戏剧盒的人来到南大，谈关于戏剧方面的东西。

他们的一字一句，牵动了我的心。

我不知道这是不是我的calling, 但是我想参与媒体工作。不是记者，不是新闻播报员，我也不懂我要的是什么，可是，心里总有一点的不满足，my soul needs sth more.

或许会做广播，戏剧。。我也不知道，但是我要参与aesthetics的东西。i need to fulfill my soul.

met Him yest.

it was wonderful.

to feel Him close by, speaking straight into my life.

to have His logos jump out on me.

i never want to lose this love for u.

only wan to love u more. n more. n more. n more.

a sip is not enough. i need a well, a fountain of ever lasting water.

draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.

be there Lord.

i feel kinda tired. with the tons of reports due plus exams in one month, it's a little bit scary. but God is always good.

was reminded tdy on how i always lean upon the Lord for strength. N God reminded me to do that again.

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. "

had a wonderful zone meeting.

on another note, tdy did our presentation for game play.

总觉得自己可以做得更好，虽然面对的限制很多，但我还是想做到最好。真的有放进不少努力，所以觉得老师的批评还是相当残酷的。

但是我们总是需要面对批评，才能够学习，我还是更好的学习吧。

真的好累

allow me to be emo for just these few minutes.

the end of something marks the beginning of something greater. God kept on reminding me.

it was a tough decision to make. but i noe God has sth greater in store. so i did it. and here's for u.

to my dearest cg,
i love u. (:

to peter,
everytime we gather and tok bout u, that one word is lame. other than that, mx will always mention how scared u r of me and how tense up u r. (: but i wan u to noe that i m so proud of u! especially when u called me n tell me bout ur results, at the moment i felt so so so proud of u and i jus wanted to tell the whole world that u did it! i noe u struggled real hard with ur studies in the past 2 yrs, but yet i also noe that u really did all that u could for this exam and u really did it! i m so proud of u! u do have a talent n a gift amidst all that lameness. grow to be a man of a greater stature n fulfill the vision i gave to this cg in the beginning of this yr. fulfill ur destiny.

to jordan,
thank u for being so teachable. since the first day u came, u have been teachable and always so willing to be taught. u r always so willing and available, always there, always faithful and u r so great as a member! i see tremendous potential in ur life so really develop ur relationship in God and grow the best u can! u will shine!

to iris,
it has not been an easy road for u i think. from how u first came and got saved, and see people close to u backsliding, but yet u have held on. i noe there r times our faith in God will waver, sometimes it happen for me too, but keep on holding on to God and walk with Him. i noe u will do well in e195.

to huiying,
from that girl that i first saw 2 yrs ago up till tdy, u have come a long way. n i m thankful to God for that. to see u loving the things of God, being excited abt the things of God, becoming more n more spiritual reminds me always y i m still doing the things that i m doing. ur enthusiasm spreads! (: so keep on shining for Him wherever u go..

last but not least,
to ying.
it has been a long discipleship and walk with u, as ur leader and fren. since u were sec 1, that girl with that 2 little plaits, whom i took such a long time to get u to come for cg n svc, to this girl that i see today, strong, spiritual, mature, serving God in this kingdom, i m inspired. gal i saw how u grow all the way, from that little girl till today, it is not easy to let u go. u have been great as a disciple and a helper, enduring all that scoldings from me, standing in the gap, sharing my burden and making things happen, and always loving people, it has been a priveilege to be ur discipler. i pray with all of my heart that i will see u soar like an eagle and fulfill God's call for ur life. you were born, for such a time as this.


it has really not been an easy decision. but this marks sth greater. the rest of us in E357, let's see God's kingdom in this place. (: we spend 2 yrs of our lives tog, it has been awesome, and it will be more awesome.

i love e357. old n new.

the end of sth marks the beginning of sth greater.

whenever i m scared n overwhelmed, this song rings in my head.

all this time
since the day that i was born
i nv known a time like this
i dun wan to let u down



some people see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were n ask why not. what your mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.

was just reading a fren's blog to realise that leaders r only human. alot of times when i look at the lders ard me, somehow i feel that they r so amazing and they look so "shen". but yet, tdy i jus feel, ldrs r really only human.

we can get disappointed
we can be frustrated
we can be discouraged
we can be angry
we can get hurt
we need relationships
we need frens
we need God

i m only human. gee

my mind is in a really blank mode now. i wan to type but dunno wad to type.

God............. what should we do? n what can we do?