我有点累。

今天扛了好些包袱。

有点像姐姐，又有点像妈妈。

you know i was just thinking about it the other day. it's how amazing God brought us altogether and bring friends in our midst.

and i was just thinking about ken and weijian.

it's interesting how i knew them only 2 years ago, and they were still kids, literally kids. haha. one who was jumping ard all the time in pos and another one who was always trying to look cool. (weijian, tugging at his fringe, with his super low pants, and surprisingly a mugger and one who does really well, ha.) really in pos that yr, i din get close to many of them, sometimes as a ldr u just got to take care of everybody. but this bunch of ppl were really nice. right from the beginning they made me feel loved, though i was still a really young leader, and we were all just trying to make things right and to make pos a wonderful experience.

and thru pos, God showed me one thing, the impossible is nothing.

when everybody(and even ourselves) said that we would never have a chance in the prize, by our hard work and passion, we proved everybody wrong, including ourselves. it was a moment to cry for when we knew we were in top 3 really. and ppl din understand y were we so happy and passionate, but those in the team knew. knew that it was impossible and God did it for us.

but pos 2005 is over. but friendships r left behind.

the greatest joy that i had was to see lives changed thru pos, members maturing, being on fire for God, and friendships forged in this place, including my friendship with weijian and ken and all the rest.

and as a "shepherd" of my own sheep, i have made a decision to always look at my "sheep" with eyes of faith. and even today, when i look at ken and weijian, somehow sth tells me there is sth greater in store for u guys.

if i think wadeva i said was amazing, whatever that happened after was even more amazing. how amazing u guys left God one by one, and came by one by one. to say i was not sad was a lie. but somehow we knew u guys will be back.

and it's amazing how God bring the 2 of you tog to be frens. i always thot, u guys r so different, and weijian, y did u go down to ken's level??? haaha. but somehow i guess in the midst of all it is really God.

but more than all these, i knew that God made you guys friends for a purpose. by being in my life, you have made a difference, but i pray that you guys will do greater things for His kingdom.

You have a great destiny in store. For no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind can know, what God has in store for those who love Him.

To my 2 brothers in Christ, i love u guys absolutely who u r and what you have been, and i pray and pray and pray BOTH OF YOU will walk in the purpose and destiny that God has for you.

and i know BOTH OF YOU will.

and thank you for being my friend. :)

上一个post, 我才刚说，我好累啊。在msn和一个朋友聊天，谈到一些令我兴奋的事，一些发生的好事，我就开始开心起来。

these few days, because of fatigue, i cannot bring myself to do nothing. i was thinking, i m just too tired to do anything.

但是，和他讲话之后，我突然觉得，我虽然累，但是我还要坚持。我虽然累，但是我还要积极，乐观。我虽然累，but i dun wan to whine and complain.

and i will look to u.

in times of fatigue, i will climb to u and say, Lord pick me up.

in times of fatigue, i will fall in ur arms and say, Lord strengthen me.

i will fight on.

i will overcome.

i am more than a conqueror.

and i will grow, and guard, and build.

oh yes i will.

and i can do all things. yes all things.

我大概等了5分钟，这个网页才出现。难怪你发现晓亭越来越少写部落格了。

从好几天前，我就想写了。想写我对《霸王别姬》这部片子的观后感，想写一些发生的莫名其妙事，想写好多好多。。 可是我一动笔，就不想写了，哈哈。

很奇怪的是，最近的我真得很累。真得很累。我会莫名其妙得上课上到一半而睡着，即使我昨晚已经睡了很多。不管我怎么睡，都补不回我需要的精力。我需要比睡眠更厉害的东西。。

今晚，我只想睡个好觉。明天起来跑步，祈祷从明天起，我会有精力去应付接踵而来的挑战。

typing in chinese may not be very reader-friendly to many of u. bear with me k? i need to improve my standard of Chinese.

God i need your strength.

for your grace is sufficient for me.

虽然是有那么的一点想念team 19的人，但是也很开心终于可以返回南大校园。

昨天，好不容易，终于找到了“草根书局”在哪里，遇见了鼎鼎大名的英培安先生，还和他聊上了几句话。在南大上课时，常常会受到激励，希望自己真的能够成为双语人才。这是上翻译课得到最大的启示。

辜鸿鸣，马建忠，他们俩都认为中国要富强，当时需要“译才”。译才必须精通双语，并且熟悉两国的文化。辜鸿鸣更了不起，懂得9种语言，并且是真正的双语人才。

所以，上了这些课后，我才深深体会，我需要加强自己的语文程度。

晓亭，加油吧！

random

今天坐在巴士车站时，突然想到一样小时候我们常做的事。



记得12岁那年，我们总是会要求大家帮我们写autograph，而里头写的常常是一些有的没有的诗。



有一个是这样写到的。



“知人知面不知心

劝你交友要小心

不要交个没良心

怕你以后会伤心”



小时候，真得不懂这句话的意义，或许只是在扮“小大人”。但是，回想起来，这句话对现在的我们，却是那么适当。

认识他，好像挺久了。可是却像是今时今日才知道事实，他原来是这样的人。

我一直以为，他是一个正人君子，好好先生，百分百情人。尽管以前发生这么多事，我还是相信的。

我猛然发现，一直以来，我认为的友情是不值钱的，更从来没有看过一个比他更践踏友情和感情的人。

为他伤害的人感到不值

为自己的愚蠢感到愚蠢

我们终究回到“童言无忌”时说的那番话，

“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”

not impressed. by ur talent, looks and charisma.

but shocked, at ur total lack of character.

我上了一堂宝贵的课。

我很久没有下笔写点东西了。有时候，生活的步伐很快，快到我连停下来思考的时间都没有。

我。。毕业了。

thanx to all who cheered for me, thanx to my cg, thanx to meiyan, jeanie and xuan, thanx to weijian, ken, yang hong and ming xun, and thanx to sot team 19.

奇怪的是，我并没有伤感的感觉。当然不是因为我没有感觉，认识我的人都知道，我是个感情富裕的人。哈哈。可是，这次没有那种。。oh i m going to miss u.

反而觉得，something awaits me.

对，就是这种感觉。

很开心看到我撒的种子在成长，收割的时间快到了。

我正式开学了。

我的最后一天

再过几个小时，我们就要毕业了。 真的要毕业了。

4个月又14天，酸甜苦辣，我们熬过了。

喜欢dr jeff 所说的，我们像是停在码头的船只，等着要离开港口。

那天我看着录影，心中有万分不舍。

这个港口是我的避风港。坐在那里，看着录影，他问我，你准备好了吗？

我的回答是

prepare me Lord.

many r called, few r chosen.

updates

just some random updates.

最近忙得快疯了，而且维彪，helen不是要飞了，就是已经飞了。神学院就快要毕业了，这是我最后一个星期，好快哦。

although busy, i had a crazy time last wk at graduation dinner and hanging out with 61 peeps. these 2 weeks r very precious because it's like the last of everything. last of having all of us hanging out tog with biao n helen, last of biao, last of helen, last of sot, and last of team 19.

i think after this week, i will have withdrawal symptoms. nah jus kidding.

but frankly speaking, i really cannot imagine wad it will be like after i graduate. God i noe u will be there. i will need your grace and mercy.

God spoke to me last weekend. such a strong word. such an encounter. i love You Lord.

i think after this wk, i will be ready to emerge.

how bout u?

random

现在坐在麦当劳里，教朋友读书。(: 其实我很想念那从早到晚坐在快餐店里，读书的感觉。记得我在考‘A’水准时，我和cecilia在singpost做了一整天，那里成了我读书的地方。我觉得‘A’水准我真的还蛮努力，所以。。

这个星期应该是很忙的。。 但是现在我有一个很轻松的心情。我喜欢努力读书的感觉，我喜欢努力去做一件事的感觉。这星期五有讲道的测验，我很希望我能够考好。

不知道你们有没有发现，当我在用中文写博客时，我的思维很不清楚。哈哈。

ok, 说一些较正经的。

昨天和芳去看“不能说的秘密”，走出来的感觉，或许要用“大跌眼镜”来形容。我一直以来蛮欣赏周杰伦，却从来都不是他的忠实歌迷，特别是他的专辑风格，在我眼里，一直是一成不变。但是，很多人看了这出戏，都告诉我这出戏很棒，所以我决定去看一看。

我不能说我很喜欢这出戏，但是周杰伦在戏里显露的才华，他想出来的剧本，故事里所贯穿的主题，让你觉得他这个人不只是虚有其表，相反的，我觉得他是一个隐藏着内涵的人。(: 他成功地让我改观。

这是一部我会推荐的电影，去看吧，如果你对周杰伦的印象和我一样，你应该会对他改观。

walking ard in green hair.

green hair has great pros and cons. :)

like ur fren can recognise u from afar.

like strangers will tok to u becos of ur green hair.

like u cannot be late for class becos u r so conspicuous. really.

but i still like my green hair. go green peeps.

大三的第一个学期开始了，时间还真得过得很快。我在想，或许我要设立一个中文博客，把心情记录在里头。:)

可是我每次说了都没有做。。 那就算了吧。哈哈。

这个星期是我这学期第一次到学校去，感觉挺不一样的。觉得人与事都还是一样，但是自己的心境却完全改变了。所以，感觉是陌生的。

可是，很开心的是，这次可以上一些不同的课，我喜欢上陈老师的课！他说得很对，你在ntu，不是和人挤巴士，就是和人挤电梯，哈哈。你知道吗，我突然发现，南大真的多了好多人！现在，不管在哪一个时间搭巴士，简直挤到不行，太夸张了。你可不可以想象，我的学校的人口一直在增长。。 不喜欢挤巴士的感觉。:( 发现陈老师住在我家附近。上他的课真有趣。:)

这几个月，这几天，令我开心的是，我认识很多新朋友。yay.

如果只剩下我一个人，我一定会奋斗下去的。相信我。

我的华语变烂了，英文也变烂了。真糟糕。

futh 和 tsai 飞了。当然，他们离开的感觉和helen走的感觉不一样。只是61的人好像有点少。

我认为，futh有一个很棒的爸爸！我觉得，他是我遇过的父亲中，其中最棒的一位。他真的懂得如何教育自己的孩子，为人慷慨，有修养，晓亭欣赏他。

我知道自己有点开始语无伦次，请不要怪我。夜已深。。。

我要看“不能说的秘密”

我今天学了一个成语。“夜郎自大”

晚安咯！

getting attached

not me,haha. i noe wad u r thinking.

to So and So,

congratulations! haha. although u r confused, i can sense love is in the air.

(:

on another note, everybody seems to be getting attached nowadays. now u readers, dun tag on this comment. haha. i noe wad u gonna say.

once again, i feel it is a priveilege to live life with our discipler.

thank you for this priveilege. to be discipled.

that my values can be challenged, attitude fine-tuned, and character developed.

some things are simply caught, she said.

and yes i will learn.

i want to go up to the next level.

what xiaoting has been doing

i m still doing this now! haaha.

my call from you

was actually feeling not so happy about some stuff.

but when i came and saw the pictures, i feel my spirit lifting up.

and i remember my call.

your call took me o'er

to raise up a new generation of young pple, who will love God wholeheartedly, love pple fervently, who will lay down their lives for the kingdom.

my greatest honour will always be
to serve my Lord and king

God of my forever
God of my youth
God of my all

it is a priveilege.

i want to raise up disciples. that these i see will become world shakers, history makers.

use me teach me guide me.

discipleship

pst kong taught on discipleship on thurs. i jus feel like blogging more on it.

he said,

it's when we live lives with our discipler, that is when..

your values are challenged.
your attitude is fine-tuned.
and character developed.

but to learn, you first must want to be taught.

and to be discipled, you must personally avail urself to ur discipler.

obedience is an action.
submission is an attitude.

that no matter wad happens, i will always honour my leader and not be rude to them.

when pst taught that, i was so so so impacted.

it's not that i have nv heard it before.. but.. the importance of discipleship.

the importance of having a right attitude.

pst kept on reiterating this point.

that ur attitude is so impt.

and that 1.5 hours really changed my life.

and after that session, i asked myself..

have i been a good disciple?

and can i raise up strong disciples for God?

a disciple is a trained worker with a great attitude.

my desire.. is that i can learn how to make disciples,

and that i will raise up disciples, ppl who r willing to be taught, who have a great attitude, who r broken and desire to do great things for God.

so that we can take this Gospel to the four corners of this world.

God use me, teach me, guide me.

not feeling well

recently, i have been falling sick quite abit which is bad. but i seldom let my sickness get to me and defeat me totally, jus like how i m now. i m still gonna write my sermons, brace myself, and go to sch tml.

we had a powerful powerful session with pst kong this morning. n i m so glad that in spite of my circumstances, i was there. really. i think this is a lesson that would change my life.

God.

i want to be a disciple so that i can be a disciple maker.

and that is just such a desire within me, to see more, do more, for the kingdom.

create in me a new heart Lord.

God is looking.. for that one man, one woman, who will avail himself/herself to Him. to be discipled, and to change the world.

i pray i will be found faithful.

many r called, few r chosen, even lesser will be found faithful.

let me be that one.

about sun

love her. she's doing amazing things all throughout the world.

登上了世界的舞台。我们以你为荣。

check this out.

www.wretch.cc/blog/helloSUN

we r proud of u. no doubt of that.

人生中的乐趣，有时来自那微不足道的小事。

就像

吃板面时让我有幸福的感觉。