the evenings

it’s almost impossible that i am home during the evening.

and all the more i really treasure it.

i think i needed the rest. the extra sleep. i din know i was that tired and that unwell!

appreciated the little freed up time to rest.

:)

monday blues.

er it’s Monday.

why do they call it Monday blues, and not pinks, or reds or purples?

Better still blacks. LOL.

and i woke up at 830.

i don’t know y.

it’s just a natural thing to be up.

and i had the weirdest dream. that felt so real.

it was a murder case. lol.

it was as weird as the one abt my cousin. but weirder.

goodness.

now i dunno wad i should do.

it’s too early for a Monday!

the case of the missing iphone

because i am so unwilling to repeat my story for 1,000,000 times, i have decided to tell u the story.

i call it. the case of the missing iphone.

for ur information, i did not just change my phone.

yes i belong to the berry clan now, because i lost my iphone.

and so here the story goes.

On Sunday, my cg went to tamp mac for fellowship, and i went to the toilet, holding only my iphone.

i left it on the ledge above the toilet bowl (i always do that and always rem to take. but now i have a phobia)

and i walked out w/o taking my phone.

while i was washing my hand, due to the small size of the toilet, a lady opened the door and bumped into me.

and i walked out, and was searching my bag for my phone, and din find it.

i turned ard facing the toilet, thinking, oh no i left it there!

i saw the lady walk out, and i thot, would she have taken the phone. the next thought was, no la she seems too nice.

and she looked at me in the eye and walked out of MacDonalds.

i ran to the toilet and could not find it, and still not believing that she took it, i ran back to my bag and really could not find it. and realised, yes she took it.

dun ask me y am i so naive. i dunno.

and the funniest thing was, we ran all ard tamp looking for the lady in pink.

and we could not find her.

my member called my phone, and it was in the lady’s bag and she accidentally picked it up. as in she din press it, but it was picked up.

and thus, we could hear her walking, stopping, crossing the road, taking the bus and going home and talking to her family member abt the phone.

before my phone was switched off, or maybe it died cos of low batt.

now after hearing this sad story, could u bow ur head tog with me, and observe a moment of silence for my apple.

and also say a silent prayer, that it might miraculously come back to me.

thank you.

难过的一天

亲爱的，

你陪伴了我6个月，183 天，4392个小时。

这时间说长不长，说短不短。

认识你之前，我从不知道苹果的魔力。我们的遇见也是一种巧合。

但是，不知不觉，我渐渐地爱上了你。

你让我和同样拥有苹果的朋友，多了一份亲切与亲密感。

我喜欢你的触感，用你来传简讯，多了一份舒适。

喜欢你，记载着我和朋友之间那无数的简讯和沟通，一按，就可看到我过去的点滴。

你的魅力在哪里？我不知道。

我记得神学院开始时，你陪伴着我，让我每天早上都看着你读箴言。

我记得难过的时候，我就会把所有的情绪都打到你里面。你仿佛收藏了我无数的情感和发泄。这半年来的阳光和风雨，是你陪我一一度过。

我记得，坐在车上无聊时，你里面无数的歌曲，总是让我不自觉的微笑。记得昨天还刚从你那里听到耀珊的《你的肩膀》，情不自禁的跟着哼了起来。

我记得，在健身房快要放弃的那一刻，都是依靠着你撑下去的。

每当队伍很长，巴士迟迟不来，都是你。

今天早上，听了牧师所说的，也都记录在你里面。我的感动。

我从来没有发现，你对我是多么的重要，直到失去的那一刻开始。

像是心里，多了一个洞。

不知道是因为今天心情早就很低落，还是我真的如此喜欢你，但是，我只想要记念这183 天。

再见了苹果，我已跨入黑梅的时代。

似乎是被迫的。

我想念苹果。

我多么希望，当我今晚闭上眼睛时，明天早上，会听到你，再一次呼唤我起床。

it so reminded me.

why i m doing wad i am doing.

bringing me back to the basics. basics.

in spite of my tiredness, i love it.

pst said, some lost the will to fight.

help me to fight on, and keep on keeping on.

morning prayer was great.

was really tired in the few days, due to the lack of rest last week,

but after overcoming ur physical flesh, u have the life of God flowing thru u.

though physically, i’m still really tired.

inspiration

she has always been my inspiration.

including today.

if there is ath i want, i want this.

not settling for anything than His best, for my life.

sheer bliss.

萧亚轩的新歌《倒数》

怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌 歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默 你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麼处处在意我
越害怕伤害我 我感觉越难受
你不懂 我没你想象脆弱
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 知道你的爱 你确定不是我
下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我 真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著 越加速疏远了
别触碰 我在深藏的笑容
热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久 不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 值得你的爱 你确定不是我
是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动 直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你 眼泪突然夺眶而出 快要不能自己
难 很困难 再这样说的多快乐

just do it

i never really understood, why is nike’s slogan just do it.

but these 2 days, especially today, i am starting to comprehend.

when u wake up with an aching body, lacking sleep, and all u want is that half an hr more of sleep, all that u can tell urself, is to get up and just do it.

which i did. to do it for one day is something. but 3 days running is no joke.

my legs r now aching like crazy, but i am happy.

becos, i chose to.

just do it. :)

dong’s sms encouraged me a lot. when he said, the results will be amazing. i m hanging on that! it had better be worth it.

this morning i sat on my bed and asked myself, if u believe nothing is impossible, why do u not believe, this is possible too?

ya man. y not.

CHIONG XIAO TING.

YOU CAN DO IT.

JUST DO IT.

i like

i like. people with depth.

i like. people who think.

i like. taking bus. esp bus 24.

i like. being there for devotion.

i like. things that trigger me to think.

i heart.

wake me up when September ends

september has ended.

习惯

是不是

只是

一种习惯

还是由衷而发

的

感觉

falling in love

a fren just told me.

when u fall in love, u will start to understand how much God loves you.

whatever that u r feeling, the joy, the pain, the anticipation, is exactly what God feels towards you.

wow.

friends

touched by a friend who bothered to call from a faraway land, just to ask how i am doing.

touched by the concern, and the friendship shared between us both.

touched by friends who bothered to encourage me, and just be there for me.

heard a sad story, and pray hard that none of my friendships will end up like that.

thank God for friends. they make the world of a difference in my life.

i want patience, and i want it now

i was reminded, that how somewhere along the line, God dropped this word in my heart, and told me, this was a yr of learning to be patient.

there are so many times that i was so upset i felt like pulling out my hair, or screaming at the top of my lungs.

and it is always ppl that drive me up the wall. i know. tell me about it.

how interesting we want patience, and we want it now.

i’m still feeling like pulling out my hair, and screaming at the top of my lungs.

can only keep telling myself. chill ah xiaoting. chill.

to quote kt, or whoever that it is, take a chill pill.

urgghhhh.

sidenote: when i’m really exceptionally silent, it must be because i have sth really impt on my mind, or i’m feeling really urgh on the inside. and i’m not talking. just in case, the moment i open my mouth, i blow up.

Fancy Free

there is something really special about this MV i feel.

totally can identify with what Sun is saying, this fantasy and amusement park atmosphere.

I love the out of the world feeling, the fantasy theme, and that willy wonka feel in some of sun’s costumes. :)

love it.

rantings

my rantings about the last few days.

a lot of thoughts running thru my mind regarding many areas of my life and ministry.

what that really blessed me was the privilege to be there listening to the man of God.

to whom will we go? you have the words of eternal life.

i heart my leaders.

leadership is all about modelling. u can preach anything u want, but at the end of the day, u r the message.

we are made up of body, soul and spirit. we cannot just focus on one aspect.

you need to be happy. Be happy.

for some reason, i was so impacted by the msg on Sunday.

it has been a while.

it was really like.. suddenly the Lord came and touched me, and it changed me. I din even know what happened, but suddenly i was hit by the presence of God in that room, and it was only me and Him.

He sees, He knows, He understands.

skipping to sth else.

have been telling a few ppl, how blessed I m to have ldrs in my life.

i am under a covering.

and honestly, i love that openness and transparency.

i love being able to share everything that is in my heart, and never having to try to be someone else.

i love the fact that my ldr knows me, believes in me and loves me.

and i pray, i will be as much to my ppl.

come back for more.. on our miniature cg outing… and more!

SUN's latest single Fancy Free!

Sun’s latest single from her album is out!

I heard the song yest. It is really really good!

Sun will be on live chat with us tomorrow (18 Sept) 11 to 1130pm!

We can watch her live by logging on to www.facebook.com/sunhomusic!

If you have any questions for Sun, u can send them in right now through twitter @mynameissun and she will answer them tomorrow!!!

How cool eh…

I am so excited to hear her new song, and watch her MV, and not to mention, see her live!!!

Ahhhhhhhh.

on love

we just had a devotion with Pst tan that blew me away completely.

i was so touched by the word.

i cannot tell u how much i feel, and how thankful i m for the word.

and how i really need it, and how God spoke to me.

He does see and He does know. thank You Lord.

as u can tell, many things happened these few things that did affect me in some ways.

it has been a while.

and all these things brought me back to some self-evaluation of myself and my life too.

i dunno how i allowed things to evolve into what it is like, but it did saddened me greatly.

some things that pst tan said that hit me.

Jesus loved them till the end. and the moment u decide to love till the end, the devil showed up.

it’s not going to be easy, but whoever that is forgiven much also loves much.

because of how much God loves u, r u willing to love in the same way, in spite of all its difficulties?

and at the end of the day, i cried and told God, that i am sorry for the times that i failed to love, and the times that i became judgmental.

and in spite of all my weaknesses as a ldr, He still chose me.

and the Lord asked me, if i would be willing,

to love them till the end?

and after that i was reading kt’s blog. and i cried like crazy.

what a word. what a revelation. what an encounter.

we love, because He first loved us.

and because He loved them (and us) till the end, we can love them till the end.

things that make my day

i love Mondays!

Haha.

I love the fact that I can sleep as late as i want on Sun night, and yest i watched the movie Keeping Mum. and realised that i watched it before. but it’s ok, i really did enjoy it.

and i love the fact that 我可以睡到自然醒。:)

check out some stuff, new phones, went to give BS, and met my family for dinner. It’s such a fulfilling day!

I had a lot of fun with my family today; it’s seldom that we get a chance like that. hopefully i will get to upload pics soon.

one last thing that i want to say, which i always forget.

you know i have this real adorable baby girl who lives next door, and she is the sweetest thing!

every day when i m going out, she will run to the door and smile at me! and when i m leaving, she will look a little sad and wave bye.

u know how endearing is that? every morning her smile makes my day.

one day i will post up her pic.

haha.

bye peeps!

LOYALTY

Ruth 1:16-17

But Ruth said:
      “ Entreat me not to leave you,
Or to turn back from following after you;
      For wherever you go, I will go;
      And wherever you lodge, I will lodge;
      Your people shall be my people,
      And your God, my God.

Where you die, I will die,
      And there will I be buried.
      The LORD do so to me, and more also,
      If anything but death parts you and me.”

who will be found faithful. and loyal. till the end?