i feel like unloading everything out here, but i cant. but i feel kinda suffocated with everything in me. i need to unwind everything that is within me. i felt like i woke up being whacked by the devil left right up down centre. sometimes i feel like telling God i dun feel like playing anymore. sometimes xiaoting feels like throwing in the towel. sometimes i jus cant seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. sometimes i jus dun feel like being strong. sometimes i jus need a fren, with skin on. sometimes i feel like lying in bed n stare at my ceiling and jus let the world rotate without touching me. sometimes i jus cant muster enough faith to do wad i need to do. oh sometimes sometimes

great men n women r not those who do not have lousy days, but those that despite their lousy days and feelings and circumstances, they held on the God, held on to their faith. den i pray i will one day be a great woman of God. gee.