昨天在和fang讲话，讲到很迟，but i felt it was a fruitful conversation. :)

正好在想，前一阵子，我真的还蛮失落的。

或许有时候，得到的，和预期的不一样，会让人有种莫名的失落感。

那段时期我很不开心，不是因为你所做的事情，而是我非常惊讶，为什么这么快，就有人能代替我们在你心目中的位子？

我并不介意你交朋友。。但是，那种被人替代的滋味，很不好受。直到今天，我还是这么觉得的。

我一直觉得联络少了，沟通少了，或许你没有察觉吧，但我总是认为，有人慢慢的，在你的生命中，取代了我们。

或许我太严格，太苛刻了。我也不知道。但是，总有一种失落感。

你知道吗？如果今天换成是别人，我早就走了。但是我很珍惜我们的友谊，很珍惜我们之间的共同回忆，才会按捺住这种心情，继续和你联络。

one thing that i really dun like, is that sth matters to me, more than it matters to u. really, if it was somebody else, i would have withdrawn. but becos it is you. n you have pressed into my life. and for that, i m willing to press in once more. but i dunno for how long.

i jus hope, things can go back to what it is before. can it?

dear fren,

somebody told me, it's just a passing phase. n i certainly do hope so. i did mention to u, that things seem to be "less happening" around us then before, and it seems like u r more willing, and happier spending time with ur new found frens. i really dun mind. but like wad i said, i felt like i m being replaced. yes, u have issues and problems to settle, i know that, and i really dun mind that. i wish u will know that. but i m just sad that u dun seem to turn to us anymore, and u dun seem to treasure us as much as before. have we become less impt? i suddenly feel so.

i dun wan to be emo in dealing with this issue, but i m disappointed, and that is a fact. i dun wan to tell u, becos i dunno what u will think and how it will affect u, and i dun wan u to be affected. but that, my fren, cannot change the fact that i m really kinda sad about this whole thing. it seems like we lost that transparency and closeness, but i do hope we can get it back. and i wish, u will press into my life once more, just like how u did, right from the beginning.

love,
xiaoting