想好好的写一些东西。其实，很不喜欢的一件事，就是自己一直在做某件事情，却没有时间去思考自己的人生，这一点，或许跟某人很像吧。

最近很不喜欢思考，因为很讨厌自己在思考的当儿，带来的烦恼。要想的事情太多，越想会越烦，但是这样会导致我开始出现迟钝的状况。没有啦，是开玩笑的，但是如果在停止思考字的生活，应该真的会变笨吧。

talking to terence yest, and he said he totally agreed that i have become less D over the yrs and more I. I probably like myself more for the fact that I have become less D, becos i used to be really demanding and everything. But i really dun like myself for being more I. I can stand ppl being noisy but I can't stand myself being noisy. Wad an irony huh. U must be thinking.. xiaoting r u sure? becos i talk so much all the time. ya but sometimes i jus wish i really can talk less. hur.

I like myself with more 人情味, but i dislike the fact that i think i have become less disciplined over the years and giving myself more room for errors and mistakes. I dun like the fact that I have become less a thinker and more an enjoyer.

I think.. i need to do something more productive with my life.

The last semester, i pushed myself to the max, becos i jus wanted to stretch myself.

But this sem, after SOT, i thot i totally lost my momentum. I hoped i have not lost my cutting edge,

though more I, i want to retain my D-ness still. really. I can't stand low productivity and the wasting of one's life. I love people. but I want to do something more with my life. REALLY.

so i hope and pray I will get down to sth soon. that after this exams, i will make full use of my life. this has been a sem of rest n fun n what's not, and i think, it's time to get down to WORK.

pst once said, we all live to work u noe, and i need to get myself down to doing it.

XIAOTING. quit moping ard ur life.