jus recently, certain events made me realise how good God has been to me.

i discovered that all along since young, becos i grew up in church, i have always been living in a protected environment. it is not a bad thing really. but yet God has prepared me for the world. when i stepped in, recently especially, den did i realise things can get pretty ugly. i think pst robb said, if u r pretty, but ur character is ugly, den u become pretty ugly. haah. i think that is funny.

but i realise that the world out there is really dark. i cant imagine working in a place with a lot of politics and strife. i have been protected. but i think i m learning. but i still havent decided wad i wan to do next time. Daddy u will lead me.

i m growing up. i dun wan to. i said it before, it feels like i m being forced to grow up. but i jus got to learn to accept every season and every opportunity that comes my way.

isn't it scary to relate to people u dun really know and having to trust them knowing that at the end of the day they can hurt u? that is y i love the hse of God. becos things r jus so uncertain out there. u dun really know who u can trust and who u can believe and u dun really know wad is going on in their minds isn't it? they may be saying one thing but meaning another. saying something and thinking another. God u r jus amazing. becos u love all these people!