总觉得现在要带上的帽子，好像太大，太不适合我了。我常常会这么做。 我会因为害怕，害怕失败，害怕做不到，而宁可守在安全区里。应该是我跟天上的爸爸说了什么，突然间我需要做的事都需要我 step out.

God i have always been scared. scared that i cant do it. scared that i m not good enough. n i guess it is enough. it is time to get out of these silly thoughts. becos. i will nv say i cant becos u say u can.

but Lord, it is really this period of time that i need u. i jus simply cant do it without u. i cant live without u, serve without u, lead without u. n Lord i need u to be here. Holy Spirit i dun wan to do it on my own. n i m so afraid one day u will leave me powerless. Holy Spirit dun. God.. dun take away the Holy Spirit away from me. you said, apart from me, u can do nothing. i noe. i noe. i cant do anything without u.