i really feel terrible. usually i m really not like that, but i m really overwhelmed by it all. to tell the truth, i dunno y. i feel battle-weary. yes J said that i m xiaoting, n somehow i will walk thru all these. but i really really feel terrible. i feel so bad i feel like i m exploding on the inside.

it's the burden. it's not anger.

i m only one person.

wad can i do. wad must i do.

i wish i could do sth, to get rid of this awful feeling inside of it.

i really hate it n dread it. no kidding.

someone help me pls?

stand with me i pray.