i was supposed to have gone out, but someone was very efficient and in the end i dun need to.

i m feeling bammed. fatigue.

i have muscleaches on my arms, shoulders, back, thighs and calves. haha.

so kua zhang right? i know.

3 days of OBS. i felt like it was ok yest. but totally, i m officially cui-ed.

to update, the night before OBS, i was trying to settle everything and pack. In the end, i slept at 430 am before waking up at 630 am to leave home and go for OBS. gosh. i was telling myself xiaoting u r mad. it's supposed to be xiong to the max and u r like almost dead already.

but amazingly, i survived. haha.

and God was good, cos on the first day, we just had a lot of team activities, which were not very strenous. and then we went out to learn kayaking, with the capsize drills and stuff. That was abt the most tiring thing we did. i thot we would end early la, but we were discussing some stuff for the next day, so i slept at 12 plus, woke up at 6am, 2nd day into OBS, and i have already lost my voice.

i m like super scared of heights, but then on the 2nd day, we had to do the high elements. honestly, cos i had already braced myself for it, it went ok. n it really helped when the ppl down there were cheering n telling u exactly wad to do. i love my team. haha. they were really really funny and fun to be with. we had uncountable fun moments. and i did go up the high elements. i wanted to try the really really high one, but it rained, so that really dampened our mood.

and after that, it was trekking. haha. we were supposed to walk to the other side of ubin. but acty, it was not that tiring, n we kept on taking photos along the way!!! we were like really enjoying ourselves n having fun.. and then we camped by the beach, and i was saboed into being one of the leaders for our sea expetition.

we were supposed to trek back to OBS camp, then change and kayak round ubin.

and we were supposed to leave our campsite at 6 plus, but they "turned us out" at 3am to go back to camp. n we only got 3 hrs of slp?? but it was ok la.

seriously, i thot that i will die in the sea or sth. haha. cos i just cannot make it!!!! but amazingly, i picked a super super good partner, who is a 2-star kayaker, and basically, he was the one paddling most of the way. n i learnt! not to kayak with my arm strength, but also with my back strength, and becos of my very zai partner, i had a lot of fun seriously.

to tell the truth, i learned to love the outdoors. esp during the kayaking. the sky was really pretty, the air was fresh, the water was cool and it was great fun. i felt bad cos most of the ppl really like pushed on thru, but for me, it was relaxing, and seriously, i m very very appreciative of my partner.

wad did i take back from OBS? our trainer asked us.

i m just glad i made it. n i realised, whether is it physically, mentally, spiritually, when i want to, it can be done. n i m just glad.

it was fun getting to know these ppl. different, fun. overall, i just had a lot of fun. haha. we really did a lot of nonsensical things, and i'm looking forward to the minor.

on another note,

sometimes i really feel it's inadequate. and the word came at such a time, and i cried and i cried and i cried. i really want to believe u for sth greater, and i pray, we would see that coming to pass.

would u believe? that it can be done. that there is something greater in store.

it has been burning in me.

that there must be something more.