in case u din noe, i m a lover of biographies. i love to read bout how people's lives unfold, for deep within me i m always amazed by what man can achieve -- when they put their mind to it.
i love Benny Hinn's book -- Good morning Holy Spirit. it is one of the best books i ever read. and recently, i jus started embarking on kathryn kuhlman's biography. she is an amazing woman. i m not going to touch on that, but sth touched me deeply from the book.
love is my motivator. the book talks about how miss kuhlman will cry when she sees how God touches and mends lives. u noe y she is so successful in her ministry? becos love is her motivator. she is so broken. she loves the Holy Spirit so much and she loves people.
God uses imperfect people. no matter how u r like, as long as u love Him and want Him, and u love the Holy Spirit, and u r willing to pay the price, nothing is impossible for u.
break me Lord..
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
sth larger than myself
tdy i went to chec. a long time in many months. i enjoyed my days there. went to pick up my translation stuff. n u noe wad? i felt like sth within me was turned on. like God flicking a switch within me. this is wad i m supposed to be living for.
when i was younger, i used to think that i cant do much n there is only so much i can do for God. but now i realise, i m older, and i m 20. jus one or two days ago, i said, i feel like i m being forced to grow up. Part of me still wants to be that little HC ger in that little brown uniform.
suddenly i feel like my eyes opened.
come on i got to stop thinking that way. i got to stop living in the past. he who dwells in the past has no future. and it is no use people telling me since i m young, ting u have a great destiny in God.
you noe wad? i know i have a great destiny in God. I know that God has called me for sth greater. I know he wants me to go to china. i know he has called me for sth larger than myself. n i wan to live it. i dun wan to stay in that little small girl, with no dreams no visions, jus trying to live a day at a time.
ting rise up and grow up! come on live out ur destiny in God! stop living in ur comfort zone! stop being so limited! come on wun u do sth great for God today???
i wan to live for china. i wan to go for missions. i wan to preach the gospel. i wan to impact thousands and thousands of lives out there. i wan to do sth great for God!
think big act big talk big cos u have a BIG GOD!
if i have 8 hours to chop down the tree, i will spend 6 sharpening my axe.
when i was younger, i used to think that i cant do much n there is only so much i can do for God. but now i realise, i m older, and i m 20. jus one or two days ago, i said, i feel like i m being forced to grow up. Part of me still wants to be that little HC ger in that little brown uniform.
suddenly i feel like my eyes opened.
come on i got to stop thinking that way. i got to stop living in the past. he who dwells in the past has no future. and it is no use people telling me since i m young, ting u have a great destiny in God.
you noe wad? i know i have a great destiny in God. I know that God has called me for sth greater. I know he wants me to go to china. i know he has called me for sth larger than myself. n i wan to live it. i dun wan to stay in that little small girl, with no dreams no visions, jus trying to live a day at a time.
ting rise up and grow up! come on live out ur destiny in God! stop living in ur comfort zone! stop being so limited! come on wun u do sth great for God today???
i wan to live for china. i wan to go for missions. i wan to preach the gospel. i wan to impact thousands and thousands of lives out there. i wan to do sth great for God!
think big act big talk big cos u have a BIG GOD!
if i have 8 hours to chop down the tree, i will spend 6 sharpening my axe.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
jus recently, certain events made me realise how good God has been to me.
i discovered that all along since young, becos i grew up in church, i have always been living in a protected environment. it is not a bad thing really. but yet God has prepared me for the world. when i stepped in, recently especially, den did i realise things can get pretty ugly. i think pst robb said, if u r pretty, but ur character is ugly, den u become pretty ugly. haah. i think that is funny.
but i realise that the world out there is really dark. i cant imagine working in a place with a lot of politics and strife. i have been protected. but i think i m learning. but i still havent decided wad i wan to do next time. Daddy u will lead me.
i m growing up. i dun wan to. i said it before, it feels like i m being forced to grow up. but i jus got to learn to accept every season and every opportunity that comes my way.
isn't it scary to relate to people u dun really know and having to trust them knowing that at the end of the day they can hurt u? that is y i love the hse of God. becos things r jus so uncertain out there. u dun really know who u can trust and who u can believe and u dun really know wad is going on in their minds isn't it? they may be saying one thing but meaning another. saying something and thinking another. God u r jus amazing. becos u love all these people!
i discovered that all along since young, becos i grew up in church, i have always been living in a protected environment. it is not a bad thing really. but yet God has prepared me for the world. when i stepped in, recently especially, den did i realise things can get pretty ugly. i think pst robb said, if u r pretty, but ur character is ugly, den u become pretty ugly. haah. i think that is funny.
but i realise that the world out there is really dark. i cant imagine working in a place with a lot of politics and strife. i have been protected. but i think i m learning. but i still havent decided wad i wan to do next time. Daddy u will lead me.
i m growing up. i dun wan to. i said it before, it feels like i m being forced to grow up. but i jus got to learn to accept every season and every opportunity that comes my way.
isn't it scary to relate to people u dun really know and having to trust them knowing that at the end of the day they can hurt u? that is y i love the hse of God. becos things r jus so uncertain out there. u dun really know who u can trust and who u can believe and u dun really know wad is going on in their minds isn't it? they may be saying one thing but meaning another. saying something and thinking another. God u r jus amazing. becos u love all these people!
Friday, July 07, 2006
trapped in the lift.
nope, not me. i was not the one who was trapped.
when i was walking home tdy, these 2 china guys were trapped in the lift while they were moving hse. n guess wad? in half an hour, i saw really amusing things i nv thot i will see.
we called the lift maintenance to come n they took a really long time. half an hour?
in the half an hour that we were waiting, the 2 interesting guys were really panicky. they told us they could not breathe.. and they were really, in simple words, gan cheong. really gan cheong. and i realised they were scared. really scared.
people r afraid to die arent they?
i m filled. to the brim. a bit stressed. but i noe i can. i jus need Him.
recently was a bit stressed. ken n weijian will testify to that. cos i talked non stop while eating prata with them. n seriously people, dun go to simpang bedok! there is really nth there. but my dear boys (ken n weijian), i wan u all to noe.. u guys have been fantastic. and u have been a blessing in my life much more than u can imagine. i love every dinner and supper with u guys.
n recently i have silly dreams. since last sat. i dreamed about pastor. dreamed about MAKING PHONE CALLS. dreamed about my cg members. dreamed about germany n italy match! i had my own game in my dreams. dreamed about my boss. (it was not the nicest dream, yes boss i dreamed about u).
i need so much more of You.
when i was walking home tdy, these 2 china guys were trapped in the lift while they were moving hse. n guess wad? in half an hour, i saw really amusing things i nv thot i will see.
we called the lift maintenance to come n they took a really long time. half an hour?
in the half an hour that we were waiting, the 2 interesting guys were really panicky. they told us they could not breathe.. and they were really, in simple words, gan cheong. really gan cheong. and i realised they were scared. really scared.
people r afraid to die arent they?
i m filled. to the brim. a bit stressed. but i noe i can. i jus need Him.
recently was a bit stressed. ken n weijian will testify to that. cos i talked non stop while eating prata with them. n seriously people, dun go to simpang bedok! there is really nth there. but my dear boys (ken n weijian), i wan u all to noe.. u guys have been fantastic. and u have been a blessing in my life much more than u can imagine. i love every dinner and supper with u guys.
n recently i have silly dreams. since last sat. i dreamed about pastor. dreamed about MAKING PHONE CALLS. dreamed about my cg members. dreamed about germany n italy match! i had my own game in my dreams. dreamed about my boss. (it was not the nicest dream, yes boss i dreamed about u).
i need so much more of You.
trapped in the lift.
nope, not me. i was not the one who was trapped.
when i was walking home tdy, these 2 china guys were trapped in the lift while they were moving hse. n guess wad? in half an hour, i saw really amusing things i nv thot i will see.
we called the lift maintenance to come n they took a really long time. half an hour?
in the half an hour that we were waiting, the 2 interesting guys were really panicky. they told us they could not breathe.. and they were really, in simple words, gan cheong. really gan cheong. and i realised they were scared. really scared.
people r afraid to die arent they?
i m filled. to the brim. a bit stressed. but i noe i can. i jus need Him.
recently was a bit stressed. ken n weijian will testify to that. cos i talked non stop while eating prata with them. n seriously people, dun go to simpang bedok! there is really nth there. but my dear boys (ken n weijian), i wan u all to noe.. u guys have been fantastic. and u have been a blessing in my life much more than u can imagine. i love every dinner and supper with u guys.
n recently i have silly dreams. since last sat. i dreamed about pastor. dreamed about MAKING PHONE CALLS. dreamed about my cg members. dreamed about germany n italy match! i had my own game in my dreams. dreamed about my boss. (it was not the nicest dream, yes boss i dreamed about u).
i need so much more of You.
when i was walking home tdy, these 2 china guys were trapped in the lift while they were moving hse. n guess wad? in half an hour, i saw really amusing things i nv thot i will see.
we called the lift maintenance to come n they took a really long time. half an hour?
in the half an hour that we were waiting, the 2 interesting guys were really panicky. they told us they could not breathe.. and they were really, in simple words, gan cheong. really gan cheong. and i realised they were scared. really scared.
people r afraid to die arent they?
i m filled. to the brim. a bit stressed. but i noe i can. i jus need Him.
recently was a bit stressed. ken n weijian will testify to that. cos i talked non stop while eating prata with them. n seriously people, dun go to simpang bedok! there is really nth there. but my dear boys (ken n weijian), i wan u all to noe.. u guys have been fantastic. and u have been a blessing in my life much more than u can imagine. i love every dinner and supper with u guys.
n recently i have silly dreams. since last sat. i dreamed about pastor. dreamed about MAKING PHONE CALLS. dreamed about my cg members. dreamed about germany n italy match! i had my own game in my dreams. dreamed about my boss. (it was not the nicest dream, yes boss i dreamed about u).
i need so much more of You.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
good morning Lord!
i woke up at 6 plus am tdy! man i love it. i really like waking up at this time. cos i feel that in the morning it is really beautiful. if i have time before i go work i shall pack up my room beautifully n keep it in a good state. i realise that having a neat room makes ur moods better. really. at least for me.
昨天走路回家时，脑子里有许多要写出来的感觉。这几天感触很多。
星期天我又回到了east coast.
我真的爱上了骑脚踏车。
我喜欢在车上驰骋的感觉
我喜欢逆风而行，风打在脸上的感觉。
我喜欢沿海而飞的感觉。（：
i will be back there again soon. cant resist it.
之后和一个老朋友见面，感觉真好。ahma我好爱你！看到你真得让我没有压力，虽然我们俩要烦恼的事有很多，但是就聚在一起说话，谈心，就是很棒的一件事。
我从parkway走路回家。有人说这是极度疯狂的举动。会吗？对我而言，它再普遍不过了。
我是一个很喜欢走路的人。
非常喜欢可以慢慢地走，自由的走。
那晚十点多。
走在路上，路上没什么人，电话刚好又没电。
一个人走着，祈祷着，和他说话着。
好美妙的感觉。
我喜欢他赐给我的这双脚。
因为他们会带我走到全世界。
他们不只会走在小岛国里，
他们也会带我踏上大陆的土地。
他们会带我走上世界各地，走到天涯海角。
直到地极。直到地极。
他们更会带我走过一生的风与浪，晴天和雨天。
我会一直走下去。keep walking.
我喜欢守承诺的人。喜欢守承诺的男人。所以我好爱他。
昨天走路回家时，脑子里有许多要写出来的感觉。这几天感触很多。
星期天我又回到了east coast.
我真的爱上了骑脚踏车。
我喜欢在车上驰骋的感觉
我喜欢逆风而行，风打在脸上的感觉。
我喜欢沿海而飞的感觉。（：
i will be back there again soon. cant resist it.
之后和一个老朋友见面，感觉真好。ahma我好爱你！看到你真得让我没有压力，虽然我们俩要烦恼的事有很多，但是就聚在一起说话，谈心，就是很棒的一件事。
我从parkway走路回家。有人说这是极度疯狂的举动。会吗？对我而言，它再普遍不过了。
我是一个很喜欢走路的人。
非常喜欢可以慢慢地走，自由的走。
那晚十点多。
走在路上，路上没什么人，电话刚好又没电。
一个人走着，祈祷着，和他说话着。
好美妙的感觉。
我喜欢他赐给我的这双脚。
因为他们会带我走到全世界。
他们不只会走在小岛国里，
他们也会带我踏上大陆的土地。
他们会带我走上世界各地，走到天涯海角。
直到地极。直到地极。
他们更会带我走过一生的风与浪，晴天和雨天。
我会一直走下去。keep walking.
我喜欢守承诺的人。喜欢守承诺的男人。所以我好爱他。
Saturday, July 01, 2006
xiaoting
ok. n i shall do the post about myself. let's see how much i noe myself k.
i m a person who is weird. haah. weird as in i have weird ideas going on in my head n i love to do weird things. out of the world things. i can insist on eating sth every single day n really eat it. haah. i can like to eat sth very much n every day eat it. n for that, i call it 执著。我是一个很执著的人。when i have set my mind on sth, pple know, i will do it.
我是一个轻言放弃，却不容易放弃的人。haah. i always tok about giving up, but i seldom do. it is not a good thing. i shld stop that.. but probably the good thing is i only say but dun do that. i m determined and i persevere. most of the time.
i go where my heart leads me n i seldom worry bout how pple think of me. if i feel that sth is wad i wan, i will do it, no matter wad pple say. i dun like to do things to please pple. i dun like to dress to please. i love to be myself. n one of the reasons sometimes i dress weirdly becos i dun wan to come to a place in which i feel like i must fit in, and that to be accepted i mus be "normal". so i choose to be abnormal at times.
i love being myself. i dun like to be somebody pple think i shld be. not that i insist on doing my own things becos i noe many times i can be wrong. but i dun wan to be a blind follower. for wad i do, i mus noe the purpose behind the things that i do, and then i will do it well.
i love to discover. i love to know more. more about the world and all that it contains. there is so much in it! i m jus so amazed by God's creation. i m intrigued by man. not like male.. but all of human kind. we r such amazing creatures.. isnt it?
i love to lead, to inspire, to see lives change, to see myself make a difference. i love to help pple with no strings attached. haah. i jus simply love to bless in small little ways..
i m not easily satisfied. contented yes.. but satisfied, no. deep within me there is a craving n a longing for so much more. like the song says.. all of creation is longing.. for ur unveiling of power. that is how i feel within me.
and too much more that i m jus too tired to say it all.
i m a person who is weird. haah. weird as in i have weird ideas going on in my head n i love to do weird things. out of the world things. i can insist on eating sth every single day n really eat it. haah. i can like to eat sth very much n every day eat it. n for that, i call it 执著。我是一个很执著的人。when i have set my mind on sth, pple know, i will do it.
我是一个轻言放弃，却不容易放弃的人。haah. i always tok about giving up, but i seldom do. it is not a good thing. i shld stop that.. but probably the good thing is i only say but dun do that. i m determined and i persevere. most of the time.
i go where my heart leads me n i seldom worry bout how pple think of me. if i feel that sth is wad i wan, i will do it, no matter wad pple say. i dun like to do things to please pple. i dun like to dress to please. i love to be myself. n one of the reasons sometimes i dress weirdly becos i dun wan to come to a place in which i feel like i must fit in, and that to be accepted i mus be "normal". so i choose to be abnormal at times.
i love being myself. i dun like to be somebody pple think i shld be. not that i insist on doing my own things becos i noe many times i can be wrong. but i dun wan to be a blind follower. for wad i do, i mus noe the purpose behind the things that i do, and then i will do it well.
i love to discover. i love to know more. more about the world and all that it contains. there is so much in it! i m jus so amazed by God's creation. i m intrigued by man. not like male.. but all of human kind. we r such amazing creatures.. isnt it?
i love to lead, to inspire, to see lives change, to see myself make a difference. i love to help pple with no strings attached. haah. i jus simply love to bless in small little ways..
i m not easily satisfied. contented yes.. but satisfied, no. deep within me there is a craving n a longing for so much more. like the song says.. all of creation is longing.. for ur unveiling of power. that is how i feel within me.
and too much more that i m jus too tired to say it all.
总觉得和华文的距离越来越远，就是用华文来写出自己内心的感觉也有点怪怪的，真糟糕。
let's do it in english instead. man. i m just so not used to chinese. help me.
tdy was a crazy day. as usual. to describe my mood..? 歇斯底里。really.. i almost went bonkers with all the calling. seriously i dun understand how the telemarketers do it.. on wed when i had y music on and with pst kong preaching.. it was good. tdy wasnt.. nth really helped. except shredding paper in the office. i love it.
i remember chan eng did this post bout herself. i feel like doing it too. but before that let's jus write some stuff.
最近这一段时间，我让许多人看到我脆弱的一面，我把心打开了许多。这是我许久不曾做的。。 因为以前会认为，坚强留给别人，脆弱留给自己。发现到做人很累的一点是，我们总是不能把我们的心百分之百交给人，因为害怕伤害。可是最近我却违反了我自己的principle..我不知道这是好事还是坏事。
我一直在寻找， 在寻找。我还没找到。我知道我人生的方程式里一定有他，但是我不知道什么加什么会等于什么。我常常在想，许多人每天都一直在忙碌，他们到底在追求什么？而他们真的快乐吗？满足吗？
i m contented. but i m so not satisfied. my soul n spirit is crying out for more within me.
let's do it in english instead. man. i m just so not used to chinese. help me.
tdy was a crazy day. as usual. to describe my mood..? 歇斯底里。really.. i almost went bonkers with all the calling. seriously i dun understand how the telemarketers do it.. on wed when i had y music on and with pst kong preaching.. it was good. tdy wasnt.. nth really helped. except shredding paper in the office. i love it.
i remember chan eng did this post bout herself. i feel like doing it too. but before that let's jus write some stuff.
最近这一段时间，我让许多人看到我脆弱的一面，我把心打开了许多。这是我许久不曾做的。。 因为以前会认为，坚强留给别人，脆弱留给自己。发现到做人很累的一点是，我们总是不能把我们的心百分之百交给人，因为害怕伤害。可是最近我却违反了我自己的principle..我不知道这是好事还是坏事。
我一直在寻找， 在寻找。我还没找到。我知道我人生的方程式里一定有他，但是我不知道什么加什么会等于什么。我常常在想，许多人每天都一直在忙碌，他们到底在追求什么？而他们真的快乐吗？满足吗？
i m contented. but i m so not satisfied. my soul n spirit is crying out for more within me.
Friday, June 30, 2006
世界上最遥远的距离
世界上最遥远的距离
著：張小嫺
世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
"如果要为爱情加上一个期限，我希望那会是一万年。”
著：張小嫺
世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
"如果要为爱情加上一个期限，我希望那会是一万年。”
以前对蔡依琳的印象真的不是很好，总认为她跟其他新冒起的女明星没有什么分别，但是，看了上班女郎，及听了他的新专辑“舞娘”后，其实我觉得她好棒。她在台上说话，以及在跳舞唱歌时都判若两人，我真的觉得她不是一个“bimbo”。
尽管我认为像百分百这样的节目是有一些肤浅，我还是会一直看。哈哈。因为我欣赏小S的机智，而且我好喜欢大炳。但是，今天在看“有话就说”，觉得这个节目很棒。它真得让我很认真地思考一些问题，像今天，讨论的话题是服务业水准。这样的谈了一个小时后，我看到这个问题的不同层面，了解到要解决方法需要从那几方面着手。
今天是开心的一天。他让我感觉到。。 all is not lost. (: thank u Jesus. i feel like u r really good. n u r always faithful, even when we r faithless.
i m starting to stumble while using chinese. that is bad! man.. i really nd to buck up. let's start by reading. (((:
尽管我认为像百分百这样的节目是有一些肤浅，我还是会一直看。哈哈。因为我欣赏小S的机智，而且我好喜欢大炳。但是，今天在看“有话就说”，觉得这个节目很棒。它真得让我很认真地思考一些问题，像今天，讨论的话题是服务业水准。这样的谈了一个小时后，我看到这个问题的不同层面，了解到要解决方法需要从那几方面着手。
今天是开心的一天。他让我感觉到。。 all is not lost. (: thank u Jesus. i feel like u r really good. n u r always faithful, even when we r faithless.
i m starting to stumble while using chinese. that is bad! man.. i really nd to buck up. let's start by reading. (((:
Thursday, June 29, 2006
pressing in..
i m blogging again! tdy met up with the jc guys.. hey u guys r really very funny. no kidding. haah.
suddenly wad i told them really hit me.
one way that u really can grow is when u open up urself to ur leaders and share with ur leaders about ur life. i realise how true that statement is. man. i din jus teach them sth. i taught myself sth too.
when u r willing to press in into ur leader's lives, and be an armour bearer for him or her, ur life will be changed.
m i willing to lay down my life for my leader? to run the vision tog with her?
we need a strong sense of the corporate vision.
suddenly wad i told them really hit me.
one way that u really can grow is when u open up urself to ur leaders and share with ur leaders about ur life. i realise how true that statement is. man. i din jus teach them sth. i taught myself sth too.
when u r willing to press in into ur leader's lives, and be an armour bearer for him or her, ur life will be changed.
m i willing to lay down my life for my leader? to run the vision tog with her?
we need a strong sense of the corporate vision.
pressing in..
i m blogging again! tdy met up with the jc guys.. hey u guys r really very funny. no kidding. haah.
suddenly wad i told them really hit me.
one way that u really can grow is when u open up urself to ur leaders and share with ur leaders about ur life. i realise how true that statement is. man. i din jus teach them sth. i taught myself sth too.
when u r willing to press in into ur leader's lives, and be an armour bearer for him or her, ur life will be changed.
m i willing to lay down my life for my leader? to run the vision tog with her?
we need a strong sense of the corporate vision.
suddenly wad i told them really hit me.
one way that u really can grow is when u open up urself to ur leaders and share with ur leaders about ur life. i realise how true that statement is. man. i din jus teach them sth. i taught myself sth too.
when u r willing to press in into ur leader's lives, and be an armour bearer for him or her, ur life will be changed.
m i willing to lay down my life for my leader? to run the vision tog with her?
we need a strong sense of the corporate vision.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
blogging. and again.
已经有两个月没有上课了。我和华文的距离越来越远了！天啊！再过一个月就要开学了！
今天到机场送走了珊。她的baby真的好可爱好可爱。
今天的心情很棒。不要问我为什么。就好开心好开心。虽然一整天的呆在公司里，对着那1234567890的数字，不停的旋转，围绕，又没有什么进展，我的心情还是依旧的漂亮。这才叫高难度吧。
对于一个新的学期，其实心里还蛮紧张的，不禁常问自己，当初真的应该走这一条路吗？但是我并不后悔。真的。我知道这是正确的。
then give me ur anointing to do it. thank u.
i need to buck up on my chinese. study doubly hard the next sem. xiaoting u go girl! study hard hard hard hard hard. let's start in july. yay.
今天到机场送走了珊。她的baby真的好可爱好可爱。
今天的心情很棒。不要问我为什么。就好开心好开心。虽然一整天的呆在公司里，对着那1234567890的数字，不停的旋转，围绕，又没有什么进展，我的心情还是依旧的漂亮。这才叫高难度吧。
对于一个新的学期，其实心里还蛮紧张的，不禁常问自己，当初真的应该走这一条路吗？但是我并不后悔。真的。我知道这是正确的。
then give me ur anointing to do it. thank u.
i need to buck up on my chinese. study doubly hard the next sem. xiaoting u go girl! study hard hard hard hard hard. let's start in july. yay.
hilarious
i find it so hilarious. ((((: haah. i was calling the pple from my list n i found one of my pastors' names on it! somebody asked me if i called. obviously not! haah.
but it brought joy to me. n i m in such a good mood tdy. (((:
but it brought joy to me. n i m in such a good mood tdy. (((:
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
blogging
blogging is an effective way of de-stressing i firmly believe. becos i m going crazy! haah. from all the calls. ken.. i m not slacking.. in fact i think i have been working hard. so help me! haah.
tdy went cycling with weiqi n ce.. to prove terence true.. i really did fall. had a couple of scratches on my legs. sob. :( haah. but it is ok. n my silly bike was not working properly until the last half hour or so. gee. and we cycled to dhs only to be rejected by the dearest security guard.
toked to ce on sun n i was asking her if i m emotional. well we came to this conclusion that i m somewhat emotional. which i nv thot i was. but after listening, i cant help but sort of agree that perhaps i m really emotional. haah. well. probably.
God help me to be fruitful!
tdy went cycling with weiqi n ce.. to prove terence true.. i really did fall. had a couple of scratches on my legs. sob. :( haah. but it is ok. n my silly bike was not working properly until the last half hour or so. gee. and we cycled to dhs only to be rejected by the dearest security guard.
toked to ce on sun n i was asking her if i m emotional. well we came to this conclusion that i m somewhat emotional. which i nv thot i was. but after listening, i cant help but sort of agree that perhaps i m really emotional. haah. well. probably.
God help me to be fruitful!
Monday, June 26, 2006
wonderful weekend
it has been a most wonderful weekend. i love it. blogged bout my cycling on sat. on sat night, we went to music dreamer to see sun. she was absolutely gorgeous n i m seriously in love with her songs. no kidding. we had a great time! n it is such a nice place really.. (: God is a good God.
yest we had a blast too. haah. service was tremendous. i love going to the house of God. one thing i ask that i may dwell in Your hse forever. yeah man. thank u Jesus. i love ur hse.
in the evening.. we went to john's wedding! it was a beautiful beautiful beautiful wedding.. i love it! i was jus telling chan eng that i love attending weddings. it always remind me of the love of God. and it was really nice. pst kong was there. (: and john sang for lynn. it was so sweeeeetttt. haaah. and it was like laughter n tears n laughter n tears.. man.. i think every1 of us were thinking.. we want ours to be like that too! n the food was great! there was much food and they were simply yummy. and the chapel n the decor was really nice.. it is really walking down the aisle. they r such a fortunate couple.
n i really felt the love in that place. n i enjoyed the fellowship with our zone pple. God u r such a good God. n for putting such awesome pple in my life. i m so thankful.
yest we had a blast too. haah. service was tremendous. i love going to the house of God. one thing i ask that i may dwell in Your hse forever. yeah man. thank u Jesus. i love ur hse.
in the evening.. we went to john's wedding! it was a beautiful beautiful beautiful wedding.. i love it! i was jus telling chan eng that i love attending weddings. it always remind me of the love of God. and it was really nice. pst kong was there. (: and john sang for lynn. it was so sweeeeetttt. haaah. and it was like laughter n tears n laughter n tears.. man.. i think every1 of us were thinking.. we want ours to be like that too! n the food was great! there was much food and they were simply yummy. and the chapel n the decor was really nice.. it is really walking down the aisle. they r such a fortunate couple.
n i really felt the love in that place. n i enjoyed the fellowship with our zone pple. God u r such a good God. n for putting such awesome pple in my life. i m so thankful.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
cycling day!
it was such an enjoyable day! btw, i m going to say this. ken said that i m emotional.. m i? i always feel that i m not. anyway.. tdy i went cycling!! n u noe with who?? with my beloved 4 yr old nephew!! u noe sth?? kids r so adorable!! haah.
he is such a darling. i love kids. becos i love their innocence. i love their question asking.. n it reminds me this is how God made us to be. n he is such a pretty little thing. do u noe he has such LONG eyelashes tat make all the ladies in the family jealous? haah. jus kidding. but he is so cute. and when u see him riding on tht little 4 wheel thing u jus love him to bits.
but well kids r kids. we cycled for a really long time n he started getting tired n keep getting down his bike! n while waiting for his ice cream, he can acty strike up a conversation with some other kids. arent they cute??? haah.
n for those reading this, i wan u to noe... i can cycle!!!! the last time when i learned it.. i was unbalanced n stuff.. but now i can get up and get the bike going.. i can balance.. I CAN CYCLE!!!!can u believe it? i learned cycling when i m 20. haah. but now my legs n butt r hurting.. haah.
anyway i think cycling is so nice. becos u feel the wind blowing against u. i m definitely going again! east coast here i come!!
he is such a darling. i love kids. becos i love their innocence. i love their question asking.. n it reminds me this is how God made us to be. n he is such a pretty little thing. do u noe he has such LONG eyelashes tat make all the ladies in the family jealous? haah. jus kidding. but he is so cute. and when u see him riding on tht little 4 wheel thing u jus love him to bits.
but well kids r kids. we cycled for a really long time n he started getting tired n keep getting down his bike! n while waiting for his ice cream, he can acty strike up a conversation with some other kids. arent they cute??? haah.
n for those reading this, i wan u to noe... i can cycle!!!! the last time when i learned it.. i was unbalanced n stuff.. but now i can get up and get the bike going.. i can balance.. I CAN CYCLE!!!!can u believe it? i learned cycling when i m 20. haah. but now my legs n butt r hurting.. haah.
anyway i think cycling is so nice. becos u feel the wind blowing against u. i m definitely going again! east coast here i come!!
psalm 27
1 A Psalm of David. The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
4 One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
9 Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord
2 When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
4 One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
9 Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
11 Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord
it has not been the best day. n once again it is amazing to me always how quickly i can jus throw things away n regain composure. i have been trained i guess. but tdy was one of the most embarrassing day. but suddenly i jus wan to come to a place that i m not so self conscious anymore.
tdy's meeting was great. the presence of God was there n pst aries preached a great msg. i learnt a lot of things tdy jus by being there. was stepping into the room n i jus felt the presence of God so strongly. this is the reason y i do the things that i do, walk the path that i walk. it is for this. that the little girl once stepped into a place like that. when her world has fallen apart, there was sum1 who picked her up n gave her hope.
n i noe tdy, no matter wad happen, i m not hopeless, nth is hopeless. God strengthen me.
ken thanx a lot for being there n always listening. u r an awesome brother to have. n u dunno how timely ur msg came tdy. ha. jus at the right moment to remind me i m not alone.
thank u aunty audrey, though i think u will not read this, for putting things in the right perspective. i need time really, to come to terms with this. becos i cant at this moment accept wad he has done. i cant. i m sorry.
thank u chan eng for being so dependable. i noe if anything happen u will be there n u will take me in.
thank u jesus. for giving me tears when i dunno how to cry. for giving me laughter when i dunno how to smile. God sometimes i lie on my bed wondering how much of this i can put up with b4 i give up. but becos u r there, that makes a whole lot of difference. God i love u. and everything is worth it.
God tell me that i can. God tell me that u r there. God let me noe that i m not on the wrong path. God i really wan to be the person u wan me to be! amidst all the discouragements, accusations, disappointments, opposition, hurts, pain... i wan to noe that u r there, that u r there, that u r there. i need to feel u touch u. i need u to come take me in ur arms and exchange my burdens for urs.
u promised din u? that u will nv leave nor forsake. promise me that. u will nv leave nor forsake. i nd u.
tdy's meeting was great. the presence of God was there n pst aries preached a great msg. i learnt a lot of things tdy jus by being there. was stepping into the room n i jus felt the presence of God so strongly. this is the reason y i do the things that i do, walk the path that i walk. it is for this. that the little girl once stepped into a place like that. when her world has fallen apart, there was sum1 who picked her up n gave her hope.
n i noe tdy, no matter wad happen, i m not hopeless, nth is hopeless. God strengthen me.
ken thanx a lot for being there n always listening. u r an awesome brother to have. n u dunno how timely ur msg came tdy. ha. jus at the right moment to remind me i m not alone.
thank u aunty audrey, though i think u will not read this, for putting things in the right perspective. i need time really, to come to terms with this. becos i cant at this moment accept wad he has done. i cant. i m sorry.
thank u chan eng for being so dependable. i noe if anything happen u will be there n u will take me in.
thank u jesus. for giving me tears when i dunno how to cry. for giving me laughter when i dunno how to smile. God sometimes i lie on my bed wondering how much of this i can put up with b4 i give up. but becos u r there, that makes a whole lot of difference. God i love u. and everything is worth it.
God tell me that i can. God tell me that u r there. God let me noe that i m not on the wrong path. God i really wan to be the person u wan me to be! amidst all the discouragements, accusations, disappointments, opposition, hurts, pain... i wan to noe that u r there, that u r there, that u r there. i need to feel u touch u. i need u to come take me in ur arms and exchange my burdens for urs.
u promised din u? that u will nv leave nor forsake. promise me that. u will nv leave nor forsake. i nd u.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
did u ever feel like ur mind n heart is filled with things but yet there is not a single thought in ur mind? that is how i m feeling like.
脑子一片空白。有时候晓亭竟然可以这么冷静。冷静得怕人。
总觉得我比较喜欢华文字，因为它总是能够得更贴切形容我的感受。可是，在这一分一秒，我的脑子是一片空白的。我真的可以吗？
看到那些我想要成为的人，我不知我是否能抵达。
many dream to get there, but few arrive. this is wad i wrote to kevin.
i hope that i will not only dream. i will get there.
脑子一片空白。有时候晓亭竟然可以这么冷静。冷静得怕人。
总觉得我比较喜欢华文字，因为它总是能够得更贴切形容我的感受。可是，在这一分一秒，我的脑子是一片空白的。我真的可以吗？
看到那些我想要成为的人，我不知我是否能抵达。
many dream to get there, but few arrive. this is wad i wrote to kevin.
i hope that i will not only dream. i will get there.
tired
i m feeling kinda tired. when i hear the song i'll be here for u, and i hear dayan's laughter.. it sounds amazing.
xiaoting is tired. tired of discouragements n heartbreaks. tired of fruitlessness. tired of bad attitudes.
God my heart breaks every time when these things happen, n that is y there r many times i ask u how many times can i go thru it. i m so afraid one day i will jus be numb n stop feeling anymore.
God after being a ldr, the biggest challenge is to open my heart n love. becos God i noe whenever i love, i m also facing the risk of being hurt. n God nobody sees the hurts that i go thru.
strengthen me wun u? tell me all these r worth it becos of u.
for u a thousand times over?
xiaoting is tired. tired of discouragements n heartbreaks. tired of fruitlessness. tired of bad attitudes.
God my heart breaks every time when these things happen, n that is y there r many times i ask u how many times can i go thru it. i m so afraid one day i will jus be numb n stop feeling anymore.
God after being a ldr, the biggest challenge is to open my heart n love. becos God i noe whenever i love, i m also facing the risk of being hurt. n God nobody sees the hurts that i go thru.
strengthen me wun u? tell me all these r worth it becos of u.
for u a thousand times over?
bad start
had a bad start to my day. jus need to blog here to vent my frustrations. u noe there r days in which things jus dun go really well? well this is how i feel like bout tdy.
was jus giving bs and was looking at the part bout the imptance of having a daily quiet time. it came back as a reminder to me wad i m supposed to do in my qt. to give devotion to God, to get direction from Him, to gain delight in Him and to grow like Him.
Lord i jus wan to ask give me strength to be the person u wan me to be, do the things u wan me to do, love the pple u wan me to love. God help me not to be helpless bout wadeva that is happening in my life but noe that u have given me the power that is in Jesus. i can go above n not under. help me Lord to have a great n fruitful day ahead of me. Lord help me cg to BREAKTHRU. thank u Jesus.
Lord i need u.
was jus giving bs and was looking at the part bout the imptance of having a daily quiet time. it came back as a reminder to me wad i m supposed to do in my qt. to give devotion to God, to get direction from Him, to gain delight in Him and to grow like Him.
Lord i jus wan to ask give me strength to be the person u wan me to be, do the things u wan me to do, love the pple u wan me to love. God help me not to be helpless bout wadeva that is happening in my life but noe that u have given me the power that is in Jesus. i can go above n not under. help me Lord to have a great n fruitful day ahead of me. Lord help me cg to BREAKTHRU. thank u Jesus.
Lord i need u.
Monday, June 19, 2006
sentosa
it's been a long time since i went to sentosa. had a fun time tdy with my cg. i think for many of them, it is the first time we went to sentosa with the cg. sentosa nv fails to brighten somebody's day. haah. we had a good time really. (: thank you Jesus.
i m kinda in love with blogging. yest night i called yue rong n talked to her for a really long time. but it was a great conversation. from it God told me wad i needed to noe n wad kind of attitude i needed to have. kind of regained myself. but suddenly i jus felt like these few days i m organising my life, get my act tog n start sth new n afresh.
God has been a good God. He has been answering my prayers really. (: n i wan to live for Him. still wan to, very very much.
ting SOAR.
i m kinda in love with blogging. yest night i called yue rong n talked to her for a really long time. but it was a great conversation. from it God told me wad i needed to noe n wad kind of attitude i needed to have. kind of regained myself. but suddenly i jus felt like these few days i m organising my life, get my act tog n start sth new n afresh.
God has been a good God. He has been answering my prayers really. (: n i wan to live for Him. still wan to, very very much.
ting SOAR.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
this song is for u!
歌曲：我永远都在
歌手：何耀珊 专辑：收获
填词:马嵩惟
作曲:vincent degiorgio johan rohr
编曲:吕绍淳
hey阳光多耀眼
天空那边 希望你也是晴天
my friend无论多遥远
快乐要诀 有你我就能体验
and i'll be there分享你所有喜悦
missing you哦美好的感觉
friend我永远都在
有爱 你的心中就有我陪伴
每一次想念都看见你的笑脸
alright就这么简单
和你透过真心交换
my friend我永远都在
想 我们许的心愿
流星划越 少了你的窗前
my friend回忆不怕离别
约好再见 梦想一起实现
and i'm here
每当你想要流泪
be with you 从来不改变相连的默契
心和心靠近 只因为有爱oh yeah
我会永远都在
friend永远都在
有爱 每一次想念 都看见你的笑脸(就到你身边)]
透过真心交换(因为有爱)
歌手：何耀珊 专辑：收获
填词:马嵩惟
作曲:vincent degiorgio johan rohr
编曲:吕绍淳
hey阳光多耀眼
天空那边 希望你也是晴天
my friend无论多遥远
快乐要诀 有你我就能体验
and i'll be there分享你所有喜悦
missing you哦美好的感觉
friend我永远都在
有爱 你的心中就有我陪伴
每一次想念都看见你的笑脸
alright就这么简单
和你透过真心交换
my friend我永远都在
想 我们许的心愿
流星划越 少了你的窗前
my friend回忆不怕离别
约好再见 梦想一起实现
and i'm here
每当你想要流泪
be with you 从来不改变相连的默契
心和心靠近 只因为有爱oh yeah
我会永远都在
friend永远都在
有爱 每一次想念 都看见你的笑脸(就到你身边)]
透过真心交换(因为有爱)
continued..
actually i still have a lot of things i wan to say. most of the things he said really caught me thinking. it's been a long time since i met somebody like that. he was sharing with me his travelling experiences. n u noe sth.. the life he lead is the life i wanted to lead. not anymore u see. cos "i have been crucified with Christ. it is no longer i who live but Christ who lives in me." but i noe deep within i will want to travel like that. n u noee wad? i think God will allow me to do that. he will give us the desires of our heart.
my heart is so stuck in the beautiful world. one of the things he said was that we need to see the world n experience life. n acty he described it so well, becos one of the greatest desires in my heart is to see the world. i love different cultures n people.. becos they remind me my God is a colourful god. n after all these things it really got me thinking wad do i wan to do one day when i m out of uni.. Lord guide me.
is it amazing? all these r wad i learnt in one week. spiritual, mental n emotional lessons. i haven told u bout the technical knowledge! but i will spare u with them. haah.
helen r u still here with me? was listening to sun's new album n one of the songs describe how i feel bout u my dear girl. stay with me k..
my heart is so stuck in the beautiful world. one of the things he said was that we need to see the world n experience life. n acty he described it so well, becos one of the greatest desires in my heart is to see the world. i love different cultures n people.. becos they remind me my God is a colourful god. n after all these things it really got me thinking wad do i wan to do one day when i m out of uni.. Lord guide me.
is it amazing? all these r wad i learnt in one week. spiritual, mental n emotional lessons. i haven told u bout the technical knowledge! but i will spare u with them. haah.
helen r u still here with me? was listening to sun's new album n one of the songs describe how i feel bout u my dear girl. stay with me k..
inspirations..
i m back to tok bout my job again. i was going to apologise that u r reading bout my job again. but den i decided. this is my blog! haah. so in a sense i can say wad i wan but yet exercise responsibility.
i guess it is really God who brought me to this job. initially, i was still feeling uneasy, not knowing is this wad God wants me to do.. but right now, i m kinda assured cos i really have a great boss. tdy i learnt a lot again cos my boss taught me more stuff. i love learning to him cos he will share tons of things with me. let me jus post some of them here k..
he asked me how is my job going.. and he decided to teach me some stuff cos he saw that i was realli bored. haah. oops.. i really like him to be around in the office.. but yet when he is ard i feel pressurised so i dun perform. wad an irony.
anyway..
he asked me how r things. and i said ok.. but i told him that i nd motivation. pple who noe me noe that there r few things that will motivate me, other than the things of God and the things of the spirit. n i was telling him that money really dun matter to me so earning lots of money dun motivate me. den he told me money is not the end.. it is a means to an end. n i was jus telling him that there r a lot of things i can do.. but i dun, becos i dun see y i must n i m simply not motivated to do them.
den he told me that i must find that goal n that motivation in my life to do wad i wan.. and although i told him there isn't, somehow deep in my heart wad he said struck a chord in me.
helen.. i hope u r reading this, cos this is for u.
gal, we always toked bout this. that we want to be people of greatness and we want to live a life of significance n leave a legacy behind. n gal.. along our way we always lose sight of wad we want to do.. u noe wad? i met a great boss. n he is somebody like that. as in he noes wad he wants n he does it. and u noe wad.. i noe that u will be as inspired by him as i m by him. u noe.. even as he was telling me that i need to find that motivation.. i was reminded of u girl. that we always said that we wanted to soar like eagles dear.. n i miss u! i miss the times we tok bout our dreams n visions..
dear girl.. i dun wan to be the walking dead. i dun wan to live my life not noeing y m i doing the things i m doing. when i m studying, i wanna give my best n shine. when i love God, i wan to love Him with all of my heart. i wan to fulfill my fullest potential. i dun wan to procrastinate. dun wan to wait anymore. tdy my boss asked me if there is somebody i wan to be. there r lots of pple i wan to be like.
God i pray from the bottom of my heart.. fire me up once again. let me not be satisfied with mediocrity, with having jus enough. God i want the best for my life, the best for my cg, the best for my studies, the best for everything. i wan to fulfill my fullest potential. i dun wan to be indifferent n apathetic Lord.
probably u really sent a person to hit me on my head n ask me to wake up!!!! wake up ting!!! wake up ting!!!! come on.. go out there n soar soAR SOAR!!!
i guess it is really God who brought me to this job. initially, i was still feeling uneasy, not knowing is this wad God wants me to do.. but right now, i m kinda assured cos i really have a great boss. tdy i learnt a lot again cos my boss taught me more stuff. i love learning to him cos he will share tons of things with me. let me jus post some of them here k..
he asked me how is my job going.. and he decided to teach me some stuff cos he saw that i was realli bored. haah. oops.. i really like him to be around in the office.. but yet when he is ard i feel pressurised so i dun perform. wad an irony.
anyway..
he asked me how r things. and i said ok.. but i told him that i nd motivation. pple who noe me noe that there r few things that will motivate me, other than the things of God and the things of the spirit. n i was telling him that money really dun matter to me so earning lots of money dun motivate me. den he told me money is not the end.. it is a means to an end. n i was jus telling him that there r a lot of things i can do.. but i dun, becos i dun see y i must n i m simply not motivated to do them.
den he told me that i must find that goal n that motivation in my life to do wad i wan.. and although i told him there isn't, somehow deep in my heart wad he said struck a chord in me.
helen.. i hope u r reading this, cos this is for u.
gal, we always toked bout this. that we want to be people of greatness and we want to live a life of significance n leave a legacy behind. n gal.. along our way we always lose sight of wad we want to do.. u noe wad? i met a great boss. n he is somebody like that. as in he noes wad he wants n he does it. and u noe wad.. i noe that u will be as inspired by him as i m by him. u noe.. even as he was telling me that i need to find that motivation.. i was reminded of u girl. that we always said that we wanted to soar like eagles dear.. n i miss u! i miss the times we tok bout our dreams n visions..
dear girl.. i dun wan to be the walking dead. i dun wan to live my life not noeing y m i doing the things i m doing. when i m studying, i wanna give my best n shine. when i love God, i wan to love Him with all of my heart. i wan to fulfill my fullest potential. i dun wan to procrastinate. dun wan to wait anymore. tdy my boss asked me if there is somebody i wan to be. there r lots of pple i wan to be like.
God i pray from the bottom of my heart.. fire me up once again. let me not be satisfied with mediocrity, with having jus enough. God i want the best for my life, the best for my cg, the best for my studies, the best for everything. i wan to fulfill my fullest potential. i dun wan to be indifferent n apathetic Lord.
probably u really sent a person to hit me on my head n ask me to wake up!!!! wake up ting!!! wake up ting!!!! come on.. go out there n soar soAR SOAR!!!
Thursday, June 15, 2006
i love my boss!
i just started a new job this week. n i love it! because my boss is simply great. (: he is such a nice boss. haah.
although the job is really a little bit boring, haah, becos u call the pple n say the same things to them like over 100 times a day, (sounds boring right), but like wad i said in the previous post, the experience's great. esp the training. this is the first time i understood insurance n i m a bit convinced that insurance is not bout cheating money. haah. wad a BIG prejudice i have isnt it? haah.
but totally i managed to clinch 3 appointments.. n today was kinda interesting. haah. like this guy.. when i tell him we have an investment programme that is risk free.. then he tell me.. there is no such thing as risk free investment. he says if it is risk free den it is not investment. den he say oh then i will have to end the conversation becos u said the wrong thing. n man m i glad to.. haaah. it was really interesting.. n tdy i tried to sell insurance in mandarin to this very interesting guy.. haah.
i enjoyed myself. though half of the time i was a bit bored. n my boss will tell me to take a break.. go msn.. pack up earlier n dun work so hard. haah. amazing isn't it? i love my boss. gee.
that is it..
although the job is really a little bit boring, haah, becos u call the pple n say the same things to them like over 100 times a day, (sounds boring right), but like wad i said in the previous post, the experience's great. esp the training. this is the first time i understood insurance n i m a bit convinced that insurance is not bout cheating money. haah. wad a BIG prejudice i have isnt it? haah.
but totally i managed to clinch 3 appointments.. n today was kinda interesting. haah. like this guy.. when i tell him we have an investment programme that is risk free.. then he tell me.. there is no such thing as risk free investment. he says if it is risk free den it is not investment. den he say oh then i will have to end the conversation becos u said the wrong thing. n man m i glad to.. haaah. it was really interesting.. n tdy i tried to sell insurance in mandarin to this very interesting guy.. haah.
i enjoyed myself. though half of the time i was a bit bored. n my boss will tell me to take a break.. go msn.. pack up earlier n dun work so hard. haah. amazing isn't it? i love my boss. gee.
that is it..
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
working
i m supposingly hard at work now. other than tons of things i learnt yest during training, tdy's was kinda boring n brainless. but well.. temp job so u cant expect much. but i did learn quite a bit of stuff. about insurance n investment n things like that. n i m happy..
i surely hope that i will be fruitful.. haah. (:
i surely hope that i will be fruitful.. haah. (:
Monday, June 12, 2006
i feel like blogging
everytime i start blogging, i will type wad i wan to say. and den suddenly i will jus feel like not continuing anymore. n that is y u will realise that i will say some stuff n stop saying anymore.
after emerge, in this entire week, many things got me thinking. plenty plenty of things. i started to ask myself again wad issit that i wan. u noe i was jus telling some frens, that i m a person that cant lead a meaningless life. i jus cant. if one day i wake up not noeing y i m doing the things i m doing, i will get really frustrated. and sometimes i feel lost n confused. but i hate feeling lost n confused! i hate not knowing where i m going n wad i going to do. i hate not being in control. but i also learn..
he is in control. that when i cannot see His hand, i can trust his heart.
我需要斗志。我需要继续战斗的力量。我需要必胜的信心。
you.. you r the God who will save
cling on to all that u say
let me do that Lord.
你的肩膀。何耀珊
那些日子
當你不在我身邊
那些感受不到你的日子
整個世界都不對
我以为我已经失去了全世界
還能這樣安靜的和你依偎
能在你的怀中
受過的苦都無所謂
是我一辈子的幸福
進進退退 我們之間
故事有點迂迴
轟轟烈烈 哭過幾回
從來沒有後悔
当初选择了你，我永远不会后悔。
依靠著你的肩膀
有風的味道也有雨的滄桑
躺在你的胸怀，让我感到多么坚强
為我去過了遠方
你带我到世界尽头
還好愛是我最固執的地方
還好再長的夜總是會天亮
我知道隧道之后一定有曙光
我終於等到你回來身旁
你一定会在我身旁
愛就是你的肩膀
你的肩膀就是我的坚强
能負擔我的所有快樂悲傷
相信你許下的願望
相信你的每个话语
一輩子的時間那麼的漫長
何必在乎當初寂寞多荒涼
你说不管发生什么事
我們的幸福會在下半場
你一定会为我写下漂亮的后来
after emerge, in this entire week, many things got me thinking. plenty plenty of things. i started to ask myself again wad issit that i wan. u noe i was jus telling some frens, that i m a person that cant lead a meaningless life. i jus cant. if one day i wake up not noeing y i m doing the things i m doing, i will get really frustrated. and sometimes i feel lost n confused. but i hate feeling lost n confused! i hate not knowing where i m going n wad i going to do. i hate not being in control. but i also learn..
he is in control. that when i cannot see His hand, i can trust his heart.
我需要斗志。我需要继续战斗的力量。我需要必胜的信心。
you.. you r the God who will save
cling on to all that u say
let me do that Lord.
你的肩膀。何耀珊
那些日子
當你不在我身邊
那些感受不到你的日子
整個世界都不對
我以为我已经失去了全世界
還能這樣安靜的和你依偎
能在你的怀中
受過的苦都無所謂
是我一辈子的幸福
進進退退 我們之間
故事有點迂迴
轟轟烈烈 哭過幾回
從來沒有後悔
当初选择了你，我永远不会后悔。
依靠著你的肩膀
有風的味道也有雨的滄桑
躺在你的胸怀，让我感到多么坚强
為我去過了遠方
你带我到世界尽头
還好愛是我最固執的地方
還好再長的夜總是會天亮
我知道隧道之后一定有曙光
我終於等到你回來身旁
你一定会在我身旁
愛就是你的肩膀
你的肩膀就是我的坚强
能負擔我的所有快樂悲傷
相信你許下的願望
相信你的每个话语
一輩子的時間那麼的漫長
何必在乎當初寂寞多荒涼
你说不管发生什么事
我們的幸福會在下半場
你一定会为我写下漂亮的后来
Sunday, June 11, 2006
loving Him
tdy i heard an astounding news. was shocked. totally. but it made me think. ting, how much do u love Him?
if the day comes when u lose everything, and all that is left is Him, wad will happen to u? will u be like king david who says, i will rather be a doorkeeper in the hse of God?
i wan to love You Lord. help me Jesus nv to stop loving You, never to stop laying my life at ur altar. let that day nv come.. that i love sth else more than You. i cant bear leaving u in my life.
if the day comes when u lose everything, and all that is left is Him, wad will happen to u? will u be like king david who says, i will rather be a doorkeeper in the hse of God?
i wan to love You Lord. help me Jesus nv to stop loving You, never to stop laying my life at ur altar. let that day nv come.. that i love sth else more than You. i cant bear leaving u in my life.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Monday, June 05, 2006
did u ever feel like ..
我想投身在一个虚拟的世界。我只想活在电视剧情，精彩作者的情节里，我没有勇气面对现实生活。
现实的挑战太多，勇气太少。
承诺太多，实现太少。
失望太多，希望太少。
我真的还可以吗？
真的吗?
希望这不是另一次的遐想。。
现实的挑战太多，勇气太少。
承诺太多，实现太少。
失望太多，希望太少。
我真的还可以吗？
真的吗?
希望这不是另一次的遐想。。
Monday, May 29, 2006
hiding place
i love this song.
I FIND YOU AT THE SECRET PLACE
I FIND YOU ON THE MOUNTAIN
I FIND YOU IN THE EARLY HOURS OF MY DAY
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M WAITING
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M IN YOUR WORD
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M TALKING TO YOU WHEN I PRAY
CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART
AS I COME AWAY WITH YOU
WASH AWAY ALL OF MY STAINS
AND RESTORE TO ME THE JOY
I HAVE IN YOU
YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE
YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE
I FIND YOU AT THE SECRET PLACE
I FIND YOU ON THE MOUNTAIN
I FIND YOU IN THE EARLY HOURS OF MY DAY
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M WAITING
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M IN YOUR WORD
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M TALKING TO YOU WHEN I PRAY
CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART
AS I COME AWAY WITH YOU
WASH AWAY ALL OF MY STAINS
AND RESTORE TO ME THE JOY
I HAVE IN YOU
YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE
YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE
Thursday, May 25, 2006
4e outing
i was so glad that at the end of the day some of us managed to go. (: and see, haha, it is not so difficult after all. n i do think we shld n need to get tog after so long. and the nicest surprise was to see ms andriany.
tdy we had a mini 4e gathering. me, lim yang, minyi, minling, meizhen, samuel and timothy. i think the rare guest was timothy? haha. i seldom remember seeing him. but now that he is single.. haah. i guess he is more free? haah.
samuel drove me back together with timothy. n suddenly sitting in the car, seeing a fren i knew for ages driving like a man, and all these pple r no longer boys in blue pants, suddenly it sunk into me that we r all grown up. i m almost an adult, although i really hate to admit it. that when i was younger, i would look at pple who r now my age and think wad's their life like. n now i m experiencing it for myself. i guess it is amazing. n all the more i felt, xiaoting u need to treasure ur life.
on another note, it was a beautiful thing seeing everybody. to get tog after 4 yrs, talking bout our past. and i felt this.. i m forced to grow up! haah. before i noe it, i will be out of uni working.
though many things have changed, some things nv changed. haah. like how they will tease and make fun of the same things, like timothy and ***.. haaah. it is just like the good old times. man.. God, thank u for memories. and thank u for frens.
n somebody i felt like he really changed is samuel. haah. if u r seeing this, hi! but i felt like frm a person who was fun-loving and stuff, to now being a person who noes wad he wants, who is really doing it and stepping into it, really made me wake up from reality. pple r different. and i wan to live my life to the fullest, sowing into my destiny and my future.
beautiful day. thank u Lord. wake me up!
tdy we had a mini 4e gathering. me, lim yang, minyi, minling, meizhen, samuel and timothy. i think the rare guest was timothy? haha. i seldom remember seeing him. but now that he is single.. haah. i guess he is more free? haah.
samuel drove me back together with timothy. n suddenly sitting in the car, seeing a fren i knew for ages driving like a man, and all these pple r no longer boys in blue pants, suddenly it sunk into me that we r all grown up. i m almost an adult, although i really hate to admit it. that when i was younger, i would look at pple who r now my age and think wad's their life like. n now i m experiencing it for myself. i guess it is amazing. n all the more i felt, xiaoting u need to treasure ur life.
on another note, it was a beautiful thing seeing everybody. to get tog after 4 yrs, talking bout our past. and i felt this.. i m forced to grow up! haah. before i noe it, i will be out of uni working.
though many things have changed, some things nv changed. haah. like how they will tease and make fun of the same things, like timothy and ***.. haaah. it is just like the good old times. man.. God, thank u for memories. and thank u for frens.
n somebody i felt like he really changed is samuel. haah. if u r seeing this, hi! but i felt like frm a person who was fun-loving and stuff, to now being a person who noes wad he wants, who is really doing it and stepping into it, really made me wake up from reality. pple r different. and i wan to live my life to the fullest, sowing into my destiny and my future.
beautiful day. thank u Lord. wake me up!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
i feel like unloading everything out here, but i cant. but i feel kinda suffocated with everything in me. i need to unwind everything that is within me. i felt like i woke up being whacked by the devil left right up down centre. sometimes i feel like telling God i dun feel like playing anymore. sometimes xiaoting feels like throwing in the towel. sometimes i jus cant seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. sometimes i jus dun feel like being strong. sometimes i jus need a fren, with skin on. sometimes i feel like lying in bed n stare at my ceiling and jus let the world rotate without touching me. sometimes i jus cant muster enough faith to do wad i need to do. oh sometimes sometimes
great men n women r not those who do not have lousy days, but those that despite their lousy days and feelings and circumstances, they held on the God, held on to their faith. den i pray i will one day be a great woman of God. gee.
great men n women r not those who do not have lousy days, but those that despite their lousy days and feelings and circumstances, they held on the God, held on to their faith. den i pray i will one day be a great woman of God. gee.
Monday, May 22, 2006
以前当我看着别人过着高调的生活，心中总有无限的渴望与向往。我常想，如果当年没有遇到他，我今天或许会是一个流连酒吧，过着疯狂日子的女生，因为认识我的人都知道，我真的有这种疯狂的潜能。更或许，我会在某一个世界的角落，做一些很荒唐的事，如果不是他，我真的或许不会继续呆在这里。因为他是我的磐石，坚定不移，让我不再过着无根的日子。我有一个家，所以我不再任性，叛逆，我行我素。
记得在华初那年，陈老师要我们每个星期交出一篇创作。起初我是兴致勃勃，但过了一阵子，那创作的灵感却不常到来，而现在，我却好想继续写字。哈哈。我不止一次说过，我好喜欢文字。
不知道我自己是不是因为守在这个岗位里，而失去了很多。常看别人的生活，有时候也希望自己可以这样。但是，我知道，为了他，错过这一切是值得的。我爱他因为他先爱我。而为了这一个“爱”字，错过的是值得的，得到的更是无法计算。
晓亭的人生是美丽的。谢谢你。
记得在华初那年，陈老师要我们每个星期交出一篇创作。起初我是兴致勃勃，但过了一阵子，那创作的灵感却不常到来，而现在，我却好想继续写字。哈哈。我不止一次说过，我好喜欢文字。
不知道我自己是不是因为守在这个岗位里，而失去了很多。常看别人的生活，有时候也希望自己可以这样。但是，我知道，为了他，错过这一切是值得的。我爱他因为他先爱我。而为了这一个“爱”字，错过的是值得的，得到的更是无法计算。
晓亭的人生是美丽的。谢谢你。
Thursday, May 18, 2006
anyway. jus recounting a few things that happened. been busy with pos and it is jus a great joy to be back. hope that we will do well this year.
tried doing surveys on the street the past few days. i almost died! but for the money i m still continuing tml. God save me man.. give me an amiable face. haah. but it is really tough.
pst phil came last sun. gave a great msg. i m blown away. n i m coming up! to another level in prayer. i just need the leading of the holy spirit more n more.
and we had a great time on tues in the presence of the Holy Spirit. back to that first love.
tried doing surveys on the street the past few days. i almost died! but for the money i m still continuing tml. God save me man.. give me an amiable face. haah. but it is really tough.
pst phil came last sun. gave a great msg. i m blown away. n i m coming up! to another level in prayer. i just need the leading of the holy spirit more n more.
and we had a great time on tues in the presence of the Holy Spirit. back to that first love.
thoughts
i love it when the Holy Spirit is there, touching me. (: was at home tdy and had a great time in the presence of God. was reading songs of solomon n i was so touched by it.
God loves me a lot and He loves u a lot isnt it?
but He is looking n seeking for one whose heart is completely His.
i wan to be found by Him.
God forgive me for the times i neglected u, for the times that other things were impt than u. bring me back to that place of wholeheartedness.
i want to love u.
God loves me a lot and He loves u a lot isnt it?
but He is looking n seeking for one whose heart is completely His.
i wan to be found by Him.
God forgive me for the times i neglected u, for the times that other things were impt than u. bring me back to that place of wholeheartedness.
i want to love u.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
MI3
Today i watched MI3 with chan eng. the first movie in many weeks or months. (i can't recall, really) If not for her, i think i would really not have watched this show. The next time they rate it, they should rate it like only for 40 and below or sth, cos u will have a heart attack watching it. (ok, i m exaggerating. (: )
but! it was really scary! haah. i think scary is not the word, i can't find the right word for it. but it is definitely not for weak hearts. as for me, i think i m not a person who will be able to stay through scenes that torture people mentally, emotionally and physically. gee.. i just think it is torturous! really.. it is probably worse than those HK triad society movies..
after all the negative comments, it is not such a bad movie. if u r a person who likes action, u really will like it. I m still amazed ever since watching things like matrix and minority report by the creativity and imagination of people. though MI3 is not as imaginative, that kind of technology that appears in the movie still amazes me. wonder where do all the scientists get their ideas? u dun have to look furthur. haha. probably this is really how they get their inspirations.
but i m still scared out of my wits. haah.
on another note, i m looking forward to them playing Mission Impossible this fri when pst phil comes. ((:
but! it was really scary! haah. i think scary is not the word, i can't find the right word for it. but it is definitely not for weak hearts. as for me, i think i m not a person who will be able to stay through scenes that torture people mentally, emotionally and physically. gee.. i just think it is torturous! really.. it is probably worse than those HK triad society movies..
after all the negative comments, it is not such a bad movie. if u r a person who likes action, u really will like it. I m still amazed ever since watching things like matrix and minority report by the creativity and imagination of people. though MI3 is not as imaginative, that kind of technology that appears in the movie still amazes me. wonder where do all the scientists get their ideas? u dun have to look furthur. haha. probably this is really how they get their inspirations.
but i m still scared out of my wits. haah.
on another note, i m looking forward to them playing Mission Impossible this fri when pst phil comes. ((:
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
things in order
just felt like i need to get things in order. i dunno wad is that order, but things feel like they r not in order.
i love fellowshipping with people who love the Lord and give their lives to God. and i pray that God will raise up a generation like that for Him.
i love fellowshipping with people who love the Lord and give their lives to God. and i pray that God will raise up a generation like that for Him.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Friday, May 05, 2006
读了伊能静的blog，让我真的爱上文字。希望我可以一直写，一直写出非常漂亮的文章。
文字是一样很奇怪的东西。我们所说的竟然可以和所写的截然不同。我们可以用那么扣人心弦的文字来表达心里一滴，一滴的感觉。
一连两天参加两个人民行动党的大会。我好像变成他们的支持者了。哈哈。这次的选举大受瞩目，也是我第一次真正去了解新加坡的政坛是怎么一回事。不管是行动党，还是反对党，都说得振振有词，但是，他们以的一切言谈举止，却让我认为，我们还差第一世界政府，第一世界反对党，第一世界国家还很远。惨了，说了这些话明天是否会被告诽谤？
在这样的一个竞争下，人的缺点都慢慢被暴露出来。还好大选的日子并不久，要不然，更糟糕的都会出现。chaneng说每个国家的政治大概都是这样的吧，他们都会撤别人的后腿，可是我真的认为这样的一个选举可以反映出一个人的人格及修养，在对待不同的问题时，他们有多少内涵则会一目了然。
到此为止。改天再说。
文字是一样很奇怪的东西。我们所说的竟然可以和所写的截然不同。我们可以用那么扣人心弦的文字来表达心里一滴，一滴的感觉。
一连两天参加两个人民行动党的大会。我好像变成他们的支持者了。哈哈。这次的选举大受瞩目，也是我第一次真正去了解新加坡的政坛是怎么一回事。不管是行动党，还是反对党，都说得振振有词，但是，他们以的一切言谈举止，却让我认为，我们还差第一世界政府，第一世界反对党，第一世界国家还很远。惨了，说了这些话明天是否会被告诽谤？
在这样的一个竞争下，人的缺点都慢慢被暴露出来。还好大选的日子并不久，要不然，更糟糕的都会出现。chaneng说每个国家的政治大概都是这样的吧，他们都会撤别人的后腿，可是我真的认为这样的一个选举可以反映出一个人的人格及修养，在对待不同的问题时，他们有多少内涵则会一目了然。
到此为止。改天再说。
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
lazy blogger
i m such a lazy blogger. ha. i think partly wad jg said bout my blog is true. jus not realli bothered to write out my life n stuff. anyway.
exams r... unofficially over! haah. one last paper to go, and like wad pan lao shi said, the preparation for it is to sleep well! yay! i like that!
this period of exams was so loooong and tedious. realli. 艰辛。非常。每一次要把考卷做完都要有很大的意志力，多么想半途就走出去。哈哈。
but it has been a good weekend. God spoke to me thru pst ulf, thru pst mark, thru the pple in jc cluster, thru sis yilun, thru pst yk. it was like the same word jumping out in my face for dunno how manytimes. thank u Jesus. for the encounters, for the word u given, for the passion u put in, for using me.
now about after the exams.
this is wad im gonna do.
1. find work n earn money.
2. master guitar
3. read.. a lot a lot alot. eng lish n chinese n wad have u.
4. study the Bible.
5. have fun.
6. go overseas somehow. haah.
7. slumber parties?
8. play pool? i think i will do that.
i m so hungry now. gg off. buaix！
exams r... unofficially over! haah. one last paper to go, and like wad pan lao shi said, the preparation for it is to sleep well! yay! i like that!
this period of exams was so loooong and tedious. realli. 艰辛。非常。每一次要把考卷做完都要有很大的意志力，多么想半途就走出去。哈哈。
but it has been a good weekend. God spoke to me thru pst ulf, thru pst mark, thru the pple in jc cluster, thru sis yilun, thru pst yk. it was like the same word jumping out in my face for dunno how manytimes. thank u Jesus. for the encounters, for the word u given, for the passion u put in, for using me.
now about after the exams.
this is wad im gonna do.
1. find work n earn money.
2. master guitar
3. read.. a lot a lot alot. eng lish n chinese n wad have u.
4. study the Bible.
5. have fun.
6. go overseas somehow. haah.
7. slumber parties?
8. play pool? i think i will do that.
i m so hungry now. gg off. buaix！
Sunday, April 30, 2006
thank u!
thank u jc cluster!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tdy toking to u guys at expo and on the train.. den i realise i realli miss all of u alot! realli miss the times we tok and spend time tog.. thank u for being such a blessing!
and i was looking for the answer for sth.. and u guys gave it to me while toking to me!! God gave me a revelation out of our conversation..
thank u!!!!!!!!!!!
tdy toking to u guys at expo and on the train.. den i realise i realli miss all of u alot! realli miss the times we tok and spend time tog.. thank u for being such a blessing!
and i was looking for the answer for sth.. and u guys gave it to me while toking to me!! God gave me a revelation out of our conversation..
thank u!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
slping
it is amazing how i can slp for hours in the midst of my exams. but now when im sick n down with a flu, i dun seem to be slpy at all. gee.
rantings.
i have tons of thoughts running thru my mind but nothing is realli clicking n working. stop pushing the buttons xiaoting.
as i have always said, and i probably shld say less of this. i love to think. and at some point of my life, i will always look at my life and think. wad issit that i wan? on some nights i will lie on my bed, staring n stoning, asking myself, ting.. wad do u wan?
it is so amazing how God works in beautiful ways. God teach me to believe u for the BEST things.
was just reading my sis' thesis. realised sth that we realli have a lot in common. it is amazing how both of us grew up in entirely different envts yet both of us grew up with a big love for chinese. and she was writing a thesis bout some movies bout WW2. and the bigger coincidence is. she loves history just like me. man. when i was reading that thingy.. i felt so... dunno how to describe.
right now, i m left with 2 papers. n i feel so relaxed. yet i dun feel like sticking mysself in front of the tv. i realli kinda hate it. nor do i wan to sit infront of this com the whole night. and i keep asking myself. xt. wad do u wan for ur future.. for ur life???
u noe wad? this is wad i wan.
i wan to live my life the way God wants me to live it.
i wan to see my dreams n visions coming to pass.
i wan my cg to breakthru.
i wan to live every single min of my life to the fullest.
i dun wan to waste my life away!!! i cant stand that!
i wanna gain more knowledge, noe more things.
i wanna make more disciples for Him.
God fill me fill me fill me!
as i have always said, and i probably shld say less of this. i love to think. and at some point of my life, i will always look at my life and think. wad issit that i wan? on some nights i will lie on my bed, staring n stoning, asking myself, ting.. wad do u wan?
it is so amazing how God works in beautiful ways. God teach me to believe u for the BEST things.
was just reading my sis' thesis. realised sth that we realli have a lot in common. it is amazing how both of us grew up in entirely different envts yet both of us grew up with a big love for chinese. and she was writing a thesis bout some movies bout WW2. and the bigger coincidence is. she loves history just like me. man. when i was reading that thingy.. i felt so... dunno how to describe.
right now, i m left with 2 papers. n i feel so relaxed. yet i dun feel like sticking mysself in front of the tv. i realli kinda hate it. nor do i wan to sit infront of this com the whole night. and i keep asking myself. xt. wad do u wan for ur future.. for ur life???
u noe wad? this is wad i wan.
i wan to live my life the way God wants me to live it.
i wan to see my dreams n visions coming to pass.
i wan my cg to breakthru.
i wan to live every single min of my life to the fullest.
i dun wan to waste my life away!!! i cant stand that!
i wanna gain more knowledge, noe more things.
i wanna make more disciples for Him.
God fill me fill me fill me!
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Rules: Bold the following that are true about you, italicize things you wish were true, add one true thing about you, and then tag five more people.
I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olive rice.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies. (eugh no)
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (or Blog)
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.(1 mouth of beer?)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.
Weight is my enemy!
I'm a serious chocoholic.
I absolutely adore animals.
I love surprises.
I love to be seen.
I often act without feeling for people.
I like arguing for the sake of arguing.
I think most girls look better with spectacles.
My skin is peeling because i had been under the sun.
I want to ORD.
I wish i can be all that i wan to be, do all that i want to do.
I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olive rice.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I've watched porn movies. (eugh no)
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I hate the rain.
I'm paranoid at times.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have fresh breath in the morning.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way that I look.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I know how to cornrow.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (or Blog)
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before.(1 mouth of beer?)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbour or chum.
I enjoy some country music.
I would die for my best friends
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I watch soap operas whenever I can.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I like surveys/memes.
I am happy at this moment.
I'm obsessed with guys.
I am punk rockish.
I am preppy.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
I believe in prophetic dreams.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient on a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I am adopted.
I like sausage.
I am a pyro.
I love the Red Sox.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colors.
I love Dear Abby.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I think school is awesome.
I think pigtails serve a purpose.
I don't know why I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
I think John Cusack is adorable.
I watch Food Network way too much.
I love coaching youth sports.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I would not be friends if they weren't family.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know who Santos L. Halper is.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
I'm an artist.
I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid.
I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
I only clean my room when neccesary.
Weight is my enemy!
I'm a serious chocoholic.
I absolutely adore animals.
I love surprises.
I love to be seen.
I often act without feeling for people.
I like arguing for the sake of arguing.
I think most girls look better with spectacles.
My skin is peeling because i had been under the sun.
I want to ORD.
I wish i can be all that i wan to be, do all that i want to do.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
easter sunday
easter came. n easter left. i always look forward to every easter. n this yr.. once again, they used peter and judas. and i always liked the story of peter. of his repentance. he always reminds me that though i m imperfect, God can still use me. and that story of reconciliation nv fails to move me to tears.
God loves me! and i m incredibly grateful for that. God touched me! and i m eternally appreciative of that. God changed me! and words cant express my love for Him. He did so many things in my life and He is still doing. (:
Daddy, thank u for loving me when i feel unloved.
Thank u for believing in me when i could not believe in myself.
Thank u for giving me the strength n courage to move on.
Thank u for forgiving me when i felt so dirty with sin.
Thank u for telling me "ger it is okie"
Thank u for being there for me each time.
Thank u for not giving up on me though i made so many mistakes.
Thank u for my destiny n calling in u.
Thank u for dying for me 2000 yrs ago. on Good friday.
and for that, my life is urs, to take, to use, to teach how to live.
i exchange it for sth more.
God loves me! and i m incredibly grateful for that. God touched me! and i m eternally appreciative of that. God changed me! and words cant express my love for Him. He did so many things in my life and He is still doing. (:
Daddy, thank u for loving me when i feel unloved.
Thank u for believing in me when i could not believe in myself.
Thank u for giving me the strength n courage to move on.
Thank u for forgiving me when i felt so dirty with sin.
Thank u for telling me "ger it is okie"
Thank u for being there for me each time.
Thank u for not giving up on me though i made so many mistakes.
Thank u for my destiny n calling in u.
Thank u for dying for me 2000 yrs ago. on Good friday.
and for that, my life is urs, to take, to use, to teach how to live.
i exchange it for sth more.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
random thoughts.
jus to blog some stuff before i go off.
dun ask me y. i jus felt like it was an eventful week though nothing much happened. this week exam started. it was good n it was okie. dun ask me wad i m saying. i realise that i m a person who loves people, but at the same time, i m...
i guess this is wad tat really bothers me right now. yest, i heard somebody say take care to me and that warmed my heart. tdy something took place over lunch table and my heart smiled.
my heart takes joy in little things like that, yet my heart will also ... at the little things. certain things may seem insignificant, or seem like nothing.. but i dunno, if i can go back to where i was before. can i or can i not? shld i, or shld i not?
dun ask me y. i jus felt like it was an eventful week though nothing much happened. this week exam started. it was good n it was okie. dun ask me wad i m saying. i realise that i m a person who loves people, but at the same time, i m...
i guess this is wad tat really bothers me right now. yest, i heard somebody say take care to me and that warmed my heart. tdy something took place over lunch table and my heart smiled.
my heart takes joy in little things like that, yet my heart will also ... at the little things. certain things may seem insignificant, or seem like nothing.. but i dunno, if i can go back to where i was before. can i or can i not? shld i, or shld i not?
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
追逐梦想
我要一直追求我的梦想。一直走下去。刚看了超级星期天，看到老师如何鼓励爱沙要一直走下去，实现她的梦想。我知道，我一定要认定自己的目标。一直走下去。不管周围发生多大的事，我都不轻言放弃。
不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。-MVP
girl, u can do it. no matter wad they say. and wad happen. u can n u will.
不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。-MVP
girl, u can do it. no matter wad they say. and wad happen. u can n u will.
fun!
last sunday, for the first time in many months, i was in town playing. haah. now i sound like a kid? playing? question mark.. haah. but anyway i was in town with my members. and i had such a great time. i came home feeling like it's been a long time since i enjoyed myself like that. (: n pool is fun.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
it is saturday again.
i think i said it before that saturday is a blogging day. n yep it is. here i m back blogging again. xiaoting loves toking. dun u think so?
this week certain things happen. n once again trials that come my way. with trials that also came a revelation. i need to rise up n overcome these things once again. i m an overcomer.
the last week we met sun a lot of times! n i m so excited. woke up at 5am on fri morning to go send her off. n i m awfully glad that i did. love ya lots sun n going to miss u alot.
n on wed night sillily rushed to tm to watch v for vendetta n missed out on 15 mins of the show. it is such an impt 15 mins! haah.
n i really did study quite a bit this week. great improvement. haah. hopefully n prayerfully i will be ready for my exams. jia you ger.
things may not turn out the way u wan it. but that doesnt always mean it is a bad thing. God is in control.
this week certain things happen. n once again trials that come my way. with trials that also came a revelation. i need to rise up n overcome these things once again. i m an overcomer.
the last week we met sun a lot of times! n i m so excited. woke up at 5am on fri morning to go send her off. n i m awfully glad that i did. love ya lots sun n going to miss u alot.
n on wed night sillily rushed to tm to watch v for vendetta n missed out on 15 mins of the show. it is such an impt 15 mins! haah.
n i really did study quite a bit this week. great improvement. haah. hopefully n prayerfully i will be ready for my exams. jia you ger.
things may not turn out the way u wan it. but that doesnt always mean it is a bad thing. God is in control.
Friday, March 31, 2006
i m falling in love..
with blogging n history. haah. jus had my last chinese lecture yest. it was a blast! i really really like my chinese history tcher. so very much. yest i jus had a revelation. n i think it was the Holy Spirit who told me. that i m studying in china right now, i probably will not get this kind of history lesson. which i totally agree.
i was jus so excited and so stirred up by wad lan lao shi say n honestly, i think this is wad God wants me to know. and it might jolly well as sth to do with my calling. i m sooooo interested in cultural revolution. it is like such an interesting part of history. wad will the development of China be 3 yrs frm now when i get out of NTU? will it be the top country in the world tog with US or will it even overtake US to be the superpower in this earth? i cant imagine the kind of prospects that lie in China n i love China!
lan lao shi asked a question.. wad issit that can solve the problems in China? back from the 19th century, there were already many problems in China and all the different political figures who came up did not solve her problems. who n wad will? somehow in my heart i already have the answer. and somehow in my mind i already see the vision. yahoo!
i was jus so excited and so stirred up by wad lan lao shi say n honestly, i think this is wad God wants me to know. and it might jolly well as sth to do with my calling. i m sooooo interested in cultural revolution. it is like such an interesting part of history. wad will the development of China be 3 yrs frm now when i get out of NTU? will it be the top country in the world tog with US or will it even overtake US to be the superpower in this earth? i cant imagine the kind of prospects that lie in China n i love China!
lan lao shi asked a question.. wad issit that can solve the problems in China? back from the 19th century, there were already many problems in China and all the different political figures who came up did not solve her problems. who n wad will? somehow in my heart i already have the answer. and somehow in my mind i already see the vision. yahoo!
Thursday, March 30, 2006
excited!
i got all excited over a chess game n adrenaline is still pumping. amazing huh.. haah. i played chess for 2 hours n i m so excited now!
Monday, March 27, 2006
pay positive attention.
by phil pringle
The key to growing anything is to pay it positive attention.
'Pay' The price is time. Make time for the highest priorities-like your children, your spouse.
'Positive' Give attention to the positives. Don't be hijacked by the negatives which can so easily claim our attention.
'Attention' Give undistracted attention to the person. Turn off the TV, the cell phone, put down your pen, the book and look them in the eye. Listen, hear what they're saying. Connect.
The key to growing anything is to pay it positive attention.
'Pay' The price is time. Make time for the highest priorities-like your children, your spouse.
'Positive' Give attention to the positives. Don't be hijacked by the negatives which can so easily claim our attention.
'Attention' Give undistracted attention to the person. Turn off the TV, the cell phone, put down your pen, the book and look them in the eye. Listen, hear what they're saying. Connect.
Friday, March 24, 2006
我讨厌无理取闹！
在很迟钝的情况下，我有个惊人的发现，晓亭讨厌无理取闹。真得很讨厌。讨厌人家为了没有原因的原因发脾气，讨厌人家不好好把事情解释清楚，讨厌人家为了莫名的原因大作文章。
就一个早上，不知不觉听着cheryl的歌，我哭了。总觉得人走到一个阶段，需要滴下一些眼泪，让自己发泄一下，才懂得下一步要怎么做。现在晓亭正想这么做。。
有时我喜欢自己不停的忙着。。自己才不会想这么多。。
读了许怀良的访问。。莫名的感动。
看了“活着”，莫名的激动。。
上了蓝老师的课，莫名的共鸣。。
坐在这里。。 莫名的。。 莫名的。。 莫名的。。
就一个早上，不知不觉听着cheryl的歌，我哭了。总觉得人走到一个阶段，需要滴下一些眼泪，让自己发泄一下，才懂得下一步要怎么做。现在晓亭正想这么做。。
有时我喜欢自己不停的忙着。。自己才不会想这么多。。
读了许怀良的访问。。莫名的感动。
看了“活着”，莫名的激动。。
上了蓝老师的课，莫名的共鸣。。
坐在这里。。 莫名的。。 莫名的。。 莫名的。。
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
my 200th entry
it is abnormal that i m blogging 2 times in a day. but i really enjoy writing, typing and what-have-u.
had a really good time reading my senior's blog. n i think this is an area in which helen n i r really alike, we love to discover and noe how pple think, esp those that r deemed as "intelluctual", in which we begin to be inspired by the things that they write. well, i was reading and was really enjoying myself until i came to a part, in which he started to say some stuff that disturbed me. and i stopped.
i feel like i m sitting in front of my com, knowing that i have tons of workload behind me, n i m supposed to do them, yet my mind is blank, but i m jus trying to conjure sth out. the truth hurts they always say. n i suspect i feel this way cos i had a revelation of the truth. not that i dunno wad to do. i think i do, but the truth still hurts.
ever wondered y u have frens? sometimes one of the things that i m most afraid of is human relationships. becos it is sth that is so unpredictable, it can bring u sky high, and cause u to fall valley low. sth i learn as a human being for yrs is --- pple do let u down. sad but real fact.
i used to think that i m strong, courageous but at times i beg to differ. and this is one of the times that i cant agree.
God strengthen my heart.
be careful bout the things u say, the attitude u have towards others. becos u can hurt them, before u noe it.
had a really good time reading my senior's blog. n i think this is an area in which helen n i r really alike, we love to discover and noe how pple think, esp those that r deemed as "intelluctual", in which we begin to be inspired by the things that they write. well, i was reading and was really enjoying myself until i came to a part, in which he started to say some stuff that disturbed me. and i stopped.
i feel like i m sitting in front of my com, knowing that i have tons of workload behind me, n i m supposed to do them, yet my mind is blank, but i m jus trying to conjure sth out. the truth hurts they always say. n i suspect i feel this way cos i had a revelation of the truth. not that i dunno wad to do. i think i do, but the truth still hurts.
ever wondered y u have frens? sometimes one of the things that i m most afraid of is human relationships. becos it is sth that is so unpredictable, it can bring u sky high, and cause u to fall valley low. sth i learn as a human being for yrs is --- pple do let u down. sad but real fact.
i used to think that i m strong, courageous but at times i beg to differ. and this is one of the times that i cant agree.
God strengthen my heart.
be careful bout the things u say, the attitude u have towards others. becos u can hurt them, before u noe it.
my mind is filled.. with so much "what-have-u"s. our world is so fallen.. humans r so carnal.
a lot of times i wished that whatever i m thinking up there, feeling in there, it will jus automatically transformed itself into words then appear here. gee. and probably i will not be so weighed down by them anymore.
ever hoped that life will slow down so that u can take a breather? i did. n i m still hoping. but it is not gonna happen i noe.
sorry guys i noe my entry sounds so big-time pessimistic and depressing.. and many would say.. ger this is so unlike u.
n it is! haah. but i will always conclude. no matter how tough things r in my life, how matter wad kind of discouragements or challenges i go thru, i noe He is here, walking with me.
walking walking walking.. n when i cant walk anymore. He carries me. and becos of that guys..
life is beautiful. *muackz*
a lot of times i wished that whatever i m thinking up there, feeling in there, it will jus automatically transformed itself into words then appear here. gee. and probably i will not be so weighed down by them anymore.
ever hoped that life will slow down so that u can take a breather? i did. n i m still hoping. but it is not gonna happen i noe.
sorry guys i noe my entry sounds so big-time pessimistic and depressing.. and many would say.. ger this is so unlike u.
n it is! haah. but i will always conclude. no matter how tough things r in my life, how matter wad kind of discouragements or challenges i go thru, i noe He is here, walking with me.
walking walking walking.. n when i cant walk anymore. He carries me. and becos of that guys..
life is beautiful. *muackz*
Monday, March 20, 2006
i like adriano!
suddenly i feel so happy. although i really haven done much. muaahaha. i m a happy happy happy girl.. (:
Sunday, March 19, 2006
a nice chat
it's been some time since i last blogged i think. and i always blog on saturdays i realise. saturdays r thinking days. acty thru'out the week there r many times i feel like blogging, but whenever i sit in front of the monitor, i will feel so tired that i dun really wan to try. and now.. i shall start blogging again.
i think i m realli a thinker. haah. as in i love to think. i do.. and i jus had a nice little chat with some nice pple and it evokes a lot of thought in me.
i love God. cos He is realli amazing and recently when i m jus thinking bout my life, i realise that i realli have grown a lot. and that was wad meiyan said will happen to me.. and i did. and i think being a cgl is really one of the best things that has happened in my life. i love it when God uses me to impact the lives of others.. that is one of the greatest joy i have being a cgl. to see my members growing, loving God more, being more committed, changed by the glory of God, seeing pple getting saved.. man.. i love my life.
jus reali wan to appreciate God for wad He is doing thru me. the great things. thank u Jesus
i think i m realli a thinker. haah. as in i love to think. i do.. and i jus had a nice little chat with some nice pple and it evokes a lot of thought in me.
i love God. cos He is realli amazing and recently when i m jus thinking bout my life, i realise that i realli have grown a lot. and that was wad meiyan said will happen to me.. and i did. and i think being a cgl is really one of the best things that has happened in my life. i love it when God uses me to impact the lives of others.. that is one of the greatest joy i have being a cgl. to see my members growing, loving God more, being more committed, changed by the glory of God, seeing pple getting saved.. man.. i love my life.
jus reali wan to appreciate God for wad He is doing thru me. the great things. thank u Jesus
Thursday, March 09, 2006
现实与理想
刚做完一个哲学的presentation,晓亭松了一口气，真的好开心，而且感觉很有满足感。但是，美中不足的是，现实与理想仍然是有差距的。
常觉得在我的生活里，在许多方面，总觉得理想与现实有个差距。想实现的，往往感觉目标太遥远，但是昨天在和朋友谈天时，又想到以前从瑞典的一个牧师说过，everything u see with ur physical eyes is subject to change. 有时感觉以前的我太消极，太沮丧。从今我要以另外一种角度去看待我的生活，相信-- 现实是可以符合理想的。
smith wigglesworth always say -- only believe.
常觉得在我的生活里，在许多方面，总觉得理想与现实有个差距。想实现的，往往感觉目标太遥远，但是昨天在和朋友谈天时，又想到以前从瑞典的一个牧师说过，everything u see with ur physical eyes is subject to change. 有时感觉以前的我太消极，太沮丧。从今我要以另外一种角度去看待我的生活，相信-- 现实是可以符合理想的。
smith wigglesworth always say -- only believe.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Sunday, February 26, 2006
从来都没有想过文字是我的专长，但是我却羡慕那些能挥洒自如的朋友。刚看了康熙来了。这电视节目是我很欣赏的一个， 我总觉得它没有其他的综艺节目来的肤浅，而我喜欢它带给我的启发。
今天上节目的是伊能静，而今天的节目也给了我很多感触。当我在听着康永念着她的书时，有一种默默的感动。她所使用的文字很美。文人常常会喜欢咬文嚼字，她并不是这样。那一段话捕捉的是一种淡淡的感觉，带有一些神秘色彩，但却让人感到真实，仿佛身临其境。
我好希望有一天我能这样的写出我人生的经历，虽然现在如我所希望，在中文系上课，但是因为生活有时会有些枯燥乏闷，我开始把读华文当作是理所当然，也开始不懂得如何去发掘它的美。理想与现实往往都有个距离，但是相信他的好处是，他能让理想成为现实。
人生是不是一系列的失败，爬起来，学习，成功，再失败，再爬起来，再成功？
人生是很美丽的。
今天上节目的是伊能静，而今天的节目也给了我很多感触。当我在听着康永念着她的书时，有一种默默的感动。她所使用的文字很美。文人常常会喜欢咬文嚼字，她并不是这样。那一段话捕捉的是一种淡淡的感觉，带有一些神秘色彩，但却让人感到真实，仿佛身临其境。
我好希望有一天我能这样的写出我人生的经历，虽然现在如我所希望，在中文系上课，但是因为生活有时会有些枯燥乏闷，我开始把读华文当作是理所当然，也开始不懂得如何去发掘它的美。理想与现实往往都有个距离，但是相信他的好处是，他能让理想成为现实。
人生是不是一系列的失败，爬起来，学习，成功，再失败，再爬起来，再成功？
人生是很美丽的。
Sunday, February 19, 2006
十八岁的天空
我真得很喜欢看这部戏。非常非常喜欢。十八岁的天空。连名字都取得好好好好听。
看了这部戏有种甜滋滋的感觉。看着一个个十八岁的少年，如何走出叛逆的时期，如何为一个目标奋斗，如何学会达成梦想，让我好怀念穿制服的日子，也让我蠢蠢欲动，打起当老师的念头。
我喜欢古越涛！哈哈
我很喜欢这部戏里给人满足的感觉。人生是美好的，值得憧憬的，是给予人无限幻想的。而不管你是谁，都有做梦与去追求梦想的权利。我要过这样的生活。（（（（：
看了这部戏有种甜滋滋的感觉。看着一个个十八岁的少年，如何走出叛逆的时期，如何为一个目标奋斗，如何学会达成梦想，让我好怀念穿制服的日子，也让我蠢蠢欲动，打起当老师的念头。
我喜欢古越涛！哈哈
我很喜欢这部戏里给人满足的感觉。人生是美好的，值得憧憬的，是给予人无限幻想的。而不管你是谁，都有做梦与去追求梦想的权利。我要过这样的生活。（（（（：
Saturday, February 18, 2006
it is so xiaoting...
it is so xiaoting that frm time to time i will start to think n to dream. i cant deny the fact that we live in a fallen world! haah. i always like how sheryl blogged in her blog.. let's see if i will ever manage to write sth so well.
there was once a little ger.... who hated herself, hated the world ard her, and hated everything. she felt sad n most of the time she despised herself.
one day her prince charming came, swept her off her feet and assured that she is everything he is made for. he loved her with all of his heart, n of cos she did too. she loved him so much...
but she realli could not believe that this man loved her. to her, she is so ugly, so not worthy of his love. how can an ugly duckling like her be tog with a man so perfect?
and she decided to run away. from him n frm his love. she could not bear to live in his arms and she felt so inadequate.
thank God this prince charming did not give up on her but loved her to the end. he wooed her... to the ends of the earth. and he made a promise, i will nv nv nv nv let u go. even if u were to run to the ends of the earth, i will be there.
sometimes she feels lost, confused, as if all this is not real, but his appearance assured her that there is really hope on earth. she is not hopeless, she is not destinied for failure, becos of him, everything is going to be so okie. n no matter wad happened, she knew deep in her heart that this man will be there for her.
daddy, a big thank You to u. when hope is gone, You gave me hope. when love is depleted, u put in me the strength to love. teach me how to walk every single day becos u noe that i simply cannot cannot cannot live without You. i dunno how to carry on if You dun show me. i dunno how i can continue walking if u r not there for me.
remind me always that u will write a beautiful story out of my life with a beautiful ending. all is not lost darling.
there was once a little ger.... who hated herself, hated the world ard her, and hated everything. she felt sad n most of the time she despised herself.
one day her prince charming came, swept her off her feet and assured that she is everything he is made for. he loved her with all of his heart, n of cos she did too. she loved him so much...
but she realli could not believe that this man loved her. to her, she is so ugly, so not worthy of his love. how can an ugly duckling like her be tog with a man so perfect?
and she decided to run away. from him n frm his love. she could not bear to live in his arms and she felt so inadequate.
thank God this prince charming did not give up on her but loved her to the end. he wooed her... to the ends of the earth. and he made a promise, i will nv nv nv nv let u go. even if u were to run to the ends of the earth, i will be there.
sometimes she feels lost, confused, as if all this is not real, but his appearance assured her that there is really hope on earth. she is not hopeless, she is not destinied for failure, becos of him, everything is going to be so okie. n no matter wad happened, she knew deep in her heart that this man will be there for her.
daddy, a big thank You to u. when hope is gone, You gave me hope. when love is depleted, u put in me the strength to love. teach me how to walk every single day becos u noe that i simply cannot cannot cannot live without You. i dunno how to carry on if You dun show me. i dunno how i can continue walking if u r not there for me.
remind me always that u will write a beautiful story out of my life with a beautiful ending. all is not lost darling.
Friday, February 17, 2006
caring system
was jus thinking bout it. think God has realli been speaking to me thru different means n pple about hearing the Word of God. the rhema Word. issit in bible studies or meetings n in reading the Bible, God has been emphasizing on this alot. about hearing the rhema Word. and isnt it true? that we really need to hear from God so that our lives r not one big boring routine that we keep on doing the same thing expecting different results but we noe that whatever we do is a divine Word from God.
i dun wan! jus to live my life in routine every day. i dun wan! jus to do it for the sake of doing it.
i wan to do wad God speaks to me about.
so let us not live our lives in some routine... doing for the sake of doing. let's step out n step into success, into wad God has called us to.
gambathe!
i dun wan! jus to live my life in routine every day. i dun wan! jus to do it for the sake of doing it.
i wan to do wad God speaks to me about.
so let us not live our lives in some routine... doing for the sake of doing. let's step out n step into success, into wad God has called us to.
gambathe!
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Thursday, February 09, 2006
还好我不是新加坡人
我从来都并不认为我是一个爱国主义者。。大家也常说新加坡人并不那么爱国，就当台湾人开始辱骂新加坡人时，我们也并不那么在意。
但是，但我看到龙应台所写的文章的标题时，我不禁感到愤愤不平。读了那篇文章后，更是感到生气，总想说，你凭什么批评我们？我心里其实充满着愤怒，但是我并不想写出不理性的看法，但是我还是很生气！
而我又继续的读他谈到台湾的文化，虽然同样是在批评台湾的文化，在语气上却是那么的不一样。
suddenly i jus could not realli express myself in chinese. shall do it in english instead. i used to kind of despise this place that i live in, thinking that we dun realli have our own characteristics and stuff. but u noe wad? over the yrs i have learnt to appreciate this envt i live in. i used to think of singapore as a place of no achievements, but over the yrs i realise that i m wrong! i used to read the papers and see so many singaporeans being high-achievers overseas.. issit behind the scenes doing graphics, sound and things like that.. and also singaporeans making a name for themselves overseas.. i m so proud of them! and i m loving this place that i m living.. and i m also convinced that we do produce talents! we r not a country n a pple who listen to our government and let our government dictate our lives and decide what we shld do! instead! we are pple who have dreams.. and we live it. pple like royston tan, nickson fong, elim chew, and so many so many other pple that have done our country proud! and seriously, pls dun think that singaporeans r jus a bunch of losers who dun really care bout wad u say bout them. we have international achievements, issit as a country or as individuals.. and we deserve the respect becos we have earned it. and for goodness sake, although we r still pretty repressed as a country, our PAP is really much better than many governements in the world and although i dun agree with them on everything, i m glad that i m a singaporen!!!!!
还好我是个新加坡人！
sorry for this blasting over this really really outdated article. it has really been a long time. haha. but i jus expressing my views.
但是，但我看到龙应台所写的文章的标题时，我不禁感到愤愤不平。读了那篇文章后，更是感到生气，总想说，你凭什么批评我们？我心里其实充满着愤怒，但是我并不想写出不理性的看法，但是我还是很生气！
而我又继续的读他谈到台湾的文化，虽然同样是在批评台湾的文化，在语气上却是那么的不一样。
suddenly i jus could not realli express myself in chinese. shall do it in english instead. i used to kind of despise this place that i live in, thinking that we dun realli have our own characteristics and stuff. but u noe wad? over the yrs i have learnt to appreciate this envt i live in. i used to think of singapore as a place of no achievements, but over the yrs i realise that i m wrong! i used to read the papers and see so many singaporeans being high-achievers overseas.. issit behind the scenes doing graphics, sound and things like that.. and also singaporeans making a name for themselves overseas.. i m so proud of them! and i m loving this place that i m living.. and i m also convinced that we do produce talents! we r not a country n a pple who listen to our government and let our government dictate our lives and decide what we shld do! instead! we are pple who have dreams.. and we live it. pple like royston tan, nickson fong, elim chew, and so many so many other pple that have done our country proud! and seriously, pls dun think that singaporeans r jus a bunch of losers who dun really care bout wad u say bout them. we have international achievements, issit as a country or as individuals.. and we deserve the respect becos we have earned it. and for goodness sake, although we r still pretty repressed as a country, our PAP is really much better than many governements in the world and although i dun agree with them on everything, i m glad that i m a singaporen!!!!!
还好我是个新加坡人！
sorry for this blasting over this really really outdated article. it has really been a long time. haha. but i jus expressing my views.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
having a great time
these few days i realli felt like i had a great time. God was jus speaking to me bout many many things and it is jus so amazing. really excited in my spirit bout wad God is going to do this yr. (:
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
stepping into 2006
tdy will probably be one of the last days in which i really played hard. last few days i think i really set out to play. and i did it. but i really enjoyed my last day of my chinese new yr holiday.
i shld jus summarise the things i did these couple of days.
friday i went back to hc. went shoppping. caught the last episode of love concierge.
sat went tm to shop for a while n bought a lovely top. da sao chu (not realli la) and reunion dinner.
sunday went bai nian and at night caught i not stupid too midnight.
monday went out studying and came back studying (acty i din accomplish much) n watched geisha.
n i shld i think comment on geisha. but i m too tired. haha.
tdy went out n went 61 gathering.
and i m so happy i went. we had such a good time jus toking bout the good OLD times. it is really so funny. haah. i laughed so so so hard abt all the silly things that happened. i think i have to stop it if not i will continue to comment.. i miss hc. haah. but it is really amazing cos so much happened in 2 yrs. i really treasure those memories of hc.. times when u really have classmates n good frens n everybody jus bond with everybody. i think it is difficult to do that in uni.
and like wad biao said, we r really different. as in our class is really special. we r like no other. we r so nonsensical and lame, and what's more, our lameness is so out of the world! haah. other than the 61ders, nobody will get n understand our jokes. normal pple wun laugh. realli. haah. i really suggest that we write a song called 我们这一班。
u will realise that everyone of our classmates has sth special. their own 特征. n that is like so interesting cos each one of us is so unique n we r so different but yet we come tog as one. i love it! haha. i love it when we laugh at things that r not really so funny.. i love it when we r lame.. i love it when we come tog n jus tok nonsense.. haha. i love it when we r noisy.. and we r. and according to the guys, the 4 of us r super noisy and always distract them during tutorials!!!! haha. i din realise that until tdy i think. wad a revelation. haha.
and 61 is jus such an interesting class with such interesting characters in it.. wei biao.. wun u write a book abt us and publish it pls?? call it.. 我们这一班。haha. pls pls.. let this inspire u! haha.
i had so much so much fun. thanks guys for such a wonderful time. love all of u. and i love 61 too! haha.
i shld jus summarise the things i did these couple of days.
friday i went back to hc. went shoppping. caught the last episode of love concierge.
sat went tm to shop for a while n bought a lovely top. da sao chu (not realli la) and reunion dinner.
sunday went bai nian and at night caught i not stupid too midnight.
monday went out studying and came back studying (acty i din accomplish much) n watched geisha.
n i shld i think comment on geisha. but i m too tired. haha.
tdy went out n went 61 gathering.
and i m so happy i went. we had such a good time jus toking bout the good OLD times. it is really so funny. haah. i laughed so so so hard abt all the silly things that happened. i think i have to stop it if not i will continue to comment.. i miss hc. haah. but it is really amazing cos so much happened in 2 yrs. i really treasure those memories of hc.. times when u really have classmates n good frens n everybody jus bond with everybody. i think it is difficult to do that in uni.
and like wad biao said, we r really different. as in our class is really special. we r like no other. we r so nonsensical and lame, and what's more, our lameness is so out of the world! haah. other than the 61ders, nobody will get n understand our jokes. normal pple wun laugh. realli. haah. i really suggest that we write a song called 我们这一班。
u will realise that everyone of our classmates has sth special. their own 特征. n that is like so interesting cos each one of us is so unique n we r so different but yet we come tog as one. i love it! haha. i love it when we laugh at things that r not really so funny.. i love it when we r lame.. i love it when we come tog n jus tok nonsense.. haha. i love it when we r noisy.. and we r. and according to the guys, the 4 of us r super noisy and always distract them during tutorials!!!! haha. i din realise that until tdy i think. wad a revelation. haha.
and 61 is jus such an interesting class with such interesting characters in it.. wei biao.. wun u write a book abt us and publish it pls?? call it.. 我们这一班。haha. pls pls.. let this inspire u! haha.
i had so much so much fun. thanks guys for such a wonderful time. love all of u. and i love 61 too! haha.
Monday, January 30, 2006
i not stupid too
jus came back frm watching "i not stupid too". i was nv a big fan of jack neo, but after reading some of the movie critics, i decided to give it a try.
n i was pretty impressed n amazed i mus say.
the show had the usual stuff.. humour and all. the usual literary devices.. but what is new is really the theme inside. it had a central theme n i mus say, the film has said all that it wanted to say and shld say.
i guess the best part of the movie is really how closely it relates to our lives and how real it is. and that is jack neo. the films that he has made? he has taken it straight out of our lives. maybe some of us might feel that it is too dramatic.. but i have got to admit, certain scenes there r scenes that i have witnessed myself.
and i cried buckets. i cried so hard that when i came out, my eyes were all red n puffy and i used up the entire packet of tissue and it was not enuff. in case u dunno me, i m a person who is moved by family stories and also how pple overcome obstacles, not so much of the lovey-dovey romances.
although i think that it was a bit too much to put so many of that current issues and stick all of them tog, but i still felt that jack neo did a great job. it was not a superficial film, sth that would cause u to think.. and maybe, even have an effect on ur life. and to me, that is success for a film maker already.
i would recommend all to watch, probably get the vcd and watch it with ur parents. it will be a rewarding time i think.
n i was pretty impressed n amazed i mus say.
the show had the usual stuff.. humour and all. the usual literary devices.. but what is new is really the theme inside. it had a central theme n i mus say, the film has said all that it wanted to say and shld say.
i guess the best part of the movie is really how closely it relates to our lives and how real it is. and that is jack neo. the films that he has made? he has taken it straight out of our lives. maybe some of us might feel that it is too dramatic.. but i have got to admit, certain scenes there r scenes that i have witnessed myself.
and i cried buckets. i cried so hard that when i came out, my eyes were all red n puffy and i used up the entire packet of tissue and it was not enuff. in case u dunno me, i m a person who is moved by family stories and also how pple overcome obstacles, not so much of the lovey-dovey romances.
although i think that it was a bit too much to put so many of that current issues and stick all of them tog, but i still felt that jack neo did a great job. it was not a superficial film, sth that would cause u to think.. and maybe, even have an effect on ur life. and to me, that is success for a film maker already.
i would recommend all to watch, probably get the vcd and watch it with ur parents. it will be a rewarding time i think.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
happy chinese new year.
happy 2006 again! haah.
yest i had a fruitful day, though tiring, going back to hwa chong n also going shopping.
interestingly, the route to hc seemed so long yesterday. i nv could understand y a 40-min ride seemed realli like eternity. but as i sat there, though now different, instead of wearing a brown uniform, i was wearing a skirt n nice shoes, looking nice with makeup on going to sch.
but i treasured every moment of it during the ride n nothing much seemed to have changed. sth changed though. smu is no longer there. ha. but serene centre n coro is so much so much the same. n i savoured every moment of it. stepping into hc, u feel so familiar yet so strange. 即熟悉又陌生的感觉。oh n i forgot to mention, the one thing that really felt strange was passing the sign that said Hwa Chong Institution instead of Hwa Chong Junior College. sorry tat i still cant get over it.
however, somehow this yr felt so much quieter. only the few of us. i kind of miss the 热闹of 61. there were so few of us yest. but! we were still as noisy as ever. haah. when we were in the lep staff room, the room was jus filled with our voices with biao covering his ears trying to stop da bian frm screeching into his ear. jus kidding. haah. and i cant forget the scene that at crystal jade, all of us started toking at the same time. it seemed like we cant get enough of talking and we had to talk. haah. it was realli funny and i guessed we were really noisy.
lep staff room felt different with onli yu n wang lao shi. i missed the familiar faces. and guess wad? the best compliment of the day was wang lao shi's comment b4 i left hc. he said...
i m becoming more n more like an ah lian. can u believe it? my eyes nearly popped out. seriously i felt pretty insulted. haa. but, thank God 我看得开。hee. it is okie la but it was realli kind of a funny comment. me becoming more n more ah lian and he also commented -- becoming more n more of the chionging/ chiongster type. not like our chionging as in clubbing. but more of like happening i shld say.. but seriously.. xiaoting ==> ah lian?? haah.
i guess it shld be a compliment. hee. ah lians r pretty right? haah. and after that we had a fab lunch with chow n teo. crystal jade on chow. aint that sweet? i think helen will die of jealousy. haah. hope u r reading this gal. n chow is as funny as ever but also as intelligent n deep as ever. he is still one of my fav tchers.
and i went shopping. again. yes i can imagine ur face right now. freeze right there! haah. nth much that i bought really, which is a good thing and i came back to catch love concierge. although it is a lame stupid silly romantic comedy, i still enjoy it all the same. haah.
and i guess that is abt it. i m going to slp n also spend some time these couple of days thinking bout my new yr goals. see ya.
yest i had a fruitful day, though tiring, going back to hwa chong n also going shopping.
interestingly, the route to hc seemed so long yesterday. i nv could understand y a 40-min ride seemed realli like eternity. but as i sat there, though now different, instead of wearing a brown uniform, i was wearing a skirt n nice shoes, looking nice with makeup on going to sch.
but i treasured every moment of it during the ride n nothing much seemed to have changed. sth changed though. smu is no longer there. ha. but serene centre n coro is so much so much the same. n i savoured every moment of it. stepping into hc, u feel so familiar yet so strange. 即熟悉又陌生的感觉。oh n i forgot to mention, the one thing that really felt strange was passing the sign that said Hwa Chong Institution instead of Hwa Chong Junior College. sorry tat i still cant get over it.
however, somehow this yr felt so much quieter. only the few of us. i kind of miss the 热闹of 61. there were so few of us yest. but! we were still as noisy as ever. haah. when we were in the lep staff room, the room was jus filled with our voices with biao covering his ears trying to stop da bian frm screeching into his ear. jus kidding. haah. and i cant forget the scene that at crystal jade, all of us started toking at the same time. it seemed like we cant get enough of talking and we had to talk. haah. it was realli funny and i guessed we were really noisy.
lep staff room felt different with onli yu n wang lao shi. i missed the familiar faces. and guess wad? the best compliment of the day was wang lao shi's comment b4 i left hc. he said...
i m becoming more n more like an ah lian. can u believe it? my eyes nearly popped out. seriously i felt pretty insulted. haa. but, thank God 我看得开。hee. it is okie la but it was realli kind of a funny comment. me becoming more n more ah lian and he also commented -- becoming more n more of the chionging/ chiongster type. not like our chionging as in clubbing. but more of like happening i shld say.. but seriously.. xiaoting ==> ah lian?? haah.
i guess it shld be a compliment. hee. ah lians r pretty right? haah. and after that we had a fab lunch with chow n teo. crystal jade on chow. aint that sweet? i think helen will die of jealousy. haah. hope u r reading this gal. n chow is as funny as ever but also as intelligent n deep as ever. he is still one of my fav tchers.
and i went shopping. again. yes i can imagine ur face right now. freeze right there! haah. nth much that i bought really, which is a good thing and i came back to catch love concierge. although it is a lame stupid silly romantic comedy, i still enjoy it all the same. haah.
and i guess that is abt it. i m going to slp n also spend some time these couple of days thinking bout my new yr goals. see ya.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
missing u.
i m missing u. who? i dunno. haah. recently thoughts filled my mind n i m back to my thinking mode again. if i live in chun qiu, i may probably be one of the philosophers.
tdy was jus mentioning lep to a fren. and i realise love filled my voice even when i toked abt my precious memories. i cant help but say... i love hwa chong! although things r nv going to be the same anymore, and they r not, i still love this sch that made me feel like i belonged.
i nv knew any other sch that made me stand with pride, saying, i m frm hcjc.
i nv knew any other sch that could move me to tears with pride during the announcement when i hear of their achievements.
i nv knew any other sch that gave me such freedom i felt like i was myself.
i nv knew any other sch that posed such challenge that i m determined to outdo myself each time.
i nv knew any other sch that i could call my second, or should i say third home. (2nd is city harvest!)
i nv knew any other sch that evokes such a patriotic spirit in me.
nope. there is really none like it. i love hwa chong junior college. not instituition.
tdy was jus mentioning lep to a fren. and i realise love filled my voice even when i toked abt my precious memories. i cant help but say... i love hwa chong! although things r nv going to be the same anymore, and they r not, i still love this sch that made me feel like i belonged.
i nv knew any other sch that made me stand with pride, saying, i m frm hcjc.
i nv knew any other sch that could move me to tears with pride during the announcement when i hear of their achievements.
i nv knew any other sch that gave me such freedom i felt like i was myself.
i nv knew any other sch that posed such challenge that i m determined to outdo myself each time.
i nv knew any other sch that i could call my second, or should i say third home. (2nd is city harvest!)
i nv knew any other sch that evokes such a patriotic spirit in me.
nope. there is really none like it. i love hwa chong junior college. not instituition.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
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| You Are a Warrior Soul |
You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods.You also value honesty and fairness a great deal.You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding.You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul |
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inspired
i just came across a senior's blog. after reading, it jus took me back to what Pst Kong was talking about on Sunday. and somehow, i m inspired to write, and to write beautifully.
i did not always learn to appreciate people who can write beautifully in English, cos in my heart, English somehow seems to be somewhat inferior to my mother tongue. No offence intended. and in my sch uniform days, i always admired those who wrote lovely poems that r so out of the world. in chinese of cos. but somehow, i have also learnt to appreciate this international language for itself. it can be realli beautiful despite it being able to be totally crude too.
Pst once told me, if u can read, u can speak. n that itself builds up ur confidence. it was a revelation to me. and since the end of 2005, writing n thinking have been a shelter, a refuge and i have fallen in love with writing all over again.
i cant help but come back to these thoughts. bout how much humans can achieve. this is sth that i always deeply believed inside of me, that there is so much we can do n achieve that we have not done before.
tdy i saw the bei da pple in ntu. it stirred up sth in me. however, i m jus as determined to make my life in ntu heaven on earth. i have a purpose and i will live it n fulfill it.
word of the day: predilection
i did not always learn to appreciate people who can write beautifully in English, cos in my heart, English somehow seems to be somewhat inferior to my mother tongue. No offence intended. and in my sch uniform days, i always admired those who wrote lovely poems that r so out of the world. in chinese of cos. but somehow, i have also learnt to appreciate this international language for itself. it can be realli beautiful despite it being able to be totally crude too.
Pst once told me, if u can read, u can speak. n that itself builds up ur confidence. it was a revelation to me. and since the end of 2005, writing n thinking have been a shelter, a refuge and i have fallen in love with writing all over again.
i cant help but come back to these thoughts. bout how much humans can achieve. this is sth that i always deeply believed inside of me, that there is so much we can do n achieve that we have not done before.
tdy i saw the bei da pple in ntu. it stirred up sth in me. however, i m jus as determined to make my life in ntu heaven on earth. i have a purpose and i will live it n fulfill it.
word of the day: predilection
Friday, January 20, 2006
sleepless
奇怪的是，我接了一通电话后，无法入眠。我以前很少知道失眠是什么感觉，因为没有多少事物能让我失眠，今夜，我闭上眼睛后，脑袋却不听使唤，以50km/h的速度驾驶，并没有停下来的意思。
而我只好以50words/min的速度，在键盘上打出我的心声。
我常常会看着自己，想想，我是不是做错了，或是什么地方做得不好，我总是对自己的要求很高。难道在对自己要求高的当儿，也不知不觉地对身旁的人有着同样的标准吗？我真的不想只过自己想要的生活，我想要过他要我过的生活，去行他的义。
现实和理想总是有个落差，难怪我们有这套学问叫做expectation management.
突然觉得，许多人认为晓亭常常都很开心，也对，哈哈，我真的是很少愁眉不展，但是欢乐的背后， 不是每个人都能看见的。但是，晓亭还是开心的。因为，我有了这么一个决定，我要过的充实，开心。世上没有打不开的解，也没有解决不了的问题，这是我深信的。在幽谷走着，有一天一定会走出来，看到美丽的太阳，不是吗？
刚才看了一个节目，“青春游走”，被lily goh的热忱感动了。我喜欢这一号人物，不被自己的状况限制，勇敢走出来。她才是我学习的榜样。
新的一年里，我不再沮丧，不再忧伤，因为有他，明天就有希望。
而我只好以50words/min的速度，在键盘上打出我的心声。
我常常会看着自己，想想，我是不是做错了，或是什么地方做得不好，我总是对自己的要求很高。难道在对自己要求高的当儿，也不知不觉地对身旁的人有着同样的标准吗？我真的不想只过自己想要的生活，我想要过他要我过的生活，去行他的义。
现实和理想总是有个落差，难怪我们有这套学问叫做expectation management.
突然觉得，许多人认为晓亭常常都很开心，也对，哈哈，我真的是很少愁眉不展，但是欢乐的背后， 不是每个人都能看见的。但是，晓亭还是开心的。因为，我有了这么一个决定，我要过的充实，开心。世上没有打不开的解，也没有解决不了的问题，这是我深信的。在幽谷走着，有一天一定会走出来，看到美丽的太阳，不是吗？
刚才看了一个节目，“青春游走”，被lily goh的热忱感动了。我喜欢这一号人物，不被自己的状况限制，勇敢走出来。她才是我学习的榜样。
新的一年里，我不再沮丧，不再忧伤，因为有他，明天就有希望。
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
painful experience
plucking ur wisdom tooth is a painful experience.
i remember in 1 Cor.. The bible says that every part of my body play a necessary part. now when i jus extract my wisdom tooth, i realli think it is so. jus removing one tooth has cost me so much pain n inconvenience. it is only thru these little things that u start to treasure the things that u have taken for granted. like brushing ur teeth. eating. drinking. haah. these r now so precious to me. and my stomach is growling. but i cant realli eat. haix.
i remember in 1 Cor.. The bible says that every part of my body play a necessary part. now when i jus extract my wisdom tooth, i realli think it is so. jus removing one tooth has cost me so much pain n inconvenience. it is only thru these little things that u start to treasure the things that u have taken for granted. like brushing ur teeth. eating. drinking. haah. these r now so precious to me. and my stomach is growling. but i cant realli eat. haix.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
i jus feel like blogging while i feel like slping at the same time. silly ger.
there r times in my life that i jus feel blissful. this is now how i feel. happy. contented n satisfied.
tdy's service was really good. a powerful msg pst preached bout eternity. i love being in the hse of God.
it is a happy thing that we get to enter a new yr n start life anew. hee. that we can put behind past things n move on n love God.
i still love cs lewis. i m going on to the 4th book of chronicles of narnia.
i love my life love chc love my psts n ldrs and love my cg n love Jesus.
i love serving the Lord.
i love my frens. i love u.
there r times in my life that i jus feel blissful. this is now how i feel. happy. contented n satisfied.
tdy's service was really good. a powerful msg pst preached bout eternity. i love being in the hse of God.
it is a happy thing that we get to enter a new yr n start life anew. hee. that we can put behind past things n move on n love God.
i still love cs lewis. i m going on to the 4th book of chronicles of narnia.
i love my life love chc love my psts n ldrs and love my cg n love Jesus.
i love serving the Lord.
i love my frens. i love u.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
desires of ur heart
In the Bible, God promises that if u delight urself in the LORD, He will give u the desires of ur heart. well i m glad to say that God did that for me.
i realli wanted to have a break.. to let my mind n emotions rest. n i did. had a wonderful time the past few days resting. n God blessed me in a tremendous way.
kinda of prepared to face the new yr. Just need to soak myself more in His presence.
till then.
i realli wanted to have a break.. to let my mind n emotions rest. n i did. had a wonderful time the past few days resting. n God blessed me in a tremendous way.
kinda of prepared to face the new yr. Just need to soak myself more in His presence.
till then.
Monday, January 02, 2006
chronicles of narnia
tdy watched chronicles of narnia! it is such such a cool show. haah. i m in love with it. n i m convinced that c s lewis is an amazing author. (:
tml is the first day of sch! i m kinda excited bout it.
anyway.. this r my goals for the yr.
1. fix my eyes upon Him no matter wad. that i will look to Him n nothing else.
2. study realli realli hard!
3. have greater faith in myself n in God
4. be a great reader!
5. and many many else that i not gg to put here..
i will work hard for God in this coming yr. tat is the power of focus. i will not allow myself to be distracted. xt jia you!
tml is the first day of sch! i m kinda excited bout it.
anyway.. this r my goals for the yr.
1. fix my eyes upon Him no matter wad. that i will look to Him n nothing else.
2. study realli realli hard!
3. have greater faith in myself n in God
4. be a great reader!
5. and many many else that i not gg to put here..
i will work hard for God in this coming yr. tat is the power of focus. i will not allow myself to be distracted. xt jia you!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Friday, December 30, 2005
here i m. back again.
okie. i m back again. trying to blog bout some stuff bout this yr. it is realli weird. cos tdy is the 30th of dec n i jus cant feel in any way wanting to think bout my yr again or reflecting on wad happen or wanting to set new goals for the new yr. there r still issues not resolved. gee.
realli. there isnt at all a mood that i m stepping into the new yr.
this yr was a yr full of challenges. i once wondered n thot.. wad issit like to be Pst? when u faced opposition frm the devil all the time. before i became a cgl, my life was still pretty okie. of cos there r challenges here n there. but man.. i dunno wad r challenges until i became a cgl.
this was a yr of ups n downs, highs n lows. but sth that was consistent was that i grew. i realli did. grew to be more mature.. and to quote sis meiyan, she said u will learn to grow stronger emotionally. i did. spiritually i grew. n grew closer to God than i nv did before. well typing it till here.. i realli do feel.. this has been a great yr after all.
many times i will be full of not-so-happiness.. thinking.. huh y is this like this n that like that n stuff.. but suddenly at the end of this yr, i jus realised, instead of being so discontented, i was really thank God for the things in my life. n here is wad i can thank God for...
1. i thank God that this is my 10th yr in chc. n in my 10th yr, he chose to raise me up as a cgl. it has been a priveilege to serve Him, to change lives, to touch lives n to help His people grow. thank you for making me a leader.
2. i thank God for my leaders. for Pst YK and for sis meiyan. for pastor always being so inspiring and motivating. that enable me to always dream bigger dreams for Him. n thank God a dozen dozen lot for sis meiyan. for her wisdom n her advice always. for her listening ear. for her understanding n knowing-me-so-well. for her encouragement when i m down. for jus being my leader n teaching me how to become better. thank God for her.
3. i thank God for my members. for a gp of pple who love God n pple. who nv fail to inspire me n to cheer me on with their love n passion for the lost n their sch. they r one of the greatest pple u can ever lead. no doubt they have their weaknesses.. but yet like Jesus, i will learn to see them thru my eyes of faith. believing that they will be like the 12 disciples, one day, turning their world upside down for God.. and they r already starting to do that.
4. i thank God for frens. for good godly frens. i noe that i can be so noisy n nonsensical at times. but God placed pple in life who love me n put up with me and always there when i feel like i m so alone. thank God for good frens!
5. thank God for the doors He has opened to me. for working in chec. for teaching in AHS n DHS. for going to taiwan with pst YK. those were experiences i treasure frm the bottom of my heart. i have learnt so much this past yr jus by working alone. and my missionary trip was this yr.
6. i thank God for His provision. that God provided for me. always. n He blessed me so that i can be a blessing. and that He brought me to ISrael and opened my eyes to the Holy Land. wad a priveilege.
7. i thank God for growth. that He has grown my cg, brought in pple n changed lives. and we will continue to grow.
8. i thank God for good results. in hwa chong n in ntu. that He has blessed me to do well.
9. i thank God for city harvest and our senior pst. that God has placed me in a great church so that i can do great things for Him. and our pst who loves us so much n sacrificed so much for us. words cannot express my gratitude.
10. one last thing.. i thank God for Him. that He has always been there in my life. He has never left me nor forsook me. jus like He promised. n He is always standing by me, loving me, encouraging me. every time i m down, He will be there to say xiaoting it is okie, u can do it. with me, all things r possible. when i feel lonely, He will be there. saying i m with u always, even to the end of the age.
God, words alone realli cannot express my gratitude towards u. You have been amazing to me. i know that there r times that i let u down, days when i allow the devil to step over me, days o jus refused to get up n move on. but i wan to thank You for believing in me right from the beginning. that You trusted me enough to take care n allowed me to be a shepherd to ur pple. When i m down, u were always there, right by my side, cheering me on. i m who i m tdy becos of You. n i stay standing right here becos of You. all that i have done is not by my own strength. thank You for enabling me.
love ya lots lots lots lots lots. i love You.
realli. there isnt at all a mood that i m stepping into the new yr.
this yr was a yr full of challenges. i once wondered n thot.. wad issit like to be Pst? when u faced opposition frm the devil all the time. before i became a cgl, my life was still pretty okie. of cos there r challenges here n there. but man.. i dunno wad r challenges until i became a cgl.
this was a yr of ups n downs, highs n lows. but sth that was consistent was that i grew. i realli did. grew to be more mature.. and to quote sis meiyan, she said u will learn to grow stronger emotionally. i did. spiritually i grew. n grew closer to God than i nv did before. well typing it till here.. i realli do feel.. this has been a great yr after all.
many times i will be full of not-so-happiness.. thinking.. huh y is this like this n that like that n stuff.. but suddenly at the end of this yr, i jus realised, instead of being so discontented, i was really thank God for the things in my life. n here is wad i can thank God for...
1. i thank God that this is my 10th yr in chc. n in my 10th yr, he chose to raise me up as a cgl. it has been a priveilege to serve Him, to change lives, to touch lives n to help His people grow. thank you for making me a leader.
2. i thank God for my leaders. for Pst YK and for sis meiyan. for pastor always being so inspiring and motivating. that enable me to always dream bigger dreams for Him. n thank God a dozen dozen lot for sis meiyan. for her wisdom n her advice always. for her listening ear. for her understanding n knowing-me-so-well. for her encouragement when i m down. for jus being my leader n teaching me how to become better. thank God for her.
3. i thank God for my members. for a gp of pple who love God n pple. who nv fail to inspire me n to cheer me on with their love n passion for the lost n their sch. they r one of the greatest pple u can ever lead. no doubt they have their weaknesses.. but yet like Jesus, i will learn to see them thru my eyes of faith. believing that they will be like the 12 disciples, one day, turning their world upside down for God.. and they r already starting to do that.
4. i thank God for frens. for good godly frens. i noe that i can be so noisy n nonsensical at times. but God placed pple in life who love me n put up with me and always there when i feel like i m so alone. thank God for good frens!
5. thank God for the doors He has opened to me. for working in chec. for teaching in AHS n DHS. for going to taiwan with pst YK. those were experiences i treasure frm the bottom of my heart. i have learnt so much this past yr jus by working alone. and my missionary trip was this yr.
6. i thank God for His provision. that God provided for me. always. n He blessed me so that i can be a blessing. and that He brought me to ISrael and opened my eyes to the Holy Land. wad a priveilege.
7. i thank God for growth. that He has grown my cg, brought in pple n changed lives. and we will continue to grow.
8. i thank God for good results. in hwa chong n in ntu. that He has blessed me to do well.
9. i thank God for city harvest and our senior pst. that God has placed me in a great church so that i can do great things for Him. and our pst who loves us so much n sacrificed so much for us. words cannot express my gratitude.
10. one last thing.. i thank God for Him. that He has always been there in my life. He has never left me nor forsook me. jus like He promised. n He is always standing by me, loving me, encouraging me. every time i m down, He will be there to say xiaoting it is okie, u can do it. with me, all things r possible. when i feel lonely, He will be there. saying i m with u always, even to the end of the age.
God, words alone realli cannot express my gratitude towards u. You have been amazing to me. i know that there r times that i let u down, days when i allow the devil to step over me, days o jus refused to get up n move on. but i wan to thank You for believing in me right from the beginning. that You trusted me enough to take care n allowed me to be a shepherd to ur pple. When i m down, u were always there, right by my side, cheering me on. i m who i m tdy becos of You. n i stay standing right here becos of You. all that i have done is not by my own strength. thank You for enabling me.
love ya lots lots lots lots lots. i love You.
last cg meeting of the yr
tdy was my first thanksgiving cg meeting that i took.thank God that the end is always greater than the beginning and i m happy at how the cg ended. it jus feels a bit weird cos this time i m conducting it.this yr it is different. but it was a great great thanksgiving. (: i enjoyed myself totally. frm the games to the cgm to the video and the bbq.
acty i m not realli in a mood to blog. but i really wanna thank my cg. so here u r.
i realli liked the video. came home n watched it n laughed my head off. n yeah i saw that break dance. haah. it was realli hilarious. no kidding. guys thanx for loving me despite those many times u were scolded by me.. and putting up with ur cgl's craziness at times.
i dunno how to continue. too tired. another time maybe.
acty i m not realli in a mood to blog. but i really wanna thank my cg. so here u r.
i realli liked the video. came home n watched it n laughed my head off. n yeah i saw that break dance. haah. it was realli hilarious. no kidding. guys thanx for loving me despite those many times u were scolded by me.. and putting up with ur cgl's craziness at times.
i dunno how to continue. too tired. another time maybe.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
xmas is here :)
tdy is the eve of xmas. time realli flies isnt it? tdy is already the 24th of dec. i tend to get realli nostalgic when the end of the yr comes. haah. cos i still cannot get used to the speed of time. it seems to travel faster than light. before u noe it, it has already passed u. kind of eerie isnt it? ni cant believe i have passed my 19-yr-old life n next yr i m 20. it is starting with a 2. i think i better start bucking up n make greater use of my time!
Monday, December 19, 2005
lovely song
BEFORE THE WORLD BEGAN
YOU WERE ON HIS MIND
EVERY TEAR YOU CRY
IS PRECIOUSIN HIS EYES
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
NOTHING YOU CAN DO
COULD MAKE HIM LOVE YOU MORE
NOTHING YOU HAVE DONE
COULD MAKE HIM CLOSE THE DOOR
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
COME TO THE FATHER
THOUGH YOUR GIFT IS SMALL
BROKEN HEARTS BROKEN LIVES
HE WILL TAKE THEM ALL
THE POWER OF THE WORD
THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
this is how God feels towards u.
wun u come to the Father tdy?
YOU WERE ON HIS MIND
EVERY TEAR YOU CRY
IS PRECIOUSIN HIS EYES
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
NOTHING YOU CAN DO
COULD MAKE HIM LOVE YOU MORE
NOTHING YOU HAVE DONE
COULD MAKE HIM CLOSE THE DOOR
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
COME TO THE FATHER
THOUGH YOUR GIFT IS SMALL
BROKEN HEARTS BROKEN LIVES
HE WILL TAKE THEM ALL
THE POWER OF THE WORD
THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME
this is how God feels towards u.
wun u come to the Father tdy?
Thursday, December 08, 2005
expo!
wow wow wow wow! we had our first meeting at expo tdy! our prayer meeting! it was realli realli cool n exciting! we prayed n prayed n tarried in the presence of God. and it was tremendous! Pst Kong said that he felt like the heavens is breaking! we felt so too! there was jus like a new wave of anointing.. a new thing that God is doing in the church!
i m jus so determined that as an individual n as a cg, we r gg to move up another level too!
i m jus so determined that as an individual n as a cg, we r gg to move up another level too!
Monday, December 05, 2005
and..
and.. this is the place God raised me up to be a cgl! i will nv nv forget how God used these yrs to mould me and to bring me into my calling! thank u Jesus!
and..
and.. this is the place God raised me up to be a cgl! i will nv nv forget how God used these yrs to mould me and to bring me into my calling! thank u Jesus!
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