It came because God has been speaking to me recently and bringing me through certain things.
Many times as a believer, I would hear people share about how God move and take them by surprise etc - meaning something happens on God's initiative.
Of course we know definitely that can happen in our lives, but I realise too often I place too much emphasis on myself.
When I do this, then this will happen.
When I do that, then that will happen.
Many things fall within my control and is a product of what I think of or experience in my quiet time.
Blame it on motherhood, but I find it more difficult to pray so consistently and in depth everyday, but what God has been doing in the last few weeks (or months) truly took me by surprise.
A few weeks ago when we were attending Emerge PM, as I interceded for the schools, I found myself getting emotional to the point of tears. It was a strange occurrence for me because it was really just a regular PM.
Same thing happened during Emerge.
What makes this experience special... was the feeling and burden I had during these meetings, were the same feelings I experienced about 10 yrs ago when God laid a burden in me for youths.
The first CG meeting after Emerge, God took me by surprise again.
He first gave me a word (and I often get a word of encouragement during CG), and as I shared it, I felt the spirit of prophecy come upon me and I started to prophesy.
I hesitated because it seemed to be too noble a prophecy to speak out in CG, but God moved so strongly in me that I couldn't resist that word. I prophesied about a coming river and revival...
Last Sunday I was in nursery and couldn't really catch the sermon. But as the worship team sang this song during ministry, teams well up in my eyes... as I was brought back to 10 yrs ago.
God started to reveal how He is a sovereign God... and He moves alone... many times independent of me... and this time He initiates many things in me...
I pray that 10 yrs later, when I have already stepped in motherhood, I know how I can and will respond to this leading of the Lord...
This song moved my heart...