Faith is getting up everytime u r knocked down.
this word struck me when i was giving bs. instead of me trying to bless my member and share a word with him, i felt like i was preaching to myself instead.
i felt like i had the wind knocked out of me. n i need strength n determination to get up.
but i m determined not to stay knocked down. i will do everything i can.
i will get up again.
see me soar.
Friday, September 28, 2007
last night i was talking to a fren. perhaps the fact that i worked in insurance company before, i can detect that tone.
not that i dun like my fren, or my boss, which in fact on the contrary, both of them taught me a lot of things, but somehow, i just DON'T have a good feeling abt insurance. No offense to all my frens who r advisors k, cos u guys r great ppl. N i will probably need ur help one day.
But it's frustrating that early in the morning u r woken up by a call from AIA head office, and having another advisor seeing u in an hour's time.
somehow, it's just a phobia of insurance.
not that i dun like my fren, or my boss, which in fact on the contrary, both of them taught me a lot of things, but somehow, i just DON'T have a good feeling abt insurance. No offense to all my frens who r advisors k, cos u guys r great ppl. N i will probably need ur help one day.
But it's frustrating that early in the morning u r woken up by a call from AIA head office, and having another advisor seeing u in an hour's time.
somehow, it's just a phobia of insurance.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
| Your Birthdate: July 28 |
 Your strength: Your bold approach to life Your weakness: You don't accept help Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Pyramid Your power month: October |
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
blogging.
这次看了爱情魔法师，感觉是很不同的。或许因为常常这样子看戏，所以现在比较懂得抽离，所以不会“困”在其中。但是看了戏后，感触挺多。
写一些下来吧。
其中一个影响我最深的，就是戏里小贝说的一句话。
人活着就是为了一个梦。
这戏的重点或许是小贝和杜亚斯的恋情，但我看来，让我感动最深的，还是小贝追求她的梦，而最终她成功。这一点，真的深深地打动了我。
人活着，就是为了一个梦。
昨天祷告的时候，这句话不停的重复在我脑海里。
我活着的原因是什么？为了怎样的一个梦？
an excerpt from pst phil's book "leadership excellence".
i thought it was brilliantly written. sharing with u.
"There will always be people we are called to serve, who we help to accomplish their purposes. Mentoring is vital to success. However, this involves more than just chatting with a more experienced person. The mentoring relationship is opened up through serving. People sometimes ask me to mentor them. All they need do is to help me do what I do and they'll find themselves in my world. They learn more by serving than by any other means. A good 'mentee' makes a great mentor. No matter how good a person's coach might be, if the person has no heart to serve and to learn, then they will fail to be coached."
i thought this is excellent. be blessed by it.
这次看了爱情魔法师，感觉是很不同的。或许因为常常这样子看戏，所以现在比较懂得抽离，所以不会“困”在其中。但是看了戏后，感触挺多。
写一些下来吧。
其中一个影响我最深的，就是戏里小贝说的一句话。
人活着就是为了一个梦。
这戏的重点或许是小贝和杜亚斯的恋情，但我看来，让我感动最深的，还是小贝追求她的梦，而最终她成功。这一点，真的深深地打动了我。
人活着，就是为了一个梦。
昨天祷告的时候，这句话不停的重复在我脑海里。
我活着的原因是什么？为了怎样的一个梦？
an excerpt from pst phil's book "leadership excellence".
i thought it was brilliantly written. sharing with u.
"There will always be people we are called to serve, who we help to accomplish their purposes. Mentoring is vital to success. However, this involves more than just chatting with a more experienced person. The mentoring relationship is opened up through serving. People sometimes ask me to mentor them. All they need do is to help me do what I do and they'll find themselves in my world. They learn more by serving than by any other means. A good 'mentee' makes a great mentor. No matter how good a person's coach might be, if the person has no heart to serve and to learn, then they will fail to be coached."
i thought this is excellent. be blessed by it.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Saturday, September 22, 2007
有一点sad
was just telling jeremy i love the way my life is and the way my cg is now. and i was trying to encourage to look on the bright side of things.
and now my mind is plagued with the bad side of things.
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him, to those who r the called according to His purpose.
was just telling jeremy i love the way my life is and the way my cg is now. and i was trying to encourage to look on the bright side of things.
and now my mind is plagued with the bad side of things.
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him, to those who r the called according to His purpose.
Friday, September 21, 2007
现在已经是凌晨4点多钟了，我真的很少这个时间睡觉。其实还蛮好的，因为经过了几个月的训练，我开始比较早睡。哈哈。
其实想写一些东西，只是脑子挺空白的。
下个星期，我放假了！
我真的觉得我需要休息。
休息是为了走更长远的路。
希望在忙功课之余，我能够好好的休息。
很奇怪，这个学期感觉自己好忙啊！也不知道在忙些什么，但总感觉我的功课真的好多。
晓亭，加油吧！
我的朋友- 这段时间，我体会到，什么是无声胜有声。不是我不要说，说了你又不听。很讨厌我们之间有隔阂，但有时却觉得很无奈，也真的没有想要去做什么。
my friend - it's ur life. and i dun have a right to tell u how u should live it. my prayer is that u will love Him more and more, and fulfil ur destiny in ur life.
其实要说的东西还有很多，但是在这里说不出来，或许这是少数的一次，我会把它们埋在心里，不说出来了。
其实想写一些东西，只是脑子挺空白的。
下个星期，我放假了！
我真的觉得我需要休息。
休息是为了走更长远的路。
希望在忙功课之余，我能够好好的休息。
很奇怪，这个学期感觉自己好忙啊！也不知道在忙些什么，但总感觉我的功课真的好多。
晓亭，加油吧！
我的朋友- 这段时间，我体会到，什么是无声胜有声。不是我不要说，说了你又不听。很讨厌我们之间有隔阂，但有时却觉得很无奈，也真的没有想要去做什么。
my friend - it's ur life. and i dun have a right to tell u how u should live it. my prayer is that u will love Him more and more, and fulfil ur destiny in ur life.
其实要说的东西还有很多，但是在这里说不出来，或许这是少数的一次，我会把它们埋在心里，不说出来了。
Monday, September 17, 2007
to YOU!
i have always thought that u r talented since jc days. for what i see on the outside, what i read is so entirely different, but somehow sth told me that u were someone really special.
it was exciting to read all those stories, hear all those things, and even more so to decipher what u wrote.
and i saw those pics and witnessed those smiles. perhaps u would never noe who i am, but i just want to say..
wishing u happiness.
your girl is lucky to have u, and from what i see, u r lucky too.
祝你们永远幸福。
i have always thought that u r talented since jc days. for what i see on the outside, what i read is so entirely different, but somehow sth told me that u were someone really special.
it was exciting to read all those stories, hear all those things, and even more so to decipher what u wrote.
and i saw those pics and witnessed those smiles. perhaps u would never noe who i am, but i just want to say..
wishing u happiness.
your girl is lucky to have u, and from what i see, u r lucky too.
祝你们永远幸福。
我发现到一样事情。i am an open book. that means that what i feel, i will tell. i hate bottling things up.
有时候我很羡慕那些能把心情用许许多多文字藏起来的朋友。那么，他们就可以随心所欲的道出他们的心情，而不必害怕别人会发现。
我就不一样了。
现在的感觉，我会很想写下来，但是由于观众你在这，我要学习自我审查。(self censorship)
这个周末有点恐怖，除了有很多仗要打之外，心情的起伏更是让我乱了手脚。我已经很久都没有这么多感触了。
好消息是 我打了一场漂亮的胜仗。我们在突破了。
现在需要调整心情，蓄势待发。
今天终于看了881。
心情还是起伏不定。
你什么时候才会静下来呢？
有时候我很羡慕那些能把心情用许许多多文字藏起来的朋友。那么，他们就可以随心所欲的道出他们的心情，而不必害怕别人会发现。
我就不一样了。
现在的感觉，我会很想写下来，但是由于观众你在这，我要学习自我审查。(self censorship)
这个周末有点恐怖，除了有很多仗要打之外，心情的起伏更是让我乱了手脚。我已经很久都没有这么多感触了。
好消息是 我打了一场漂亮的胜仗。我们在突破了。
现在需要调整心情，蓄势待发。
今天终于看了881。
心情还是起伏不定。
你什么时候才会静下来呢？
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Saturday, September 15, 2007
you know i was just thinking about it the other day. it's how amazing God brought us altogether and bring friends in our midst.
and i was just thinking about ken and weijian.
it's interesting how i knew them only 2 years ago, and they were still kids, literally kids. haha. one who was jumping ard all the time in pos and another one who was always trying to look cool. (weijian, tugging at his fringe, with his super low pants, and surprisingly a mugger and one who does really well, ha.) really in pos that yr, i din get close to many of them, sometimes as a ldr u just got to take care of everybody. but this bunch of ppl were really nice. right from the beginning they made me feel loved, though i was still a really young leader, and we were all just trying to make things right and to make pos a wonderful experience.
and thru pos, God showed me one thing, the impossible is nothing.
when everybody(and even ourselves) said that we would never have a chance in the prize, by our hard work and passion, we proved everybody wrong, including ourselves. it was a moment to cry for when we knew we were in top 3 really. and ppl din understand y were we so happy and passionate, but those in the team knew. knew that it was impossible and God did it for us.
but pos 2005 is over. but friendships r left behind.
the greatest joy that i had was to see lives changed thru pos, members maturing, being on fire for God, and friendships forged in this place, including my friendship with weijian and ken and all the rest.
and as a "shepherd" of my own sheep, i have made a decision to always look at my "sheep" with eyes of faith. and even today, when i look at ken and weijian, somehow sth tells me there is sth greater in store for u guys.
if i think wadeva i said was amazing, whatever that happened after was even more amazing. how amazing u guys left God one by one, and came by one by one. to say i was not sad was a lie. but somehow we knew u guys will be back.
and it's amazing how God bring the 2 of you tog to be frens. i always thot, u guys r so different, and weijian, y did u go down to ken's level??? haaha. but somehow i guess in the midst of all it is really God.
but more than all these, i knew that God made you guys friends for a purpose. by being in my life, you have made a difference, but i pray that you guys will do greater things for His kingdom.
You have a great destiny in store. For no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind can know, what God has in store for those who love Him.
To my 2 brothers in Christ, i love u guys absolutely who u r and what you have been, and i pray and pray and pray BOTH OF YOU will walk in the purpose and destiny that God has for you.
and i know BOTH OF YOU will.
and thank you for being my friend. :)
and i was just thinking about ken and weijian.
it's interesting how i knew them only 2 years ago, and they were still kids, literally kids. haha. one who was jumping ard all the time in pos and another one who was always trying to look cool. (weijian, tugging at his fringe, with his super low pants, and surprisingly a mugger and one who does really well, ha.) really in pos that yr, i din get close to many of them, sometimes as a ldr u just got to take care of everybody. but this bunch of ppl were really nice. right from the beginning they made me feel loved, though i was still a really young leader, and we were all just trying to make things right and to make pos a wonderful experience.
and thru pos, God showed me one thing, the impossible is nothing.
when everybody(and even ourselves) said that we would never have a chance in the prize, by our hard work and passion, we proved everybody wrong, including ourselves. it was a moment to cry for when we knew we were in top 3 really. and ppl din understand y were we so happy and passionate, but those in the team knew. knew that it was impossible and God did it for us.
but pos 2005 is over. but friendships r left behind.
the greatest joy that i had was to see lives changed thru pos, members maturing, being on fire for God, and friendships forged in this place, including my friendship with weijian and ken and all the rest.
and as a "shepherd" of my own sheep, i have made a decision to always look at my "sheep" with eyes of faith. and even today, when i look at ken and weijian, somehow sth tells me there is sth greater in store for u guys.
if i think wadeva i said was amazing, whatever that happened after was even more amazing. how amazing u guys left God one by one, and came by one by one. to say i was not sad was a lie. but somehow we knew u guys will be back.
and it's amazing how God bring the 2 of you tog to be frens. i always thot, u guys r so different, and weijian, y did u go down to ken's level??? haaha. but somehow i guess in the midst of all it is really God.
but more than all these, i knew that God made you guys friends for a purpose. by being in my life, you have made a difference, but i pray that you guys will do greater things for His kingdom.
You have a great destiny in store. For no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind can know, what God has in store for those who love Him.
To my 2 brothers in Christ, i love u guys absolutely who u r and what you have been, and i pray and pray and pray BOTH OF YOU will walk in the purpose and destiny that God has for you.
and i know BOTH OF YOU will.
and thank you for being my friend. :)
Thursday, September 13, 2007
上一个post, 我才刚说，我好累啊。在msn和一个朋友聊天，谈到一些令我兴奋的事，一些发生的好事，我就开始开心起来。
these few days, because of fatigue, i cannot bring myself to do nothing. i was thinking, i m just too tired to do anything.
但是，和他讲话之后，我突然觉得，我虽然累，但是我还要坚持。我虽然累，但是我还要积极，乐观。我虽然累，but i dun wan to whine and complain.
and i will look to u.
in times of fatigue, i will climb to u and say, Lord pick me up.
in times of fatigue, i will fall in ur arms and say, Lord strengthen me.
i will fight on.
i will overcome.
i am more than a conqueror.
and i will grow, and guard, and build.
oh yes i will.
and i can do all things. yes all things.
these few days, because of fatigue, i cannot bring myself to do nothing. i was thinking, i m just too tired to do anything.
但是，和他讲话之后，我突然觉得，我虽然累，但是我还要坚持。我虽然累，但是我还要积极，乐观。我虽然累，but i dun wan to whine and complain.
and i will look to u.
in times of fatigue, i will climb to u and say, Lord pick me up.
in times of fatigue, i will fall in ur arms and say, Lord strengthen me.
i will fight on.
i will overcome.
i am more than a conqueror.
and i will grow, and guard, and build.
oh yes i will.
and i can do all things. yes all things.
我大概等了5分钟，这个网页才出现。难怪你发现晓亭越来越少写部落格了。
从好几天前，我就想写了。想写我对《霸王别姬》这部片子的观后感，想写一些发生的莫名其妙事，想写好多好多。。 可是我一动笔，就不想写了，哈哈。
很奇怪的是，最近的我真得很累。真得很累。我会莫名其妙得上课上到一半而睡着，即使我昨晚已经睡了很多。不管我怎么睡，都补不回我需要的精力。我需要比睡眠更厉害的东西。。
今晚，我只想睡个好觉。明天起来跑步，祈祷从明天起，我会有精力去应付接踵而来的挑战。
typing in chinese may not be very reader-friendly to many of u. bear with me k? i need to improve my standard of Chinese.
God i need your strength.
for your grace is sufficient for me.
从好几天前，我就想写了。想写我对《霸王别姬》这部片子的观后感，想写一些发生的莫名其妙事，想写好多好多。。 可是我一动笔，就不想写了，哈哈。
很奇怪的是，最近的我真得很累。真得很累。我会莫名其妙得上课上到一半而睡着，即使我昨晚已经睡了很多。不管我怎么睡，都补不回我需要的精力。我需要比睡眠更厉害的东西。。
今晚，我只想睡个好觉。明天起来跑步，祈祷从明天起，我会有精力去应付接踵而来的挑战。
typing in chinese may not be very reader-friendly to many of u. bear with me k? i need to improve my standard of Chinese.
God i need your strength.
for your grace is sufficient for me.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Thursday, September 06, 2007
random
今天坐在巴士车站时，突然想到一样小时候我们常做的事。
记得12岁那年，我们总是会要求大家帮我们写autograph，而里头写的常常是一些有的没有的诗。
有一个是这样写到的。
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
小时候，真得不懂这句话的意义，或许只是在扮“小大人”。但是，回想起来，这句话对现在的我们，却是那么适当。
记得12岁那年，我们总是会要求大家帮我们写autograph，而里头写的常常是一些有的没有的诗。
有一个是这样写到的。
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
小时候，真得不懂这句话的意义，或许只是在扮“小大人”。但是，回想起来，这句话对现在的我们，却是那么适当。
认识他，好像挺久了。可是却像是今时今日才知道事实，他原来是这样的人。
我一直以为，他是一个正人君子，好好先生，百分百情人。尽管以前发生这么多事，我还是相信的。
我猛然发现，一直以来，我认为的友情是不值钱的，更从来没有看过一个比他更践踏友情和感情的人。
为他伤害的人感到不值
为自己的愚蠢感到愚蠢
我们终究回到“童言无忌”时说的那番话，
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
not impressed. by ur talent, looks and charisma.
but shocked, at ur total lack of character.
我上了一堂宝贵的课。
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
我很久没有下笔写点东西了。有时候，生活的步伐很快，快到我连停下来思考的时间都没有。
我。。毕业了。
thanx to all who cheered for me, thanx to my cg, thanx to meiyan, jeanie and xuan, thanx to weijian, ken, yang hong and ming xun, and thanx to sot team 19.
奇怪的是，我并没有伤感的感觉。当然不是因为我没有感觉，认识我的人都知道，我是个感情富裕的人。哈哈。可是，这次没有那种。。oh i m going to miss u.
反而觉得，something awaits me.
对，就是这种感觉。
很开心看到我撒的种子在成长，收割的时间快到了。
我正式开学了。
我。。毕业了。
thanx to all who cheered for me, thanx to my cg, thanx to meiyan, jeanie and xuan, thanx to weijian, ken, yang hong and ming xun, and thanx to sot team 19.
奇怪的是，我并没有伤感的感觉。当然不是因为我没有感觉，认识我的人都知道，我是个感情富裕的人。哈哈。可是，这次没有那种。。oh i m going to miss u.
反而觉得，something awaits me.
对，就是这种感觉。
很开心看到我撒的种子在成长，收割的时间快到了。
我正式开学了。
Sunday, September 02, 2007
我的最后一天
再过几个小时，我们就要毕业了。 真的要毕业了。
4个月又14天，酸甜苦辣，我们熬过了。
喜欢dr jeff 所说的，我们像是停在码头的船只，等着要离开港口。
那天我看着录影，心中有万分不舍。
这个港口是我的避风港。坐在那里，看着录影，他问我，你准备好了吗？
我的回答是
prepare me Lord.
many r called, few r chosen.
4个月又14天，酸甜苦辣，我们熬过了。
喜欢dr jeff 所说的，我们像是停在码头的船只，等着要离开港口。
那天我看着录影，心中有万分不舍。
这个港口是我的避风港。坐在那里，看着录影，他问我，你准备好了吗？
我的回答是
prepare me Lord.
many r called, few r chosen.
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