i had such a great time today. haha. beyond words.
i guess tdy i was like awakened once again. like wad said, some of us wish that this yr will not end so that we can enjoy a few more moments of it. haha. this is wad i m feeling. to bask myself in this year. but tdy i was reading a heart ablaze. n it says that true ministry flows out of our revelation of God's character. and it really struck me that my ministry got to flow out of my revelation and relationship with God. being 18 now, i kind of miss that kind of fire and so called craziness i had for God when i was younger. and i wish i was more passionate for Him. yup.
anyway tdy we had great fun. it was so hilarious that i really laughed so hard. thank God for the pple in my life.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
sorrie guys that it is alredi past 12 and christmas is over. xiaoting is in a really heavy mood now. haha. as in feeling really heavy. hee. cos i jus finished watching "so close" and all those who r reading this will laugh at me again cos i cried buckets. again. oh yes again. emotional xiaoting in act. i cant help it. really. i really cried and cried and cried. haha. den after that the stupid korea show also very heavy. n i feel heavier. haha.
full of thots in my brain now. thots plus thots plus thots. thinking abt how fast time has passed, how life has been, with its ups and downs, struggles and triumphs, thinking abt love and abt Him. Jesus Xiaoting loves you. so very much. tdy i was at service. i was jus standing there. n tears began to flow. when i jus thot abt Him. how great He has been to me. my source, my comfort, my shelter, my protection, my love, my lover, my Father, my Mother oh yes my Mother, my King, my Shepherd. thank you for taking me in Your arms. thank you for embracing me. for protecting me. for healing my broken heart. for restoring me. for that security. for making me whole. for loving me. for accepting me. jus as i m.
i simply cant live without You. i mean that. with all of my heart.
sorrie guys that it is alredi past 12 and christmas is over. xiaoting is in a really heavy mood now. haha. as in feeling really heavy. hee. cos i jus finished watching "so close" and all those who r reading this will laugh at me again cos i cried buckets. again. oh yes again. emotional xiaoting in act. i cant help it. really. i really cried and cried and cried. haha. den after that the stupid korea show also very heavy. n i feel heavier. haha.
full of thots in my brain now. thots plus thots plus thots. thinking abt how fast time has passed, how life has been, with its ups and downs, struggles and triumphs, thinking abt love and abt Him. Jesus Xiaoting loves you. so very much. tdy i was at service. i was jus standing there. n tears began to flow. when i jus thot abt Him. how great He has been to me. my source, my comfort, my shelter, my protection, my love, my lover, my Father, my Mother oh yes my Mother, my King, my Shepherd. thank you for taking me in Your arms. thank you for embracing me. for protecting me. for healing my broken heart. for restoring me. for that security. for making me whole. for loving me. for accepting me. jus as i m.
i simply cant live without You. i mean that. with all of my heart.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
i decided to blog. after so many days. haha.
my heart aches. for a fren whom i no longer can call a fren.
sometimes u will feel really sad, when a fren who was once running with u, by ur side, towards God, towards revival towards the Holy SPirit is now not by ur side anymore. it din occur to me that it will happen. y din anyone tell me that it will? den i will have more preparation for it and will treasure the relationships in my life more. my heart goes out to him.. but it feels like for the first time, he is so far away. he can be standing in front of me but he seems to be a million miles away. boy, it doesnt feel good. and we used to tok abt everything. and now nothing. haha. i lost a fren. and i pray he will be back in the arms of God again.
my heart aches. for a fren whom i no longer can call a fren.
sometimes u will feel really sad, when a fren who was once running with u, by ur side, towards God, towards revival towards the Holy SPirit is now not by ur side anymore. it din occur to me that it will happen. y din anyone tell me that it will? den i will have more preparation for it and will treasure the relationships in my life more. my heart goes out to him.. but it feels like for the first time, he is so far away. he can be standing in front of me but he seems to be a million miles away. boy, it doesnt feel good. and we used to tok abt everything. and now nothing. haha. i lost a fren. and i pray he will be back in the arms of God again.
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Monday, December 13, 2004
was jus toking to a fren. these few days thots flood my mind. quite disturbed abt certain things n came back to the pt that hey.. i need to be at the feet of Jesus waiting upon Him and putting my life on the altar. seriously, there r many things i wan for myself yet i noe that they r not godly desires. n we need to learn to crucify our flesh on the cross. u noe i was reading 2 tim and it says.. no one involved in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this world.. and also it says later in the same chapter(paul said to tim).. flee youthful lusts. seriouslyi feel that we all have many trials and tests we need to pass thru.. sometimes i jus feel like God y dun u jus take over the reins of my life and u live my life.. becos sometimes it is sometimes so tiring to control urself.. guard ur heart n mind. n i see the pple ard me.. indeed there r many who r more n more on fire for God.. yet there r also many.. whose fire has been put down. not becos God has not been there.. but becos they chose to walk their own way. i wish that day will not EVER happen to me. i cant bear that to happen.
Thursday, December 09, 2004
i have initially alredi switched off my com n preparing to sleep. but i happen to read thru the booklet we were given tdy and i was reading wad mr chow wrote for us. can i say.. tears filled my eyes even when i was reading it. thank you mr chow.
this is from me to 61.
Dear 61,
remember the endless phy remedials we had? i will not forget how we will "top" the level everytime we look at our block test results. the really special chart. we will always be below the average line n no matter how hard we tried, haha, for some reason, it still happened. but hey, i have faith that we will all make it in the 'a' levels.
remember our chem tutor ms chen? how so much things happen n in the end we sent her off with her ending in tears?
remember our dearest mr xia? who told us abt his twin brother and gave us the xian ku hou tian sweet.
remember mr julian lim? whom we seldom listened to but he was so nice that he taught us juggling!
remember mrs baddiley? haha. i cant forget how life was like in j2 with her and how at every phy prac mr chow will say "mrs baddiley is waiting!"
remember all our lep tutors? wei lao shi whom we always make fun of.. that he will be on a diet tml. wls. kapo who is ever so funny. su lao shi who told us abt the camping trip.. "soh soh where r u?" dr tan whom we all love. and chen lao shi who has left.. i cant forget all the days mugging for shi ci and hong lou. trying to swallow every piece of info and endless memorising. before ever lep exam.. all the cramming. all the jokes we have in class.. esp lep lessons.
remember mr chow? who was the one who told us all abt huang cheng, becos of him, i grew to love this place so much. i remember tears rolling down my eyes when he told us abt the wei lou and n how hard i cried while watching the dvd.. he din mind crapping with us and even teaching us in chinese.. n all the remedials to help us.. geeZ. n mr chow wrote in the book abt the laksa.. remember us in his car? all squeezed up tog and the joke abt FUTH n RUTH! haha. i remembered it was our funniest joke ever..
thank u mr chow for loving us. (haha so mushy) thank u for teaching us beyond the laws of physics into this world.. haha. i will nv forget u say that "maths is a slave for physics". hahaha. thank you for sharing with us for opening up to us for helping us. thank u for ur love for huang cheng and ur passion for teaching. tdy i saw it when u come n see us, that there was bu she de in ur eyes. i could see that u were like looking n thinking.. boy i m not going to teach them anymore. we will always come back n visit u!
remember the ponning sessions and the cs??? boy.. i guess that was so funniest. haha. at kap? being caught by ronnie quek? hahaha. and trying so hard not to laugh when toking to mr teo. haha. i cant take it. and dunno how many cs we got..
remember 30th anniversary, walking thru the haunted hse and scaring the pple... hahahaha.
and all the endless eating sessions.. i cant remember at where. it was so many. haha. and our always enthusiastic response to everything..
61.. i remember our endless "eh, hao xiao leh" "good (thumbs up)" "futh u lah!" and the stupid trend of cold jokes we started.. when we will jus keep on laughing at bu hao xiao de joke. i remember kian wee's got link ez link citi link and dunno wad link? haha. and wei biao's full of crap.. always toking rubbish. until i cant even remember a single of his joke. haha. n he has always been saying i love u to like how many dozen tchers.. haha. n our you qian ren joke.. how we used to endlessly niao terence abt his you nian ness.. n terence will say "call the press" whenever we say sumtin.. haha. yah! and the many zhen de bu zhen de bu zhen de bu.. haha. zhen de bu mei.. zhen de bu hao kan..
and the many k ge sessions we have.. being so crazy.. standing on the sofas and singing our hearts out. wo men shi k ge zhi ban.
now i think of a wei biao joke liao. den he will always ask yitian to slam pple.. haha. and i remember our pe lessons with ms lam.. how enthu we r at frisbee? haha. that last few pe lessons were the best.
i love u 61. u r the best class anyone can have.. for ur energy ur sincerity n everything u have given to xiaoting. u r a part of me. n u contribute to who i m tdy. i will miss every break every tutorial every lecture every exam every assembly with u guys. i will really really miss 61 miss hwa chong miss the times we had tog. 61, u r the best. now n forever.
this is from me to 61.
Dear 61,
remember the endless phy remedials we had? i will not forget how we will "top" the level everytime we look at our block test results. the really special chart. we will always be below the average line n no matter how hard we tried, haha, for some reason, it still happened. but hey, i have faith that we will all make it in the 'a' levels.
remember our chem tutor ms chen? how so much things happen n in the end we sent her off with her ending in tears?
remember our dearest mr xia? who told us abt his twin brother and gave us the xian ku hou tian sweet.
remember mr julian lim? whom we seldom listened to but he was so nice that he taught us juggling!
remember mrs baddiley? haha. i cant forget how life was like in j2 with her and how at every phy prac mr chow will say "mrs baddiley is waiting!"
remember all our lep tutors? wei lao shi whom we always make fun of.. that he will be on a diet tml. wls. kapo who is ever so funny. su lao shi who told us abt the camping trip.. "soh soh where r u?" dr tan whom we all love. and chen lao shi who has left.. i cant forget all the days mugging for shi ci and hong lou. trying to swallow every piece of info and endless memorising. before ever lep exam.. all the cramming. all the jokes we have in class.. esp lep lessons.
remember mr chow? who was the one who told us all abt huang cheng, becos of him, i grew to love this place so much. i remember tears rolling down my eyes when he told us abt the wei lou and n how hard i cried while watching the dvd.. he din mind crapping with us and even teaching us in chinese.. n all the remedials to help us.. geeZ. n mr chow wrote in the book abt the laksa.. remember us in his car? all squeezed up tog and the joke abt FUTH n RUTH! haha. i remembered it was our funniest joke ever..
thank u mr chow for loving us. (haha so mushy) thank u for teaching us beyond the laws of physics into this world.. haha. i will nv forget u say that "maths is a slave for physics". hahaha. thank you for sharing with us for opening up to us for helping us. thank u for ur love for huang cheng and ur passion for teaching. tdy i saw it when u come n see us, that there was bu she de in ur eyes. i could see that u were like looking n thinking.. boy i m not going to teach them anymore. we will always come back n visit u!
remember the ponning sessions and the cs??? boy.. i guess that was so funniest. haha. at kap? being caught by ronnie quek? hahaha. and trying so hard not to laugh when toking to mr teo. haha. i cant take it. and dunno how many cs we got..
remember 30th anniversary, walking thru the haunted hse and scaring the pple... hahahaha.
and all the endless eating sessions.. i cant remember at where. it was so many. haha. and our always enthusiastic response to everything..
61.. i remember our endless "eh, hao xiao leh" "good (thumbs up)" "futh u lah!" and the stupid trend of cold jokes we started.. when we will jus keep on laughing at bu hao xiao de joke. i remember kian wee's got link ez link citi link and dunno wad link? haha. and wei biao's full of crap.. always toking rubbish. until i cant even remember a single of his joke. haha. n he has always been saying i love u to like how many dozen tchers.. haha. n our you qian ren joke.. how we used to endlessly niao terence abt his you nian ness.. n terence will say "call the press" whenever we say sumtin.. haha. yah! and the many zhen de bu zhen de bu zhen de bu.. haha. zhen de bu mei.. zhen de bu hao kan..
and the many k ge sessions we have.. being so crazy.. standing on the sofas and singing our hearts out. wo men shi k ge zhi ban.
now i think of a wei biao joke liao. den he will always ask yitian to slam pple.. haha. and i remember our pe lessons with ms lam.. how enthu we r at frisbee? haha. that last few pe lessons were the best.
i love u 61. u r the best class anyone can have.. for ur energy ur sincerity n everything u have given to xiaoting. u r a part of me. n u contribute to who i m tdy. i will miss every break every tutorial every lecture every exam every assembly with u guys. i will really really miss 61 miss hwa chong miss the times we had tog. 61, u r the best. now n forever.
okie. i m ready to blog abt prom even though it is like 3 am in the morning n i honestly feel like sleeping.
hmm.. first of all, it is really not as exciting as wad every1 will expect. in fact, it can be the mos tirng affair. i was like rushing from home to paragon. which means i had to bathe change pack blow my hair etc etc and den take a cab down to paragon when there is a traffic jam. den i get into the lift with every1 staring at me. frankly speaking i dun really think my dress was that gorgeous anymore. ha.
finally i arrived at hollywood secrets and chat abit n stuff b4 they do my hair. ouch boy it is really painful! my scalp hurts with all the pins poking in it. i din feel it until like 1 am when i m hone sitting down n i m like ouch.. it hurts big time. even when i bathe! okie. den dearest aunty claudine did our makeup. n pluck our eyebrows. she is a big fan of "perfect" eyebrows seriously. she is really really particular abt it. but she is a really nice lady nevertheless. anyway eyebrow plucking hurts okie.. den she put on the makeup. wad thick foundation haha. den we rushed to the stupid hotel 81 and we saw wang tian cai on the way. he is so handsome. n boy, instead of us staring at him, he was staring at us? haha. that is quite funny for a change. hmm yah den we rushed to our room only to find that the room is SO BIG it can only contain a double bed. nice place seriously.
after that we chiong again to ritz n keep on taking photos. i think every1 is seeing stars from all the flashlights n i dunno how many times i posed! ahhah. for one pic with 4 pple in it, u will have to take it four times. so when we take a class photo, boy oh boy u can imagine wad it is like. okie abt every1's dressing... here is it.
lu jing. her dress was purple n really sexy at the back. ;) it requires tying so it will kind of reveal the back. woo.. n her makeup was really nice! think she has such nice features seriously. and the shawl is nice too.
helen. tdy she got a different look after the makeup. cant describe it. dunno wad is the word or words to describe it. yup.. but she looked gorgeous too! :)
da bian. she looked cool n sexy tdy. her skirt was not long like ours but she look really neat n funky. yup. but she kept complaining abt her heels! haha. can see that it really hurt her foot.
kian wee. oh my! he looked so good today! he looked really cool and funky with the shades on he looked simply fabulous.
tsai. he looked like sherlock holmes. haha. if he wore a shorter coat it wld be better? but he is still suitable for turtleneck though. ;)
denzyl n christy. denzyl wore a turtleneck n it was nice! n bell was wearing a pink dress but i really liked the way she did her hair. putting that dear thing there. haha i dunno wad it is called.
futh. he was dressed like a japanese general. general yoshinoya according to weibiao. ha
weibiao, zhen ming, chenzy. frankly speakin the three of them looked normal. acty these guys looked nice when they make an effort to dress. everybody does lah. haha. but biao's shirt looked big. n our dearest bingrui din turn up due to the fact that he has no clothes to wear. wad a pity.
miao yue. she looked really sweet! n she rebounded her hair.
jia yuan. i think this is the first time i see jia yuan outside and she looks good. ;)
yi tian. i always thot her dressing was exotic and this time it was still exotic. keep it going gal.. n thanx for the card and photo! love ya!
not to forget boon n justin also.. boon dyed his hair! haha. seriously his hair is nice.. haha. i liked it! think gifford did sumtin to his hair to.. and i heard terence say he used up his whole container of conditioner. the Zirh brand? haha. expensive conditioner?
den it was jus endless phototakings n phototakings n phototakings. but there is sumtin though. i found another chc member in hc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. joy to the world. i m so glad. i saw this guy one or two weeks back coming out frm svc 4. den i felt like the holy spirit prompting me tdy to tok to him. i hesitated for so long but i m glad i did. took photo with him and found out he is frm svc 3. praise the Lord!
the prom king n queen were ellery n wensi. not bad lah. haha. yah n that is so much abt it.
but xt do have one regret. that is not being able to go out with my class after the prom. haix.
anyway jus wan to thank john for his digicam. thanx dear.. help me upload the pics k?
yup that is abt it. haha. i m tired. going to sleep. see u guys for prayer meeting tml..
hmm.. first of all, it is really not as exciting as wad every1 will expect. in fact, it can be the mos tirng affair. i was like rushing from home to paragon. which means i had to bathe change pack blow my hair etc etc and den take a cab down to paragon when there is a traffic jam. den i get into the lift with every1 staring at me. frankly speaking i dun really think my dress was that gorgeous anymore. ha.
finally i arrived at hollywood secrets and chat abit n stuff b4 they do my hair. ouch boy it is really painful! my scalp hurts with all the pins poking in it. i din feel it until like 1 am when i m hone sitting down n i m like ouch.. it hurts big time. even when i bathe! okie. den dearest aunty claudine did our makeup. n pluck our eyebrows. she is a big fan of "perfect" eyebrows seriously. she is really really particular abt it. but she is a really nice lady nevertheless. anyway eyebrow plucking hurts okie.. den she put on the makeup. wad thick foundation haha. den we rushed to the stupid hotel 81 and we saw wang tian cai on the way. he is so handsome. n boy, instead of us staring at him, he was staring at us? haha. that is quite funny for a change. hmm yah den we rushed to our room only to find that the room is SO BIG it can only contain a double bed. nice place seriously.
after that we chiong again to ritz n keep on taking photos. i think every1 is seeing stars from all the flashlights n i dunno how many times i posed! ahhah. for one pic with 4 pple in it, u will have to take it four times. so when we take a class photo, boy oh boy u can imagine wad it is like. okie abt every1's dressing... here is it.
lu jing. her dress was purple n really sexy at the back. ;) it requires tying so it will kind of reveal the back. woo.. n her makeup was really nice! think she has such nice features seriously. and the shawl is nice too.
helen. tdy she got a different look after the makeup. cant describe it. dunno wad is the word or words to describe it. yup.. but she looked gorgeous too! :)
da bian. she looked cool n sexy tdy. her skirt was not long like ours but she look really neat n funky. yup. but she kept complaining abt her heels! haha. can see that it really hurt her foot.
kian wee. oh my! he looked so good today! he looked really cool and funky with the shades on he looked simply fabulous.
tsai. he looked like sherlock holmes. haha. if he wore a shorter coat it wld be better? but he is still suitable for turtleneck though. ;)
denzyl n christy. denzyl wore a turtleneck n it was nice! n bell was wearing a pink dress but i really liked the way she did her hair. putting that dear thing there. haha i dunno wad it is called.
futh. he was dressed like a japanese general. general yoshinoya according to weibiao. ha
weibiao, zhen ming, chenzy. frankly speakin the three of them looked normal. acty these guys looked nice when they make an effort to dress. everybody does lah. haha. but biao's shirt looked big. n our dearest bingrui din turn up due to the fact that he has no clothes to wear. wad a pity.
miao yue. she looked really sweet! n she rebounded her hair.
jia yuan. i think this is the first time i see jia yuan outside and she looks good. ;)
yi tian. i always thot her dressing was exotic and this time it was still exotic. keep it going gal.. n thanx for the card and photo! love ya!
not to forget boon n justin also.. boon dyed his hair! haha. seriously his hair is nice.. haha. i liked it! think gifford did sumtin to his hair to.. and i heard terence say he used up his whole container of conditioner. the Zirh brand? haha. expensive conditioner?
den it was jus endless phototakings n phototakings n phototakings. but there is sumtin though. i found another chc member in hc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha. joy to the world. i m so glad. i saw this guy one or two weeks back coming out frm svc 4. den i felt like the holy spirit prompting me tdy to tok to him. i hesitated for so long but i m glad i did. took photo with him and found out he is frm svc 3. praise the Lord!
the prom king n queen were ellery n wensi. not bad lah. haha. yah n that is so much abt it.
but xt do have one regret. that is not being able to go out with my class after the prom. haix.
anyway jus wan to thank john for his digicam. thanx dear.. help me upload the pics k?
yup that is abt it. haha. i m tired. going to sleep. see u guys for prayer meeting tml..
Monday, December 06, 2004
seriously speaking i m getting so upset with some pple now. urgh! shall not mention the whole incident but i simply cant tolerate irresponsible pple. and worse still.. pple who r at fault but dun feel a single tinge of guilt. or repentance. sometimes i really wish God will take them out of my life.
okie.. enough of whining and complaining.. tdy was great! haha. wad a change in mood.. haha. but it was really great lah.. we had a not-too-bad drama practice and had lots of fun. haha. in the ulu MI eng kong garden. congrats to angela for getting into her character! haha. n den i went to meet chan eng to get her shoes. well congrats dear ger for getting ur shoes too.. ;) n dun worry i din take all of that stuff to heart. though.. yah. haha. but tdy really learnt to enlarge my capacity. i was in my super hectic mood again when God was like xiaoting relax.. slow down.. n i got to learn to be responsible but yet not let everything climb over my head. n i thot i had a pretty bad countenance. so glad to hear from ailing n fi that i look okie. pretty lively in fact.. ;) n i enjoyed the meeting so much! thank u sis faith! haha. the presence of God was there n i enjoyed it so much! it is such a pleasure to be back in the laughter n fun of bookstore. toked to sis faith on the way home. something that jus hit me was that God is giving us a vision bigger than ourselves, larger than life. n it is such an awesome pleasure to be living in such times, to play such a role in His kingdom n will. wad a priveilege.
yup that is abt it. though i have a big week ahead of me, well i have a bigger God in front of me. so yeah.. i m living in end times n revival!
okie.. enough of whining and complaining.. tdy was great! haha. wad a change in mood.. haha. but it was really great lah.. we had a not-too-bad drama practice and had lots of fun. haha. in the ulu MI eng kong garden. congrats to angela for getting into her character! haha. n den i went to meet chan eng to get her shoes. well congrats dear ger for getting ur shoes too.. ;) n dun worry i din take all of that stuff to heart. though.. yah. haha. but tdy really learnt to enlarge my capacity. i was in my super hectic mood again when God was like xiaoting relax.. slow down.. n i got to learn to be responsible but yet not let everything climb over my head. n i thot i had a pretty bad countenance. so glad to hear from ailing n fi that i look okie. pretty lively in fact.. ;) n i enjoyed the meeting so much! thank u sis faith! haha. the presence of God was there n i enjoyed it so much! it is such a pleasure to be back in the laughter n fun of bookstore. toked to sis faith on the way home. something that jus hit me was that God is giving us a vision bigger than ourselves, larger than life. n it is such an awesome pleasure to be living in such times, to play such a role in His kingdom n will. wad a priveilege.
yup that is abt it. though i have a big week ahead of me, well i have a bigger God in front of me. so yeah.. i m living in end times n revival!
Sunday, December 05, 2004
had a great sunday. man! i thoroughly enjoyed myself today. aha. not really cos of the ccf thingy lah. but tdy's services were really good. i lurrvveeed pst's msg so much. it really spoke to me.
if u noe who u r, u will not try to be who u r not. u will also not be afraid to be a servant becos u alredi noe who u r. if u noe ur timing, u will not worry about the things that r not happening. becos u noe that everything is in the hands of our Father Almighty. sometimes we try too hard dun we.. we try to help God. man.. that is like the last thing u can do? haha. u noe wad i learnt so much tdy that i nv learnt b4. n a dozen of couple other things that really illuminated my mind..
den it was the chinese service. boy oh boy.. haha. i enjoyed it so much! zhang mu shi was so hilarious and yet wad he preached was so powerful too.. abt us being a sacrifice on the altar. he is one great preacher n i really enjoyed myself. the presence of God the power of God was there..
jus now went to my aunty's hse. see how good my little nephew has been. he has grown! haha. and become more ting hua.. i m so amazed by my cousin. by being such a good mum. it is amazing how she teaches her little baby and raises him up.. gee. for the 1st time he is so guai to call me xiaoting yi yi. haha. when i go to my cousin's place i will always be wondering how will life be when i get married n have kids. i wish i will be as good as educator as her.. ;)
feelin a little tired. will not type furthur. i borrowed my shoes accesories and bag liao. so dun worry for me. haha.
if u noe who u r, u will not try to be who u r not. u will also not be afraid to be a servant becos u alredi noe who u r. if u noe ur timing, u will not worry about the things that r not happening. becos u noe that everything is in the hands of our Father Almighty. sometimes we try too hard dun we.. we try to help God. man.. that is like the last thing u can do? haha. u noe wad i learnt so much tdy that i nv learnt b4. n a dozen of couple other things that really illuminated my mind..
den it was the chinese service. boy oh boy.. haha. i enjoyed it so much! zhang mu shi was so hilarious and yet wad he preached was so powerful too.. abt us being a sacrifice on the altar. he is one great preacher n i really enjoyed myself. the presence of God the power of God was there..
jus now went to my aunty's hse. see how good my little nephew has been. he has grown! haha. and become more ting hua.. i m so amazed by my cousin. by being such a good mum. it is amazing how she teaches her little baby and raises him up.. gee. for the 1st time he is so guai to call me xiaoting yi yi. haha. when i go to my cousin's place i will always be wondering how will life be when i get married n have kids. i wish i will be as good as educator as her.. ;)
feelin a little tired. will not type furthur. i borrowed my shoes accesories and bag liao. so dun worry for me. haha.
Friday, December 03, 2004
i thot blogger was having a problem. well here i m after a really hectic week. after my'a's. haha. prom is up n coming! think everybody is pretty excited abt that. gee. but seriously, i m getting a little bored of shopping after so long. it is kinda boring lah realli. not that i shopped a lot.
jus now was jus watching tv after so long. watching the a little silly channel 8 show. well i enjoyed myself. i do sometimes wonder y pple get so hooked onto tv. haha. the devil's box so it was called. but sitting there staring at the ridiculous serials or the things that seriously may happen or may not happen in life is an enjoyment. sometimes i jus feel that pple watch these scenes and acts because life is really not like that in reality. u noe wad i sometimes may wish that i can be like zoe tay in the show? with a sense of "zheng yi gan" and be so straightforward. but the truth in life we really can not be like that becos that is so much to consider. sometimes i wish my life can be simplified. yah like simple. that there is only 1 thing i need n that is all. cos it is really tiring to make choices? to decide wad is really best for ur future. and sometimes it is choosing between the pleasure of this world n the kingdom of God. well but God gave us the freedom to choose. but silly human beings r jus not that wise r we.. i think my fingers n my toes r not enough for me to count the no of silly decisions and choices that i make that land me to where i m today. but well my God is still a good god u noe. becos when i make silly mistakes he still love me anyhow and he even changes His plans for my life becos i screwed up. but well all His plans for me will ultimately lead me to where He wants me to go.
sis my once asked me wad is in my heart. haha. becos out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. honestly xiaoting wad is in ur heart? n all u reading out there wad is in ur heart? issit the passion for Chinese? for music? or issit wondering wad u wan to do n where u wan to go? or really ur heart is empty. well for now this is my answer.
my heart is filled with God. he is my lover my rock my bridegroom my father my shelter my comfort my everything. well without Him how could life ever go on? n without Him wad will i be.. gee. n i wish n pray i will fall in love with Him even more everyday.
last sun dr dennis was here. i was at svc 6 and man was i glad i went. cos he led us in this song
i have fallen in love
have fallen in love with you
i have fallen in love
have fallen in love with you
haha. remember when i toked to yx bout christianity i always use this analogy. of falling in love. well yx it is not a formula and it is about a relationship. n i m glad to be labelled "hardcore", even more glad to be a fool for Christ. so i m.. foolish in the world's eyes.
jus now was jus watching tv after so long. watching the a little silly channel 8 show. well i enjoyed myself. i do sometimes wonder y pple get so hooked onto tv. haha. the devil's box so it was called. but sitting there staring at the ridiculous serials or the things that seriously may happen or may not happen in life is an enjoyment. sometimes i jus feel that pple watch these scenes and acts because life is really not like that in reality. u noe wad i sometimes may wish that i can be like zoe tay in the show? with a sense of "zheng yi gan" and be so straightforward. but the truth in life we really can not be like that becos that is so much to consider. sometimes i wish my life can be simplified. yah like simple. that there is only 1 thing i need n that is all. cos it is really tiring to make choices? to decide wad is really best for ur future. and sometimes it is choosing between the pleasure of this world n the kingdom of God. well but God gave us the freedom to choose. but silly human beings r jus not that wise r we.. i think my fingers n my toes r not enough for me to count the no of silly decisions and choices that i make that land me to where i m today. but well my God is still a good god u noe. becos when i make silly mistakes he still love me anyhow and he even changes His plans for my life becos i screwed up. but well all His plans for me will ultimately lead me to where He wants me to go.
sis my once asked me wad is in my heart. haha. becos out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. honestly xiaoting wad is in ur heart? n all u reading out there wad is in ur heart? issit the passion for Chinese? for music? or issit wondering wad u wan to do n where u wan to go? or really ur heart is empty. well for now this is my answer.
my heart is filled with God. he is my lover my rock my bridegroom my father my shelter my comfort my everything. well without Him how could life ever go on? n without Him wad will i be.. gee. n i wish n pray i will fall in love with Him even more everyday.
last sun dr dennis was here. i was at svc 6 and man was i glad i went. cos he led us in this song
i have fallen in love
have fallen in love with you
i have fallen in love
have fallen in love with you
haha. remember when i toked to yx bout christianity i always use this analogy. of falling in love. well yx it is not a formula and it is about a relationship. n i m glad to be labelled "hardcore", even more glad to be a fool for Christ. so i m.. foolish in the world's eyes.
Friday, November 26, 2004
forgot to tok abt the seminar. really enjoyed myself! a long time since i've gone for the seminar n i really enjoyed myself so much. :) u noe i have singing this few lines in my QT.. i will sing i will worship u i will bow myself down humbly at ur throne. den i was always wondering wad song is this n i really liked it. well.. i found myself singing this song tonight. really really loved it..
I WILL SING
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
I WILL BOW MYSELF DOWN HUMBLY AT YOUR THRONE
I WILL GIVE ANYTHING
I WILL GIVE EVERYTHING TO YOU ALONE
I LONG TO BE THE BRIDE THAT YOU'RE RETURNING FOR DRESSED IN GARMENT WHITE AND WRINKLE FREE
I HAVE NO EARTHLY LOVE THAT I AM HOLDING TO FOR YOU'RE THE ONE WHO MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
I WILL SING
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
I WILL BOW MYSELF DOWN HUMBLY AT YOUR THRONE
I WILL GIVE ANYTHING
I WILL GIVE EVERYTHING TO YOU ALONE
I LONG TO BE THE BRIDE THAT YOU'RE RETURNING FOR DRESSED IN GARMENT WHITE AND WRINKLE FREE
I HAVE NO EARTHLY LOVE THAT I AM HOLDING TO FOR YOU'RE THE ONE WHO MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
for the first time in so many months, I M FREE. haha. MY 'A' LEVELS R OVER. for all those who r going back to sch in 1 mth's time, DUN ENVY ME. haha.
well.. for days i have been dreaming of this day. i have been lying on my bed thinking about my hair, my prom, and of cos, today (or shld i say yest). i thot i will be filled with so much joy i cant contain. haha. i thot i will jump ard hugging my frens. sorry to disappoint u. it din happen. (not jus u were disappointed, i was too! haha. )
今天特地穿校服到教堂去，想想，这应该是我最后一次穿上校服了吧，所以到了现在还没脱下。原谅我的感叹，其实，这一切感觉有一点不真实。我并没有那种被解放的感觉。哈！
几百天，几万个小时，几千万分钟，几亿秒？就这样，一转眼，我的高中生涯就过了。还记得一年前，我看着学长们埋头苦干，想想自己也会这样，没想到，我已经苦尽甘来了。我再也不会穿上这褐色的校服，虽然多次埋怨它的厚度，它的七秒防火，七秒防水，我还是会想念它。今天考试结束后，已经下起了倾盆大雨，我站在走廊，看着华初，有一点想念。其实真的不了解为什么自己没有一点喜悦的感觉，这是我期待好久的啊！回来看着床上的notes，想想以后不用碰了， 有一点loss，不是 lost。 我不知道几时还会踏进华初，真的有点想念着日子。
华初，谢谢你。61， 谢谢你。谢谢你们给了我两年的美好记忆，这里有欢笑，又悲伤，有兴奋，有友谊。知道吗？我还是喜欢华初。它感觉好像我的第二春。哈！
考试期间，我很痛苦！（爸爸可以作证。）多次想考完后就把一切烧掉丢掉。哈哈！现在却有点舍不得。
不说了。‘A’水准再见。
well.. for days i have been dreaming of this day. i have been lying on my bed thinking about my hair, my prom, and of cos, today (or shld i say yest). i thot i will be filled with so much joy i cant contain. haha. i thot i will jump ard hugging my frens. sorry to disappoint u. it din happen. (not jus u were disappointed, i was too! haha. )
今天特地穿校服到教堂去，想想，这应该是我最后一次穿上校服了吧，所以到了现在还没脱下。原谅我的感叹，其实，这一切感觉有一点不真实。我并没有那种被解放的感觉。哈！
几百天，几万个小时，几千万分钟，几亿秒？就这样，一转眼，我的高中生涯就过了。还记得一年前，我看着学长们埋头苦干，想想自己也会这样，没想到，我已经苦尽甘来了。我再也不会穿上这褐色的校服，虽然多次埋怨它的厚度，它的七秒防火，七秒防水，我还是会想念它。今天考试结束后，已经下起了倾盆大雨，我站在走廊，看着华初，有一点想念。其实真的不了解为什么自己没有一点喜悦的感觉，这是我期待好久的啊！回来看着床上的notes，想想以后不用碰了， 有一点loss，不是 lost。 我不知道几时还会踏进华初，真的有点想念着日子。
华初，谢谢你。61， 谢谢你。谢谢你们给了我两年的美好记忆，这里有欢笑，又悲伤，有兴奋，有友谊。知道吗？我还是喜欢华初。它感觉好像我的第二春。哈！
考试期间，我很痛苦！（爸爸可以作证。）多次想考完后就把一切烧掉丢掉。哈哈！现在却有点舍不得。
不说了。‘A’水准再见。
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
well. i m down to my last paper. really wanna thank God for being so good today. despite the fact that i slacked ( i m sorry!) for quite a few days, and pia the last minute, God was still good to me. Thank u. feel that i dun deserve this grace lah.. but He has been good to Xiaoting in this exam. yup.. now i m a little more than 18 hours away from the end of 'a' levels. God is good.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Saturday, November 20, 2004
i m shooooo excited! hahaha. guess wad?? I FOUND MY PROM DRESS! haha. it is my cousin's.. i was at her house trying the gowns.. man.. i tried on like so many? n i found it! i found the perfect one. u noe wad? i m really really shooo excited! thinking of slipping on the dress.. n i lurvvveee the material! haha. but it is quite revealing lah.. haha. plunging neckline and the back also quite low.. haha. but it is really GLAM n GORGEOUS! i m going to put my photos so that u all can see k.. haix.how i wish prom is tml!!!!! haha. so excited!
okie.. on a calmer note, it is nice staying over at my cousin's place. i always feel that it is nice to go somewhere besides ur house for a change. a change of envt.. makes u different u noe. like a refreshment kind of thing ya.. yup.. n i m still so excited!
p.s. it is so perfect that it conceals all my flaws.. haha. u cant see the fats n stuff u noe.. ahhhh!
okie.. on a calmer note, it is nice staying over at my cousin's place. i always feel that it is nice to go somewhere besides ur house for a change. a change of envt.. makes u different u noe. like a refreshment kind of thing ya.. yup.. n i m still so excited!
p.s. it is so perfect that it conceals all my flaws.. haha. u cant see the fats n stuff u noe.. ahhhh!
Thursday, November 18, 2004
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
9 more days to the end of 'a' levels. wooh. the thot of it excites me. haha.
things xiaoting wants to do after 'a' levels (irrespective of priority)
1. go cg meeting! haha.
2. fellowship n chill out with members n frens.
3. reach out
4. concert!
5. play play n play
6. read read n read (not notes thank God!) I wan to finish hong lou n all the books i m holding on to.
7. relax n dye my hair
8. shop shop n shop!
9. serve in bookstore! boy.. dun i miss it..
these r for the mths in 2004.. in 2005...
1. volunteer work.
2. relief teach
3. work?
4. missions trip
5. israel
6. china!
7. buck up on my Chinese n English
8. Guitar.. my long lost hobby.
9. read gu dian wen xue.
10. change my image? haha.
11. i want my relationship to God to grow up to the next level..
there r so much to do.. these r only temporary. haha. i will be back.
2.
things xiaoting wants to do after 'a' levels (irrespective of priority)
1. go cg meeting! haha.
2. fellowship n chill out with members n frens.
3. reach out
4. concert!
5. play play n play
6. read read n read (not notes thank God!) I wan to finish hong lou n all the books i m holding on to.
7. relax n dye my hair
8. shop shop n shop!
9. serve in bookstore! boy.. dun i miss it..
these r for the mths in 2004.. in 2005...
1. volunteer work.
2. relief teach
3. work?
4. missions trip
5. israel
6. china!
7. buck up on my Chinese n English
8. Guitar.. my long lost hobby.
9. read gu dian wen xue.
10. change my image? haha.
11. i want my relationship to God to grow up to the next level..
there r so much to do.. these r only temporary. haha. i will be back.
2.
Monday, November 15, 2004
wow. these 2 days have been phenomenal haven't it? it jus seem like God has really brought us to another level. it has been great! n it will get better n better n better...
something pst ulf said.. dun ever stop being amazed by God.. the things that He is doing. dun ever stop this excitement.. for the salvation of souls n wad God is doing.
yah. dun ever get tired of being amazed. becos He is far too amazing.
dun ever get tired of being excited. becos there is sth new everyday for u to be excited about.
dun ever get used to the point u take it for granted.. that shall be the day it will be taken from u.
but if u remain faithful.. He will bring u from glory to glory strength to strength.
it is a new level. it is done. it is MISSIONS EXPLOSION.
something pst ulf said.. dun ever stop being amazed by God.. the things that He is doing. dun ever stop this excitement.. for the salvation of souls n wad God is doing.
yah. dun ever get tired of being amazed. becos He is far too amazing.
dun ever get tired of being excited. becos there is sth new everyday for u to be excited about.
dun ever get used to the point u take it for granted.. that shall be the day it will be taken from u.
but if u remain faithful.. He will bring u from glory to glory strength to strength.
it is a new level. it is done. it is MISSIONS EXPLOSION.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
a lot of times i was jus telling God "if only u come true for me". i was preparing for my paper tml n i was telling God the same thing. den God told me. "hey, i will always come true for u. it jus depends us on how much u trust in me."
aint that true? a lot of times we think things lie in God's hands. yah, He is in control. but He gave us a will n a choice too. to trust in Him.
aint that true? a lot of times we think things lie in God's hands. yah, He is in control. but He gave us a will n a choice too. to trust in Him.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
here to blog. but acty i dunno wad to write. this always gets into me when i mug. haha. well today i went to the gym. so sorrie guys for not being there with u all on mon. thank God i werent there.. u all left the place like at 1 plus? haha. but well, working out does feel good.
due to dearest chan eng's influence, i have been so paranoid lately counting CALORIES. haha. for ur info, one bottle of pokka guava has 145 kcal. haha. n peelfresh per serving has 102?? i wanted to drink that u noe. haha. so sick.. den mayo per serving u got like 96 kcal? ying was saying it is very tong ku to live liddat. haha. okie lah.. well, to look gorgeous, u got to sacrifice.
anyway i realy dun have much to say.. pple enjoy ur hols ya? n make it to good use pls. haha. that is all for now. ;)
due to dearest chan eng's influence, i have been so paranoid lately counting CALORIES. haha. for ur info, one bottle of pokka guava has 145 kcal. haha. n peelfresh per serving has 102?? i wanted to drink that u noe. haha. so sick.. den mayo per serving u got like 96 kcal? ying was saying it is very tong ku to live liddat. haha. okie lah.. well, to look gorgeous, u got to sacrifice.
anyway i realy dun have much to say.. pple enjoy ur hols ya? n make it to good use pls. haha. that is all for now. ;)
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Monday, November 08, 2004
Jeremiah 9:23-24
Thus says the Lord: "Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, Let not the mighty man glory in his might, Nor let the rich man glory in his riches; But let him who glories glory in this, That he understands and knows Me, That I am the Lord, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth. For in these I delight," says the Lord.
Thus says the Lord: "Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom, Let not the mighty man glory in his might, Nor let the rich man glory in his riches; But let him who glories glory in this, That he understands and knows Me, That I am the Lord, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth. For in these I delight," says the Lord.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
reached home perhaps like one hour ago. today saw pst kong n sun in the car n they waved to us. pst kong is so nice! haha. becos the car drove past us n he waved to us first. wad frenly pastors i have.. haha.
u noe sumtin? i was watching the video "glam" which pst sun was on. watching it den made me realise y do i really like her so much n respect her.. she is really different. n the host said that she has a great attitude. that is wad i completely agree with. when u have a GREAT attitude.. u r different. yup..
atmosphere.. attitude.. authority.. altitude.
if u want ur life to get greater n greater, ur worship got to get better n better too. wow.
u noe sumtin? i was watching the video "glam" which pst sun was on. watching it den made me realise y do i really like her so much n respect her.. she is really different. n the host said that she has a great attitude. that is wad i completely agree with. when u have a GREAT attitude.. u r different. yup..
atmosphere.. attitude.. authority.. altitude.
if u want ur life to get greater n greater, ur worship got to get better n better too. wow.
今天看了好多好多电视，其实对大脑一点也不好，让大脑退化的更快。但是，今天我学了一个很重要的道理，坚持。
看了流星花园，夏日香气，金枝玉叶，让我发现到不管做什么都要坚持，因为这世上其实没有什么是长久的。你的爱情，友情，热忱，都需要你的坚持去维持。没有什么事情是理所当然的。
有一天，如果你碰上你喜欢的人，和他结婚生孩子，当初和他那种心跳的感觉是会消失的。你不能靠感觉来维持一段感情。世界的变化很多，今天是的，明天可能成为不是。任何事情都可能发生的。there r no absolutes in this world. 所以，更有许多事情是要依靠我们的信念和坚持的。
我会坚持。
我会坚持和他的感情。即使我看不到，听不到，感觉不到，我还是会坚持的。
He will remain faithful even when we are faithless, because He cannot deny Himself.
就因为他说的这句话。
If you can't see His hands moving, trust His heart.
看了流星花园，夏日香气，金枝玉叶，让我发现到不管做什么都要坚持，因为这世上其实没有什么是长久的。你的爱情，友情，热忱，都需要你的坚持去维持。没有什么事情是理所当然的。
有一天，如果你碰上你喜欢的人，和他结婚生孩子，当初和他那种心跳的感觉是会消失的。你不能靠感觉来维持一段感情。世界的变化很多，今天是的，明天可能成为不是。任何事情都可能发生的。there r no absolutes in this world. 所以，更有许多事情是要依靠我们的信念和坚持的。
我会坚持。
我会坚持和他的感情。即使我看不到，听不到，感觉不到，我还是会坚持的。
He will remain faithful even when we are faithless, because He cannot deny Himself.
就因为他说的这句话。
If you can't see His hands moving, trust His heart.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
i m slacking. geez. i slacked the whole of today. naughty naughty gal. jus blog surfing n feeling.. hmmmm...
i really like this song. check it out.
你擦眼泪 习惯借我 的左手
想要靠枕就用我 右手
电视里面 那坏男人 不是我
怎么又拿 我当出气筒
其实你逛街时候 比我 还能走
口头禅却又常常说 背我
你问我是否交到野恋的女友
我发觉你眼神里十分温柔
你总爱贴 在我怀里像只无尾熊
说这辈子你就谁定应该 被我宠
就算我坏得像连续剧里的刘文聪
听了也立志当英雄
你总是说 尤加利只属于无尾熊
不能看别人 只能看你可爱的脸孔
偶尔你 情绪闹得再凶 我也不许动
用我胸膛为你挡风
有人的爱情只有一夜 那么久
很庆幸我们还能手牵手
因为你 我才会有更宽更厚的胸口
能这样一直到老 也不错
i really like this song. check it out.
你擦眼泪 习惯借我 的左手
想要靠枕就用我 右手
电视里面 那坏男人 不是我
怎么又拿 我当出气筒
其实你逛街时候 比我 还能走
口头禅却又常常说 背我
你问我是否交到野恋的女友
我发觉你眼神里十分温柔
你总爱贴 在我怀里像只无尾熊
说这辈子你就谁定应该 被我宠
就算我坏得像连续剧里的刘文聪
听了也立志当英雄
你总是说 尤加利只属于无尾熊
不能看别人 只能看你可爱的脸孔
偶尔你 情绪闹得再凶 我也不许动
用我胸膛为你挡风
有人的爱情只有一夜 那么久
很庆幸我们还能手牵手
因为你 我才会有更宽更厚的胸口
能这样一直到老 也不错
yay! finally i can blog!!!! haha. tried for so long n i think there is sumtin wrong with blogspot.
i finished my lep paper! can u like believe it? yesterday i was toking chan eng it seems like a part of me had left me u noe. but acty i still have it. but thinking that i dun have to read 红楼梦，茶馆，冬夜，诗词，so on n forth is like.. hmm.. not joy u noe, but i dunno wad lah. i was like looking at my stuff n the thot that i need not cram down this info anymore, i need not read it anymore, is like.. empty? haha. u mean i no need to stay up till the wee hours again? u mean i will nv get a chance to write thousands of words within 3 hours again? (until my hands get a cramp). wow. acty the feeling is really sad, or shld i say nostalgic. acty i like the phrase john's fren wrote. "how can it be nostagia when it all seems like yesterday?" n it is yesterday. geez.
u noe acty there is somuch joy studying lep. all the spotting n speculating b4 the exam. haha. all the joy or sadness when wad u study came out or not. the pathetically trying to write non-stop during the paper. the conjuring of quotes from wad u crammed last night. the late night sleep. the reciting of hong lou jus b4 the paper. the asking of "u mean u did that"? "i studied that!""cha guan was so diff!" "did li qing zhao husband die?" the appearing of wang lao shi after the paper to tabulate his statistics(super ks, haha.) 有钱就该吃喝嫖赌，haha. 改良改良，越改越良，冰凉！ the 贾宝玉，王熙凤，(wang lao shi's favourite) 袭人，(kapo's favourite) and so on n so forth. all the mugging for yesterday. n it was jus like that. 2 yrs!!!! all for yesterday. n it passed without even waiting for us.
well. it has come to an end. n it was such a precious memory that we had to take a lovegety pic to register that. i will remember that fateful day, nov 5, i took the first bus with a bunch of crazy pple, went to bugis, laughed all the way, sat at a super hot hawker centre, shopped in bugis, acting like crazy kids in the lovegety machine, requesting for a "ctrl alt delete", hurry up, no time redi, all the squeezing like siao, futh where r u??, all in the fateful day. n all of us went home on our separate ways, with our separate thots, perhaps we were all united in thots? thinking abt that which brought us together --- lep.
i finished my lep paper! can u like believe it? yesterday i was toking chan eng it seems like a part of me had left me u noe. but acty i still have it. but thinking that i dun have to read 红楼梦，茶馆，冬夜，诗词，so on n forth is like.. hmm.. not joy u noe, but i dunno wad lah. i was like looking at my stuff n the thot that i need not cram down this info anymore, i need not read it anymore, is like.. empty? haha. u mean i no need to stay up till the wee hours again? u mean i will nv get a chance to write thousands of words within 3 hours again? (until my hands get a cramp). wow. acty the feeling is really sad, or shld i say nostalgic. acty i like the phrase john's fren wrote. "how can it be nostagia when it all seems like yesterday?" n it is yesterday. geez.
u noe acty there is somuch joy studying lep. all the spotting n speculating b4 the exam. haha. all the joy or sadness when wad u study came out or not. the pathetically trying to write non-stop during the paper. the conjuring of quotes from wad u crammed last night. the late night sleep. the reciting of hong lou jus b4 the paper. the asking of "u mean u did that"? "i studied that!""cha guan was so diff!" "did li qing zhao husband die?" the appearing of wang lao shi after the paper to tabulate his statistics(super ks, haha.) 有钱就该吃喝嫖赌，haha. 改良改良，越改越良，冰凉！ the 贾宝玉，王熙凤，(wang lao shi's favourite) 袭人，(kapo's favourite) and so on n so forth. all the mugging for yesterday. n it was jus like that. 2 yrs!!!! all for yesterday. n it passed without even waiting for us.
well. it has come to an end. n it was such a precious memory that we had to take a lovegety pic to register that. i will remember that fateful day, nov 5, i took the first bus with a bunch of crazy pple, went to bugis, laughed all the way, sat at a super hot hawker centre, shopped in bugis, acting like crazy kids in the lovegety machine, requesting for a "ctrl alt delete", hurry up, no time redi, all the squeezing like siao, futh where r u??, all in the fateful day. n all of us went home on our separate ways, with our separate thots, perhaps we were all united in thots? thinking abt that which brought us together --- lep.
Friday, November 05, 2004
Thursday, November 04, 2004
Sunday, October 31, 2004
my primary calling is to be a follower of Christ.
Wow. today's service blew my mind. i love the presence of God. love the priveilege to be a worshipper of God. guess sometimes we have been a Christian for so long that we become "martha" isn't it? we get our priorities wrong. we r having a ministry, not serving Jesus. we fail to wait upon Him. but our primary calling is to be at the feet of Jesus. proskuneos.
Wow. today's service blew my mind. i love the presence of God. love the priveilege to be a worshipper of God. guess sometimes we have been a Christian for so long that we become "martha" isn't it? we get our priorities wrong. we r having a ministry, not serving Jesus. we fail to wait upon Him. but our primary calling is to be at the feet of Jesus. proskuneos.
Friday, October 29, 2004
suddenly feel that i m really an emotional creature. jus now i was jus waiting for sg idol results when i cried! haha. becos chris is out of the show. wow wow to xiaoting. haha. not that i really like him a lotltotltot. but the fact that he has been there for so long working so hard is jus so sad. i realli feel sad for him? haix. it is a tough world out there.
i was jus reading jin hui's blog. n to tell the truth, xiaoting is very tired too. worn out. totally. not lack of sleep kind of thing but this whole mugging business is making me really tired. i was jus sitting in bk for 4 hours n man, after that i felt like everything was sucked out of me u noe. i went to the library, sat down, and it felt so peaceful. God xiaoting needs u needs u needs u needs u. needs u. NEEDS U.
Thursday, October 28, 2004
due to popular demand (by john), xiaoting is back to blog again. well, the reason i have not been here to blog for days is because i have been busy mugging. so when u r hitting the books, wad is there to say except for wad is written in my books? haha. but still, my God is a colourful God, so He add colors to my life. so i do have things to write after all.
hmm.. okie. starting from monday. my prac was good! in the sense that i can do it and i can finish it. haha. because i flopped my phy prac in prelims.. there was a little apprehension. but well, in the morning b4 the prac, God's presence came upon me like waves. n i was so touched by His presence that i breezed thru my prac. hee.
so i have been mugging. mon tues wed and hopefully today. well i went to the gym on tues. (everybody drops jaw) u mean u go to the gym? haha. yes. like once in a blue moon. but well, i m hitting the machines today again. haha. congrats to xiaoting. well, i have to get rid of the excess weight on my body before i can look glamourous in my prom dress. dun u agree? but i doubt that i can be really successful. haha. well, at least i will try. ;)
yest night toked to mic a little. it feels good to get in touch with old frens. i m meeting minyi to study tml. i was telling my fren that exams is a good time to be in contact with frens. haha. yah.. i think that is abt it. oh yes, one more thing. was jus flipping thru my essays written last yr. i came to realise that i wrote with a lot of conviction in the past. surprisingly. dunno y i lose that passion and conviction and only write with politically correct words and tone. if i write with conviction again, will i get my a1? haha. pls pray hard for me for my straight 'a's k.. this time i m really working hard and depending my God with all my life to see the best results in all my life too. Gambetha!
hmm.. okie. starting from monday. my prac was good! in the sense that i can do it and i can finish it. haha. because i flopped my phy prac in prelims.. there was a little apprehension. but well, in the morning b4 the prac, God's presence came upon me like waves. n i was so touched by His presence that i breezed thru my prac. hee.
so i have been mugging. mon tues wed and hopefully today. well i went to the gym on tues. (everybody drops jaw) u mean u go to the gym? haha. yes. like once in a blue moon. but well, i m hitting the machines today again. haha. congrats to xiaoting. well, i have to get rid of the excess weight on my body before i can look glamourous in my prom dress. dun u agree? but i doubt that i can be really successful. haha. well, at least i will try. ;)
yest night toked to mic a little. it feels good to get in touch with old frens. i m meeting minyi to study tml. i was telling my fren that exams is a good time to be in contact with frens. haha. yah.. i think that is abt it. oh yes, one more thing. was jus flipping thru my essays written last yr. i came to realise that i wrote with a lot of conviction in the past. surprisingly. dunno y i lose that passion and conviction and only write with politically correct words and tone. if i write with conviction again, will i get my a1? haha. pls pray hard for me for my straight 'a's k.. this time i m really working hard and depending my God with all my life to see the best results in all my life too. Gambetha!
Saturday, October 23, 2004
ouch. xiaoting feeling a little nostalgic. especially after reading john's blog. hmm.. yah. e18 is now e18 n e357. n yes, i noe that God is indeed at work in this cg.
but to imitate john (dun be blown up boy) this is for all those in e18..
cecilia. u r here as long as i can remember. n hey gal, xiaoting gonna miss u lots. for always being there n being so faithful. cg was different becos of u.
chee wee. u have grown! somuch so much.. keep on shining.. keep on playing! i noe u have a great destiny.. allow that destiny to come true in ur life!
carrie. u have grown too. haha. n u have come a long way. n i noe u have really made an effort to love God the best u can.. keep on loving Him ya? love ya lots too.
jonathon. it was a joy to see u growing in this cg and to see u love Him so simply. u r so faithful n always there.. God is gonna reward u for ur faithfulness. n God is faithful in ur life. n He will continue to be.
jinhui. u have taught me a lot honestly.. with ur wide knowledge n thanx for always being so available to help! we may see each other in uni.
ashley. it is always good to be zealous for God n continue to be. God will keep on working in ur life.. and many times there r going to be mouldings. You will be moulded by Him like u nv did before. yield to Him n His Holy Spirit and u gonna do jus fine!
valerie. i can see the spark in u. continue to love Him n serve Him k.. dun ever grow tired of loving Him. He deserves ur best.
yin giet. hey gal u can do it! u r a champion n a beautiful princess of God.. know who u r in Christ k..
jacqueline. u may feel new in this place but make this place ur home k? God loves u and all of us love u alot too! *hugs*
stephen. i noe u can't stand noise! haha. n i always unknowingly "shout" into ur ears. haha. hey.. God is looking for true worshippers.. be a true worshipper of God k..
cyan. i m glad to see u in e18 n in city harvest. keep on growing loving n shining. He has something great in store for u. see ur frens getting saved in hc k?
last but not least mr cheo. haha. of cos i can't leave u out. you have been a great gift from God to xiaoting. as much as i hate to admit it. (to avoid boosting ur ego) but i m going to miss ur presence in cg alot. i have seen u maturing.. growing to be a fine young man n shining for God, being kingdom-minded. dun stop here! u have a great destiny in Him. keep in touch k.. my hse is always open for *poor* kids. haha.
xiaoting is really feeling nostalgic. i love e18!!! n e357 too.. haha. i m gonna miss all of u. all of u. we have been thru so much.. haha. but yet God always bring us from glory to glory.. keep on loving loving Him ya?
n e357, let us keep on loving Him n grow in Him k..
p.s. hey some of us planned to go mission trip tog remember? haha.
but to imitate john (dun be blown up boy) this is for all those in e18..
cecilia. u r here as long as i can remember. n hey gal, xiaoting gonna miss u lots. for always being there n being so faithful. cg was different becos of u.
chee wee. u have grown! somuch so much.. keep on shining.. keep on playing! i noe u have a great destiny.. allow that destiny to come true in ur life!
carrie. u have grown too. haha. n u have come a long way. n i noe u have really made an effort to love God the best u can.. keep on loving Him ya? love ya lots too.
jonathon. it was a joy to see u growing in this cg and to see u love Him so simply. u r so faithful n always there.. God is gonna reward u for ur faithfulness. n God is faithful in ur life. n He will continue to be.
jinhui. u have taught me a lot honestly.. with ur wide knowledge n thanx for always being so available to help! we may see each other in uni.
ashley. it is always good to be zealous for God n continue to be. God will keep on working in ur life.. and many times there r going to be mouldings. You will be moulded by Him like u nv did before. yield to Him n His Holy Spirit and u gonna do jus fine!
valerie. i can see the spark in u. continue to love Him n serve Him k.. dun ever grow tired of loving Him. He deserves ur best.
yin giet. hey gal u can do it! u r a champion n a beautiful princess of God.. know who u r in Christ k..
jacqueline. u may feel new in this place but make this place ur home k? God loves u and all of us love u alot too! *hugs*
stephen. i noe u can't stand noise! haha. n i always unknowingly "shout" into ur ears. haha. hey.. God is looking for true worshippers.. be a true worshipper of God k..
cyan. i m glad to see u in e18 n in city harvest. keep on growing loving n shining. He has something great in store for u. see ur frens getting saved in hc k?
last but not least mr cheo. haha. of cos i can't leave u out. you have been a great gift from God to xiaoting. as much as i hate to admit it. (to avoid boosting ur ego) but i m going to miss ur presence in cg alot. i have seen u maturing.. growing to be a fine young man n shining for God, being kingdom-minded. dun stop here! u have a great destiny in Him. keep in touch k.. my hse is always open for *poor* kids. haha.
xiaoting is really feeling nostalgic. i love e18!!! n e357 too.. haha. i m gonna miss all of u. all of u. we have been thru so much.. haha. but yet God always bring us from glory to glory.. keep on loving loving Him ya?
n e357, let us keep on loving Him n grow in Him k..
p.s. hey some of us planned to go mission trip tog remember? haha.
cg multiplied!!!!!!!!!!
yah. i m officially from cg E357. a bit unbelievable. becos i have been in e18 for as long as i can remember. but i m really happy that e18 multiplied. yah. cos it is in God's will to be fruitful n multiply.
remember that when sis meiyan say that cg is going to multiply, n we were cheering, den she said let's give God a big hand. den it jus hit me that indeed it is the work of God for the cg to be FRUITFUL n MULTIPLY. well, all from e18, i m gonna miss u!
yah. i m officially from cg E357. a bit unbelievable. becos i have been in e18 for as long as i can remember. but i m really happy that e18 multiplied. yah. cos it is in God's will to be fruitful n multiply.
remember that when sis meiyan say that cg is going to multiply, n we were cheering, den she said let's give God a big hand. den it jus hit me that indeed it is the work of God for the cg to be FRUITFUL n MULTIPLY. well, all from e18, i m gonna miss u!
m listening to cyndi's song. was jus hearing the music. pure music without singing n stuff. it is really nice. suddenly it jus occurred to me how beautiful God's creation is. it is so amazing that music can be so soothing. this is wad ailing put in an email to me. n i love this quote.
"Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance."
Ain't that true? haha. suddenly feeling very nostalgic. no, actually that is not the word. 感性. this is the word. yah.. suddenly sitting here.. mugging.. u will be feeling that urgh! i dun like this world at all. there r so many problems isn't it? this is such an imperfect world. but sometimes sitting here.. listening to the simplest things. looking at the DEEP blue sky. i will always be in wonder of God's creation. though this world is so imperfect, life seems so sian. sometimes we dunno wad we want, where we r going, wad will happen to us tml, life seems to be dragging. but yet, whenever i lift up my head, open my ears n my eyes, to see n hear, well, i see a beautiful world. that my God created. i appreciate the fact that i can see hear smell touch the beautiful things in this world. i thank God that there is a sky there is light there is a moon there are stars there is music there are plants n flowers there is snow wind dew water sunlight clouds. that there r frens members family relatives siblings nephews nieces cousins leaders classmates bro n sis in Christ. yah. whether the cup is half full or half empty is up to u.
i love! i love my life my God my frens my family my cg my church my cca lep my class my ex-class my ex ex class my sch my ex-ex-sch my ex-ex-ex sch i even love SIngapore. hahahaha. well iwant to be a person of love. becos there r many things for me to love. i want to be optimistic becos there r many things that make me smile. i want to be happy because happy are the people whose Lord is God... ah! i m happy elated exhilarated ecstatic intoxicated spirited BLESSED！do i sound crazy? well there is a joy in me that i can't contain. haha. can't contain.
i m blessed!
"Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance."
Ain't that true? haha. suddenly feeling very nostalgic. no, actually that is not the word. 感性. this is the word. yah.. suddenly sitting here.. mugging.. u will be feeling that urgh! i dun like this world at all. there r so many problems isn't it? this is such an imperfect world. but sometimes sitting here.. listening to the simplest things. looking at the DEEP blue sky. i will always be in wonder of God's creation. though this world is so imperfect, life seems so sian. sometimes we dunno wad we want, where we r going, wad will happen to us tml, life seems to be dragging. but yet, whenever i lift up my head, open my ears n my eyes, to see n hear, well, i see a beautiful world. that my God created. i appreciate the fact that i can see hear smell touch the beautiful things in this world. i thank God that there is a sky there is light there is a moon there are stars there is music there are plants n flowers there is snow wind dew water sunlight clouds. that there r frens members family relatives siblings nephews nieces cousins leaders classmates bro n sis in Christ. yah. whether the cup is half full or half empty is up to u.
i love! i love my life my God my frens my family my cg my church my cca lep my class my ex-class my ex ex class my sch my ex-ex-sch my ex-ex-ex sch i even love SIngapore. hahahaha. well iwant to be a person of love. becos there r many things for me to love. i want to be optimistic becos there r many things that make me smile. i want to be happy because happy are the people whose Lord is God... ah! i m happy elated exhilarated ecstatic intoxicated spirited BLESSED！do i sound crazy? well there is a joy in me that i can't contain. haha. can't contain.
i m blessed!
Friday, October 22, 2004
jus now lim yang n minyi called to ask me if i wanted to go genting after 'a' levels. on 26 nov. i was jus thinking n i asked him if it will cross the weekend. n he said yah.. mos prob coming back after sun kind of thing. den i said no. cos weekend is for God. haha. but i din tell him that lah. den he said u r not going cos weekend got church? den i say yah.. shld be not going lah. he said this.. 这样严重啊。haha. which struck me.. 严重？wad a word.. but yah.. 其实我已经入戏太深，或者我应该说是中毒太深吧。对，就是那么严重。
其实我也好想出国，我有好久好久都没有出国散心了，因为这几年我都放不下。我好喜欢出国的感觉，但是却已经好久没有出国了。刚才拒绝的时候，可以听见脑里有人要我妥协。
why do u want to be so "hard core"? ( this term is termed by yong xiang )
why not jus compromise?
look at all the things u r missing out because of God n church..
well, it is true that i m missing out on so much. but u noe sumtin, there is so much i gained that i cannot have with anything else. i love Him. with all of my heart. i will not trade this love He has for me for anything else in the world. if u love someone with all ur heart, u noe that u want to give Him ur entire life. that is wad i wan to do. i may seem like a fool.. but i will rather be a fool for Christ den to be a fool in the world. n i admit.. i m hopelessly in love.. hopelessly poisoned. everybody wants me to cut ties with God.. haha. my dad wants to go to china to cut off ties with city harvest.. nice try dad. haha. well.. i told him, if i can leave chc so easily, den the nine yrs i spent loving God has been wasted isn't it..
我已经中毒太深，直到我不能自拔。
u noe sumtin? i wish i m more in love with Him. i wish for MORE.
其实我也好想出国，我有好久好久都没有出国散心了，因为这几年我都放不下。我好喜欢出国的感觉，但是却已经好久没有出国了。刚才拒绝的时候，可以听见脑里有人要我妥协。
why do u want to be so "hard core"? ( this term is termed by yong xiang )
why not jus compromise?
look at all the things u r missing out because of God n church..
well, it is true that i m missing out on so much. but u noe sumtin, there is so much i gained that i cannot have with anything else. i love Him. with all of my heart. i will not trade this love He has for me for anything else in the world. if u love someone with all ur heart, u noe that u want to give Him ur entire life. that is wad i wan to do. i may seem like a fool.. but i will rather be a fool for Christ den to be a fool in the world. n i admit.. i m hopelessly in love.. hopelessly poisoned. everybody wants me to cut ties with God.. haha. my dad wants to go to china to cut off ties with city harvest.. nice try dad. haha. well.. i told him, if i can leave chc so easily, den the nine yrs i spent loving God has been wasted isn't it..
我已经中毒太深，直到我不能自拔。
u noe sumtin? i wish i m more in love with Him. i wish for MORE.
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
jus now i was walking thru geylang serai where they had the pasar malam. wow! it was so festive! there were many many stores and it is really not like usual. for those who dunno, i stay in Malay Village and now is the Ramadan which means it is really festive season for the Malays. yah. it feels good walking down the road looking at the different kind of stuff they selling. ;)
den they put up lights at joo chiat complex also.. it was quite nice lah, although the building was not v nice. den got these Malay Calligraphy.. where the words r wriiten in arab or sumtin by Chinese i think, maybe the xinjiang pple but it was really interesting. haha. i wanted to buy stickers but a bit short of cash. haha.
oh and i also wanna say a big thank u to my daddy.. cos he bought me a cross necklace which was really really nice. from japan. i love it!
den they put up lights at joo chiat complex also.. it was quite nice lah, although the building was not v nice. den got these Malay Calligraphy.. where the words r wriiten in arab or sumtin by Chinese i think, maybe the xinjiang pple but it was really interesting. haha. i wanted to buy stickers but a bit short of cash. haha.
oh and i also wanna say a big thank u to my daddy.. cos he bought me a cross necklace which was really really nice. from japan. i love it!
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
listening to "the rainbow connection" from mengru's song. after putting down the phone, it is really the thingy that makes me smile. it is such a cute song. hee. guess i m feeling really disappointed with somebody. well, we jus simply can't avoid that in our lives issit? ;) But jus that i have jus lowered my expectations and there somethingy comes along n expect me to lower my expectations again.. hey that is really tiring. den to begin with i shld have might as well jus not expect at all? haix.
anyway today was another mugging day. i was in such a crazy mood the whole day till that phone call. but anyway.. i was really crazy today! went studying with chan eng n weiqi n we ended up eating swensens.. today i ate so much! haha. den i jus laughed at every possible thingy. haha. but today was not such a productive day after all. but i had a good time n yest night i jus slept thru wad i needed. i have "put back" all that i missed out on the past week. feeling really alert! haha. going to mug somemore.. haix. today was such a good day until.. geeZ.
but it will still be good.. ;) study hard guys!
anyway today was another mugging day. i was in such a crazy mood the whole day till that phone call. but anyway.. i was really crazy today! went studying with chan eng n weiqi n we ended up eating swensens.. today i ate so much! haha. den i jus laughed at every possible thingy. haha. but today was not such a productive day after all. but i had a good time n yest night i jus slept thru wad i needed. i have "put back" all that i missed out on the past week. feeling really alert! haha. going to mug somemore.. haix. today was such a good day until.. geeZ.
but it will still be good.. ;) study hard guys!
Monday, October 18, 2004
i jus realise that i really love challenges. i guess the singapore education really din manage to put that in me u noe. was jus toking to my dad. n i was asking him do the high management in big companies in singapore work their way there or it is because of connections.. den my dad said that nowadays working up is very diff. n he said being a civil servant is good. but being an ace student in singapore only assure u to be the top civil servant. that is like so mediocre.. so average. so NORMAL. i was telling him that being a civil servant meant that there is only so high u can fly u noe.
i want to fly in the blue sky. big blue sky. no wonder i love God so much. becos He is without limits. The things that i can do for Him reaches to the skies.
today i was really provoked. this time round if i dun study hard n get my best results, i m really letting God down. It ain't about me, it is about Him. i need to do well so tthat He can be glorified. i m carrying n representing the name of Jesus.
i want to fly in the blue sky. big blue sky. no wonder i love God so much. becos He is without limits. The things that i can do for Him reaches to the skies.
today i was really provoked. this time round if i dun study hard n get my best results, i m really letting God down. It ain't about me, it is about Him. i need to do well so tthat He can be glorified. i m carrying n representing the name of Jesus.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
hey i m finally back to blog again. ;) it has indeed been a tiring weekend. haha. but well.. i enjoyed myself thoroughly with my members since they r "released" from after the exams. haha.
well, on sat, yesh, i preached. haha. it was an exciting experience n i shall leave it to them to tell u how did i do. haha. n thanx for all ur encouragement! it really encouraged me a lot! after that to have mos of the pple staying back n fellowshipping is so fun! haha. we celebrated cyan's birthday n appreciated terence. yest was the last day he is playing for my cg. Ow! haha. yup.. we do appreciate u alot of all that u've done.. n chee wee.. u go man! den aft cg john n ying n their fren su wei came to my hse.. for more details pls visit john's blog. hee. n today also.. hey i really enjoy the company of my cg! den jus now we watched white chicks. well everybody was saying tat it is very funny.. so raise my expectations a bit.. in the end din meet leh. haha. i din laugh that hard until my stomachache kind. maybe studied too hard. haha.
yup. today is xiaoting rest day. from tml onwards we will be driving faster. hee.
oh.. jus remembered bout our last day of sch.. yah. we took lots of pics. i think i m really going to miss this place class n pple. geez.. let's really have a great class outing k...
well, on sat, yesh, i preached. haha. it was an exciting experience n i shall leave it to them to tell u how did i do. haha. n thanx for all ur encouragement! it really encouraged me a lot! after that to have mos of the pple staying back n fellowshipping is so fun! haha. we celebrated cyan's birthday n appreciated terence. yest was the last day he is playing for my cg. Ow! haha. yup.. we do appreciate u alot of all that u've done.. n chee wee.. u go man! den aft cg john n ying n their fren su wei came to my hse.. for more details pls visit john's blog. hee. n today also.. hey i really enjoy the company of my cg! den jus now we watched white chicks. well everybody was saying tat it is very funny.. so raise my expectations a bit.. in the end din meet leh. haha. i din laugh that hard until my stomachache kind. maybe studied too hard. haha.
yup. today is xiaoting rest day. from tml onwards we will be driving faster. hee.
oh.. jus remembered bout our last day of sch.. yah. we took lots of pics. i think i m really going to miss this place class n pple. geez.. let's really have a great class outing k...
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
the third entry in a row. boy m i mad.. oh yeah. haha. today went bugis. din go shopping guys.. jus went to buy specs with ahma (not my grandma) but she din get it. but i did mug on some really tedious integration u noe. anyway i PROMISED john i was blog abt the phone call. this is wad happen on sun night at 10++ pm.
(the following conversation is translated into english, for convenience's sake)
ring ring.
me: who u looking for?
john: i m looking for xiaoting.
me: u got the wrong no.
john: okie.
me: bye bye.
we hung up.
ring ring.
me: hello.
john: hello?
me: may i noe who r u looking for?
john: i m looking for xiaoting.
me: there is no xiao ting. wad no did u call?
john: 91808617
me: oh this is 91808614
john: yah.
me: yah. bye bye.
we hung up again.
phone rang for the third time. i wanted to do it again. but could not help but burst out laughing.
me: (laughing) u mean u din realise??
john: jus now it was u?
me: yah!
john: and the first one?
me: me lah!
boy did i enjoy myself.. thank u john for brightening my day. hee.
(the following conversation is translated into english, for convenience's sake)
ring ring.
me: who u looking for?
john: i m looking for xiaoting.
me: u got the wrong no.
john: okie.
me: bye bye.
we hung up.
ring ring.
me: hello.
john: hello?
me: may i noe who r u looking for?
john: i m looking for xiaoting.
me: there is no xiao ting. wad no did u call?
john: 91808617
me: oh this is 91808614
john: yah.
me: yah. bye bye.
we hung up again.
phone rang for the third time. i wanted to do it again. but could not help but burst out laughing.
me: (laughing) u mean u din realise??
john: jus now it was u?
me: yah!
john: and the first one?
me: me lah!
boy did i enjoy myself.. thank u john for brightening my day. hee.
Monday, October 11, 2004
haix. feeling a bit sad cos i got Ungraded for my LEP S paper. Geez.. jus now was feeling rather erm.. dunno how to say but now better.
i havent been a good girl.. jus now read my script. it is really not that good u noe.. yah. acty quite bad i think.. sometimes i feel really quite sad. cos i think that i really have no wen bi? dunno y i m in lep.. n i dunno wad i m doing also. toking abt liking chinese so much but really in me, there is no substance to tok abt? haix.
anyway.. jus want to say that i love hwa chong!!! today mr chow played us the 30th anniversary vcd.. well u can say that it is trying to stir up our emotions or something.. but den when i was watching it.. i really cried. with tears flowing down my cheeks non-stop. i really love this sch, love huang cheng, love lep, love the sch compound, love 61, love mr chow, love all my tutors, love my lovely lep tutors, every single one of them. to be honest, i din noe i love this place so much. it is like my home away from home.. besides home, besides chc, this is the place. geez. all the cheering, the songs..
突然发现我可以用华文打字了。好开心。用华文写字然我又开心又难过知道吗？这是我敬爱的语言，文学，可是却对自己很失望，因为爱它只是挂在口中的事，我却没有上进心，没有力求进步，是不是应该拖出去问斩？我会做的，也只不过是苦读LEP罢了，但是我并没有为这股热忱做什么。该当何罪？现代人应该有很多会说不会做的人吧，可恨的是我竟然渐渐地成为其中之一。在德明的时候以为自己有一点了不起，来到华初，真的是小巫见大巫。不对，我应该连小巫都不如吧，口语化的句子，不够简练的语言，晓亭，如果连基本都不会，请不要再谈中华文学。五千年的历史，凭什么由你这个红毛丫头说得算？
失望。泄气。由谁能带来一盏灯，重新点燃心中的火，让我能再次燃烧起来？
对。我爱华初。我爱华文。我爱语特。只但愿这不是说说而已。
i havent been a good girl.. jus now read my script. it is really not that good u noe.. yah. acty quite bad i think.. sometimes i feel really quite sad. cos i think that i really have no wen bi? dunno y i m in lep.. n i dunno wad i m doing also. toking abt liking chinese so much but really in me, there is no substance to tok abt? haix.
anyway.. jus want to say that i love hwa chong!!! today mr chow played us the 30th anniversary vcd.. well u can say that it is trying to stir up our emotions or something.. but den when i was watching it.. i really cried. with tears flowing down my cheeks non-stop. i really love this sch, love huang cheng, love lep, love the sch compound, love 61, love mr chow, love all my tutors, love my lovely lep tutors, every single one of them. to be honest, i din noe i love this place so much. it is like my home away from home.. besides home, besides chc, this is the place. geez. all the cheering, the songs..
突然发现我可以用华文打字了。好开心。用华文写字然我又开心又难过知道吗？这是我敬爱的语言，文学，可是却对自己很失望，因为爱它只是挂在口中的事，我却没有上进心，没有力求进步，是不是应该拖出去问斩？我会做的，也只不过是苦读LEP罢了，但是我并没有为这股热忱做什么。该当何罪？现代人应该有很多会说不会做的人吧，可恨的是我竟然渐渐地成为其中之一。在德明的时候以为自己有一点了不起，来到华初，真的是小巫见大巫。不对，我应该连小巫都不如吧，口语化的句子，不够简练的语言，晓亭，如果连基本都不会，请不要再谈中华文学。五千年的历史，凭什么由你这个红毛丫头说得算？
失望。泄气。由谁能带来一盏灯，重新点燃心中的火，让我能再次燃烧起来？
对。我爱华初。我爱华文。我爱语特。只但愿这不是说说而已。
Friday, October 08, 2004
Thursday, October 07, 2004
i din noe that to do wad u say is so difficult. ever feel that u wanna do sumtin but ur heart jus refuse to let things go ur way? well.. that is how i m feeling right now. i m trying really hard to lift my spirits up.. i din noe things will be so hard on me. i really din expect. n i also din expect this day will come. how long will it take?
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
i m back! jus reached home from watching mamma mia! fantastic! haha. but i m dead beat. dunno y these few days i m jus so so tired.. geeZ. but anyway, jus wanna thank God for a wonderful night! i think pple out there will jus drool to hear wad i m saying..
first of all, i went to colours by the way. the seaside there.. man do i like it there.. so coincidental was that i met 2 chc guys.. how do i noe? cos they were playing n learning guitar. guess wad song? Jesus jesus Holy n anointed One. Jesus. that song. immediately i was like.. they r frm chc. so i went to tok to them.
after tat i had dinner at thai express! sumptous dinner... muahahahaha. den we bought chocolates frm the really ex chocolate shop.. but the chocolates were so nice!!!! oh my.. hee.
den watching mamma mia.. it is really good u noe.. but i feel it can be better. but i enjoyed myself completely! hee. really.. the voices n dance were really good. the song that we sang from pst sun.. thank you for the music, the songs we're singing. who can live without it we ask in honesty.. that song.. they sang it too. n dancing queen n i have a dream.
in conclusion, xiaoting is tired! but happy. think i m going to sleep n waking early to study.. i need to mug! haha.
first of all, i went to colours by the way. the seaside there.. man do i like it there.. so coincidental was that i met 2 chc guys.. how do i noe? cos they were playing n learning guitar. guess wad song? Jesus jesus Holy n anointed One. Jesus. that song. immediately i was like.. they r frm chc. so i went to tok to them.
after tat i had dinner at thai express! sumptous dinner... muahahahaha. den we bought chocolates frm the really ex chocolate shop.. but the chocolates were so nice!!!! oh my.. hee.
den watching mamma mia.. it is really good u noe.. but i feel it can be better. but i enjoyed myself completely! hee. really.. the voices n dance were really good. the song that we sang from pst sun.. thank you for the music, the songs we're singing. who can live without it we ask in honesty.. that song.. they sang it too. n dancing queen n i have a dream.
in conclusion, xiaoting is tired! but happy. think i m going to sleep n waking early to study.. i need to mug! haha.
haix. ailing u r going to kill me for this but to a certain extent i m affected. not affected like erm emotionally but more of worried n sth on my mind kind of thingy.. urgh!
jus gonna blog how i feel..
cant believe it. y do pple ard me do stupid things? u noe sumtin.. acty a lot of times we noe that it is not right not good n we still go ahead with it.. many times believing the devil's lies that things r going to be okie! it is not! dun ever compromise ur standards can.. this is a trial. dun live in self-deception when u noe that things r not right n u insist that they r! stop living in lies.. self deception.. compromised standards. there is more so much more in the kingdom of God! we r always so stubborn to want to go on the way we want to noe when the Holy Spirit is like screaming no!!!!!!! silently kind of thingy..
wake up ur idea can? open ur spiritual eyes n see wad has God in store for u.. it is so crucial. dun fall now! if u fall, it will not be so easy to get back again. God has touched u again n again.. allow u to experience again n again.. so that u r prepared to walk on.. do not turn to ur left or to ur right.. walk the highway of the Most High.. dun turn a deaf ear to the Holy Spirit!!!!
jus gonna blog how i feel..
cant believe it. y do pple ard me do stupid things? u noe sumtin.. acty a lot of times we noe that it is not right not good n we still go ahead with it.. many times believing the devil's lies that things r going to be okie! it is not! dun ever compromise ur standards can.. this is a trial. dun live in self-deception when u noe that things r not right n u insist that they r! stop living in lies.. self deception.. compromised standards. there is more so much more in the kingdom of God! we r always so stubborn to want to go on the way we want to noe when the Holy Spirit is like screaming no!!!!!!! silently kind of thingy..
wake up ur idea can? open ur spiritual eyes n see wad has God in store for u.. it is so crucial. dun fall now! if u fall, it will not be so easy to get back again. God has touched u again n again.. allow u to experience again n again.. so that u r prepared to walk on.. do not turn to ur left or to ur right.. walk the highway of the Most High.. dun turn a deaf ear to the Holy Spirit!!!!
Monday, October 04, 2004
hey hey.. i m home! jus came back from studying. today studied quite alot but not very productive leh. haix. nvm.. tml i got break in sch from 9.20 am to 2.40 pm. i shall mug my gu wen very very hard.. haha.
anyway.. jus want to thank God that i got B for LEP. it is really a miracle lah. considering that that day i had physics n LEP. n i really really studied very hard for phy n not so much for lep. think that God is really a good god. n it is so tyco in the sense that i m on the dot.. haha. but i really want to thank God for that.. n i m praying that i can do well for physics too!
hey guys thanx for the encouragement. ;) i m okie now.. up n on *to quote sa's motto* again.. my life is about eat, mugging, sleep n God now. nothing else i gonna get in my way. no time n room for rubbish stupid thinking. ailing once said.. ni hai you shi qing yao zuo. yup... all mugging out there.. u guys rawks!
*i want to shine in the dark sky like a bright star* for You!
anyway.. jus want to thank God that i got B for LEP. it is really a miracle lah. considering that that day i had physics n LEP. n i really really studied very hard for phy n not so much for lep. think that God is really a good god. n it is so tyco in the sense that i m on the dot.. haha. but i really want to thank God for that.. n i m praying that i can do well for physics too!
hey guys thanx for the encouragement. ;) i m okie now.. up n on *to quote sa's motto* again.. my life is about eat, mugging, sleep n God now. nothing else i gonna get in my way. no time n room for rubbish stupid thinking. ailing once said.. ni hai you shi qing yao zuo. yup... all mugging out there.. u guys rawks!
*i want to shine in the dark sky like a bright star* for You!
Sunday, October 03, 2004
well.. my previous entry was in chinese n i completely cant see it. that is really sad! when i m feeling sad i always like to write in chinese. that explains y i m a chinese freak.. maybe i will pen some thots down.
man.. i think this weekend is terrible u noe. haix. felt like things came one after another. n wad is worse is.. a lot of times i feel like i dun have frens ard me whom i cant share n cry with. geez.. but it is okie.. cos i do have my Father in heaven. but sometimes jus wish that there is sum1 whom i can call n whine too..
xiaoting u mus study study study study! everybody tells me that i mus study.. it seems like everything is jus screaming to me xiaoting study!!!!! even God tells me to study. geez...... i will i will i will i will i will i will. i promise can.. i will really really really try... really really... n i m trying... xiaoting is trying. pls.. jus give me a second chance.. i dunno if i can do it. i dunno if i can give my 100% in my 'a' levels.. i jus need somebody to believe with me, trust in me... it's been 5 yrs since i last done that. give my all in my studies.. i promise. i will try...
man.. i think this weekend is terrible u noe. haix. felt like things came one after another. n wad is worse is.. a lot of times i feel like i dun have frens ard me whom i cant share n cry with. geez.. but it is okie.. cos i do have my Father in heaven. but sometimes jus wish that there is sum1 whom i can call n whine too..
xiaoting u mus study study study study! everybody tells me that i mus study.. it seems like everything is jus screaming to me xiaoting study!!!!! even God tells me to study. geez...... i will i will i will i will i will i will. i promise can.. i will really really really try... really really... n i m trying... xiaoting is trying. pls.. jus give me a second chance.. i dunno if i can do it. i dunno if i can give my 100% in my 'a' levels.. i jus need somebody to believe with me, trust in me... it's been 5 yrs since i last done that. give my all in my studies.. i promise. i will try...
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Friday, October 01, 2004
hey weiqi chan eng...
jus wanna say a big thank you to u all. suddenly on the way back jus realised how blessed i m to have u guys with me. thanx for believing in me n standing with me.. though sometimes i may sound really absurd, u all still trusted me for wad i said. thanx for standing tog with me n believing for our HC vision to come to past.. words cant express a million thanx! we r running our last lap so let us just keep on going k.. i noe n i noe wad God promised is going to come to past. ;)
on another note, congrats to mr ong! haha.
jus wanna say a big thank you to u all. suddenly on the way back jus realised how blessed i m to have u guys with me. thanx for believing in me n standing with me.. though sometimes i may sound really absurd, u all still trusted me for wad i said. thanx for standing tog with me n believing for our HC vision to come to past.. words cant express a million thanx! we r running our last lap so let us just keep on going k.. i noe n i noe wad God promised is going to come to past. ;)
on another note, congrats to mr ong! haha.
Thursday, September 30, 2004
i m back to blog again. haha. in the midst of studying. oh well.. i shall tok abt my dae.
today got back the rest of my gp. well.. i din fare too badly but cant say it is good lah. drop by one grade. geeZ. i had better buck up on my gp. oh den i went to watch new police story with lu jing. hey! it was such a nice show!!! yah.. i din think that jackie chan show can be this nice. really got more plot liao.. n nicolas is quite cute too. haha.
after went shopping ard. hmm.. today i bought some stuff too. bought a pencil case, a top, n a book. quite a couple of things ah.. recently i in a super reading mood.. keep on looking for books to read.
den i was with xueqi buying present.. man was it not easy buying present with her.. haha. but i m glad ivan liked the bag eventually. well.. all the efforts is worth it! okiez.. i m going off to mug. tml we r having JC cluster prayer meeting! yeah let's go man! gonna have a good night slp n back to getting maths tml.. nite guys.
today got back the rest of my gp. well.. i din fare too badly but cant say it is good lah. drop by one grade. geeZ. i had better buck up on my gp. oh den i went to watch new police story with lu jing. hey! it was such a nice show!!! yah.. i din think that jackie chan show can be this nice. really got more plot liao.. n nicolas is quite cute too. haha.
after went shopping ard. hmm.. today i bought some stuff too. bought a pencil case, a top, n a book. quite a couple of things ah.. recently i in a super reading mood.. keep on looking for books to read.
den i was with xueqi buying present.. man was it not easy buying present with her.. haha. but i m glad ivan liked the bag eventually. well.. all the efforts is worth it! okiez.. i m going off to mug. tml we r having JC cluster prayer meeting! yeah let's go man! gonna have a good night slp n back to getting maths tml.. nite guys.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
haha. i have officially finished the book "i kissed dating goodbye". man did i not learn a lot from this book..
u noe wad? since the time when i noe that this is not the time for relationships, i have been trying to avoid "falling in love". but i guess in my heart i always feel that i m shortchanged. in this world of decling moral values, n u see younger n younger pple walking together, sometimes u may start to feel sorry for yourself den u cant step into these steps. u r deprived. ur frens toking abt how sweet their steads r to them n u wish u could have the same thing. i used to feel this way, long for this intimacy in a relationship. only to realise that i m wrong.
singlehood is a gift from God! actually, we r going to spend most of my lives with our counterpart. n this is abt the only time when u will be single!! n wad do we do? whine.. feel sad n sorry n wish that we were in a relationship. hey! we got to wake up n treasure our singlehood n do something for God! this is the time when u r most undistracted.. that u can put in ur heart n soul for God.
i want to learn to change my thinking towards my life, my singlehood. i want to live my singlehood to the fullest. i noe that my future is in God's hands.. n i dun need anything else other than God right now.
The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing.
u noe wad? since the time when i noe that this is not the time for relationships, i have been trying to avoid "falling in love". but i guess in my heart i always feel that i m shortchanged. in this world of decling moral values, n u see younger n younger pple walking together, sometimes u may start to feel sorry for yourself den u cant step into these steps. u r deprived. ur frens toking abt how sweet their steads r to them n u wish u could have the same thing. i used to feel this way, long for this intimacy in a relationship. only to realise that i m wrong.
singlehood is a gift from God! actually, we r going to spend most of my lives with our counterpart. n this is abt the only time when u will be single!! n wad do we do? whine.. feel sad n sorry n wish that we were in a relationship. hey! we got to wake up n treasure our singlehood n do something for God! this is the time when u r most undistracted.. that u can put in ur heart n soul for God.
i want to learn to change my thinking towards my life, my singlehood. i want to live my singlehood to the fullest. i noe that my future is in God's hands.. n i dun need anything else other than God right now.
The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing.
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
have read quite a lot from "I kissed dating goodbye". haha. weiqi i got to agree it is really a good book. cant take my eyes off it. taught me lots of things. i nv could think of my singlehood as a precious gift from God until i read this. jus realise that for most of my life i m going to live with sum1 else. n this is my youth which God has given me to serve Him wholeheartedly. hmm.. singlehood is a gift from God! we shld always seek holiness n purity in our lives. yepp!
Monday, September 27, 2004
i m home. haha. realise that nowadays sch is released so early! goodness.. today i was released at 11. tml no sch. haha. wed finish at 9 plus???? everyday is like that. oh my.. haha. jus typing some lame stuff lah..
oh yah.. today zhen ming wrote something really cool on my paper. (we were passing ard a paper which ur classmates were supposed to write sth for u) den he said that 他有幸在有生之年认识我这样的人，真是大开眼界．man.. was that a compliment! haha. i was really quite touched.. or shld i say flattered to receive such a comment.
got back my gp. wasnt too good u noe.. thank God it is only one paper. i still have the other. will be praying hard that i can do well for it. hey those mugging.. jia you okie.. may God be with u. i have really decided to mug. so u see that xiaoting is not slacking even after prelims! yeah! haha. jia you..
oh yah.. today zhen ming wrote something really cool on my paper. (we were passing ard a paper which ur classmates were supposed to write sth for u) den he said that 他有幸在有生之年认识我这样的人，真是大开眼界．man.. was that a compliment! haha. i was really quite touched.. or shld i say flattered to receive such a comment.
got back my gp. wasnt too good u noe.. thank God it is only one paper. i still have the other. will be praying hard that i can do well for it. hey those mugging.. jia you okie.. may God be with u. i have really decided to mug. so u see that xiaoting is not slacking even after prelims! yeah! haha. jia you..
Sunday, September 26, 2004
jus finished the book "so much to tell u". it is really a very very very nice book! had me in tears u noe.. n the ending is so nice! haha. though i wish i could noe wad happen after that. man.. u noe wad? i guess in some ways i m quite like the girl in the story. probably i m a thousand times happier but somehow jus feel that parts of her resemble me. hee. though i tok so much n she dun tok at all. irony.
love this song..
"Your name is like honey on my lips
Your spirit like water to my soul
Your Word is a light unto my path
Jesus I love You
I love You"
love this song..
"Your name is like honey on my lips
Your spirit like water to my soul
Your Word is a light unto my path
Jesus I love You
I love You"
Saturday, September 25, 2004
hey btw.. jus to tok abt something i did today that made me feel really happy! i went to my aunt's hse. den there was this man that i always always see.. think he suffered from stroke n cant walk properly. walk super slowly. den the Holy Spirit prompted me to pray for him. mind u! he is a complete stranger. i was going to ignore it.. den i decided y not? so i approached him n his maid n asked him i could pray for him. it turned out that he cant hear or speak! den i prayed for him in chinese n i could feel the presence of God. hope that he will be better. cos i have seen him like that for so long n he is only 64! geez.. God pls heal him.. n it feels good to obey!
today had a great cgm! i jus love the presence of God. ;) today i could feel God's love flooding me! haha. today when i prayed for valerie n pam, before that jus praying in tongues, God's presence n love was so tangibly felt. wow!
jus now went to aunty place. once again realise the quietness in that place compared to the past. geeZ. i wish there will be life n joy in that place once again. feel like the pple there r so far away from God that the joy n the laughter is slowly slipping away.. oh man..
Jesus gimme Xiaoting a greater capacity to love.
jus now went to aunty place. once again realise the quietness in that place compared to the past. geeZ. i wish there will be life n joy in that place once again. feel like the pple there r so far away from God that the joy n the laughter is slowly slipping away.. oh man..
Jesus gimme Xiaoting a greater capacity to love.
Friday, September 24, 2004
I.m.Your.Light.InTheMidstOfDarkness
I.m.Your.Light.InTheMidstOfDarkness
i m back again guys.. again again. haha. today jus finished my s paper. amazingly the paper is really not bad. as in i din get stuck. got things to write lah so i m still quite happy about that. do u all like the song "crossing over"? i simply luuurrrvvvveeee it! haha. anyway jus posting a msg here for hc chc pple to see k.. next thurs we r having cluster prayer meeting. thurs. 30/09 5 pm k.. pls let me noe if u can make it. ;)
jus now i was watching "touched by an angel". everytime i watch this show i will cry! it is so touching! i always end up in big big tears.. haha.
i m back again guys.. again again. haha. today jus finished my s paper. amazingly the paper is really not bad. as in i din get stuck. got things to write lah so i m still quite happy about that. do u all like the song "crossing over"? i simply luuurrrvvvveeee it! haha. anyway jus posting a msg here for hc chc pple to see k.. next thurs we r having cluster prayer meeting. thurs. 30/09 5 pm k.. pls let me noe if u can make it. ;)
jus now i was watching "touched by an angel". everytime i watch this show i will cry! it is so touching! i always end up in big big tears.. haha.
Thursday, September 23, 2004
food for thoughts..
at the rate i m blogging, i guess it is pretty obvious how obsessed i m with my com now. jus some food for thought after reading my members' blog.
read cecilia n ian's blog. man was i touched. we need to hunger n thirst for the Holy Spirit like nv before. hey i want more of the Holy Spirit. i never ever want to be satisfied with what He has given me. i want more n more n more of Him.
another note, i m thinking of taking a double degree. english n chinese. i thot it would be good if i want to go into china to not jus be good in chinese but english also. Sis Meiyan said before that maybe i can go there n teach english. y not?
read cecilia n ian's blog. man was i touched. we need to hunger n thirst for the Holy Spirit like nv before. hey i want more of the Holy Spirit. i never ever want to be satisfied with what He has given me. i want more n more n more of Him.
another note, i m thinking of taking a double degree. english n chinese. i thot it would be good if i want to go into china to not jus be good in chinese but english also. Sis Meiyan said before that maybe i can go there n teach english. y not?
shopping spree~
hee. jus came back from shopping. really had a great time today! this is wad i bought..
1. Nike shoes. Peter, i think my shoes nicer than urs! haha.
2. 2 mango tops. really really nice tops u noe. wish i could show u all. ;)
wanted to buy board shorts (is that how u spell it) too. tried on a couple. some too big. some not big enough. but the board shorts feel so cool! i mean it. i wear redi dun feel like taking off. all of them near 80 bucks. but i still wanted so much to buy it! haha. but haven buy yet. wanna buy sweater too. today saw an adidas sweater RED! $109.. OH MY.. although i got money, but cant bear to buy that leh. hee.
yah. cant wait to wear.. and here i jus wanna say a big thank u to my papa in heaven for blessing me. i promise that i will be a blessing to others because u have blessed me. thank u.
1. Nike shoes. Peter, i think my shoes nicer than urs! haha.
2. 2 mango tops. really really nice tops u noe. wish i could show u all. ;)
wanted to buy board shorts (is that how u spell it) too. tried on a couple. some too big. some not big enough. but the board shorts feel so cool! i mean it. i wear redi dun feel like taking off. all of them near 80 bucks. but i still wanted so much to buy it! haha. but haven buy yet. wanna buy sweater too. today saw an adidas sweater RED! $109.. OH MY.. although i got money, but cant bear to buy that leh. hee.
yah. cant wait to wear.. and here i jus wanna say a big thank u to my papa in heaven for blessing me. i promise that i will be a blessing to others because u have blessed me. thank u.
I m back!!!!
hey hey! i m really back! haha. it feels really good to be typing away on my keyboard again.. sho sorrie to u john! haha. to all mugging all there, jia you k.. cos i finished my prelims! hee.
got a great greeat testimony to share.. will share on sat in cg den i put here k.. not to break all of ur surprise. finally prelims is over. haha. it jus doesnt feeel like it. yesterday went to watch 13 going on 30 with cecilia. it is not over yet u noe! the show is really nice, such a sweeeet show. oh n i bought jerry's album n boy, he is jus totally cuuttteee!!!!! haha. ask cecilia n she will noe wad i mean.
dun u just like my new blogskin? man, i m falling in love with it. n it is playing destiny's child emotion. quite nice lah, but i m looking for another song actually. yeeppp! any ideas?
that is all i guess. really like my new blog now. haha. anyway i will be back again, take care guys!
got a great greeat testimony to share.. will share on sat in cg den i put here k.. not to break all of ur surprise. finally prelims is over. haha. it jus doesnt feeel like it. yesterday went to watch 13 going on 30 with cecilia. it is not over yet u noe! the show is really nice, such a sweeeet show. oh n i bought jerry's album n boy, he is jus totally cuuttteee!!!!! haha. ask cecilia n she will noe wad i mean.
dun u just like my new blogskin? man, i m falling in love with it. n it is playing destiny's child emotion. quite nice lah, but i m looking for another song actually. yeeppp! any ideas?
that is all i guess. really like my new blog now. haha. anyway i will be back again, take care guys!
Thursday, September 02, 2004
back again..
hi guys! back after many many days of no com, haix. i feel like something is missing from my life. u noe.. haix.
studying is not really that fun leh.. quite tiring n exhausting at times. haix. but then it is okie.. with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. hee.
today had my gp paper. it was okie lah.. but on another note, my revision is really slow leh. i think i m so lag now.. haha. all my revision schedule all messed up. GeeZ. but i m glad i m going to hols again. haha.
last sunday was good.. svc was really good. ;) Sun rocks at zPop~ although there were some stupid pple who did silly things.. saw jj also, stella and a lot others. not bad lah..
i think i m crapping a bit. jus feel like logging on to say some stuff. hee.
studying is not really that fun leh.. quite tiring n exhausting at times. haix. but then it is okie.. with Christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. hee.
today had my gp paper. it was okie lah.. but on another note, my revision is really slow leh. i think i m so lag now.. haha. all my revision schedule all messed up. GeeZ. but i m glad i m going to hols again. haha.
last sunday was good.. svc was really good. ;) Sun rocks at zPop~ although there were some stupid pple who did silly things.. saw jj also, stella and a lot others. not bad lah..
i think i m crapping a bit. jus feel like logging on to say some stuff. hee.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
com crashed!
:( my com crashed on me!!!! sobz sobz. my com is not working anymore. haix. wanted to blog but din manage to. so sad!! haix. haha.
anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.
but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.
got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!
everybody......
it's countdown to prelims!
anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.
but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.
got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!
everybody......
it's countdown to prelims!
com crashed!
:( my com crashed on me!!!! sobz sobz. my com is not working anymore. haix. wanted to blog but din manage to. so sad!! haix. haha.
anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.
but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.
got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!
everybody......
it's countdown to prelims!
anyway, yesterday had a good time sleeping at home, despite my prelims jus being round the corner, to quote Mr Ang. haha. haix. no guitar and no com, xiaoting is deprived of music in my life. haha. but since tuesday i really had a good sleep, n i m so glad about that. rested well. hee. God gives His beloved sleep. This morning had prayer meeting.. man, was the presence of God strong, i jus simply love Him u noe.. yepppppp! haha. feeling really happy now.
but there is sumtin sad. i have 40 chaps of chinese to finish.. erm.. how to finish? but i m beginning to feel like i m part of the prelim mugging mood liao.. so quite good lah.. start to study a bit and starting my revision abit too.
got my financial breakthru! God is such a great God u noe.. yepp! haha. den i can fulfil my missions fund. i m just so elated!
everybody......
it's countdown to prelims!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Love
1 Corinthians 13
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
God loves.
God is love. n He loves. So much. Just had a great dinner with my aunty where the love of God just ministered to me in an amazing way. amazing amazing way. thank you Jesus..
Saturday, August 21, 2004
great night!
was really glad that i had a chance to go down for service 1. pst ulf is just phenomenal! seeing him n hearing the word "CHina" out of him jus stirred me up totally. i almost forgot how amazing he was. even as he spoke abt china, i was jus reminded in my heart wad God has put in me. Put 1.4 billion pple in ur heart.. he said. 1.4 billion. The Chinese of tomorrow will be the CHinese of Jesus Christ! wow!
today attended a ntu tok.. it was really good. n frankly speaking, i think i m going to ntu. haha. although i m not realy supposed to decide so soon, but i feel like God put sumtin in for that place more than nus. morever, they r going to offer translation course which i really really wanted. Chinese as major n translation as minor?
jus finished packing my room. feels good but exhausted. check out the time.. haha. for those in e18, see u guys for cg tml.. ;)
today attended a ntu tok.. it was really good. n frankly speaking, i think i m going to ntu. haha. although i m not realy supposed to decide so soon, but i feel like God put sumtin in for that place more than nus. morever, they r going to offer translation course which i really really wanted. Chinese as major n translation as minor?
jus finished packing my room. feels good but exhausted. check out the time.. haha. for those in e18, see u guys for cg tml.. ;)
Thursday, August 19, 2004
mugging!
haha. i was typing the mugging title n i realise that hey.. i have used that title before. haha. missed blogging a bit. it has been a while since i blogged. actually, i m not supposed to be here. haha. tml got cha guan test n i m supposed to study. but haha.. nvm lah hor..
today i went all the way to compass point! ate a bit of jack's place n studied at the library. studied until i fell asleep. hopefully i can do well for tml cha guan test ya..
always out with wei biao n we will touch sensitive topics. okie.. maybe not sensitive but erm.. a lot of things that require thinking. haha. but anyway he really has not bad ideas.. joining the moe is a good idea after all huh.. haha. tml we r attending a tok by ke xi ren.. toking bout NTU chinese, n i m excited about it u noe. hee
back to the mugging thingy.. yup.. prelims coming.. n mug hard all u a levellers n o levelers out there!
today i went all the way to compass point! ate a bit of jack's place n studied at the library. studied until i fell asleep. hopefully i can do well for tml cha guan test ya..
always out with wei biao n we will touch sensitive topics. okie.. maybe not sensitive but erm.. a lot of things that require thinking. haha. but anyway he really has not bad ideas.. joining the moe is a good idea after all huh.. haha. tml we r attending a tok by ke xi ren.. toking bout NTU chinese, n i m excited about it u noe. hee
back to the mugging thingy.. yup.. prelims coming.. n mug hard all u a levellers n o levelers out there!
Monday, August 16, 2004
cs
urgh. kanna detention AGAIN. jus for the sake of being late last term. wad is wrong with me that i keep on getting cs? the whole world is late n only i get it. worse still it is on wed. i was thinking it is a good day to give my bible studies. haix. now the whole week is taken up. really want to leh.. haix haix. very upset now noe.. becos cs is such a waste of time. jus now i snapped at my fren. geeZ. pls God.. no CS?
Friday, August 13, 2004
xiaoting lost her phone
haix. u cannot imagine my devastation when it really hit me that my sony ericsson is not with me. yesterday at powerhouse, i was still praying that i will bring many frens this week n den i lost my phone. was so discouraged! geeZ. i m serious. so so discouraged. cos i do need my phone very much.
i m feeling quite tired acty. afraid of burning out. i have another 2 or 3 days more to go. really need strength from my DAddy in Heaven.
let us see a great harvest this weekend..
i m feeling quite tired acty. afraid of burning out. i have another 2 or 3 days more to go. really need strength from my DAddy in Heaven.
let us see a great harvest this weekend..
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
maths make me mad?
haix. dunno since when i jus lost my confidence for maths. this lack of confidence of mine caused to be stuck at always every single question i do leh. can somebody pls help xiaoting? i m really feeling very frustrated. i can be stuck at a question for 2 hours leh. n go on to the next one to be stuck again. i very much want to complete my tutorials but i keep getting stuck! help!
Monday, August 02, 2004
God is a good God!
my God is a good good god.. haha. u noe wad? i never thot that it would come true liddat. n so fast? i remembered God told me that this yr it will come to pass. i prayed for it, hoped for it, but! wow! u mean it is coming to pass!?!?!?! haha. i still cant believe it.. i remembered when i first knew, my question was how can God be so good to me? n it went well. superbly well. yep yep..
my prelims is coming soon. to be exact, in 1 months' time. haha. coincidentally on 2/9. i really need to start mugging. but there r so many things going on.. n i pray God will enlarge my capacity that i may be able to do more things. in the midst of exams.
yesterday service was great! acty i thot i din need to go down for the altar call n God keep telling me to go. haha. yah.. n i went. man.. it feels so great to cry everything out in the arms of God.. i think everything have been hidden n buried inside. but when i jus begin to cry n cry n cry.. i feel everything pouring out. n thanx to that cgl who prayed for me. ;) she spoke a great word!
it's mugging time!
my prelims is coming soon. to be exact, in 1 months' time. haha. coincidentally on 2/9. i really need to start mugging. but there r so many things going on.. n i pray God will enlarge my capacity that i may be able to do more things. in the midst of exams.
yesterday service was great! acty i thot i din need to go down for the altar call n God keep telling me to go. haha. yah.. n i went. man.. it feels so great to cry everything out in the arms of God.. i think everything have been hidden n buried inside. but when i jus begin to cry n cry n cry.. i feel everything pouring out. n thanx to that cgl who prayed for me. ;) she spoke a great word!
it's mugging time!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
i feeling a bit frustrated now. doing normal distribution n i just simply cant get to the answer. Urgh. So frustrated! haix.
but anyway, jus wanna blog about my birthday. really feel blessed this birthday!
first of all, special thanx to..
1. Ailing! for buying me Daily Encounters with God. hee. God is good.. cos i was thinking of having that.;)
2. Fi! for celebrating my birthday with me n buying me First Samuel.. u noe wad? i will learn to be a woman after God's own heart.
3. Helen ahma lu jing.. for the presents.. i really like it! thanx!
4. xueqi.. for bringing me flowers on that day.. haha. though it was a bit inconvenient, but it was really nice, n it brightened up my day!
5. wei biao.. for the book. thanx for the effort.. n i really like guo bao kun u noe.. haha. really really..
5. Hoi fai n soon kiat.. for the trucker cap.. ;)
6. all those who msg me n wish me happy birthday n all those who celebrated my birthday.. ;)
7. xian liang.. for teaching me a lesson on life to kick off my 18th birthday
really feel an expectancy. God is really moving working. Oh! 2 more pple in HC city harvest family.. Praise the Lord!!! yep.. n i feel that God is moving in me n thru in this coming 18th year..
let's keep on keeping on!
but anyway, jus wanna blog about my birthday. really feel blessed this birthday!
first of all, special thanx to..
1. Ailing! for buying me Daily Encounters with God. hee. God is good.. cos i was thinking of having that.;)
2. Fi! for celebrating my birthday with me n buying me First Samuel.. u noe wad? i will learn to be a woman after God's own heart.
3. Helen ahma lu jing.. for the presents.. i really like it! thanx!
4. xueqi.. for bringing me flowers on that day.. haha. though it was a bit inconvenient, but it was really nice, n it brightened up my day!
5. wei biao.. for the book. thanx for the effort.. n i really like guo bao kun u noe.. haha. really really..
5. Hoi fai n soon kiat.. for the trucker cap.. ;)
6. all those who msg me n wish me happy birthday n all those who celebrated my birthday.. ;)
7. xian liang.. for teaching me a lesson on life to kick off my 18th birthday
really feel an expectancy. God is really moving working. Oh! 2 more pple in HC city harvest family.. Praise the Lord!!! yep.. n i feel that God is moving in me n thru in this coming 18th year..
let's keep on keeping on!
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
he fought the good fight of faith..
xiaoting is so encouraged. by his life.
last time pastor toked about living a life of significance -- n leaving a legacy behind.
i saw it in him. he did it. he ran his race. although it was short, but it was a good race ran.
he fought till the end.
hey frens,
let us not stay where we r. there r greater more impt things for us to do out there. the kingdon of God is out there. let us not lose our focus, being bored with our daily lives, today, get up on ur feet! live a life worth living! noe wad u want in life.. dun merely exist, live!
he touched my life, my heart. when i fall, i will remember my fren who fell n got up again.
this is his favourite psalm.
Ps 27
A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!
xiaoting is so encouraged. by his life.
last time pastor toked about living a life of significance -- n leaving a legacy behind.
i saw it in him. he did it. he ran his race. although it was short, but it was a good race ran.
he fought till the end.
hey frens,
let us not stay where we r. there r greater more impt things for us to do out there. the kingdon of God is out there. let us not lose our focus, being bored with our daily lives, today, get up on ur feet! live a life worth living! noe wad u want in life.. dun merely exist, live!
he touched my life, my heart. when i fall, i will remember my fren who fell n got up again.
this is his favourite psalm.
Ps 27
A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
renewed passion..
*hiak* guess wad is the renewed passion for? yeah.. haha. acty the renewed passion is for guitar. haha. cant guess right.. maybe i shld acknowledge terence's guitar for it. haha. yep.. yesterday n today.. realise that i m falling in love with my guitar all over again, when i use it to worship God.
acty this weekend, i was really sad n discouraged abt soul-winning. i was feeling so discouraged that i did not have strength to do anything else. but today, our cg had many frens! n wad is better is that many of them were saved! Praise God! yah.. it is really exciting.. tears filled my eyes when i accompanied one of the frens down.. as i saw the pple who jus went forward to receive Christ.
oh.. n an added piece of good news.. SUN is pregnant!!!!!!!!! haha. i think that is really great news! i cant believe it!@ God is such a good God!!!
haha. n one last thing. serving on fri is not that bad. haha. not that it is bad.. u noe y? cos i saw yang jun wei.. den i ask janice if i shld go tell him that i really liked him.. in the end i mastered the courage to tell him. this is wad i said..
jun wei! I jus want to tell u that i used to appreciate your program a lot.. yah.. thank you
den he said.. that is very nice of you. thank you.
den i said.. welcome. hahahahaha. it was so scary! i was honestly sho sho nervous okie.. hee. but i m glad i did it.. yeah yeah.. he is such a nice dj! haha.
God is a good god...
acty this weekend, i was really sad n discouraged abt soul-winning. i was feeling so discouraged that i did not have strength to do anything else. but today, our cg had many frens! n wad is better is that many of them were saved! Praise God! yah.. it is really exciting.. tears filled my eyes when i accompanied one of the frens down.. as i saw the pple who jus went forward to receive Christ.
oh.. n an added piece of good news.. SUN is pregnant!!!!!!!!! haha. i think that is really great news! i cant believe it!@ God is such a good God!!!
haha. n one last thing. serving on fri is not that bad. haha. not that it is bad.. u noe y? cos i saw yang jun wei.. den i ask janice if i shld go tell him that i really liked him.. in the end i mastered the courage to tell him. this is wad i said..
jun wei! I jus want to tell u that i used to appreciate your program a lot.. yah.. thank you
den he said.. that is very nice of you. thank you.
den i said.. welcome. hahahahaha. it was so scary! i was honestly sho sho nervous okie.. hee. but i m glad i did it.. yeah yeah.. he is such a nice dj! haha.
God is a good god...
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
dunno really noe wad to say. for those who r visiting this webby, it is still under construction. feeling really happy now.
this is for helen. if she happens to read this.
my dear girl..
Jesus is for everyone. I din realise that telling u so much yet u still thot that there will be pple who is not in the plan to noe God. That is not true! u may not become a missionary, a preacher, but yet u can be a Christian in any area of this world influencing ur part of the world for Jesus! who says u cant give ur life over to God? n who says u cant achieve a lot for Him? God's plans is not for you to know Him thru me, but for u to know Him thru yourself. geeZ~
this is for helen. if she happens to read this.
my dear girl..
Jesus is for everyone. I din realise that telling u so much yet u still thot that there will be pple who is not in the plan to noe God. That is not true! u may not become a missionary, a preacher, but yet u can be a Christian in any area of this world influencing ur part of the world for Jesus! who says u cant give ur life over to God? n who says u cant achieve a lot for Him? God's plans is not for you to know Him thru me, but for u to know Him thru yourself. geeZ~
Sunday, July 18, 2004
another word from God..
haha. today i toked to raymond again. he brought another word frm God again. i think he is really my guardian angel. cannot stand it. no, i shld say that he is God's messenger. like that kind of prophet liddat. haha. no lah.. but jus that dunno y he is jus able to bring up matters to tell me to face up to them.. n so qiao we always face the same problems. so he will breakthru liao den tell me abt it. den supposingly be my turn to break thru. interesting right? although the last issue he toked to me was not settled yet..
fri team?
i m changing team. to fri team. God told me yest that He was bringing to a place of greater challenge. i was feeling quite happy! i noe that sumtin is going to happen there for me. BUT! yesterday morgan told me how the fri team is like... haix. den my heart sank. it is not wad i thot it to be. he said that the team was super quiet, everything moves very fast. b4 u noe it, closing is over. geez! although i always felt super tired after duty on sat, i enjoyed myself so much. oops. i m starting to grumble. geez.
but u noe wad? i have trusted in God's plans. Like wad pst said, I may be unwilling, but i will do it. I always knew that God had sumtin greater in store for me. ;) there is no need for fear. yup..
but u noe wad? i have trusted in God's plans. Like wad pst said, I may be unwilling, but i will do it. I always knew that God had sumtin greater in store for me. ;) there is no need for fear. yup..
Thursday, July 15, 2004
food for thought
The Power of Holding Hands
By Rabbi Harold Kushner
I was sitting on a beach one summer day, watching two
children, a boy and a girl, playing in the sand. They were
hard at work building an elaborate sandcastle by the
water's edge, with gates and towers and moats and internal
passages. Just when they had nearly finished their
project, a big wave came along and knocked it down,
reducing it to a heap of wet sand. I expected the children
to burst into tears, devastated by what had happened to all
their hard work. But they surprised me. Instead, they ran
up the shore away from the water, laughing and holding
hands, and sat down to build another castle. I realized
that they had taught me an important lesson. All the
things in our lives, all the complicated structures we
spend so much time and energy creating, are built on sand.
Only our relationships to other people endure. Sooner or
later, the wave will come along and knock down what we have
worked so hard to build up. When that happens, only the
person who has somebody's hand to hold will be able to
laugh.
Another quote:
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
on another note, i did pretty well for LEP. the best for all these years. ;) God is good.
By Rabbi Harold Kushner
I was sitting on a beach one summer day, watching two
children, a boy and a girl, playing in the sand. They were
hard at work building an elaborate sandcastle by the
water's edge, with gates and towers and moats and internal
passages. Just when they had nearly finished their
project, a big wave came along and knocked it down,
reducing it to a heap of wet sand. I expected the children
to burst into tears, devastated by what had happened to all
their hard work. But they surprised me. Instead, they ran
up the shore away from the water, laughing and holding
hands, and sat down to build another castle. I realized
that they had taught me an important lesson. All the
things in our lives, all the complicated structures we
spend so much time and energy creating, are built on sand.
Only our relationships to other people endure. Sooner or
later, the wave will come along and knock down what we have
worked so hard to build up. When that happens, only the
person who has somebody's hand to hold will be able to
laugh.
Another quote:
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
on another note, i did pretty well for LEP. the best for all these years. ;) God is good.
update again
hey i m back again. hee. yesteday had a great day at church without walls seminar. haha. it was really good; hey! reaching out is not so difficult after all! geeZ! there is no need for fear of rejection yah.. even if u have fear, be courageous! Courage is moving on in spite of ur fear.
Yesterday listened to this really good speaker by the name of Dr Ng PAk Tee. He was a pretty amazing guy considering that his speech moved me to tears. Aint that amazing? U noe something, after that, i felt that though i will not consider myself patriotic, i consider myself loyal to hwa chong. yuPPpp! really inspired by him that today i absorbed all my carnival tickets! haha. dun worry.. i will sell them all.
i just came to realise that i m 7 weeks away from my prelims.. counting down pple. buck up! For some reason, i m still in holiday mood. Geez! Xiaoting u got to study study study!
recently i also came to realise the importance of the presence of God. (so many realisations hor) Really that is the key in a sense that will unlock so many things in the supernatural realm.geeZ! n His presence is the best place u can be.
there was something that i wanted to post but could not remember what it is. haha. nvm lah. i will be back again. ;)
Yesterday listened to this really good speaker by the name of Dr Ng PAk Tee. He was a pretty amazing guy considering that his speech moved me to tears. Aint that amazing? U noe something, after that, i felt that though i will not consider myself patriotic, i consider myself loyal to hwa chong. yuPPpp! really inspired by him that today i absorbed all my carnival tickets! haha. dun worry.. i will sell them all.
i just came to realise that i m 7 weeks away from my prelims.. counting down pple. buck up! For some reason, i m still in holiday mood. Geez! Xiaoting u got to study study study!
recently i also came to realise the importance of the presence of God. (so many realisations hor) Really that is the key in a sense that will unlock so many things in the supernatural realm.geeZ! n His presence is the best place u can be.
there was something that i wanted to post but could not remember what it is. haha. nvm lah. i will be back again. ;)
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