ouch

dunno how to tell u.

how bad i feel.

i felt like i messed up n din do it right.

n i m really really sorry.

i really need wisdom.

to know how to continue walking.

holidayssss

i so have the feeling.

that it is holidays.

because tmr is a public hol and there is no work.

and next week i’m off to m’sia!!!

oh man.

holidaying mood.

when bad things happen to good people

one of my fave verses.

约伯记42：5

我从前风闻有你， 现在亲眼看见你。

awesome post by Pst Kong on job and suffering.

check it out!

www.konghee.com/blog.

:)

2 years

saturday boys have been ard for 2 yrs already.

2 years since i shocked wj on msn that day.

2 years since u guys accompany me to love sean kingston.

2 years since we went night cycling.

2 years felt like yesterday.

so near yet so far.

nostalgia.

let’s celebrate.

sat boys 2 yrs anniversary.

xmasssss

the first thing that greeted me today, was the christmas carols that playing in suntec.

:))))))

im just happy. that xmas is coming. :)

oh the things to look forward in life! :)

为谁而活 为谁而战

reluctant to come online at this time, but i just wanted to blog, before my thoughts escape me.

今天的心情，沉淀了许多。

和五六年前的我相比，差得很远。

但是总不能忘记，奥夫牧师来到的那一天，讲到中国，燃起我心中的那把火。

the fire cannot go off.

今天，看到一个人道出我的心声，是很奇妙的感觉。

是啊，我花了好多时间，读了宋尚节（john sung）的故事，读了jesus in beijing，读了天上人（the heavenly man）。

他提到戴德生和很多很多其他的宣教士。

听到大跃进、文化大革命、天安门事件，突然有种熟悉不过的感觉。

这就是我为什么，那么爱历史，特别是中国历史。

因为我知道，要接触这群人，你需要明白他们的文化，背景和历史。

突然间在回来的路上，感觉到自己的渺小。

人长得越大，应该越懂越多，但我在越懂越多的情况下，也渐渐发现自己懂得却是那么少。

a finite me, an infinite God.

人生充满着好多好多的未知数。不确定性。

how do i know.

霎那间，我那些微不足道的关心和渴望，和我那伟大的神相比，变得好渺小。

但又偏偏，我那伟大的神，对我那些既渺小又微不足道的事，关怀备至。

how would i know.

i remembered my prayer.

my pillar of support.

and the vision.

God show me?

counting my blessings

many days that i wake, counting my blessings.

days that i m just in gratitude, thanking Him for using me, and the chance and opportunity to serve Him in such a manner.

today woke up and felt like, i love you Jesus.

want to touch lives, be used, and also see my life changed.

and through me, lives will be touched and changed.

love You Lord.

monday bluessssss

seriously, it has been 2 mondays in a row, that i just can’t sleep properly on sunday nights.

i have no idea what is wrong really.

on every single day except monday, my body is so resistant to wake up, but only on monday, it refuses to go back to sleep.

it’s driving me nuts, by waking up after 6 hours, and refusing to go back to sleep after. and making me feel exhausted. :(

my dear body, recognise that monday is R n R day can? pretty pls.

oh and next monday i can’t sleep. :(

anyway, random blogging.

was talking to lulu jie last night, and she mentioned that i changed. in some really interesting ways. i’m not putting it up here though.

had a great time w xq last night, my dearest friend. i love times like that with her, she’s probably one of the few that i can walk for so long with at ecp, and chill, and talk abt life and everything under the sun.

i miss those times.

sometimes i think, we just need to get away from the city, and while we were walking back to parkway, i love the breeze!

counting down one week to retreat. i’m excited.

God works in ways that amaze me, and still does.

till now, i’m going back to my Monday, and while waiting for ms sher to wake, i’m wondering what should i do.

hurhur.

happy monday!

updates on matt

oh man. i had such a great time talking to my cousin about my fave boy in this world. and i cant help but blog abt this. haha.

in social studies class, they learn about different races in singapore. and…

they r supposed to draw the difference races and write down the race.

in the centre, they r supposed to write their own race.

now readers, make a guess, which race does Matthew belong to?

if u guessed it right, (other than jon that i have told to) i will give u a prize. lol.

ready?

…

…

…

…

Matthew wrote.

THE SINGAPORE F1 RACE.

 

he is the next louis hamilton, and he belongs to the s’pore f1 race.

LOL.

leaders

this year, i wished 2 of my greatest leaders happy birthday.

one told me, that he’s so glad i’m on full time.

the other said, that he is so proud of me.

i felt overwhelmed on both occasions.

and in reply, i told one of them.

i stand on the shoulders of giants.

indeed, we stand on the shoulders of giants.

without them, where would i be?

without You, where would i be.

i hope that i’ll nv forget, it is, and will always be a privilege.

新的华文教学法

http://news.omy.sg/News/Local%2BNews/Story/OMYStory200911180408-106152/2.html

我不知道为什么，看这则报道后，我心里真的有一丝丝的难过。

或许，比一丝丝还要多一点。

看了柯老师所写的，心里一阵凉。

新加坡社会，就只有『务实』两个字吗？

对华文的热忱，不是能用市场价值来衡量的。

华文代表的，不仅仅是一个语言，或是可以增加市场价值的工具。

它是我们的身份，在这语言背后，包含的是五千年的文化，以及我们作为华人的身份认同。

一旦抹去了，我们也失去我们的“根”和“本”。

啊啊啊啊啊。

the fear of the Lord

PATIENCE.

the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

好好恋爱

 

touched me a lot.

living right

i was thinking.

what is the most impt thing.

and what would guide me to make the right decisions.

and what should i think, do and behave.

then i remembered, it’s all about standing right before Him.

ya. it’s all about standing right before Him.

my attitudes, my motives, my all.

You are my everything isn’t it?

desires of my heart

paris.

prague.

guess where? maldives!

christmas is coming!

and new year is coming.

2009 is coming to an end.

and cheers to 2010.

it feels like year end already.

LALALALALALALLALALALA

I am in a good mood tdy.

because we had an awesome “dope” time celebrating pst yk and wenling’s birthday.

it was really a “new look” day.

with my new hair and jacket.

and i really enjoyed myself. and was touched to tears. :)

love pst, love wenling, love meiyan, love my awesome zone and friends God has given to me.

i love my life. and now. my awesome hair. haha.

for once. BANGS!!!!!

nights to all!!!

busy and fruitful days

haven’t really been blogging huh. haha. i dun blog for 2 reasons.

a. nothing to blog about.

b. too many things on my mind that it’s just too difficult to blog.

and for now, it’s the latter.

so now, to just randomly post abt my life. haha.

1. post-packing days.

after packing my room, i’m loving it.

yes there r still many many books, but it’s neat and tidy, and really makes me feel much happier. :) i love my room. and the weather nowadays is just sooooo good for slping. so all the more i love it.

2. the time to be away.

dong has left for brunei.

oh man this is the first time he is leaving for soooo long and i really think, i’m gonna miss him. though we don’t talk as much, but i miss his nonsense and presence.

3 weeks is quite a long time.

angel is in indo, dong in brunei, kt in taiwan, lulu in taiwan, wj in mugging land.

i wonder, what am i doing here? haha.

3. 60 min love revolution.

our first time to old folks’ home.

it is really quite exciting to bring joy to these ppl.

and i am so proud of my members.

they r really living out, our 60min love revolution.

4. fruitfulness

serving the kingdom.

seeing fruits.

loving God and people.

5. my time to be away.

will be away from 30 nov to 3 dec. then going korea in jan. it’s my time to be away. yippie!

for now, it’s back to solitude in my little room. ;)

till the world meets me again.

尽管我不明白，我也不完全了解，i am loving my God and my life. :)

ciao and nights to all.

oh i forgot to say.

I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!!

don’t be too shocked when u see me k?

kt really exclaimed. haha.

nights!

篮球

watching hot shot.

falling in love with jerry yan all over again.

忘了。我多么喜欢看篮球。

love the intensity. :)

miss bball. and the good old days.

choices.

choices.

choices. 

choices.

choices.

 

!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

extreme makeover day

i am finally done. after one day and one night.

and i m listening to the album that i dug out.

some random songs terence burned for me very very long ago.

at least 7 years. but many of them are my faves.

不知道自己在坚持什么。

为什么 要搞得自己那么累。

但是总觉得 整理房间 不只是整理房间而已

it has something to do with ur soul.

the state of ur room does affect the state of ur soul. i feel. i think.

所以整理房间 整理的 也是我的思绪和心情

I AM A HAPPY GIRL. IN A HAPPY ROOM. :)

although i think i will be sooo tired tml.

ciao people.

nights to all. :)

哭 阿牛

this is one of the songs that i love since young.

oh man. memories.

以前我看到朋友哭 我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己 怎么弄我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能够把满腔的无耐 满腔的痛苦
让泪水带走

最苦是泪水哽在心头 流不出
就像要爱却不懂得怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白
流过泪的眼睛 将生命看得更清楚
只有真正懂得付出的人
才懂得何为哭 为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会痛 心也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人
才懂得何为哭 为何哭
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白的流 

packing packing packing

maybe because ting is moving house, and it kind of rubbed off on me.

so i decided to pack my room.

oh goodness it’s such a massive proj.

this time round i m trying to change the layout in my seemingly unchangeable room.

and i wish i could paint it some dope color. after i’m done packing k? maybe. oh so maybe.

and i slept in the middle of a massive mess.

and the joke of the day.

kw: y r u not aslp?

xt: oh i m packing.

kw: oh packing to go where? go korea pack so early ah.

i had a good laugh about it.

kok wee u r so funny. even when u dun try to be. :)

ciao people.

back to dust n more dust.

haha.

i’m so tempted to upload a photo of a messy room.

but nah. maybe the product. :)

想家

突然间 我变成个想家的女孩

我好期待回家，躺在床上，享受片刻的宁静。

突然之间 我变得不爱说话

沉默 什么时候 成了我的好朋友

its unbelievable

Recently God has really been speaking to me.

I had a really good talk w ahma on fri, n I was reminded of what God has done for me n brought me through this year.

What pst preached over the weekend, reminded me of how I gave up my dreams in exchange of his dreams.
N I often wonder, is it all worth it? But I hung on to the fact, that God has sth greater for me, n that it is better to live out His will than my will.

these few days I started realising, that God has already been doing what He promised.

And 2009 has been unbelievable.

There r days I wake up, wondering if this is a dream. I m not kidding.

I dunno how to tell u how overwhelmed n humbled I m, by His grace over my life n His favour.

I really feel, that I dun deserve it.

God, thank You.