spirit-filled

i m at fang's house now, supposed to do my assignment. but i dunno y there is no urgency, so it's just bad. gee. it's ok, i promise i will finish though it's already 11pm and i m only at chap 4. xiaoting jia you. haha.

anyway. i m so excited that emerge is coming. yes i m finally in word power finals! mus come n cheer for me k.. haha.

yup that's all pple. off to mug.

想家

从小就对“寄人篱下”这样的感觉不陌生，所以我一直认为自己是以很可以适应的人，又或许是我老了！。。所以我真的不喜欢陌生的环境，我真得很喜欢家的感觉。

现在家里的房间一团糟，可以我很讨厌两头不到岸的感觉。就是讨厌。。宿舍感觉很陌生，因为少了人的气息。。 但是家里又感觉少了我。

发现我真的需要常常与人相处。因为在宿舍，特别是假期里，是完全没有人的。寂寞的感觉常常会涌到心头来，（this sounds like a wrong expression. haha）虽然这样的时候不是很多，因为我其实没有什么时间去想这些事情。但是，我真的想念家的感觉。

以前我总觉得，家和宿舍的分别在哪里？反正我每天都是早出晚归。。 在哪里都没有分别。是有的是有的。。 想念家里有人的感觉。特别想念老爸。。想念有人会帮我关灯，然后骂我。。我真得很想念。

因为这样我想。。 或许下个学期我要回到我名副其实的狗窝去了。

但是又贪图那每天来回的3个小时。。

进退两难！

blessed

i really feel blessed beyond words.

last wk pst derek talked about being at the right place at the right time.

then he asked, how many of you know that u r at the right place at the right time?

and we were like agreeing. then he said, how many of u know.. that there r also people who r supposed to be here but they r not?

and i felt a tinge of sadness.

God has been so good to us this few weeks. wonderfully blessed by service every single weekend. and it's not just the weekends. during sot every day, we meet with God in worship. We learn to be led by the Spirit, and everything is just so cool. God keeps speaking to me every single day.

tdy pst preached a powerful powerful msg. blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God,

i want to see you remarkably clear. i want to experience you.
i want to be totally devoted to you.

one life
i lay at your altar
one love
i have with you
touch me again
fill me as you hold
my outstretched hands

one word
you know i will follow
one heart
broken to you
use me again
your mercies follow me
for all my days

i want to be more in love with u than i've ever been before.

i mean that

acquired taste.

loving God n lingering in His presence is an acquired taste.

i haven't updated for one week, but it felt like eternity. it seems like everything u have not heard from God was just revealed to you in this one week.

God is good.

i need brokenness.

God is moving.

sometimes i m scared. becos i dunno if i really can. can i?

sot again

officially attended 2 days of sot. it feels like it is so much more than 2 days. fri, sat, sun, mon. every day having new encounters, new revelations, it's so much more than what i can wish for. God is so good. He is answering our prayers!

i want to.. raise up a new generation of young people, who loves God, will not compromise, and build their lives on the sermon of the mount. In pst's words, no more convenient christianity. yes!

God is really doing a new work in City Harvest, and i want to be part of it! i want to be the end-time church He raises up, where we will see dreams and visions.

Sermon on the mount was really really good! I am so happy that Pastor is doing this. A new revival Lord..

Ask of me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance..

The sacrifices of the Lord are a broken and contrite heart..

purify our motives.. purify our hearts. raise up pple, that has a different spirit God..

sot

happy that exams r over today, totally excited that i am starting SOT tml! after hearing so much from everybody, i am just excited. But i want to start SOT right. (:

Today had a really nice talk with my. There is one thing that has not changed since i am young, i love talking to her. She is someone of great wisdom and can always provide me with great insights on things. It always triggers certain things while talking to her.

One thing i learn as a disciple is to press into my leader. As i grow older in God, this thing jus keeps coming up to me. It is important ting, to press into your leader. To draw from the man/woman of God. I remembered there was once God prompted me to go up to her, and ask her to pray for me, because I want to have what she has. I was freaked out, but I decided to obey God. In the past I used to be super scared of her, but i have learnt that that is silly. To be discipled is a good thing, becos u learn. We all must learn in the process to have a right attitude, not one of fear, but of respect and servanthood.

I thank God for her, for all that she has imparted to me, and I thank God for the many greater years to come!

The greatest leader of all is the greatest servant of all. God taught me that tdy.

I m really excited. But now it's 3 plus am! i better sleep soon. (:

i feel like i died, went up to heaven and lived again.

family

family day 2007. 1 may.

R we a family?

R u part of this family?

In a family,

We give because we love.

We give our time, our finances, our energy.

We sacrifice because we love.

In a family, we go all the way out not because u r asked to, but becos u love this family.
And because you love, you will do anything for ur family members.

Do you love ur family? Do you love the vision? R u a part of this family?

We do wad we do, becos we love.
We love, because He first loved us.

not because we r told to.

I wish you will read this. I wish you will understand.
Becos i love my family. But i m heartbroken. Becos u dun love our family. You noe that?

What happened has really broken my heart.

By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love, one for another.

You dun have to do it if it is too hard on you really. You dun have to bother if u dun love our family. Really. You dun.