great!

this few days thing have been so good. haha. there was so many "first time"s for me. i din enjoy all of them, but it was really an adventure. it is really true when pple say that it is really an adventure with God and things dun get boring.

last fri went back to dhs. mr fong was really pretty nice. haha. offering me jobs and arranging things for me. but wad i m supposed to teach in dhs is really beyond my imagination. really out of my league kind of thing. but it will still be an experience though. i m praying that i will enjoy myself to the fullest.

this few days r so exciting! haha. n God has proven Himself to be faithful. really wan to love His presence.

happy birthday michael!

back to blog. i think cos i really like this blogskin i will feel like blogging to see something nice on it. haha. acty i dunno wad to write here. hiak.

life is a great journey. sometimes it can get tough, to the point that we feel like giving up. sometimes our future looks so dim! that we cant even see our fingers before us, not to mention God's. sometimes it seems like we will nv walk out of where we are, we will forever be stuck here in this place, in this state. sometimes we dunno where we r going, and we dunno what our future has in store for us. sometimes i feel this way. haha.

but well, thank God life is always going from glory to glory, and He never fails to bring me out of where i m. i m looking forward to breakthroughs after breakthroughs and i m looking forward to His presence in my life. Or should i say He is inhabiting in the midst of us. thank u Lord.

我很喜欢晚上这个时间。突然又不想写了，晚安。

changed my blogskin!

hey guys i have changed my blogskin! haha. do u like it? feel so inspired by Abraham. that is y i always put my nick as stargazing. stars remind us of God's goodness and promises yeah? ;)

it has been a while since i blogged. hee. lazy lah. anyway wad i have been was jus spending my time lor. haha. giving bible studies, relief teaching and teaching my nieces' tuition. which i enjoyed to the maximum man. haha. love them. and it is fun. last week i visited my grandfather also. boy i made it a resolution this yr to love and care for my family even more.

relief teaching has been okie. the teacher i relieved was a Christian! although he din noe i m one. yep. but the kids were really noisy and naughty. especially the primary threes. supposed to teach cme. they din listened so i tried to do kind of a skit. haha. but failed also lah. in a sense. well the primary ones were nicer. but one used vulgar lang and i tell u, i was so angry that i scolded him like dunno wad. haha. really. and the class was so shocked. haha.

next week i m teaching in dunman high. teaching the dhp pple. pls wish me all the best. hoping i wun pronounce anything wrongly. i have decided to jus go there n be really humble. haha. cos i think they r much better than me. hiak hiak. tdy went shopping and bs. wow. i learnt a lot in GOTP. think that the Bible is jus so amazing. ha. if u r free and have nth to do, feel free to ask me out. cos i m free! haha.

tdy i had my first relief teaching experience. haha. it doesnt feel like earning money at all. as in like doing hard work. i was teaching the kids in TNS. m thinking shld i put down the sch jus in case? haha. okie lah i was teaching at tao nan. it is not too bad. dealing with little kids. but i think we jus got to learn to make lessons a bit more interesting. haha. which apparently i dun really noe. oops. the pri 3s r okie. not too bad. pretty restless they r. n noisy. haha. the p1s r scary. u imagine having a class of 30 kids. and half of them r calling after u. teacher, can i go toilet? teacher, can i drink water? teacher, can i go to fill my water? teacher! i dunno how to do! teacher! i finish redi! teacher! i very urgent! teacher and the list goes on.. haha. boy.. they r really a handful n i really din noe how to control them. walking abt in my heels is not too fun either. i came home so tired. but happy somehow. lying on the sofa n i fell asleep. but i think teaching pri sch is not that bad, i earned my first 65 bucks. boy.

stay in tune for more next week.. adventure at geylang methodist. tdy i taught my niece in tao nan! happen to take her class for one period. ;)

Daddy is back! i really missed him while he was away n boy aint i glad that he is back. haha. thank God i din go cos they said that it wasnt fun! but frankly speaking i think i might have enjoyed it big time. but it is okie cos i chose not to go. ;)

has been a while since i last blogged. many have been asking me wad m i doing now that i m schless and jobless. haha. well, to update u once again on my well being, i have been really kind of doing nothing. for the last week, the best thing that i did was sleeping? but it is really too much. cos i slept too much. haha. sometimes up to 12 hours a day. boy oh boy but that is not the norm. i have been watching tv and going out also. n i read! that is the very best thing i did i think, which i enjoyed thoroughly. seriously those who r out there in sch, studying is the best thing u can do. i miss doing tutorials, having lectures, but do not miss wearing sch uniforms though. hc uniform is seriously too hot. yes i miss homework. i mean that frm the bottom of my heart. yest i jus read a book abt a princess in saudi arabia which was a not bad read. not really good.. but not bad. yep.

i enjoyed service in the weekend totally. wad a msg to kick off the yr. to have Jesus Christ as the foundation, ur beginning and ur end. this is the verse God has given me for the yr. everytime i come to it i have a deeper n deeper n deeper understanding of it. and it is a verse all of us r so familiar with.

Matt 6:33-34
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

here it is for u to meditate on. ;) have a great week guys!

hiak. i m back to blog again. acty i would really like to change my blogskin, but thinking of all the troublesome html jus makes me not want to do it. haha.

this time in the night always sets me thinking. gee.

我常常在这里不用华语发言是因为害怕许多人看不见，但是现在想用我最熟悉的语言。看到许多人回学校了。我好想念上课的日子！真的。非常想念。现在才知道什么叫做珍惜你眼前所拥有的。想到以后再也没有这种上学的感觉，是无比怀念。虽然会上大学，那确实不一样。今天在家里烂了一整天，才发现到晓亭是一个闲不下来的人。发觉到我开始得背负一点点大人的责任，就那么一点点。那车费，电话费，吃饭，看戏，原来都要钱。哈。好可笑的“发现”。

我可不可以想念德明，想念那无忧无虑的生活。想念那一群陪我笑，陪我哭的朋友。不管我是多么的傻，他们都接受我。因为现在，连我自己都不可以接受自己去这么傻呀，傻呀地走下去。

我可不可以想念华初，想念那一群每天上课都有无数笑话，让上学的日子不再烦闷。我想念每一堂语特的课，老实说，今天有点想念kapo. 哈哈。 想念他的红楼梦，还有他的hu啊。 哈哈。今天有一点失去自己的感觉。好想找回一点点的晓亭。现在，我要做的是什么呢? 更奇怪的想法是，晓亭身边的朋友又是谁呢？ 哈哈。真是胡思乱想。

大家晚安！

freak xiaoting is really rotting at home. though i really read a lot, hmm, but i m still somewhat rotting. i have to get out of my hse n get out of this slacking lifestyle. muahaha. read some silly books. rotted. hmm.. ahah. somebody help? haha.

at the beginning

we were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, i'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me i was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When i lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that i wanna keep going on
Love is a river, i wanna keep going
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road that i wanna keep going
Love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
In the end i wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

happy 2005!

right now it is already yr 2005 and 2004 is over. boy oh boy. how fast time passes huh. had a grrreeeaaattttt time today with my cg. e18 & e357. haha. though e18 is not really my cg. haha. but we had a fantastic cgm! it was simply so exciting. beyond words. tdy i jus realise that we realy did grow as a cg. there were so many new faces as compared to last yr! but yet all these pple were integrated, growing in the cg and i m so grateful to God for that.

simply cannot believe how time passes. that i have finished my 'a' levels. enjoyed my holidays with my members. n now mos of them r alredi going back to sch. how fast can time pass huh.
tdy we did a special item for sis meiyan. like wad sis meiyan said i wished she will be moved to tears. haha. but she is a strong woman. but i was almost moved to tears though. by wad she said. and i enjoyed every minute standing there singing "at the beginning". yeah! it is now really our all time favourite kind of thing. wad a great song.

thank u sis meiyan for being my leader and for sowing into my life. everything that u have done is really appreciated. like u will not exchange us for any other members, we, at least me! will not exchange u for any other leader in the world. cos in my eyes, u r simply the best.

thank u e18 for the joy the blessings and the fellowship. it has been a great joy! and it will continue to be.

e357, in the coming year, let us love God even more. let us enlarge our tents and strengthen our stakes.. let us take chung cheng, jun yuan, ahs etc etc for Christ k.. i believe everyone of u can do it. keep on shining n loving Him.

i m stepping into the new year. n it will be another great year.