hey i m back after so long. it has been a fulfilling week. i was teaching in ahs since last tues. haha. told ying that i m not teaching den suddenly ahma ask me to take her place so i ended up teaching yan hong n yulan. hee. yep i agree i got a loud voice. especially when my class is particularly loud. muahaha. so i got to rise above them. dun test my limits yep.. haha. n i thot i m only to teach for only 2 days, only to noe that another tcher was on mc until tml so i end up sitting beside ahma teaching for another few days. boy oh boy aint it an experience.. i enjoyed myself! hahaha.

it was kind of funny cos i was teaching pple like daniel and some other that i have known before.. but it was kind of fun, especially teaching the sec 4s and 1s also. the sec 1s are really cute and the sec 4s were really nice. i had the honour of giving away their o level chinese results n i felt like it was really an experience n a priveilege. yep. n they did extremely well too. well done! ;) n it was really funny when i was in 3e and ying n yulan screamed when they saw me. n ting ting msging me telling me that they were really shocked to see me. n oh to have javier's sis in my class also. n also taking cab tog with my student. haha. and having to be mistaken to be ying's sis. kind of interesting huh. n to watch a match ahs vs cchsm and to support ahs after all my life i have been wishing they will be defeated. (sorry guys) n they were. i m sad for that really. ;) u all have it to go all the way. n it continues.. that my dearest ahma brought me to some weird place to eat some weird indian food in the open air. where the wind blows and we have added natural ingredients in our drinks and murtabak. muahaha. where the wind blows and the flower flows. (it rhymes!) into my drink. yucks. haha. and the murtabak which two of us pathetically only ate like half of it. wad a waste army guys! n it tasted nice. haha. and hving to walk in really painful heels. acty the heels arent painful. it is jus that my old "injury" worked up on me tdy. Dear God pls heal. it hurts tdy u noe. kind of quite badly that i got to limp a bit so that i dun hurt it so much. yep. and tml is my last day. haha. i enjoyed myself thoroughly so to say. and seriously, if God calls, i would love to go into teaching. becos it is a major satisfaction to be a fren to ur students.

oh yep and tdy is the release of o level results. my congratulations to all those who have done so well. ;) and those who did not get the best results, keep on working hard yah..

and well, i m waiting for my turn too. it is coming. before u noe it. keep me in ur prayers k.. or should i say, my results. but ahma said sth that encouraged me tdy. i have the peace of God within me. which reminds me of wad Pst Ulf said. the peace of God which surpasses all understanding. when i first memorised this verse i din noe wad it means. now i noe. that when ur situation tells u u shld be nervous and apprehensive, the peace of God will be upon u, even when u dun understand how u can have it, or how u can be so calm.

fight the good fight of faith.

kind of silly but i cried after reading samuel's (chan) blog. acty to be honest i din really ever properly looked back n conclude my yr. although it is alredi 15 feb, it is lunar chu qi, i think i m going to conclude my yr like now.

i guess the thing i can say abt 2004 is i let go. i cant count u noe, the number of things that i actually did let go. n can i say it had been a lot. but it had been a great yr. it was a yr that i let go, n when i begin to let go, God begin to bring many things to pass. so many. i will say it is a yr that dreams came to pass.

i think i cried a lot. haha. in 2004. but sth abt it. i love crying. haha. as in not like i m a crybaby, but it is that kind of feeling of jus letting everything out of u. haha. there were many heartbreaks too. when u let go, there r bound to be heartbreaks also. but God took over at the end of the day. yep. suddenly i dun wish to go on anymore.

next wk is pst ulf. can't wait.

这个新年，我不得不承认，过得比往年更充实，更有意义。

今年，我带着前所未有的自信，去拜年。而大家，理所当然的，也觉得晓亭不同了。大家都说我成熟了。难道十八岁和十七岁真的有这么大的分别吗？哈。我不知道。我知道的是，今年过得很开心，因为我找到自己。

i m back frm service. this week is coming to an end. frankly speaking, i m looking forward to the end of the week and to a chinese new yr week. haha. boy, i think i have been resting too long n when i jus simply do sth, now i feel kind of tired. i need my stamina back.

well, i have not done my spring cleaning yet. oops! tml i will get down to it. my room is getting messy again. haha. hopefully i can get it to be spick n span. is that how u use the phrase?

service was great! i was not so wrong abt pst john after all. haha. i remembered that i enjoyed him very much and well, i really really did. the 2 messages blessed me tremendously.

Grace empowers you to do wad truth demands of u.

You determine the intimacy of ur relationship with God, not God.
You can have as much of Him as you want to.

Friends of God r those who fear Him.

yep this is somewhat the essence. n i bought the book n the cd drawing near. feel free to borrow. take care guys..

n dear 3i, i have not forgotten my message to u. can i write in chinese? haha.

可以教你们是我的荣幸。 可以和你们分享我的生活，学习生涯也是我的荣幸。能但你们四天的老师更是如此。一日为师，终生为母？哈哈。应该可以算是姐吧。你们这班想的东西比较多。（我不是说3H没有想，请不要误会。3H 想的事情是在另一方面，是不一样的领域。）你们两个是不同的班，属于不一样的性格，所以不要比较了好吗？哈哈。让我轻松的说完。你们是很有才华的一班，对周遭的事物想的会蛮多，虽然你们甚少发言。就像我刚才写的一样，让我们不光是想，也学会出点力好吗？德明是你们的。我认为你们是可以在德明里带来改变的，只要你们肯去争取，是做得到的。既然你们已经在DHP, 就让它成为去美好的一段日子和环境好吗？

好喜欢教你们这两班，谢谢你们对我的支持。虽让我觉得我教的并不是很好，但是你们还是欣然接受，让我感到安慰。谢谢！

u guys have been really appreciative of me and i m so appreciative of that. to 3i, thanx for listening to me. all my silly stories. haha. sorrie for the lack of ghost stories. i dun really tell them. do not feel sad about staying in dhs k.. once u have decided, there is no room for regret ya.. keep on keeping on. thank for cheering for me too. haha.

to 3h and i, u guys ROCK my world!

last words:
青春不留白

tdy i had a great day in dhs. when i was walking out of dhs, although i taught for only 4 days, there was a tinge of sadness. i din expect that i will feel this way n really miss teaching in this place. when i graduated frm dhs, i came back like only a few times. 5 fingers is more than enough to count. n i came back really to see my frens. to me, dhs din really have something that kept me back. tdy i found that thing in this place that kept me back n here. 德明的人情味。

had a fulfilling n meaningful talk with wu lao shi n mrs har. something i really like abt dunman high is the teachers. they r jus so nice, so down to earth, so sincere. wu lao shi is so motherly! yah. the second day when i came, she kind of hugged me n she is that kind of person whom u jus feel like u can rest in her arms. haha. and she is so dedicated to education. that she is not discouraged, tired, but she still doing her part to change things. haha. i m blogging abt her, jus like wad wei biao did. wad i like abt her is that she doesnt jus bring things up, she is constantly looking for solutions. n i think that is wad things shld be. we dun jus talk the talk, we walk the walk.

mrs har is so cute! and she still is. i really like her. n i think she is really pretty. haha. 很有亲和力。and was jus telling her abt east view. haha. wei biao i told her abt the attraction in east view thingy. oops. haha. den she was telling me it is really a good experience and we really get to see the world out there. and she said this: we live in a protected environment. which i so very much agree. now i feel like maybe i wun dread east view so much any more.

suddenly becos of these few days, i have learnt to appreciate dhs. even mr kiw. n i have grown to love this place more. thanx guys for being a part of my world in dunman high. dear 3h n i, this is wad i got to tell u k..

u all may think that sch is tough. u guys dun like the rules, dread the discipline and this is part of the process i have been through before. and to tell u the truth, i have felt wad u guys felt, complained my share, and now i look back, tog den i realise i have walked out of this. becos this is dunman high. and this is the sch u have chosen to come n stay in. it is part of the package guys. u have good n bad things here, jus like how u will have it similarly in other places. as in u will have certain good things and yet certain things which u dun like cos nothing is perfect in this world. 鱼与熊掌，不能兼得。learn to love this place becos u have 4 more yrs. i think i would have learn to love dhs more, and not complain so much abt it if i get to do it all over again. but dhs has its history. and i pray from the bottom of my heart that it will always go on from strength to strength.

do i sound really sentimental? i think i do. becos i jus realise that dhs holds more for me than wad i have realised before. i dun think i will go into moe n teach. but if i do, i promise u, i will be back in this place. rock on. n if i can, i will do my part to make dhs a better place.

i love my classes!

boy o boy! to tell u the truth, teaching at dunman high is such a wonderful experience! i love it to the maximum.. man, i m going to miss teaching these peeps! haha.

today is my third day and tml will be my last. well, when i first went to teach them on mon, thank God they were so not intimidating. haha. cos i kind of expected DHP classes to be like mugger class (oops guys!), but they turned out to be such lovely students! they were lively, active, pretty responsive and they made my teaching experience such a memorable one. ;) i do wish n hope that i can teach them longer. especially teaching chinese when u can really tok to them, share with them. haha.

Dear 3h, (if u guys happen to read this)

u all were such a lovely bunch of pple! thank for brightening up my days so much! i kind of miss that 3 cheers thingy, cos we seldom do it in hwa chong. but when u all did it for me, i was so touched! haha. i felt like if i have taught u all a bit more, i would have teared. haha. thank u for the lovely memories, u guys r wonderful students and were so obedient n cooperative also. haha. i dunno wad to say about u really. felt that u guys will really enjoy ur days in dhs, cos u r really a lively bunch of pple. can sense tat strong spirit in u, though u all r only tog for a while. so keep there going ya.. i still feel sad for u all that u r going to be in dhs for so long! haha. but it is okie.. hopefully things will begin to change in a better way.. ;) enjoy ur sch days.. it is precious, u have only so many years to go. it may seem like a long time, but boy, time really flies.

i enjoyed my days in dhs. enjoyed my frens, the crapping, the laming, the stupid scandals and rumours(which r often not true, haha). n i had nice tchers too. think this is wad u guys will really enjoy. i think this is too heavy and sentimental for the beginning of the yr. haha. but if i have a chance again, i will take u back to be ur chinese teacher. ;)

Dearest 3i, i will leave urs for tml when i return after my last day k.. ;)