God is good. i was reading the Bible last time before slping. and God gave me this verse.

Ps 94:19

In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul.

Dun u think it's a great verse for exam? haha. it took me thru my paper tdy.

Anyway tml is the last day already. i m gonna make it.

still studying at 130am. my eyes r really closing. i m struggling to stay awake. but 小猪's 爱转角brought back fond memories. and brought a smile to my face. jia you xiaoting.

i just ate this really cheap cup noodles that taste awfully nice. yummy.

it's weird that i have 3 papers tml n the day aft tml. but i m not the least urgent. oh gosh. xt work hard for the remaining days k?

to all of u. i will see u in 2 days' time. it's freedom calling me.

Ps 90:12 (NLT)

"Teach us to realize the brevity of life, so that we may grow in wisdom."

n that is y, i nd to live every day, moment, minute, second for You.

i nd to live for You.

半夜了，感觉有点累，但是却睡不着。

需要读书，但读不进。

i like this hour.

when i saw ur sms, i could not stop crying. thank u for ur love n concern.

thank you for letting me noe, that it matters. thank you.

i think it is amazing. that for the sake of understanding wad u r writing, i m acty navigating dictionary.com on the other side.

perhaps u r one of the very few who can make me do this.

but i still enjoy reading ur blog. :)

when i saw, i was reminded of how i felt always when i saw on the streets. that love n compassion for these ppl once again arose. God i did remember.

it seems like a faraway dream, but somehow i always wished, that these ppl would be touched.

and i thot, He gave me the desires of my heart.

the communication is not easy, the gap is big, but love can overcome all things.

i pray, You will use us, to make a difference.

lives waiting to be touched out there.

on another notes, jus want to say thank u to my cg members. u guys did an awesome job yest with the bbq. thanks for ur generous service n love towards others.

xiaoting is thankful. for great members like u guys, and for what He is doing.

it's Your kingdom, it's your glory.

unless the Lord build His hse, he who labours labours in vain.

so Lord, build Your hse.

just received a mail from my lecturer. i was sooooo encouraged. i did not find all the literary theories very simple, but i knew i really tried. and i enjoy thinking and reflecting and understanding the theories. my new fave is foucault. wahahaha. i think i m gonna read up more on him. he sounds so interesting. huhur. anyway, i really want to make use of the remaining time in uni. i wanna grow n expand. so gambathe!

i just realised. that in 7 days' time, i m finishing my exams. which also means it's the end of my year 3 sem 1. suddenly, i feel pretty nervous. not because of exams, but because this sem is ending. i kind of dun wan it to, because i have not given myself the chance to put in 100%, and i dun wan to leave uni regretting that i did not give my best.

i only have 10 modules left to fight for.

xiaoting..

in any case, i was mentally n emotionally prepared. BUT. my heart still sank when i saw the sms.

please help me.

i nd the grace n wisdom.

i m jus glad it's all over. and i dunno y, it feels loooong. can't wait for next thurs. but before the 29, i promise i will work hard. really.

does mugging make u tired? cos i m jus simply exhausted. aft a whole day of churning out reports.

i really just want to get it over and done with. really.

想好好的写一些东西。其实，很不喜欢的一件事，就是自己一直在做某件事情，却没有时间去思考自己的人生，这一点，或许跟某人很像吧。

最近很不喜欢思考，因为很讨厌自己在思考的当儿，带来的烦恼。要想的事情太多，越想会越烦，但是这样会导致我开始出现迟钝的状况。没有啦，是开玩笑的，但是如果在停止思考字的生活，应该真的会变笨吧。

talking to terence yest, and he said he totally agreed that i have become less D over the yrs and more I. I probably like myself more for the fact that I have become less D, becos i used to be really demanding and everything. But i really dun like myself for being more I. I can stand ppl being noisy but I can't stand myself being noisy. Wad an irony huh. U must be thinking.. xiaoting r u sure? becos i talk so much all the time. ya but sometimes i jus wish i really can talk less. hur.

I like myself with more 人情味, but i dislike the fact that i think i have become less disciplined over the years and giving myself more room for errors and mistakes. I dun like the fact that I have become less a thinker and more an enjoyer.

I think.. i need to do something more productive with my life.

The last semester, i pushed myself to the max, becos i jus wanted to stretch myself.

But this sem, after SOT, i thot i totally lost my momentum. I hoped i have not lost my cutting edge,

though more I, i want to retain my D-ness still. really. I can't stand low productivity and the wasting of one's life. I love people. but I want to do something more with my life. REALLY.

so i hope and pray I will get down to sth soon. that after this exams, i will make full use of my life. this has been a sem of rest n fun n what's not, and i think, it's time to get down to WORK.

pst once said, we all live to work u noe, and i need to get myself down to doing it.

XIAOTING. quit moping ard ur life.

我爱上这首歌。

总觉得“崇拜”好有意境。

歌词简单 漂亮

我存在你的存在

崇拜：

作词：陈没 作曲：彭学斌 编曲：陈建骐

你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在在你的存在
你以为爱就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜
我活了 我爱了
我都不管了
心爱到疯了恨到酸了就好了
可能的 可以的 真的可惜了
幸福好不容易的怎么你却不敢了呢
我还以为我们能 不同于与别人
我还以为不可能的
不会不可能

你的姿态
你的青睐
我存在在你的存在
你以为爱就是被爱
你挥霍了我的崇拜
风筝有风
海豚有海
我存在在我的存在
所以明白
所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱
自己存在 在你之外

这次的感觉好不一样。

我已经学习如何坦然地去面对。

对自己的成长，我觉得好神奇啊。

不知不觉中，我已经长大了。

和一年前的自己，感觉是多么的不一样。

不是心如止水，是懂得去面对的。

他是信实的。

我还是需要智慧。

但是，这次，少了担心，焦虑和害怕。多了一份信心。

谢谢你。真的。

还有谢谢一位特别的先生。我好喜欢他给的advice.

encouraging n practical.

all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.

u believe it? i do. :)

off to my first exam.

keep me in ur prayers k?

i m quite glad it's starting. n will be over in no time.

突然对布拉格这个地方好有憧憬。其实，全世界当中，我最向往的一个地方是欧洲。

希望。。 有一天我可到那里backpacking。好幸福啊！

也希望我可以到欧洲度蜜月。:P (我知道，这样老公要很有钱哦！)

my heart melted when i saw the pics. u r in for a treat.

these r pictures of Prague, the capital city of Czech Republic.

I will be there one day. I can't wait!

o昨晚坐在克毅的车上，谈起以前的事。最近的我们很少说话，但是如果要聊起以前，他是更适合不过的人选了。跟他说话时，总会想起从前。并不是因为他很老，但只是因为我们俩经过了这么多，现在仍是朋友。虽然性格上差这么多，我们还是很了解彼此的。享受这样的谈话。a walk down memory lane.

a Song for u, my friend.

Vitamin C Graduation Song

And so we talked all night
About the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year
We won't be coming back
No more hanging out
Cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now
Cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing
Like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you
And then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
A nd as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now,
Will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything
We learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job
That won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus
La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow
Like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

we r gonna walk thru this.

i wun say it's a tribulation. but i noe it's a frustration. n i noe, it's the devil.

n so this time round, i m going to be so focused.

i m going to be in Christ and in peace.

and i know, i will overcome my exams, overcome the obstacles.

becos..

all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.

and so..

all things r gonna work tog for me..

and for my cg E357.

it's gonna happen.

let hearts be revealed.

i wonder wad i need to do. i have been thinking. n i CANNOT afford to get distracted. but it seems, like 101 things that are coming in the way.

Ps 78:70-72

"He also chose David His servant, and took him from the sheepfolds; from following the ewes that had young He brought him, to shepherd Jacob His people and Israel His inheritance. So he shepherded them according to the integrity of his heart and guided them by the skilfulness of his hands. "


the desires of my heart.

it's such an awesome day for sleeping. i love the weather. recently i have become like a 宅女。i like staying at home really. :)

this is for you.

“说出来会被嘲笑的梦想，才有实践的价值。即使跌倒了，姿势也会很豪迈。” -九把刀

i have been thinking quite a bit. thoughts running thru my mind. anw i m really getting down to studying. wish me all the best.

i did it. i sat in front on my com from 530am till now leh. and finished my assignment. gosh i m soooo tired. but i m leaving hse in an hr. :) 3 cheers to xiaoting!

and one last assignment to go.

okkk. it's my turn to blog about night cycling. :)

if u realise, it's actually 730am in the morning. yes i woke up at 530 this morning to do my work. and i slept at 2 mind you. but this is all for procrastinating la. it's not becos xiaoting is hardworking.

anyway, abt night cycling.

unknown to many, i always wanted to go night cycling. yes although i m not that good at cycling. (and that is y i always have to cycle at ecp. so sad. cos i dun dare to cycle from m hse to ecp. i think i will be knocked down by a car or sth) and really, it was not so ez cycling on the main roads! i was trying so hard to manoeveur and at the same time trying to assure myself not to be scared. waahaha.

so really, i was quite happy cycling from ecp to changi village. it's so much easier to cycle cannn.

anw, if u wanna noe the details, jus read ying's blog la. i m lazy to re-narrate everything she said.

but main point is, we had a SLOOOWW time cycling from ecp to joo chiat becos terence said we shld go whampoa. i m quite glad we din though. i dunno how i would have survived the night.

and u can imagine how pissed weijian is when we stopped for bak kut teh after cycling for.. 15mins? haha. and he was so stunned until he refused to eat. (till i force him to of cos). haha. anw, it's xiaoting great idea for night cycling la. so i m responsible. and i m quite convinced, that next time nobody, at least not the guys will go night cycling with me again.

well the main trip goes, we cycled all the way to changi village, n it was a loooong ardous journey. the road that knows no end. but i really enjoyed myself on the way there. :) it's so nice cycling at that hour.

we ended up at changi village. it's ulu really. and while cycling back, i fell! crashed into a pillar ok? and it's the first time i fell becos of cycling. shooo sad. and the saddest thing is i sprained my last finger. n mind u, it's really the first time. it kinda hurts yest morning, and swelled like mad. but it's quite ok now la. and amazing ken said it's blue black. i woke up this morning.. and yes it's really blue black. i wanted to show u guys a pic of the blue-blackness but my cam on low batt and i m lazy! haha. n now i realise how impt ur pinkie is to u. it's super inconvenient. i can't even brush my teeth properly la.

and so after falling down, i really felt very sian plus the road is so difficult to cycle on! haix. n it rained. n after terence's non-stop persuading, we cabbed back. haha.

now...

apologies to weijian. :P sorry man. i think he must have been so heart-broken. cos he had such a great dream about us cycling all night, but yet we were so slow and we stop for bak kut teh! and we complained and whined... that we had to cycle so far and the poor boy had to bear with us. not that he has a choice la. one side is forest, the other side is runway. haaha. and appreciation for bringing us so far.

and to weijian n mx. we r so proud of u guys! the four of us r so ko ya.. coming back in a cab. but they braved the rain leh! n cycled back from tamp to ecp in like 45 mins. *we r proud of u say we r proud of u!* and i think it's a great thing that we din cycle back. we would have suffered like mad. they r our heroes for that day. :)

n so that is abt it.. i m still suffering after effects of my fall. but after such an eventful night, i came back, and BATHED, (this is very impt) and slept until 6pm.

i really did enjoy myself. n like wad i told terence, while we r young, we shld really just try everything. n i m glad i embarked on this trip. love u guys!

after note, i think the guys will refuse to go cycling with us anymore. so for the next trip, maybe we shld just stick to cycling n picnicking at ecp? haha.

pics another day k? i m getting back to doing assignments.

and i promised myself, after such an adventure. ireally nd to get down to mugging for the next 20 days. yes i can do it.

i have a feeling. i m not going to do so well for this exam. how???

i confess..

that i havent been faithfully studying.

and i feel that i have really lagged in my momentum. and to add on to that, i dun feel the urgency.

i dunno is it becos i m too free or wad.

but i m not feeling urgent.

and i nd to. becos exams r coming up in 6 days.

and i just got a horrible grade for my assignment. the same module for exam next wk.

the next time u see me, tell me to study. i nd to.

if not i m going to screw up this exam. and i dun wan to pull down my gpa.

and i m not as smart as u think i m.

Pst Kong on This is your day

http://www.bennyhinn.org/television/default.cfm?show=E3A20237E123B85271165A00E87871C5

weijian is going to love me for this i think.

for a change this time, i think jay chou's new album is really not bad!

i used to like him abit.. in the beginning with all those songs like 简单爱 and 龙卷风。but after that, i liked him a lot lesser n i used to get quite exasperated that everything is just so similar!

well, my personal perspective of him changed when i watched 不能说的秘密。

i wun say that the movie is 5 stars, but i know that for the first try, he did a fantastic job, and he is really talented. but for his music.. u noe...

and i m pleasantly surprised by 《我很忙》。

it did impress me really.

at least there is a change. n i like the latest cowboy image.

and i feel there is a bit of change in the music. though some things still remained the same.

BUT. at least i would bother to enough to really listen to this album. hee.

my fren sent me this quote. and i was really blessed by it.

everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial.

everything is permissible, but not everything is constructive.

u noe a lot of times, ppl will ask me, xt can i do this, xt can i do that..

y can't i do this.. y can't i do that..

i thought this quote really sums it up all.

and he ended the msg with.

do it all for the glory of God!

when i feel sad, somehow this song always cheer me up.

weird right? it's supposed to be a sad song. but there's sth special abt it.

ken will disagree, but i think it's a great song.

Beautiful Girls. (sorry peeps i can't put the original one up， jus listen k? haha)

i thought it is not so easy being a leader after all.

not that i once thought it was la.

but truth is, like wad fang said, there shld be a balance after all.

haix.

有时候，要做好人很难 hor?

that is y God i said, i need ur help and alot alot of wisdom. n no room for assumption.

i remembered what this person said that impacted me in a great way.

he said, no matter where u r,

remember WHAT you r doing, and WHY r u doing it.

I dunno y but this statement impacted me lots.

God i need your grace. Holy Spirit i need you to teach me.

Show me how to live
Teach me how to pray

i tried to sleep at 1130pm last night. but i could not. and i thought about it for a very long time. and finally, i got up, took my panadol and counted sheep. and i finally fell asleep.

This morning my alarm was set for 6am. i tried to sleep, but after seeing the msg, i could not sleep anymore. got up and typed a whole long thing because i could not talk.

My mouth hurts today. More than it did yest. and my heart is grieved today. more than it is yesterday.

my vision. to raise a new generation of disciples, who will LOVE GOD WHOLEHEARTEDLY, LOVE PEOPLE FERVENTLY. and LAY THEM THEIR LIVES FOR THE KINGDOM.

when we love God, we will love what He loves, we will love people, isn't it?

I SEE THE KING OF GLORY
COMING ON THE CLOUDS WITH FIRE
THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES
THE WHOLE EARTH SHAKES

I SEE HIS LOVE AND MERCY
WASHING OVER ALL OUR SIN
THE PEOPLE SING
THE PEOPLE SING

HOSANNA
HOSANNA
HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST

HOSANNA
HOSANNA
HOSANNA IN THE HIGHEST

I SEE A GENERATION
RISING UP TO TAKE THEIR PLACE
WITH SELFLESS FAITH
WITH SELFLESS FAITH

I SEE A NEAR REVIVAL
STIRRING AS WE PRAY AND SEEK
WE'RE ON OUR KNEES
WE'RE ON OUR KNEES

HEAL MY HEART AND MAKE IT CLEAN
OPEN UP MY EYES TO THE THINGS UNSEEN
SHOW ME HOW TO LOVE LIKE YOU HAVE LOVED ME
BREAK MY HEART FOR WHAT BREAKS YOURS
EVERYTHING I AM FOR YOUR KINGDOM'S CAUSE
AS I WALK FROM EARTH INTO ETERNITY

break my heart for what breaks yours.

let's rise up, with selfless faith