after yest.



i wish that i was bolder, and less fearful.



i wish that i was more confident, and less insecure.



i wish that i would dream bigger dreams, and be less limited.



i wish, n i wish.



recently, my dad has always been waiting for me to come back.



that is so sweet.

to all my faithful readers, my com is down.

haha.

after i returned my friend's laptop to her, now my pc is down too.

haix.

praying that God will deliver a miracle. maybe when i m home, there will be a new com? haha.

i will pray for that.

for now, suffering from withdrawal symptoms. lol.

dun miss me yeah? ciao.

blogging. acty lots of thoughts r running thru my mind nowadays, but there r too many to blog.

till another time.

i haven blogged for 15days. wad an achievement. haha.

it has been a wonderful wkend. meeting minorE ppl, i almost forgot how it felt like to be part of inferno. and i miss the ah-huatness in everybody, as usual, esp ah huat. lol. he's incredibly funny la. amazingly i sat thru the whole day, just a lil tired at the end.

a lot of things r happening. it's the "happening" season. but my heart has never felt this peaceful.

had a wonderful time of fellowship with pst, vic, von, meiyan and the ldrs. it was amazing. i love the fellowship, and i went home, with a big smile on my face.

and i wonder, God wad have i done, that u place such amazing ppl and leaders in my life.

truly, i was so happy. i love my leaders. really.

finally told meiyan sth that is in my heart.

it has been running thru my mind. a little too much. haha. so i m glad i said it.

and i really appreciate the smile. it feels good to have support.

but for now, it's time to focus.

i did nth for one whole day. goodness gracious.

it's really really time, to discipline myself, and do GREAT things, for thy kingdom.

love you!!!!!! like never before.

ok. i have had that little bit of time. so i decided to just do a proper post for everybody.

seriously, it feels TOTALLY weird not to be in church on a sunday morning. i cannot remember for how long i have been attending service EVERY SUNDAY. and suddenly, to be able to slp in on sunday morning feels totally funny. haha.

anyway, ok this is the birthday post i owe everybody. (:

so here's the story.

my members have tried really hard to think of a bday surprise for me, because this yr we r just so into surprises. hahahaha. it just gets from glory to glory.

so..

they thot of this cinderella story, and turned me into the cinderella for the day(s). haha. on sat night(26 Jul), i received this sms from an unknown no.. sth like do u want to noe how the cinderella's story unfold (in chinese), stay tuned to find out! something like that la. haha. n i thot the no looks awfully familiar, so it turns out to be ting's sis' no.

then 845 am on sun morning, my 3 stepsisters (and a step brother, ie. the AHS girls plus 1 AHS guy) turned up at my main gate with breakfast. (awww so sweet, but alas i dun drink soya milk. ya they bought that) they pretended to be my stepsisters, ordering me to do chores and all before heading down to church. haha. and i was in a maddd rush running to church!!!

and after the service, they celebrated my bday, gave me my presents (which i really like- a pair of glam-looking wedges and bag from river island, and a eye-shadow base from mac) and told me i must wear them for my "ball" on monday. that was the first time i rem my cg praying for me, and that was cool. (:

and i spent the afternoon in my aunty's house, celebrating with my cousins and all. and it's amazing how much blessing i received. thank You Jesus.

and after dinner with my dad and sister, i met wj n mx n did some awfully lame stuff. cos i cannot even rem what i did. haha.

ok let's fast forward to my birthday k? haha.

i was supposed to meet wj n mx in town to sing k. and the irritating guys din want to sing k box and wanted party world, only becos it's 4 dollars cheaper, which i felt was dumb la. haha. so i unwillingly went with them to party world, and it's so funny, cos they were like passing msges to one another n all, (it's hard to ignore) and it was totally obvious sth is going to happen. HAHAHA. how to not see when there's only 3 ppl in the room and 2 idiotic guys r like passing the hp ard? and running every other moment out of the room to make calls? hahahaha.

so after singing for 2.5 hours, n wj insisted on finishing forever love, which i will post up soon, wj picked up a tiara, a pair of sunglasses and note from outside the note. i was supposed to put them on, and the sunglasses is opaque, so i could not see at all. (ok except for one small slit)

to cut the long story short, they brought me up the bus, to suntec, walked me thru the malls and brought me to a salon for my makeover. so i was supposed to keep my eyes closed until my hair cut was done, which i did, and wad u see now is the final result. 劲爆. to the max la.

then they made me close my eyes, brought me out of the salon, and we had a go at "the bachelorette" to choose my prince charming la. so it ended up with jj and they accompanied me to my dinner at ps. haha.

u can tell i'm really lz after a while, cos it's an awfully long post! so here's for the impt stuff. anyway i'll post up pics soon yeah?

to my cg, i have said it many times i guess, but YOU ARE APPRECIATED!!!! haha. it's a beautiful surprise, and ppl asked me, how could u allow ur members to do that to u??? but well i told i'm in good hands, and when i told my fren, he said that ur members really love u!!! which i agree, so guys, THANK YOU!!! i feel weird telling u guys such stuff face to face la, but i really love u all. E357 really rocks! and I LOVE U ALL!

to my CGCs, u have done an awfully great job and thank you for running with me for the vision all these while!

seriously E357, u r the most fantastic members any leader could ask for. :)

and to wj n mx, thanks guys for all the efforts. really appreciate ur company and all. u guys have been great frens to xt!

and to MY subzone, THANKS for being my fellow c0-workers.

and to my bestest frens, good frens and all, (u all know who u r)
thanx for always being there for me thru thick and thin. i appreciate the fact that all of u r a phone call away, and u nv fail to be there for me when i need u. thanks for the company always and always, for investing time into my life, for believing in me, for all the encouragement and the edification, for running this race with me, for inspiring me always, to do greater things for God.

did i tell u?

i m truly humbled by His mercy and grace. and i m eternally grateful that He placed all of u in my life.

i'm entering into the 23rd year, a new phase of my life. it's gonna be great.

with lots of love,
ting (:

i admit, i m not feeling too good.

if i m so unaffected, then it's so inhuman.

it hurts me becos it hurts my loved ones.

i saw my dad, n i know it hurts.

God, it does hurt. take care of it won't u?

when i recalled how we sat there, i thought to myself.

i cannot never imagine it possible.

then i thought

if it really happens,

it can only be God.

suddenly, i was reminded of the pain 12 years back. it's an awfully long time.