here i m. back again.

okie. i m back again. trying to blog bout some stuff bout this yr. it is realli weird. cos tdy is the 30th of dec n i jus cant feel in any way wanting to think bout my yr again or reflecting on wad happen or wanting to set new goals for the new yr. there r still issues not resolved. gee.

realli. there isnt at all a mood that i m stepping into the new yr.

this yr was a yr full of challenges. i once wondered n thot.. wad issit like to be Pst? when u faced opposition frm the devil all the time. before i became a cgl, my life was still pretty okie. of cos there r challenges here n there. but man.. i dunno wad r challenges until i became a cgl.

this was a yr of ups n downs, highs n lows. but sth that was consistent was that i grew. i realli did. grew to be more mature.. and to quote sis meiyan, she said u will learn to grow stronger emotionally. i did. spiritually i grew. n grew closer to God than i nv did before. well typing it till here.. i realli do feel.. this has been a great yr after all.

many times i will be full of not-so-happiness.. thinking.. huh y is this like this n that like that n stuff.. but suddenly at the end of this yr, i jus realised, instead of being so discontented, i was really thank God for the things in my life. n here is wad i can thank God for...

1. i thank God that this is my 10th yr in chc. n in my 10th yr, he chose to raise me up as a cgl. it has been a priveilege to serve Him, to change lives, to touch lives n to help His people grow. thank you for making me a leader.

2. i thank God for my leaders. for Pst YK and for sis meiyan. for pastor always being so inspiring and motivating. that enable me to always dream bigger dreams for Him. n thank God a dozen dozen lot for sis meiyan. for her wisdom n her advice always. for her listening ear. for her understanding n knowing-me-so-well. for her encouragement when i m down. for jus being my leader n teaching me how to become better. thank God for her.

3. i thank God for my members. for a gp of pple who love God n pple. who nv fail to inspire me n to cheer me on with their love n passion for the lost n their sch. they r one of the greatest pple u can ever lead. no doubt they have their weaknesses.. but yet like Jesus, i will learn to see them thru my eyes of faith. believing that they will be like the 12 disciples, one day, turning their world upside down for God.. and they r already starting to do that.

4. i thank God for frens. for good godly frens. i noe that i can be so noisy n nonsensical at times. but God placed pple in life who love me n put up with me and always there when i feel like i m so alone. thank God for good frens!

5. thank God for the doors He has opened to me. for working in chec. for teaching in AHS n DHS. for going to taiwan with pst YK. those were experiences i treasure frm the bottom of my heart. i have learnt so much this past yr jus by working alone. and my missionary trip was this yr.

6. i thank God for His provision. that God provided for me. always. n He blessed me so that i can be a blessing. and that He brought me to ISrael and opened my eyes to the Holy Land. wad a priveilege.

7. i thank God for growth. that He has grown my cg, brought in pple n changed lives. and we will continue to grow.

8. i thank God for good results. in hwa chong n in ntu. that He has blessed me to do well.

9. i thank God for city harvest and our senior pst. that God has placed me in a great church so that i can do great things for Him. and our pst who loves us so much n sacrificed so much for us. words cannot express my gratitude.

10. one last thing.. i thank God for Him. that He has always been there in my life. He has never left me nor forsook me. jus like He promised. n He is always standing by me, loving me, encouraging me. every time i m down, He will be there to say xiaoting it is okie, u can do it. with me, all things r possible. when i feel lonely, He will be there. saying i m with u always, even to the end of the age.

God, words alone realli cannot express my gratitude towards u. You have been amazing to me. i know that there r times that i let u down, days when i allow the devil to step over me, days o jus refused to get up n move on. but i wan to thank You for believing in me right from the beginning. that You trusted me enough to take care n allowed me to be a shepherd to ur pple. When i m down, u were always there, right by my side, cheering me on. i m who i m tdy becos of You. n i stay standing right here becos of You. all that i have done is not by my own strength. thank You for enabling me.

love ya lots lots lots lots lots. i love You.

last cg meeting of the yr

tdy was my first thanksgiving cg meeting that i took.thank God that the end is always greater than the beginning and i m happy at how the cg ended. it jus feels a bit weird cos this time i m conducting it.this yr it is different. but it was a great great thanksgiving. (: i enjoyed myself totally. frm the games to the cgm to the video and the bbq.

acty i m not realli in a mood to blog. but i really wanna thank my cg. so here u r.

i realli liked the video. came home n watched it n laughed my head off. n yeah i saw that break dance. haah. it was realli hilarious. no kidding. guys thanx for loving me despite those many times u were scolded by me.. and putting up with ur cgl's craziness at times.

i dunno how to continue. too tired. another time maybe.

xmas is here :)

tdy is the eve of xmas. time realli flies isnt it? tdy is already the 24th of dec. i tend to get realli nostalgic when the end of the yr comes. haah. cos i still cannot get used to the speed of time. it seems to travel faster than light. before u noe it, it has already passed u. kind of eerie isnt it? ni cant believe i have passed my 19-yr-old life n next yr i m 20. it is starting with a 2. i think i better start bucking up n make greater use of my time!

lovely song

BEFORE THE WORLD BEGAN
YOU WERE ON HIS MIND
EVERY TEAR YOU CRY
IS PRECIOUSIN HIS EYES
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME

NOTHING YOU CAN DO
COULD MAKE HIM LOVE YOU MORE
NOTHING YOU HAVE DONE
COULD MAKE HIM CLOSE THE DOOR
BECAUSE OF HIS GREAT LOVE
HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME

COME TO THE FATHER
THOUGH YOUR GIFT IS SMALL
BROKEN HEARTS BROKEN LIVES
HE WILL TAKE THEM ALL
THE POWER OF THE WORD
THE POWER OF HIS BLOOD
EVERYTHING WAS DONE
SO YOU WOULD COME

this is how God feels towards u.
wun u come to the Father tdy?

expo!

wow wow wow wow! we had our first meeting at expo tdy! our prayer meeting! it was realli realli cool n exciting! we prayed n prayed n tarried in the presence of God. and it was tremendous! Pst Kong said that he felt like the heavens is breaking! we felt so too! there was jus like a new wave of anointing.. a new thing that God is doing in the church!

i m jus so determined that as an individual n as a cg, we r gg to move up another level too!

and..

and.. this is the place God raised me up to be a cgl! i will nv nv forget how God used these yrs to mould me and to bring me into my calling! thank u Jesus!

and..

and.. this is the place God raised me up to be a cgl! i will nv nv forget how God used these yrs to mould me and to bring me into my calling! thank u Jesus!

we're moving!

yest was the last service in jurong. cant believe it. we have already been there for 4 yrs n now we r moving. i still remember when we were first at jurong. n pst phil said that by the time u get into ur new building, it will be too small for u! n it was realli realli like that. it is jus amazing how God speaks n fulfills His word.

n i still remembered how excited i was bout our new building that i could not slp the night before. thinking bout how we sowed n God raised up a building. n we came in. blown away. flabbergasted. wow. n the bkstore pple were realli excited to have our own store. hee. that we need not have tables anymore. n it was such a big step in faith to have come to jurong west! n we had a victorious victorious cry when we had our first service. from 4 services to 5 den to 6. God is indeed a good God.

n personally, jurong was a place in which God mould me, changed me, renewed me n kept me. i m jus once again so thankful that God kept me n loved me to the very end. i m jus so glad that i still love God n i m still on fire for God than ever before. n for that, i will give God all the praises. i m going to miss that mission statement, that lobby, that bookstore, BUT! more than jus feeling sentimental, there is such an expectancy in the Spirit. becos i noe that God is going to bring us to greater glory. it is time to FOCUS, n to plunder hell n populate heaven.

let's go!