当这世界。。

当这世界不在的时候，你否会与我守候？

我可能会把这整个部落格变成华文，那个让我感到既亲近又疏远的语言。

很久没有写散文，没有用漂亮的文字，来形容我那有时糟糕的心情。

失落

沮丧

讨厌刚强

尽在不言中

我没有你想象中的好，坚强

有时候 我真希望

不只我一个在战场上

让我拥有那一分钟的软弱吧

因为你是我软弱中的刚强

happiness is love..

Day 4

st Augustine said:
He who is filled with love is filled with God Himself.

Love stretches ur heart and makes u big on the inside.

suddenly i feel that i may miss hall after all. i love the peace and the envt here. although most of the time i m alone, esp during sot, but the tranquility is amazing.

i love it when it's into the wee hours, and i have my radio playing. it feels good.

my hse is a bit too constipated.

prayer answered.

God is good. so good.

i was praying that God will speak. n He spoke. the same thing He spoke to me.

God take it a bit deeper i pray. a deeper work i pray. a greater ability to discern the things of the spirit i pray.

i am happy and content because i think i m

i can't remember who i was toking to about being happy. i was reading a r bernard's book abt happiness. i promised u i will do it every day! well i m trying. (:

anyway, tdy he said that happiness is a way of mind.

so, despite of what happened just now, i will choose to be happy.

Happiness requires to train yourself to see the good in everything, no matter what happens.

God i will decide to do that.

ken rem wad i told u tdy? i said i dun like to be angry. becos if i m angry i cant be happy. n if i can, i want to be always happy. n not make life difficult for myself. (:

carrying a lot of things in my heart, but not sharing. tok abt happier stuff.

tdy went out with helen. babe i love u! it's just wonderful everytime i go out with u. i jus feel comfortable with u, toking to u. gee. n i cant believe u r leaving so soon when i really din get to hang out much with u... will spend more time with u.

bought my makeup and stuff.. so happy. haha. n bought a vest tat's really nice at forever 21! which i think it really suits me anyway.

service was good tdy.

sch starting in 1 month plus time. so fast.

i jus did my hair. when i get a chance will post up a nice pic of it. dun get a shock alright? haha.

are you willing to celebrate your life today?

if you had to be the person you are today for the rest of your life, will you be happy? if not, it's time to change now.

i will not. n i will change now. dun look back n say yest i was happy. dun look forward and say some day i will be happy. look at your present and choose to celebrate. today be all that God wants u to be. (:

so far i have really done it. one day at a time.

tdy i experienced the goodness of God. he is so good.

and everything will work to your time and season. love u.

happiness is..

i was just thinking that i want to pick up a book and read. n saw dr a.r. bernard's book on the shelf. so i decided to do what he said, to read one entry every day and to pen down my thoughts, just that i m blogging here.

he said.

happiness is finding wisdom and understanding.

my thoughts.

the happiest life u can live is probably the life that God has intended for u to live. but for u to do that, u must be able to look at things from God's perspective. to be a wise person, u need to dig into His word. Billy Graham said, knowledge is horizontal but wisdom is vertical. It comes from above. Every day, we need a renewed mind so that we can live the life God intended for us.

if u wan to be a happier person, be a wiser person. (:

God's words for today.
Salt creates thirst.

一片宁静

好享受这样的一个时刻。今天是星期天下午。现在在宿舍里。宿舍什么人也没有，学校是一片安静的。我好享受这样的一个时刻。。。坐在这里，听着933，没有dj，只有歌曲，让我的心情自由的漂浮。。

有时候真的觉得生活很充实，却又忙得怕人，所以这样一个人的时刻是让我感到很开心的。。
虽然我还有很多的deadlines，but i appreciate this moment of peace.

was just looking thru ken's friendster. and just feeling a little nostalgic. xiaoting is feeling alone, but not lonely, and i love this moment of solitude. really.

i wish i can have more of this. no phone calls, no msges waiting for me, just enjoying my sunday afternoon.

i love it.

gain

i love sun's latest album embrace.. yet in my heart there is still a special place for gain. i just love the album to bits. i like the feel of it.

so i sought for a man among them, who would make a wall, and stand in the gap, but i found no one.

God is looking.

for a new generation that will love Him with EVERYTHING they have, and love people fervently. who will lay down their lives for Him and impact their campuses.

God. raise up a new generation.

youths who are willing
kingdom-minded
love You wholeheartedly
love people fervently
holy dissatisfaction
hungry for You
yearn to be fruitful.

raise up youths that are different

that's my cry.

will you answer the call?

hello

haha. it's been a while i blogged. i thot it has been a really long time, only to realise it's only 2 weeks. but 2 weeks it's enough. after you've been through emerge, it's as if like one year has passed or sth, because so many things have happened and your life is so transformed!!!

this year's emerge, as usual, has been tremendous. it is as tremendous as usual, yet it is not as usual, because this year it is bigger, greater and better! God has been really good, so just some updates for u.

well first of all, this yr my dream came to pass and i made it to the finals of word power. it's an ordeal, ask all my frens the turmoil i went thru.. haha. nah just kidding. but we really almost din make it.. so.. thank you Jesus! we got second.. ((: so all thanks to jeremy and annie. i love u guys lots. u guys are great team members. annie i m so proud of you that you noe that verse.. and yes jeremy, u really have worked hard and earned ur keep. haaha. you make me look good being ur team member. (:

secondly, sun was back. celebrated her birthday. heard liu geng hong sing. (((: and propose at the same time.

thirdly, i met a bunch of pple that rox. the ntu pple!!!! yah and *** will say he is so surprised to see this. *** was surprised to see me at bbq.. haaah. so that is me la.. the girl who is totally not in tune with ntu.. nah just kidding. knowing them was a pleasant surprise God brought into my life. they are really funny pple tat light up my life. you guys rox..!

last but not least, God came, moved, touched and did a new work.

God, just wan to say thank you for moving once again. words cannot describe how i feel. thank you for loving me, forgiving me and always giving me a second chance. thank you for the call. thank you for being willing to use me.

i want to treasure this forever. this call you have given. this family you have placed in. these friends that are so precious.

i love my life, my cg, my church, my frens, my family, MY GOD.