i feeling a bit frustrated now. doing normal distribution n i just simply cant get to the answer. Urgh. So frustrated! haix.

but anyway, jus wanna blog about my birthday. really feel blessed this birthday!
first of all, special thanx to..

1. Ailing! for buying me Daily Encounters with God. hee. God is good.. cos i was thinking of having that.;)

2. Fi! for celebrating my birthday with me n buying me First Samuel.. u noe wad? i will learn to be a woman after God's own heart.

3. Helen ahma lu jing.. for the presents.. i really like it! thanx!

4. xueqi.. for bringing me flowers on that day.. haha. though it was a bit inconvenient, but it was really nice, n it brightened up my day!

5. wei biao.. for the book. thanx for the effort.. n i really like guo bao kun u noe.. haha. really really..

5. Hoi fai n soon kiat.. for the trucker cap.. ;)

6. all those who msg me n wish me happy birthday n all those who celebrated my birthday.. ;)

7. xian liang.. for teaching me a lesson on life to kick off my 18th birthday

really feel an expectancy. God is really moving working. Oh! 2 more pple in HC city harvest family.. Praise the Lord!!! yep.. n i feel that God is moving in me n thru in this coming 18th year..

let's keep on keeping on!

he fought the good fight of faith..
xiaoting is so encouraged. by his life.
last time pastor toked about living a life of significance -- n leaving a legacy behind.
i saw it in him. he did it. he ran his race. although it was short, but it was a good race ran.
he fought till the end.

hey frens,
let us not stay where we r. there r greater more impt things for us to do out there. the kingdon of God is out there. let us not lose our focus, being bored with our daily lives, today, get up on ur feet! live a life worth living! noe wad u want in life.. dun merely exist, live!

he touched my life, my heart. when i fall, i will remember my fren who fell n got up again.
this is his favourite psalm.
Ps 27

A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes, They stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp against me, My heart shall not fear; Though war should rise against me, In this I will be confident.
One thing I have desired of the Lord, That will I seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord All the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the Lord, And to inquire in His temple.
For in the time of trouble He shall hide me in His pavilion; In the secret place of His tabernacle He shall hide me; He shall set me high upon a rock.
And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me; Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.
Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice! Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
When You said, "Seek My face," My heart said to You, "Your face, Lord, I will seek."
Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.
When my father and my mother forsake me, Then the Lord will take care of me.
Teach me Your way, O Lord, And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the Lord In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!

renewed passion..

*hiak* guess wad is the renewed passion for? yeah.. haha. acty the renewed passion is for guitar. haha. cant guess right.. maybe i shld acknowledge terence's guitar for it. haha. yep.. yesterday n today.. realise that i m falling in love with my guitar all over again, when i use it to worship God.

acty this weekend, i was really sad n discouraged abt soul-winning. i was feeling so discouraged that i did not have strength to do anything else. but today, our cg had many frens! n wad is better is that many of them were saved! Praise God! yah.. it is really exciting.. tears filled my eyes when i accompanied one of the frens down.. as i saw the pple who jus went forward to receive Christ.

oh.. n an added piece of good news.. SUN is pregnant!!!!!!!!! haha. i think that is really great news! i cant believe it!@ God is such a good God!!!

haha. n one last thing. serving on fri is not that bad. haha. not that it is bad.. u noe y? cos i saw yang jun wei.. den i ask janice if i shld go tell him that i really liked him.. in the end i mastered the courage to tell him. this is wad i said..

jun wei! I jus want to tell u that i used to appreciate your program a lot.. yah.. thank you
den he said.. that is very nice of you. thank you.
den i said.. welcome. hahahahaha. it was so scary! i was honestly sho sho nervous okie.. hee. but i m glad i did it.. yeah yeah.. he is such a nice dj! haha.

God is a good god... 

dunno really noe wad to say. for those who r visiting this webby, it is still under construction. feeling really happy now.
 
this is for helen. if she happens to read this.
my dear girl..
Jesus is for everyone. I din realise that telling u so much yet u still thot that there will be pple who is not in the plan to noe God. That is not true! u may not become a missionary, a preacher, but yet u can be a Christian in any area of this world influencing ur part of the world for Jesus! who says u cant give ur life over to God? n who says u cant achieve a lot for Him? God's plans is not for you to know Him thru me, but for u to know Him thru yourself. geeZ~

another word from God..

haha. today i toked to raymond again. he brought another word frm God again. i think he is really my guardian angel. cannot stand it. no, i shld say that he is God's messenger. like that kind of prophet liddat. haha. no lah.. but jus that dunno y he is jus able to bring up matters to tell me to face up to them.. n so qiao we always face the same problems. so he will breakthru liao den tell me abt it. den supposingly be my turn to break thru. interesting right? although the last issue he toked to me was not settled yet..
 
 

fri team?

i m changing team. to fri team. God told me yest that He was bringing to a place of greater challenge. i was feeling quite happy! i noe that sumtin is going to happen there for me. BUT! yesterday morgan told me how the fri team is like... haix. den my heart sank. it is not wad i thot it to be. he said that the team was super quiet, everything moves very fast. b4 u noe it, closing is over. geez! although i always felt super tired after duty on sat, i enjoyed myself so much. oops. i m starting to grumble. geez.
 
but u noe wad? i have trusted in God's plans. Like wad pst said, I may be unwilling, but i will do it. I always knew that God had sumtin greater in store for me. ;) there is no need for fear. yup..

food for thought

The Power of Holding Hands
By Rabbi Harold Kushner

I was sitting on a beach one summer day, watching two
children, a boy and a girl, playing in the sand. They were
hard at work building an elaborate sandcastle by the
water's edge, with gates and towers and moats and internal
passages. Just when they had nearly finished their
project, a big wave came along and knocked it down,
reducing it to a heap of wet sand. I expected the children
to burst into tears, devastated by what had happened to all
their hard work. But they surprised me. Instead, they ran
up the shore away from the water, laughing and holding
hands, and sat down to build another castle. I realized
that they had taught me an important lesson. All the
things in our lives, all the complicated structures we
spend so much time and energy creating, are built on sand.
Only our relationships to other people endure. Sooner or
later, the wave will come along and knock down what we have
worked so hard to build up. When that happens, only the
person who has somebody's hand to hold will be able to
laugh.


Another quote:
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

on another note, i did pretty well for LEP. the best for all these years. ;) God is good.

update again

hey i m back again. hee. yesteday had a great day at church without walls seminar. haha. it was really good; hey! reaching out is not so difficult after all! geeZ! there is no need for fear of rejection yah.. even if u have fear, be courageous! Courage is moving on in spite of ur fear.

Yesterday listened to this really good speaker by the name of Dr Ng PAk Tee. He was a pretty amazing guy considering that his speech moved me to tears. Aint that amazing? U noe something, after that, i felt that though i will not consider myself patriotic, i consider myself loyal to hwa chong. yuPPpp! really inspired by him that today i absorbed all my carnival tickets! haha. dun worry.. i will sell them all.

i just came to realise that i m 7 weeks away from my prelims.. counting down pple. buck up! For some reason, i m still in holiday mood. Geez! Xiaoting u got to study study study!

recently i also came to realise the importance of the presence of God. (so many realisations hor) Really that is the key in a sense that will unlock so many things in the supernatural realm.geeZ! n His presence is the best place u can be.

there was something that i wanted to post but could not remember what it is. haha. nvm lah. i will be back again. ;)

not-so-good results

haix haix. yesterday got back my phy paper 2. hmm. not so good results u noe. was feeling a little discouraged. haha. that was the hardest i studied for all my subjects. yet it was only a pass. but it is okie lah. we mus always be contented. i will try harder and study harder the next time! yeppP! haha.

yesterday watched the LAst Samurai in school. Nice show. haha. u noe wad? after i watched the show, realised sumtin. the Samurai displayed such discipline in their lives becos they had a cause to live for. All their lives it revolves ard that cause. I have a cause too! and i want to live my life the way they live it for their cause. They lived for their cause and died for their cause.

sumtin tom cruise said at the end of the show.
The king asked him about katsumoto.
King: Tell me how he died.
Algren: I will tell you how he lived.

WowWowWowWow.. that was how i felt deep inside me. I will one day want to die liddat, with a legacy behind. That pple will say i will tell u how she lived.

one more thingy.. haha. ailing is really different! toking to her on sun n mon. wow. she said such shocking things. not shocking acty. maybe i shld say amazing. u go gal!

hee. new blog.

inspired by ailing. i created a new blog! haha. thought that it is a great tool for us to keep in contact yah.. hahahaha. today school starts again. hmm.. I was inspired by mengru about wad she said, y not talk about God in 80% of ur conversations instead of talking about everything else except Him?

Let me make my sch my mission field.

Something on my mind.. Was i too harsh with him or not? GeeZ.

one more thing, Sis rina emailed me and she told me about being excellent in the things that i do. cos i handed in my stuff late and she told me we really need to have the spirit of excellence. to tell u the truth, that convicted me big time.

yep yep.. looking forward to a great day yah, getting back my results. God is with me!

oops, one more thingy. This is especially for Cecilia k..

Dear gal,
Bad things happen to good people. But in it all, God is in control. Keep ur eyes on Him okie.. Take lots of care.

HAha. It seems like i have so much to say. One more thingy is that PATRICIA is leaving S'pore today. Hopefully I can send her off. Yep.