hiding place

i love this song.

I FIND YOU AT THE SECRET PLACE
I FIND YOU ON THE MOUNTAIN
I FIND YOU IN THE EARLY HOURS OF MY DAY

I FIND YOU WHEN I’M WAITING
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M IN YOUR WORD
I FIND YOU WHEN I’M TALKING TO YOU WHEN I PRAY

CREATE IN ME A CLEAN HEART
AS I COME AWAY WITH YOU
WASH AWAY ALL OF MY STAINS
AND RESTORE TO ME THE JOY
I HAVE IN YOU

YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE
YOU’RE MY HIDING
YOU’RE MY HIDING PLACE

4e outing

i was so glad that at the end of the day some of us managed to go. (: and see, haha, it is not so difficult after all. n i do think we shld n need to get tog after so long. and the nicest surprise was to see ms andriany.

tdy we had a mini 4e gathering. me, lim yang, minyi, minling, meizhen, samuel and timothy. i think the rare guest was timothy? haha. i seldom remember seeing him. but now that he is single.. haah. i guess he is more free? haah.

samuel drove me back together with timothy. n suddenly sitting in the car, seeing a fren i knew for ages driving like a man, and all these pple r no longer boys in blue pants, suddenly it sunk into me that we r all grown up. i m almost an adult, although i really hate to admit it. that when i was younger, i would look at pple who r now my age and think wad's their life like. n now i m experiencing it for myself. i guess it is amazing. n all the more i felt, xiaoting u need to treasure ur life.

on another note, it was a beautiful thing seeing everybody. to get tog after 4 yrs, talking bout our past. and i felt this.. i m forced to grow up! haah. before i noe it, i will be out of uni working.

though many things have changed, some things nv changed. haah. like how they will tease and make fun of the same things, like timothy and ***.. haaah. it is just like the good old times. man.. God, thank u for memories. and thank u for frens.

n somebody i felt like he really changed is samuel. haah. if u r seeing this, hi! but i felt like frm a person who was fun-loving and stuff, to now being a person who noes wad he wants, who is really doing it and stepping into it, really made me wake up from reality. pple r different. and i wan to live my life to the fullest, sowing into my destiny and my future.

beautiful day. thank u Lord. wake me up!

i feel like unloading everything out here, but i cant. but i feel kinda suffocated with everything in me. i need to unwind everything that is within me. i felt like i woke up being whacked by the devil left right up down centre. sometimes i feel like telling God i dun feel like playing anymore. sometimes xiaoting feels like throwing in the towel. sometimes i jus cant seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. sometimes i jus dun feel like being strong. sometimes i jus need a fren, with skin on. sometimes i feel like lying in bed n stare at my ceiling and jus let the world rotate without touching me. sometimes i jus cant muster enough faith to do wad i need to do. oh sometimes sometimes

great men n women r not those who do not have lousy days, but those that despite their lousy days and feelings and circumstances, they held on the God, held on to their faith. den i pray i will one day be a great woman of God. gee.

以前当我看着别人过着高调的生活，心中总有无限的渴望与向往。我常想，如果当年没有遇到他，我今天或许会是一个流连酒吧，过着疯狂日子的女生，因为认识我的人都知道，我真的有这种疯狂的潜能。更或许，我会在某一个世界的角落，做一些很荒唐的事，如果不是他，我真的或许不会继续呆在这里。因为他是我的磐石，坚定不移，让我不再过着无根的日子。我有一个家，所以我不再任性，叛逆，我行我素。

记得在华初那年，陈老师要我们每个星期交出一篇创作。起初我是兴致勃勃，但过了一阵子，那创作的灵感却不常到来，而现在，我却好想继续写字。哈哈。我不止一次说过，我好喜欢文字。

不知道我自己是不是因为守在这个岗位里，而失去了很多。常看别人的生活，有时候也希望自己可以这样。但是，我知道，为了他，错过这一切是值得的。我爱他因为他先爱我。而为了这一个“爱”字，错过的是值得的，得到的更是无法计算。

晓亭的人生是美丽的。谢谢你。

anyway. jus recounting a few things that happened. been busy with pos and it is jus a great joy to be back. hope that we will do well this year.

tried doing surveys on the street the past few days. i almost died! but for the money i m still continuing tml. God save me man.. give me an amiable face. haah. but it is really tough.

pst phil came last sun. gave a great msg. i m blown away. n i m coming up! to another level in prayer. i just need the leading of the holy spirit more n more.

and we had a great time on tues in the presence of the Holy Spirit. back to that first love.

thoughts

i love it when the Holy Spirit is there, touching me. (: was at home tdy and had a great time in the presence of God. was reading songs of solomon n i was so touched by it.

God loves me a lot and He loves u a lot isnt it?

but He is looking n seeking for one whose heart is completely His.

i wan to be found by Him.

God forgive me for the times i neglected u, for the times that other things were impt than u. bring me back to that place of wholeheartedness.

i want to love u.

it is amazing how God lets u into His presence so closely. it is simply amazing how u can worship Him and love Him n be so close to Him.

wad a priveilege to be a worshipper of the Most High.

we often forget that.

MI3

Today i watched MI3 with chan eng. the first movie in many weeks or months. (i can't recall, really) If not for her, i think i would really not have watched this show. The next time they rate it, they should rate it like only for 40 and below or sth, cos u will have a heart attack watching it. (ok, i m exaggerating. (: )

but! it was really scary! haah. i think scary is not the word, i can't find the right word for it. but it is definitely not for weak hearts. as for me, i think i m not a person who will be able to stay through scenes that torture people mentally, emotionally and physically. gee.. i just think it is torturous! really.. it is probably worse than those HK triad society movies..

after all the negative comments, it is not such a bad movie. if u r a person who likes action, u really will like it. I m still amazed ever since watching things like matrix and minority report by the creativity and imagination of people. though MI3 is not as imaginative, that kind of technology that appears in the movie still amazes me. wonder where do all the scientists get their ideas? u dun have to look furthur. haha. probably this is really how they get their inspirations.

but i m still scared out of my wits. haah.

on another note, i m looking forward to them playing Mission Impossible this fri when pst phil comes. ((:

things in order

just felt like i need to get things in order. i dunno wad is that order, but things feel like they r not in order.

i love fellowshipping with people who love the Lord and give their lives to God. and i pray that God will raise up a generation like that for Him.

boy. i have been blogging an awful lot nowadays. but i m enjoying it! haah. my hols r here n it is high time to enjoy myself. gee.

有一天
你会找到属于你的
属于你的那片天空
以及那灿烂笑容
还有
只有属于你的那个眼神

而现在
你可做的
就只是
耐心。。等待

waiting for elections results! woo hoo!

"have i told u i love u?"

"no"

"i love u"

"still?"

"always"

读了伊能静的blog，让我真的爱上文字。希望我可以一直写，一直写出非常漂亮的文章。

文字是一样很奇怪的东西。我们所说的竟然可以和所写的截然不同。我们可以用那么扣人心弦的文字来表达心里一滴，一滴的感觉。

一连两天参加两个人民行动党的大会。我好像变成他们的支持者了。哈哈。这次的选举大受瞩目，也是我第一次真正去了解新加坡的政坛是怎么一回事。不管是行动党，还是反对党，都说得振振有词，但是，他们以的一切言谈举止，却让我认为，我们还差第一世界政府，第一世界反对党，第一世界国家还很远。惨了，说了这些话明天是否会被告诽谤？

在这样的一个竞争下，人的缺点都慢慢被暴露出来。还好大选的日子并不久，要不然，更糟糕的都会出现。chaneng说每个国家的政治大概都是这样的吧，他们都会撤别人的后腿，可是我真的认为这样的一个选举可以反映出一个人的人格及修养，在对待不同的问题时，他们有多少内涵则会一目了然。

到此为止。改天再说。

I wanna live my life to the fullest!

use every minute that i have. to build His kingdom! let's live our lives for God!

lazy blogger

i m such a lazy blogger. ha. i think partly wad jg said bout my blog is true. jus not realli bothered to write out my life n stuff. anyway.

exams r... unofficially over! haah. one last paper to go, and like wad pan lao shi said, the preparation for it is to sleep well! yay! i like that!

this period of exams was so loooong and tedious. realli. 艰辛。非常。每一次要把考卷做完都要有很大的意志力，多么想半途就走出去。哈哈。

but it has been a good weekend. God spoke to me thru pst ulf, thru pst mark, thru the pple in jc cluster, thru sis yilun, thru pst yk. it was like the same word jumping out in my face for dunno how manytimes. thank u Jesus. for the encounters, for the word u given, for the passion u put in, for using me.

now about after the exams.

this is wad im gonna do.

1. find work n earn money.
2. master guitar
3. read.. a lot a lot alot. eng lish n chinese n wad have u.
4. study the Bible.
5. have fun.
6. go overseas somehow. haah.
7. slumber parties?
8. play pool? i think i will do that.

i m so hungry now. gg off. buaix！