sth new to blog abt

ooo. finally the exams r over! haaha. seriously i dun feel the sense of happiness i thot i will feel. nevertheless, i m happy, and i think i have worked hard. (not too bad la. quite hard)

went out with a fren tdy. i had quite a lot of fun n learned quite a lot of things. n from here, i m going to blog.

Hey gal,

what happened really changed my thinking. rem i used to tell u those things i said last time (pls dun reveal wad i said to him k).. i feel like i shld take them back, but i wun. but i must say, i m impressed. haaah. and this will make somebody's head very big. i really hope it will not, but this is from the bottom of my heart.

knowing him since quite a while ago makes us think that he is casual, laidback, and not much of a passionate person. no doubt we agreed he will make a very good bf, somehow we thot he din really proved to be so. but gal, i thot he has proven what we said right.

when i was toking to him, from the little things that he said, i learnt a lot of things. n i have to say, i think u found someone u can entrust urself to. no doubt there r things to be changed, but everyone of us has, but when u find someone who has a heart for you, and who thinks abt u in every little thing, i think that is wonderful. and i can really feel that love, care n concern in his voice. he is a great bf to have. and u r a great gf to have to, of course.

and girl, i think u r blessed. i m kinda convinced that he is really a great person.. and i hope he will live with passion and achieve great things.

and from the bottom of my heart, wishing u love forevermore.

to him,

i dunno if u will end up reading this or not, but u really impressed me big time. haah. u must be wondering y. i end up feeling that she is really the girl for u.

treasure her big time k.. i feel that my fren is so precious. n i think i know u will.

and dream big! and plan big! and do big things! i think u really can. so go there n do it, and be the BIGGEST TREE u can be, and provide the greatest shelter, stability and security.

and the most sincere blessings from my heart, your fren,
xiaoting

it has not been a very easy time. i feel like i m in the wilderness. n that my faith is being tested. i kept asking God, y r things not happening.. then i had a thought. maybe the angels delivering my answers r wrestling with the demons, so I NEED TO KEEP ON PRAYING.

i have nv or as far as i can remember, got myself into such a situation. i need help from You God.

daddy you will not allow us to go thru anything we cannot bear. and for every situation, there is always a way out. so i m really trusting in You. to come through for me.... Lord. help me. please.

do i look silly in this thing? i love it. haah. cos it's like sth that some mongolian princess will wear. but i look really dumb right? haah.

me n qi were really sound asleep n some evil pple took our pictures. haha.

my very good fren. this was taken on my birthday.celebrated it with my cg at 85.

this is evidence that i know belinda! but i m not sure if she remembers us. we were from the same bus in israel! i think she is pretty.

it has been a long week.

i realise i always recuperate by sleeping. is it physically, emotionally, or mentally.

it is not always that effective.

not as effective as the presence of God anyway.

but i slept. and left 6 chaps of my astronomy untouched. n left 1 plain prata n 1 egg prata untouched. wad a waste of my money. ha.

sometimes God leave u hanging to the thinest line possible, so that u can hang on the biggest God possible.

i feel like.. if God is not going to see me through, i m dead.

yep.

but.. He is going to see me thru. so..

LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL. DESPITE ITS IMPERFECTIONS. THANK U!

is there anything too hard for Me?

Eze 22:30

so i sought for a man among, who would make a wall and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, but i found no one.

For a moment, i thot i was wrong.

Meiyan said sth, that i felt it might be really so. it went into my spirit.

perhaps it is time for a change. a big change.

"is there anything too hard for Me?"

i serve a BIG God. what bout u?

enjoying

was jus chilling out with chan eng at sing post. i know. wad a place right. haah.i was waiting for my bag. which i manage to slash the price from 32.90 to 25! it's either the person really jack up the price so much or i m a good bargainer. haaah.

but i feel deprived for so long. that for so long.. i think almost for one mth.. i have no life. n i realise how much i miss fun.. miss shopping.. miss hanging out. i need a breather! to all who r reading my blog right now, if u r free, u r invited to hang out with xiaoting after 29nov. haah. pls... ask me out to play! anything will do. i m considering to.. go to the zoo? go shopping.. watch movies.. vivo city.. etc etc etc. n i m going HK in jan i think n i hope.

my grandma jus moved into my hse. n i used to think that it is such a horror. but i realise, it is not so bad afterall. she is really nice. and having an old lady in the hse is nice. i realise old pple can jus get lonely. and they r jus looking for company. i love my grandma! haah.

i love my life. all thanks to the river that flows.

i need God.

i need the Holy Spirit.

i need sum1 who will stand in the gap.

i need a fighter.

i need sum1 to make things happen. for me n for You.

one last blog

i m going back hall. tml is my exam. somehow i feel like... i dunno. but this exam is really impt to me. i guess i have not taken exams so seriously since a long time ago. becos the xiaoting in jc n secondary n pri has been really hardworking. but since i came to uni, i forgot what it is like to work hard.

but i must get started now. n i have had a track record for the past 13 weeks. n i pray n i pray, i can run the last lap well and fight the good fight of faith.

i m still looking to my good grades. n today is the last day. xiaoting u must really start mugging very hard!!!

i really need grace. need grace to study hard in the midst of exams plus all the different activities.

God, empower me to succeed. thank You.

God's word for this week

John 7:37-38

"..'If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scriptures have said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water. "

I need the rivers of living water. i need to drink from the well that never runs dry.

when u r in the Spirit, there is a river and that is a flow. things dun get hard going. things dun get dry. becos the river flows.

Holy Spirit rain down upon me, upon us, upon my cg, upon this church i pray.

i wan to know the one who holds my hand as i run this race.

more of You Holy Spirit.

what lies ahead of me looks scary n insurmountable. but becos u r here, n u hold my hand day by day, everything is going to be ok. thank You.

i m always very appreciative of pst ulf's appearance. becos he nv fails to remind me wad i m missing out on. haha. whenever i see him, i will think n wonder n be in awe. becos he always demonstrates that "high" level that a minister can go up to. n i wish i have that kind of anointing n love n relationship with God.

it seems like as u grow older, u become more n more set in ur ways. n u have less n less desire for the extraordinary. i hate that happening to me. i wan to have a DEEP hunger for the things of God. a THIRST for the Holy Spirit n for what God has in store for me.

sometimes when u get busy, u jus get too busy to think. i have sort of spent less n less time thinking. n cos of the lack of laptop, i blog less n less. i like blogging. cos blogging makes me think. forces me to think.

yest studied at th airport overnight with ting zimu n jeremy. m amazed by zimu. he demonstrates an amazing depth of knowledge n opinions for his age.

noe wad? i wan to really have that kind of depth. jus now jeremy mentioned that terence (not that terence, haha) has depth. n i kind of have been missing out on that for a while. i really wan to be a great leader, who is anointed, who is fruitful, and i wan to have the rivers of living water flowing out of me. yet i also wan to be someone who qualifies to be sum1 great in the marketplace. that pple look up to u for ur wisdom, ur knowledge.

it is only when i grew up, that i learn, what did pst mean by ur life changes only when ur thinking changes.

Lord, help me put on ur mind everyday.

help me to have a heart after you.

help me to love like u do.

help me to have a hunger like Jesus has.

i wan to love u more more more than ever before.

i wan to be more in love with u more than ever before.

i wan the Holy Spirit. so much.

感觉还蛮痛的
最讨厌的应该是尽心去做一件事 却不得要领
有时候感觉
因为某件事情的发生
世界好像要垮下来了
但是
常常这么想
从另一个角度
things r really not so bad..

so when u learn to look at it from a different perspective.
when u learn to let go n let God

而当你知道 不管发生什么事
he is in control.

everything will be ok.

n i love you Lord for that very assurance. (((:

random n goong.

i dunno how it happened. but i felt in love with goong. i m not supposed to, i guess, but i jus could not really help it. it jus happened one day. anyway i m so glad that i have finished watching it after endless sleepless nights of looking at shin goon. hahaha.

我猜想
每个女孩的心里都有一个属于她的童话故事
而每个女孩都期待自己的白马王子
但是你又会发现
戏里面你能看到的信
或许在真实的世界里
是不会出现的

but anyway. it is over. although i m still in love with shin goon. haha.

everytime u climb to mountain top, u can expect to see a valley?

i m still learning to get used to hall life. it's not too bad now, after i brought my hifi in. i realise i cant live without music. i rather have some weird dj toking to me den to be reading in sheer silence. scary.

but i think i really love the privacy of my room. n hall enables me to sleep n eat alot. but i hate it when there is no hot water for my bath!!! haha. lame right but ya.

i m really gonna mug this time round. jus taught the pple in cg last wk abt how.. when u lay down ur life for God, u enter into a covenant relationship with him, then He will gather all of heaven to empower u to succeed. i thot this is how i m feeling right now.

thank u Jesus.

thank You for being so gracious, for forgiving the things that i have done.

thank You for letting me know that in every valley, u r there.

thank You for giving me hope.

thank You for ur blessing, for empowering me to succeed.

and thank You that u made me. (:

love ya.

无可救药

暗戀是一種禮貌
暗地裡蓋一座城堡
然後再當你的警衛跑腿跟小貓
隨時你要我重灌電腦
隨時你要我隨傳隨到買麵包 雞排跟水餃
你每次對著我笑
你的笑裡面有毒藥
我看著你出了神還丟掉了解藥
可能你從來沒感覺到
最好你永遠感覺不到
愛上你 越來越無可救藥
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才慢慢體會到
幸福是被愛的人需要
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才狠狠決定要
就愛吧就醬吧就不逃
愛你到無可救藥

-阿信-

he is cool. ha.

i need to get in touch with my soul n emotions.

free me.

hall 4

today is my second night in hall. i was initially very excited to stay in hall. but yest while i was in sch, i thot abt how "lonely" my hall is gonna be, with no roommate, no laptop, no music, i felt like my heart sank. I m scared of the silence in it.. and i miss home. :( i know i sound so kiddish.. n it is so unlike me becos i m usually not like that. i thot i was independent n stuff too, n i still think i m, but prob not as much. haha. i really miss the security of home.

家是我的避风港
是每天我回去
最向往的地方
家有我熟悉的味道
由能牵动我心的音乐
由我不需要用脑放轻松的电视
没错
我好想家

而且我发现
想的不是家人
是家

it's so good to be home.

i din realise i will take time to adapt. really din. n i realise my heart is attached to alot of things at home. n i m super dependent on my com. without msn, without blogging, i feel empty!! haix.

ok, to take things at a lighter note, i m ok. haah. jus missing home alot. esp my bed n my com. n everything la. realli.

害相思

i m still here! going home tml. n coming back on sun night. i will mug hard ok.. haah.