i'm not doing it justice if i dun blog in chinese.

so i'm not blogging abt the trip now, at least not today.

it was refreshing i think.

i love the air and the nature, far from the busyness of the city.

sometimes our lives r just so flooded with things.

and we need some peace and stillness in the air.

and my heart feels, more peaceful than ever before.

no more running wild,
i'm Yours for life
Well You got me here
You got me

I hear Your call tonight
Your heart is mine
Well You got me here
You got me

now i know, y 2 weeks ago, when i was singing this song, my heart was beating. God was preparing me for this time.

wad a life i'm living for You.

blessed.

i just sent an email to my fren, and a wave of nostalgia swept over me.

i miss 61 and hwa chong like crazy.

miss chow and miss lep, miss my gang of crazy lep-ers and 61ders.

my wish is, i can make it for the next 61 outing. lol.

it's amazing how there is this calmness that comes over me, and how i have grown in this area.

i know probably i will get increasingly frustrated, and really, things would not just work out this way, but the peace that God has given me, and the word, touches me in a big way, and i really do treasure it.

treasure how i will not be vexed. treasure the faith in God. lol. fang will noe exactly wad i m toking abt.

n becos of the peace and the faith, it saves me a lot of time from thinking abt it, and helps me to focus in a big way. oh man. thank you Jesus.

leaving for northeast asia in 3 days' time. gosh lord that is very surreal.

and i have a feeling, this trip will change my life. completely.

sth that i dreamt abt for so long, is really going to come to pass.

and i think, i would come back, having a better grasp of my future.

u think so? (:

keep me in prayers. thanks.

No more running wild
I'm yours for life
Well You got me here
You got me

I hear Your call tonight
Your heart is mine
Well You got me here
You got me

The second time we sang it for service, i think.
But i fell in love with the song.

Missed Pastor Kong so much, and I was so glad that he was back to preach again.
What a powerful word in season.

What we heard, what was spoken these few days was really thought-provoking.

and yes, how many will really heed the call, to move on, and not stay where we r?

i felt a lot when i was singing this song on Sun. Having been through those things, when i sang it, tears filled my eyes. i was really telling the Lord, no more running wild, i'm Yours for life.

for many years, i heeded the call, run for the vision, yet holding on to those many things in my heart. Lord can i do this? Lord can i do that?

and yet after all these things, i come back realising, His way is always the best way. and suddenly, i just feel so satisfied doing what He wants me to do.

if i was asked to give up all these for the Lord, i would gladly do it. it's a promise Lord. from me to You.

was reading a few friends' blog.

was walking out of my tuition kid's condo, on a sat evening, seeing all the kids swimming and the families bbq-ing.

and then i started to feel, i think i need to do sth for my soul.

you know recently, with juggling so many things, it seems like i m not seeing where i m going.

i was telling my fren, it doesn't make sense for me to drop everything in sing and go northeast asia, when i m up to my head with things.

and i was still feeling overwhelmed by so many things.

then that day when i was on my way to settling my visa, the Holy Spirit spoke to me, reminded me.

ting, isn't that wad u always wanted to do? northeast asia?

hasn't it been in ur heart?

and then i started to realise the big-ness of it all.

i m seeing destiny unfold right in front of me. and yet i almost missed it.

suddenly, it was like.. magic.

i m really going. in 8 days' time.

that dream 4 years ago, that i tremble at, cry at, is coming to pass.

sometimes i m living so much in wad i m doing, that i fail to see the significance of it all.

guys, remind me.

i love you!

it has not been such an easy week. i m starting to feel the heat.

was toking to ting yest, then ended up with this conclusion that this is gonna be my life.

i m a lil stretched, and ting mentioned that i have been stretched before.

but i felt that i m now living in a different season. it's not a season of stretching, it's stretching permanently.

though doing a lot of things at the same time, i really dun wan to be overwhelmed. i dun wan to drown, i want to be swimming at ease.

and i noe, in order to do that, i need Him.

but i m living in exciting times! things are happening, and i feel it.

there's so much in store for us.

a fren reminded me, for such a time as this, we are made.

wad an apt description.

and just like how David served his generation by the will of God, i want to do that as well.

BIGGER dreams, GREATER works.

how ironical, to realise, after so long, i really dun know u.

perhaps sometimes the closer u r , the higher the expectations would be of the other party.

that's y sometimes, i'm just afraid of getting too close.

i am afraid i would put all my expectations on u, and end up with lots of frustrations, just like umpteen years ago, or actually, it wasn't that long.

sometimes, i realise, the fault is not w a person, but differences between men. which God has placed in all of us.

so xiaoting, stop that nonsensical thinking of urs.

yes pls.

you know, recently i have been facing this.

101 thots running thru my mind, and none, or close to none, i can,or know how to pen down.

currently using jt's laptop. (thanks jt!)

everything's great, except that i cant type chinese!!!

can u imagine that?

lol//

God kept on bringing this up the last few weeks.

It has been ringing in me.

And today, sth broke on the inside.

Can i really do it?

MY said sth the other day, and the tears just flowed.

she spoke into sth inside.

and today I asked,

is it all too late? can i still do it?

then He said,

I will restore back to you the years the locusts have eaten away.

and there i was, thankful .