it is sooooo nice! i'm looking forward to next sunday. wahahaha.

it was a phenomenal weekend. i really felt blown away, from sat's service, to sunday's, and to leader's appreciation.

sth exploded on the inside.

i love dr bernard.

and i love You more.

and i have a new desire.. that is..

servant is who we are, lead is what we do.

i like this pic from xmas. nice!

cg during xmas. :) though it's incomplete.

the pic says it all.

yes this is LIM BAY HUNG.

and this is QUAH MING XUN.

and this is SOON WEIJIAN. i decided to put a nice pic of him, after the unglam one. and that is a self-made scarf by him! haha.

and that kinda completes the saturday boyz series.

seriously, i had this funniest and most ridiculous conversation with wj's sis - soon sze yin!!! oh man she is just so incredibly funny.. and you should listen.. to how she promotes her brother n sister!!!!!!! hahaha. i love her to bits. excuse me for that. hahaha.

i was just telling her... that i wanted to ...... her brother as ...... (hahah yes guess ppl but dun try too hard) and she was asking me.. do u want my sister too???? yes i do want ur sister but she dun want me!!!!!!! and i really find her incredibly cuteeeee!!! sorry for this really lame post and i think weijian's SISTERS are irresistible.

show u their pics man.

These r weijian's 2 irresistible sisters. hahha.

ok. i m supposed to post this up like millions of yrs ago. this is wj in his most unglam moment. actually, i have just obtained photos of him being more unglam. but to be nice, i wun put it up. this is for now! for this unglam and yet "popular" boy, i thought he has cute sisters.

anyway, perhaps after today, many many many more ppl will visit my blog. sze yin u noe y? haha.

i was just thinking abt it. wad do i want to do and how.

then she said sth that struck my heart.

and i realised, all that i want..

is to be a fren.

on another note, it was another awesome week. an awesome zone meeting, an awesome cg meeting, an awesome service.

dr bernard preached a word that just exploded me on the inside.

and i was telling wj. it's amazing what dr bernard preached is such a simple yet powerful truth. n i love the way he puts things across.

we used to hear alot about the Holy Spirit from Pst Ulf. and it's different hearing it from dr bernard. same Holy Spirit, same "wow" in my spirit, yet a whole different way of presenting..

my good friend. the Holy Spirit

we need you so much Lord. that we can be compelling witnesses for you.
and really, we are nothing without you.

"that experience at Pentecost would have to be so real, so spectacular, so tangible that the disciples were such convincing witnesses that 3000 souls believed that day."

"it was so real it could represent that physical presence of Jesus."

"it isn't the things, it's the quality."

"we aren't married to a religious system, we r married to a person. and it's about Him."

"you dun have the power, you are power."

God has been speaking to me over this week, again and again. and i m really thankful for that. and my wish for 2008, is that You will be more real to me than ever before in my life.

so. i was reminded.

recently, i kept getting reminded.

by ppl, by things.

like wad i said in my last entry, God has been moving, and He has been speaking.

软弱，怯懦，是我从来不能苟同的词眼。

那份热忱，一发不可收拾，简直到了疯狂的境界。

有人像鸽子，有人像狮子。

我曾经更像后者。

最近一些人，最近一些事，激发了我，让我无限感慨。

为什么我在做我现在所做的事？

星期二，他的一句话，真的激发了我。

星期五，他的一句不经意的鼓励，给了我推动力。

奇怪的是，这些轻轻说出来的话，让我心里泛起涟漪。

不是暧昧的。

让我再次冲动，再次被提醒，晓亭是谁。

a short one before i "whisked away" for cgm.

just feel really great this wk cos God has really been working in my life.

Amazingly, just a remark from a fren, or just a meeting up with someone really changed my thinking n perspective on things.

thank you frens. once again, u have touched my life and made a difference. really.

and xiaoting (i believe) has become better because of you.

love ya peeps.

it's weird that our conversation was not fluent, it felt like nothing, but it impacted me in a big way. thanks my fren.

i doubt u will ever see this, but i just want you to know, that one call or that one conversation on msn really meant a lot to me. :) and sometimes, u touch me, impact me and inspire me in ways u do not know.

just like yest.

thank you for forcing me to face up to reality, to realise that time is running out, and to step out and do something.

i know, i have been weak, scared, feeble, easily intimidated, and your words did stir up something in me.

what a great word that was given in meeting yest.

Step out and run. God will give strength to the feeble knees, that you may RUN. Pick up your mat and walk, and run.

thank you, and thank You.

在华初 lep, 得到最可贵的，是那份对中文、对文学、对写作那份纯真的执着。

刚读了维彪的部落格。feeling nostalgic。

很多人认为，晓亭很勇敢的追求着自己的梦和坚持，不管他人的眼光，读了看似很没有用的中文系。而且对于一个对教书没兴趣，更不知道毕业后要做什么的人，这样的决定是勇敢，是愚蠢，还是。。？

在市侩的世界，那份对文字的热爱，温暖了我的心。

我自叹不如，对于自己为什么在读中文，其实我真的不知道。

文笔我真的没有，学问则不算什么，和这些人的热忱相比，总觉得自己差了这么一大截。

填满了半桶水之后毕业，又算是什么？

允许我自嘲一番。

yest i had a dream. it was kind of a weird dream to appear at this timing, but it was such a vivid dream that i still could remember it when i woke up.



then i heard Michael W. Smith song - Friends. and it fitted my dream so well.



Packing up the dreams God planted

In the fertile soil of you

Can‘t believe the hopes He's granted

Means a chapter in your life is through

But well keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong



Chorus:

And friends are friends forever

If the lord's the lord of them

And a friend will not say never

cause the welcome will not end

Though its hard to let you go

In the Father's hands we know

That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.



With the faith and love God's given

Springing from the hope we know

We will pray the joy you'll live in

Is the strength that now you show

But well keep you close as always

It wont even seem you've gone

cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong



and i dreamt of this image.

我梦见，和想念的两个背影。

也发现，我好久没看见这两个背影了。

i m back from kl!!! yes i noe for many many days already. obviously i m supposed to blog abt it n show u pics. but i m really lz. sorry peeps. wait for inspiration to strike k. haha.

anw, i just want to say.. my dad was so sweetttt tdy!!!

it was raining really heavily and i got a call from him on my way back. he asked where i m n asked if i need him to pick me up!!! n he very nicely picked me up from the mrt so that i dun have to get drenched in the rain. sooooo sweeeet right. it's really rarely that he does that n i m honestly sooo touchedddd. love u daddy!

anw tdy is the second day of sch n i m starting on my readings! r u proud of me?? i m. haha.

here's a pic of me n ce in kl. nice waffles they have there. :)

it was an amazing thanksgiving. really. thank You Lord.

Pastor shared a really good word.

God will watch over the land, from the beginning of the yr till the end. What's more u n my life?

Hold fast to your confidence.

When we appreciated pastor, he shared sth that he really touched my heart

One pastor once said, the best thing we can do in life, is to get up the next morning. despite the challenges, difficulties, obstacles, discouragements, the best thing u can do, is to get up the next morning and continue to do what you should do. Continue to love when u dun feel like loving, serve when u dun feel like serving, praise God when u dun feel like praising God.

wow. i m impacted.

i really have been wondering and thinking. will i really live that "great" life i think i will have? Many ppl told me, ting you have a great destiny in God. i was really starting to doubt that. I din have the confidence to believe that i will really do great things for him. to tell the truth, i m scared. i m scared that i will just stay where i m. that i will never move on, and nv fulfill my destiny.

But what pastor shared really touched my heart.

Hold on to your confidence. Heaven and earth will pass away, but His word will never pass away. Hold on to what God has spoken in your life. thank You Lord.

when the clock struck 12, we ran up and see fireworks. and as i stood there, this was what He said.

烟火短暂，但辉煌。记得，当烟火一开始时，我们真的以为，只是这样而已吗？我们什么都看不到。但是，渐渐的，烟火越来越灿烂。他说，这是你的生命。一开始，看似没怎么样，但是，会越来越璀璨，辉煌。and there will be a legacy left behind. do u believe it? yes i do.

打从心底地说感谢。谢谢你的不离不弃，谢谢你的信任，谢谢你一直相信我。我也要一直为你这样活下去，好吗？

我能够做的，就是在最难过，伤心，失望，沮丧的时候，get up the next morning, and continue to live for You.

once again, it's an awesome awesome priveilege.

my greatest honor will always be.. to serve my Lord and King.