had a great day yesterday n today!

yest we had a great great service! man the power and the presence of God was strong..

"Ask! What shall I give you?"

It was really a tremendous service. Yet i pray that we will not just be touched by God, I prayed that our lives will be transformed. that we will have the heart of Solomon and be like Solomon.

and i watched a great show. Coach Carter. I recommend all to watch. It is a fantastic show and it teaches u a lot. it was a "wow!" show. be sure to catch it.

and tdy i had a great time at pos! thanks to all you guys who made my day.. u all really did with ur passion and enthusiasm. love u guys so much for all the fun and laughter and fellowship! you rocked my day!

i m happy now that i made the decision to go for it. haha. that i m asked back by bro edmund. cos u guys made it all worthwhile.. ;)

my net is working once again! praise the LORD for that! haha.

jus came back from taiwan. had a grrreatt trip! enjoyed myself so much. it is really abreak frm Singapore that I need. it has been fruitful, praying with the people there, sharing my experiences as a cgl n a member of chc.. yah. n u can really sense the hunger in them also! ;)

also got to know my leader in a different way, praise God for that! thankful to Him for bringing me on this trip.. it was a worthy one.

n thank God also that tdy i was promoted! praise God for that too! ;) attended my first agm.

i m going taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahaha. sorry for the break for so many days for not blogging den coming back such an exciting news! muahaha. but well, words cant express my excitement on going taiwan.. especially with weiqi n pastor!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!! friday is jus like a few days away.. after being in singapore for sooooooooo long.. hahahaha.

anyway last few weeks have been great n exciting! haha. it seems like my life has been spun around.. n i think that God has been so good to me!!!!! jus feel so blessed in His love.

God opened a door for me that I may work in CHEC and i think it is one of the happiest jobs i ever have. becos these pple r so real n it is simply different working in church.. k i m not working in church but it is jus different working in CHEC. it amazes me. n i love the colleagues n the students there.. when u hear my voice, u noe that im full of motivation for wad i m doing there. haha. n i guess the jobless for months is so worth it! becos God gave me a job beyond my wildest imagination.. hiak hiak.

i have always been wondering that i have come to this point of my life, den wad? n now God really opened my eyes to show me what He has in store for me..

i was feeling pretty tired.. as in mentally on sun n felt like i really needed a rest.. and God jus showed Himself so real to me during the service. Thank You Jesus for ur precious presence n ur strength and Your gentle loving arms that pick me up when i feel like i needed You most.. Love You.

it really has been a long time since i blogged. blogging lesser and lesser. well, jus dun the motivation to. hiak.

sy rogers was here again in the past week. learned a lot and i guess the most important lesson that i really learn is acceptance. acceptance towards others and hey! also towards urself. i think that is sth i really need. many times we jus keep on thinking we r not good enough for God.. who says so? you dun have to be perfect for me to love u. how apt that is! i guess it jus feels that sentence came out of God's mouth. and well we r fallen, and we live in a fallen world, so when we get dirty, clean up, fall down den get up. nothing simpler than that huh..

these few weeks have been great! at benny hinn's conference n i guess many of us have been transformed by His power. not benny hinn's, God's power and glory. and the person of the Holy Spirit. i simply love Him, dun u? and sy rogers came n after that we r having our easter.. aint that power-packed? we r really going to see a harvest this weekend!

n to update abt my life, i m going to study chinese in NTU and in june i m going israel. :) so that is about it.

one last note, my students who r reading my blog, from 3h, 3i, 1a, 4h, u r invited by me! haha. for our easter drama production this sat and sun to celebrate easter with us at indoor stadium!
3 pm and 7.30 on sat. 11 am on sun. do come n enjoy urself! pls tag on my tagboard if u r interested. :)

离开学校几个月，惊然发现，我的华文真的退步了！去到圣公会教华文我还非常的小心翼翼，但还是犯了不少错。

这一趟在圣中还真是不容易，发现到真的要懂得怎样处事待人。

人的心，有两面。一面是你自己真正的感觉，另一面则是别人看你的心。你可以是带着善意，也可能被误为是恶意，这就是人。

以上是学到的第一堂课。

第二堂则是人言可畏。 经过这一次，我会更加谨慎的处理我所说的话。

祸从口出。

但我也感觉到了人的单纯，可爱。一种 – “我就是喜欢你”的接受，而那令我有一股莫名的感动。一种真实的 – 喜欢。

我也察觉了长大的悲哀，如果因为长大，而让心变得越来越小，越来越不能相信人，喜欢人，那也是悲哀。

上了几趟人生重要的课。我还蛮喜欢教书。；）

i m going to blog in english den chinese. seriously, after i got my 'a's, i got to start wondering abt my future. so many pple r asking me wad i wan to study n wad i wan to do. my oh my.. acty like dunno how long ago i have made up my mind that i wan to go ntu to study chinese. but becos of many reasons, i m starting to waver. hee. but the fact remains that my deep interest in chinese has not left, n due to my superfacial knowledge of chinese history and literature, i have decided i will study chinese. becos wad i know simply cant match up to wad i wan to noe.

tml is the day!

hey i m back after so long. it has been a fulfilling week. i was teaching in ahs since last tues. haha. told ying that i m not teaching den suddenly ahma ask me to take her place so i ended up teaching yan hong n yulan. hee. yep i agree i got a loud voice. especially when my class is particularly loud. muahaha. so i got to rise above them. dun test my limits yep.. haha. n i thot i m only to teach for only 2 days, only to noe that another tcher was on mc until tml so i end up sitting beside ahma teaching for another few days. boy oh boy aint it an experience.. i enjoyed myself! hahaha.

it was kind of funny cos i was teaching pple like daniel and some other that i have known before.. but it was kind of fun, especially teaching the sec 4s and 1s also. the sec 1s are really cute and the sec 4s were really nice. i had the honour of giving away their o level chinese results n i felt like it was really an experience n a priveilege. yep. n they did extremely well too. well done! ;) n it was really funny when i was in 3e and ying n yulan screamed when they saw me. n ting ting msging me telling me that they were really shocked to see me. n oh to have javier's sis in my class also. n also taking cab tog with my student. haha. and having to be mistaken to be ying's sis. kind of interesting huh. n to watch a match ahs vs cchsm and to support ahs after all my life i have been wishing they will be defeated. (sorry guys) n they were. i m sad for that really. ;) u all have it to go all the way. n it continues.. that my dearest ahma brought me to some weird place to eat some weird indian food in the open air. where the wind blows and we have added natural ingredients in our drinks and murtabak. muahaha. where the wind blows and the flower flows. (it rhymes!) into my drink. yucks. haha. and the murtabak which two of us pathetically only ate like half of it. wad a waste army guys! n it tasted nice. haha. and hving to walk in really painful heels. acty the heels arent painful. it is jus that my old "injury" worked up on me tdy. Dear God pls heal. it hurts tdy u noe. kind of quite badly that i got to limp a bit so that i dun hurt it so much. yep. and tml is my last day. haha. i enjoyed myself thoroughly so to say. and seriously, if God calls, i would love to go into teaching. becos it is a major satisfaction to be a fren to ur students.

oh yep and tdy is the release of o level results. my congratulations to all those who have done so well. ;) and those who did not get the best results, keep on working hard yah..

and well, i m waiting for my turn too. it is coming. before u noe it. keep me in ur prayers k.. or should i say, my results. but ahma said sth that encouraged me tdy. i have the peace of God within me. which reminds me of wad Pst Ulf said. the peace of God which surpasses all understanding. when i first memorised this verse i din noe wad it means. now i noe. that when ur situation tells u u shld be nervous and apprehensive, the peace of God will be upon u, even when u dun understand how u can have it, or how u can be so calm.

fight the good fight of faith.

kind of silly but i cried after reading samuel's (chan) blog. acty to be honest i din really ever properly looked back n conclude my yr. although it is alredi 15 feb, it is lunar chu qi, i think i m going to conclude my yr like now.

i guess the thing i can say abt 2004 is i let go. i cant count u noe, the number of things that i actually did let go. n can i say it had been a lot. but it had been a great yr. it was a yr that i let go, n when i begin to let go, God begin to bring many things to pass. so many. i will say it is a yr that dreams came to pass.

i think i cried a lot. haha. in 2004. but sth abt it. i love crying. haha. as in not like i m a crybaby, but it is that kind of feeling of jus letting everything out of u. haha. there were many heartbreaks too. when u let go, there r bound to be heartbreaks also. but God took over at the end of the day. yep. suddenly i dun wish to go on anymore.

next wk is pst ulf. can't wait.

这个新年，我不得不承认，过得比往年更充实，更有意义。

今年，我带着前所未有的自信，去拜年。而大家，理所当然的，也觉得晓亭不同了。大家都说我成熟了。难道十八岁和十七岁真的有这么大的分别吗？哈。我不知道。我知道的是，今年过得很开心，因为我找到自己。

i m back frm service. this week is coming to an end. frankly speaking, i m looking forward to the end of the week and to a chinese new yr week. haha. boy, i think i have been resting too long n when i jus simply do sth, now i feel kind of tired. i need my stamina back.

well, i have not done my spring cleaning yet. oops! tml i will get down to it. my room is getting messy again. haha. hopefully i can get it to be spick n span. is that how u use the phrase?

service was great! i was not so wrong abt pst john after all. haha. i remembered that i enjoyed him very much and well, i really really did. the 2 messages blessed me tremendously.

Grace empowers you to do wad truth demands of u.

You determine the intimacy of ur relationship with God, not God.
You can have as much of Him as you want to.

Friends of God r those who fear Him.

yep this is somewhat the essence. n i bought the book n the cd drawing near. feel free to borrow. take care guys..

n dear 3i, i have not forgotten my message to u. can i write in chinese? haha.

可以教你们是我的荣幸。 可以和你们分享我的生活，学习生涯也是我的荣幸。能但你们四天的老师更是如此。一日为师，终生为母？哈哈。应该可以算是姐吧。你们这班想的东西比较多。（我不是说3H没有想，请不要误会。3H 想的事情是在另一方面，是不一样的领域。）你们两个是不同的班，属于不一样的性格，所以不要比较了好吗？哈哈。让我轻松的说完。你们是很有才华的一班，对周遭的事物想的会蛮多，虽然你们甚少发言。就像我刚才写的一样，让我们不光是想，也学会出点力好吗？德明是你们的。我认为你们是可以在德明里带来改变的，只要你们肯去争取，是做得到的。既然你们已经在DHP, 就让它成为去美好的一段日子和环境好吗？

好喜欢教你们这两班，谢谢你们对我的支持。虽让我觉得我教的并不是很好，但是你们还是欣然接受，让我感到安慰。谢谢！

u guys have been really appreciative of me and i m so appreciative of that. to 3i, thanx for listening to me. all my silly stories. haha. sorrie for the lack of ghost stories. i dun really tell them. do not feel sad about staying in dhs k.. once u have decided, there is no room for regret ya.. keep on keeping on. thank for cheering for me too. haha.

to 3h and i, u guys ROCK my world!

last words:
青春不留白

tdy i had a great day in dhs. when i was walking out of dhs, although i taught for only 4 days, there was a tinge of sadness. i din expect that i will feel this way n really miss teaching in this place. when i graduated frm dhs, i came back like only a few times. 5 fingers is more than enough to count. n i came back really to see my frens. to me, dhs din really have something that kept me back. tdy i found that thing in this place that kept me back n here. 德明的人情味。

had a fulfilling n meaningful talk with wu lao shi n mrs har. something i really like abt dunman high is the teachers. they r jus so nice, so down to earth, so sincere. wu lao shi is so motherly! yah. the second day when i came, she kind of hugged me n she is that kind of person whom u jus feel like u can rest in her arms. haha. and she is so dedicated to education. that she is not discouraged, tired, but she still doing her part to change things. haha. i m blogging abt her, jus like wad wei biao did. wad i like abt her is that she doesnt jus bring things up, she is constantly looking for solutions. n i think that is wad things shld be. we dun jus talk the talk, we walk the walk.

mrs har is so cute! and she still is. i really like her. n i think she is really pretty. haha. 很有亲和力。and was jus telling her abt east view. haha. wei biao i told her abt the attraction in east view thingy. oops. haha. den she was telling me it is really a good experience and we really get to see the world out there. and she said this: we live in a protected environment. which i so very much agree. now i feel like maybe i wun dread east view so much any more.

suddenly becos of these few days, i have learnt to appreciate dhs. even mr kiw. n i have grown to love this place more. thanx guys for being a part of my world in dunman high. dear 3h n i, this is wad i got to tell u k..

u all may think that sch is tough. u guys dun like the rules, dread the discipline and this is part of the process i have been through before. and to tell u the truth, i have felt wad u guys felt, complained my share, and now i look back, tog den i realise i have walked out of this. becos this is dunman high. and this is the sch u have chosen to come n stay in. it is part of the package guys. u have good n bad things here, jus like how u will have it similarly in other places. as in u will have certain good things and yet certain things which u dun like cos nothing is perfect in this world. 鱼与熊掌，不能兼得。learn to love this place becos u have 4 more yrs. i think i would have learn to love dhs more, and not complain so much abt it if i get to do it all over again. but dhs has its history. and i pray from the bottom of my heart that it will always go on from strength to strength.

do i sound really sentimental? i think i do. becos i jus realise that dhs holds more for me than wad i have realised before. i dun think i will go into moe n teach. but if i do, i promise u, i will be back in this place. rock on. n if i can, i will do my part to make dhs a better place.

i love my classes!

boy o boy! to tell u the truth, teaching at dunman high is such a wonderful experience! i love it to the maximum.. man, i m going to miss teaching these peeps! haha.

today is my third day and tml will be my last. well, when i first went to teach them on mon, thank God they were so not intimidating. haha. cos i kind of expected DHP classes to be like mugger class (oops guys!), but they turned out to be such lovely students! they were lively, active, pretty responsive and they made my teaching experience such a memorable one. ;) i do wish n hope that i can teach them longer. especially teaching chinese when u can really tok to them, share with them. haha.

Dear 3h, (if u guys happen to read this)

u all were such a lovely bunch of pple! thank for brightening up my days so much! i kind of miss that 3 cheers thingy, cos we seldom do it in hwa chong. but when u all did it for me, i was so touched! haha. i felt like if i have taught u all a bit more, i would have teared. haha. thank u for the lovely memories, u guys r wonderful students and were so obedient n cooperative also. haha. i dunno wad to say about u really. felt that u guys will really enjoy ur days in dhs, cos u r really a lively bunch of pple. can sense tat strong spirit in u, though u all r only tog for a while. so keep there going ya.. i still feel sad for u all that u r going to be in dhs for so long! haha. but it is okie.. hopefully things will begin to change in a better way.. ;) enjoy ur sch days.. it is precious, u have only so many years to go. it may seem like a long time, but boy, time really flies.

i enjoyed my days in dhs. enjoyed my frens, the crapping, the laming, the stupid scandals and rumours(which r often not true, haha). n i had nice tchers too. think this is wad u guys will really enjoy. i think this is too heavy and sentimental for the beginning of the yr. haha. but if i have a chance again, i will take u back to be ur chinese teacher. ;)

Dearest 3i, i will leave urs for tml when i return after my last day k.. ;)

great!

this few days thing have been so good. haha. there was so many "first time"s for me. i din enjoy all of them, but it was really an adventure. it is really true when pple say that it is really an adventure with God and things dun get boring.

last fri went back to dhs. mr fong was really pretty nice. haha. offering me jobs and arranging things for me. but wad i m supposed to teach in dhs is really beyond my imagination. really out of my league kind of thing. but it will still be an experience though. i m praying that i will enjoy myself to the fullest.

this few days r so exciting! haha. n God has proven Himself to be faithful. really wan to love His presence.

happy birthday michael!

back to blog. i think cos i really like this blogskin i will feel like blogging to see something nice on it. haha. acty i dunno wad to write here. hiak.

life is a great journey. sometimes it can get tough, to the point that we feel like giving up. sometimes our future looks so dim! that we cant even see our fingers before us, not to mention God's. sometimes it seems like we will nv walk out of where we are, we will forever be stuck here in this place, in this state. sometimes we dunno where we r going, and we dunno what our future has in store for us. sometimes i feel this way. haha.

but well, thank God life is always going from glory to glory, and He never fails to bring me out of where i m. i m looking forward to breakthroughs after breakthroughs and i m looking forward to His presence in my life. Or should i say He is inhabiting in the midst of us. thank u Lord.

我很喜欢晚上这个时间。突然又不想写了，晚安。

changed my blogskin!

hey guys i have changed my blogskin! haha. do u like it? feel so inspired by Abraham. that is y i always put my nick as stargazing. stars remind us of God's goodness and promises yeah? ;)

it has been a while since i blogged. hee. lazy lah. anyway wad i have been was jus spending my time lor. haha. giving bible studies, relief teaching and teaching my nieces' tuition. which i enjoyed to the maximum man. haha. love them. and it is fun. last week i visited my grandfather also. boy i made it a resolution this yr to love and care for my family even more.

relief teaching has been okie. the teacher i relieved was a Christian! although he din noe i m one. yep. but the kids were really noisy and naughty. especially the primary threes. supposed to teach cme. they din listened so i tried to do kind of a skit. haha. but failed also lah. in a sense. well the primary ones were nicer. but one used vulgar lang and i tell u, i was so angry that i scolded him like dunno wad. haha. really. and the class was so shocked. haha.

next week i m teaching in dunman high. teaching the dhp pple. pls wish me all the best. hoping i wun pronounce anything wrongly. i have decided to jus go there n be really humble. haha. cos i think they r much better than me. hiak hiak. tdy went shopping and bs. wow. i learnt a lot in GOTP. think that the Bible is jus so amazing. ha. if u r free and have nth to do, feel free to ask me out. cos i m free! haha.

tdy i had my first relief teaching experience. haha. it doesnt feel like earning money at all. as in like doing hard work. i was teaching the kids in TNS. m thinking shld i put down the sch jus in case? haha. okie lah i was teaching at tao nan. it is not too bad. dealing with little kids. but i think we jus got to learn to make lessons a bit more interesting. haha. which apparently i dun really noe. oops. the pri 3s r okie. not too bad. pretty restless they r. n noisy. haha. the p1s r scary. u imagine having a class of 30 kids. and half of them r calling after u. teacher, can i go toilet? teacher, can i drink water? teacher, can i go to fill my water? teacher! i dunno how to do! teacher! i finish redi! teacher! i very urgent! teacher and the list goes on.. haha. boy.. they r really a handful n i really din noe how to control them. walking abt in my heels is not too fun either. i came home so tired. but happy somehow. lying on the sofa n i fell asleep. but i think teaching pri sch is not that bad, i earned my first 65 bucks. boy.

stay in tune for more next week.. adventure at geylang methodist. tdy i taught my niece in tao nan! happen to take her class for one period. ;)

Daddy is back! i really missed him while he was away n boy aint i glad that he is back. haha. thank God i din go cos they said that it wasnt fun! but frankly speaking i think i might have enjoyed it big time. but it is okie cos i chose not to go. ;)

has been a while since i last blogged. many have been asking me wad m i doing now that i m schless and jobless. haha. well, to update u once again on my well being, i have been really kind of doing nothing. for the last week, the best thing that i did was sleeping? but it is really too much. cos i slept too much. haha. sometimes up to 12 hours a day. boy oh boy but that is not the norm. i have been watching tv and going out also. n i read! that is the very best thing i did i think, which i enjoyed thoroughly. seriously those who r out there in sch, studying is the best thing u can do. i miss doing tutorials, having lectures, but do not miss wearing sch uniforms though. hc uniform is seriously too hot. yes i miss homework. i mean that frm the bottom of my heart. yest i jus read a book abt a princess in saudi arabia which was a not bad read. not really good.. but not bad. yep.

i enjoyed service in the weekend totally. wad a msg to kick off the yr. to have Jesus Christ as the foundation, ur beginning and ur end. this is the verse God has given me for the yr. everytime i come to it i have a deeper n deeper n deeper understanding of it. and it is a verse all of us r so familiar with.

Matt 6:33-34
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

here it is for u to meditate on. ;) have a great week guys!