and to continue from my previous post.

3. qi n ce. :)
thanx for coming out n watch a movie with me becos i wanted to and thanx for being my frens. one of the greatest gifts God has given me is the both of you! i m glad we r all 19, loving n serving Jesus. love u guys lots.. n i absolutely love that wallet. but love ur company even more.

4. all who wished me happy birthday!

seriously, i feel so loved on my birthday. n God told me that He is not the only one who loves me.. there r so many out there who also love me. haha.

Lord.. this year i pray You teach me how to come in and how to go out.. how to lead and how to be led.. how to love and how to be loved.. how to serve.. how to give.. how to live.

Let this be a yr marked by Your presence, power and love.

Let this be a yr that i lean on Your presence.

Let this be a yr that i love You, more than i ever loved You before Lord.

hello!

haha. i intended to blog yesterday cos it was my birthday! but well.. i had such a great time that i was jus too tired to blog. hee.

okie.. acknowledgements to the pple who made my day..

1. my beloved members!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my the thot of u guys put a big grin on my face.. not the surprise at the esplanade, or the big box or anything else.. but it was the me discovering the surprise that was the most fun of it all! ahahaha. gee.. i m so sorrie that i foiled ur plan.. haha. next time i will try very hard not to be intelligent okie? hee. but anyway.. u guys REALLY MADE MY DAY! haha. i seriously cant think of a better way to celebrate my birthday. n in advance.. thanx for the ADIDAS JACKET! hahahahaha.
special mentions to ying and eugene. the "ceo"s of xiaoting proj. and yiwen who came all the way!

2. jc cluster :)
hey u guys r really awesome. thanx for celebrating my bday and putting a smile on my face and being such a fun n sporty group to lead! i enjoyed every minute with all of u.. i promised u i will get a v cam to record down the NGE square AN square! haha. n N-O-R-T-H i say N-O-R-T-H! n.. erm too many to name.

got to go for lecture. later i will continue k.. bye! btw now in ntu library! :)

tdy is arise n build sunday.

after so long we r back. to arise n build.

pst was jus toking abt ur precious. ur benjamin. n tears rowed down my eyes.

wad is my precious? i asked Him.

and He said " ting i wan ur life."

not like killing me like isaac.

but God wants me. my life.

that is my precious.

and that is my best offering to Him.

had a great time with the cg at pasir ris park yest. God answered my prayers. ;) God is a good god. Recently jus came to the place of totally thanksgiving n submission to Him. God is good.
we really had a fun time in the water! splashing.. playing.. and all the stunts the guys try to do. check out the pictures! i m amazed by my photographing skills.. haha.

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watched a lot like love too. it's been a long time since i watch such silly shows. haha. but it was really nice. i really really liked it. but poor chan eng has to watch it with me which is quite sad. haha. but it's nice! if u like silly romance comedies.. u will enjoy this.

went shopping n swimming tdy. din buy anything except for this pair of sandals that look almost identical to the previous one. haha. well.. that's all.

love Him more n more each day.

first time xiaoting m blogging from the office. for those dun noe, i m working in chec, a wonderful job God has blessed me with. :) blogging now cos there is a big restlessness in my soul from the Holy Spirit. that kind of feeling that something really bad is going to happen. yeeks.

it has been a long time that i have been blogging about how i feel but well i feel that i m really blessed. this June has been such a great month for me. from emerge to the israel trip. it really has been amazing.

it has been great going to israel, stepping on the same places Jesus stepped, being in the same places the Holy Spirit fell, how can words do justice to that very place? i din noe how it was like to be in Israel but seriously it is a spiritual trip, not jus a trip that u have fun. the Spirit of God was so strong in that very place and u jus encounter God in a measure like u nv did. u really feel that in the place it has a tremendous anointing.. coming back to spore u feel a bit suffocated. hahaha. kind of lame but that is part of the truth. hiak.

but well israel trip is over. n time to get on with my life. to see my cg grow. to see schs having revival. to see the power of God move in Singapore like it moved in Israel. the same spirit of God that raised Jesus from the dead is in us! n so we can do mighty things for God..

revival. revival. revival. revival. revival.

xiaoting is back frm israel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha.

well, to put it shortly, it was a fantastic trip. not jus one full of fun, but it was one filled with encounters with Him. hallelujah!

it was really a gr8 trip. being in the Holy Land is really different and u can see how God moved in that place. i m really tempted to type down how God spoke to me every day but.. haha. it is really too long. i m too lz to do it.

well, my heart is filled with joy even as i type abt it. i miss israel but yet i dun really miss it that much becos i brought a piece of the Holy Land back with me! haha. and that is wad i m really happy abt.. those encounters and the very presence of God, i brought it back with me. haha.

love the jews! and love the land of Israel and u r greatly encouraged to go to the Holy Land yah? ;)

btw jc cluster.. i did bring back some small gifts for u guys. pls do get it from me n all the best for ur exams!

oh.. n i forgot to announce that i m going to ISrael! on tues!!!!! ;)

feel free to tag abt wad u want ya? i will try my best to get it for u. hiak. ;)

hi guys.. i really broke my record for not blogging for such a long time. hiak. but well it has really been a busy time so i m glad i can rest yet sad at the same time that emerge is over!

i think it was an amazing idea to have emerge conference.. really. it is such an amazing time in the presence of God. i really pray that in our lives we can have the same kind of presence n power of the Holy Spirit..

and really this entry i wanna first write to my cg.

hey guys,

i pray that after emerge u will be really different. be a people of a different spirit like Caleb yet love the presence of God like Joshua. I pray that even as we have touched Heaven, we will nv be satisfied with something less. let's go for sth greater in our lives! n we all can see a revival in our schs ya? so let's keep on loving God more n more.. ;)

and to the jc cluster..

u guys rocked my world! man i nv thot this is wad i will get by joining pos. and boy oh boy u guys blew my mind! n God blew my mind too!! haha. the rest i will post on our blog k.. ;)

had a great day yesterday n today!

yest we had a great great service! man the power and the presence of God was strong..

"Ask! What shall I give you?"

It was really a tremendous service. Yet i pray that we will not just be touched by God, I prayed that our lives will be transformed. that we will have the heart of Solomon and be like Solomon.

and i watched a great show. Coach Carter. I recommend all to watch. It is a fantastic show and it teaches u a lot. it was a "wow!" show. be sure to catch it.

and tdy i had a great time at pos! thanks to all you guys who made my day.. u all really did with ur passion and enthusiasm. love u guys so much for all the fun and laughter and fellowship! you rocked my day!

i m happy now that i made the decision to go for it. haha. that i m asked back by bro edmund. cos u guys made it all worthwhile.. ;)

my net is working once again! praise the LORD for that! haha.

jus came back from taiwan. had a grrreatt trip! enjoyed myself so much. it is really abreak frm Singapore that I need. it has been fruitful, praying with the people there, sharing my experiences as a cgl n a member of chc.. yah. n u can really sense the hunger in them also! ;)

also got to know my leader in a different way, praise God for that! thankful to Him for bringing me on this trip.. it was a worthy one.

n thank God also that tdy i was promoted! praise God for that too! ;) attended my first agm.

i m going taiwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haahaha. sorry for the break for so many days for not blogging den coming back such an exciting news! muahaha. but well, words cant express my excitement on going taiwan.. especially with weiqi n pastor!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!! friday is jus like a few days away.. after being in singapore for sooooooooo long.. hahahaha.

anyway last few weeks have been great n exciting! haha. it seems like my life has been spun around.. n i think that God has been so good to me!!!!! jus feel so blessed in His love.

God opened a door for me that I may work in CHEC and i think it is one of the happiest jobs i ever have. becos these pple r so real n it is simply different working in church.. k i m not working in church but it is jus different working in CHEC. it amazes me. n i love the colleagues n the students there.. when u hear my voice, u noe that im full of motivation for wad i m doing there. haha. n i guess the jobless for months is so worth it! becos God gave me a job beyond my wildest imagination.. hiak hiak.

i have always been wondering that i have come to this point of my life, den wad? n now God really opened my eyes to show me what He has in store for me..

i was feeling pretty tired.. as in mentally on sun n felt like i really needed a rest.. and God jus showed Himself so real to me during the service. Thank You Jesus for ur precious presence n ur strength and Your gentle loving arms that pick me up when i feel like i needed You most.. Love You.

it really has been a long time since i blogged. blogging lesser and lesser. well, jus dun the motivation to. hiak.

sy rogers was here again in the past week. learned a lot and i guess the most important lesson that i really learn is acceptance. acceptance towards others and hey! also towards urself. i think that is sth i really need. many times we jus keep on thinking we r not good enough for God.. who says so? you dun have to be perfect for me to love u. how apt that is! i guess it jus feels that sentence came out of God's mouth. and well we r fallen, and we live in a fallen world, so when we get dirty, clean up, fall down den get up. nothing simpler than that huh..

these few weeks have been great! at benny hinn's conference n i guess many of us have been transformed by His power. not benny hinn's, God's power and glory. and the person of the Holy Spirit. i simply love Him, dun u? and sy rogers came n after that we r having our easter.. aint that power-packed? we r really going to see a harvest this weekend!

n to update abt my life, i m going to study chinese in NTU and in june i m going israel. :) so that is about it.

one last note, my students who r reading my blog, from 3h, 3i, 1a, 4h, u r invited by me! haha. for our easter drama production this sat and sun to celebrate easter with us at indoor stadium!
3 pm and 7.30 on sat. 11 am on sun. do come n enjoy urself! pls tag on my tagboard if u r interested. :)

离开学校几个月，惊然发现，我的华文真的退步了！去到圣公会教华文我还非常的小心翼翼，但还是犯了不少错。

这一趟在圣中还真是不容易，发现到真的要懂得怎样处事待人。

人的心，有两面。一面是你自己真正的感觉，另一面则是别人看你的心。你可以是带着善意，也可能被误为是恶意，这就是人。

以上是学到的第一堂课。

第二堂则是人言可畏。 经过这一次，我会更加谨慎的处理我所说的话。

祸从口出。

但我也感觉到了人的单纯，可爱。一种 – “我就是喜欢你”的接受，而那令我有一股莫名的感动。一种真实的 – 喜欢。

我也察觉了长大的悲哀，如果因为长大，而让心变得越来越小，越来越不能相信人，喜欢人，那也是悲哀。

上了几趟人生重要的课。我还蛮喜欢教书。；）

i m going to blog in english den chinese. seriously, after i got my 'a's, i got to start wondering abt my future. so many pple r asking me wad i wan to study n wad i wan to do. my oh my.. acty like dunno how long ago i have made up my mind that i wan to go ntu to study chinese. but becos of many reasons, i m starting to waver. hee. but the fact remains that my deep interest in chinese has not left, n due to my superfacial knowledge of chinese history and literature, i have decided i will study chinese. becos wad i know simply cant match up to wad i wan to noe.

tml is the day!

hey i m back after so long. it has been a fulfilling week. i was teaching in ahs since last tues. haha. told ying that i m not teaching den suddenly ahma ask me to take her place so i ended up teaching yan hong n yulan. hee. yep i agree i got a loud voice. especially when my class is particularly loud. muahaha. so i got to rise above them. dun test my limits yep.. haha. n i thot i m only to teach for only 2 days, only to noe that another tcher was on mc until tml so i end up sitting beside ahma teaching for another few days. boy oh boy aint it an experience.. i enjoyed myself! hahaha.

it was kind of funny cos i was teaching pple like daniel and some other that i have known before.. but it was kind of fun, especially teaching the sec 4s and 1s also. the sec 1s are really cute and the sec 4s were really nice. i had the honour of giving away their o level chinese results n i felt like it was really an experience n a priveilege. yep. n they did extremely well too. well done! ;) n it was really funny when i was in 3e and ying n yulan screamed when they saw me. n ting ting msging me telling me that they were really shocked to see me. n oh to have javier's sis in my class also. n also taking cab tog with my student. haha. and having to be mistaken to be ying's sis. kind of interesting huh. n to watch a match ahs vs cchsm and to support ahs after all my life i have been wishing they will be defeated. (sorry guys) n they were. i m sad for that really. ;) u all have it to go all the way. n it continues.. that my dearest ahma brought me to some weird place to eat some weird indian food in the open air. where the wind blows and we have added natural ingredients in our drinks and murtabak. muahaha. where the wind blows and the flower flows. (it rhymes!) into my drink. yucks. haha. and the murtabak which two of us pathetically only ate like half of it. wad a waste army guys! n it tasted nice. haha. and hving to walk in really painful heels. acty the heels arent painful. it is jus that my old "injury" worked up on me tdy. Dear God pls heal. it hurts tdy u noe. kind of quite badly that i got to limp a bit so that i dun hurt it so much. yep. and tml is my last day. haha. i enjoyed myself thoroughly so to say. and seriously, if God calls, i would love to go into teaching. becos it is a major satisfaction to be a fren to ur students.

oh yep and tdy is the release of o level results. my congratulations to all those who have done so well. ;) and those who did not get the best results, keep on working hard yah..

and well, i m waiting for my turn too. it is coming. before u noe it. keep me in ur prayers k.. or should i say, my results. but ahma said sth that encouraged me tdy. i have the peace of God within me. which reminds me of wad Pst Ulf said. the peace of God which surpasses all understanding. when i first memorised this verse i din noe wad it means. now i noe. that when ur situation tells u u shld be nervous and apprehensive, the peace of God will be upon u, even when u dun understand how u can have it, or how u can be so calm.

fight the good fight of faith.

kind of silly but i cried after reading samuel's (chan) blog. acty to be honest i din really ever properly looked back n conclude my yr. although it is alredi 15 feb, it is lunar chu qi, i think i m going to conclude my yr like now.

i guess the thing i can say abt 2004 is i let go. i cant count u noe, the number of things that i actually did let go. n can i say it had been a lot. but it had been a great yr. it was a yr that i let go, n when i begin to let go, God begin to bring many things to pass. so many. i will say it is a yr that dreams came to pass.

i think i cried a lot. haha. in 2004. but sth abt it. i love crying. haha. as in not like i m a crybaby, but it is that kind of feeling of jus letting everything out of u. haha. there were many heartbreaks too. when u let go, there r bound to be heartbreaks also. but God took over at the end of the day. yep. suddenly i dun wish to go on anymore.

next wk is pst ulf. can't wait.

这个新年，我不得不承认，过得比往年更充实，更有意义。

今年，我带着前所未有的自信，去拜年。而大家，理所当然的，也觉得晓亭不同了。大家都说我成熟了。难道十八岁和十七岁真的有这么大的分别吗？哈。我不知道。我知道的是，今年过得很开心，因为我找到自己。

i m back frm service. this week is coming to an end. frankly speaking, i m looking forward to the end of the week and to a chinese new yr week. haha. boy, i think i have been resting too long n when i jus simply do sth, now i feel kind of tired. i need my stamina back.

well, i have not done my spring cleaning yet. oops! tml i will get down to it. my room is getting messy again. haha. hopefully i can get it to be spick n span. is that how u use the phrase?

service was great! i was not so wrong abt pst john after all. haha. i remembered that i enjoyed him very much and well, i really really did. the 2 messages blessed me tremendously.

Grace empowers you to do wad truth demands of u.

You determine the intimacy of ur relationship with God, not God.
You can have as much of Him as you want to.

Friends of God r those who fear Him.

yep this is somewhat the essence. n i bought the book n the cd drawing near. feel free to borrow. take care guys..

n dear 3i, i have not forgotten my message to u. can i write in chinese? haha.

可以教你们是我的荣幸。 可以和你们分享我的生活，学习生涯也是我的荣幸。能但你们四天的老师更是如此。一日为师，终生为母？哈哈。应该可以算是姐吧。你们这班想的东西比较多。（我不是说3H没有想，请不要误会。3H 想的事情是在另一方面，是不一样的领域。）你们两个是不同的班，属于不一样的性格，所以不要比较了好吗？哈哈。让我轻松的说完。你们是很有才华的一班，对周遭的事物想的会蛮多，虽然你们甚少发言。就像我刚才写的一样，让我们不光是想，也学会出点力好吗？德明是你们的。我认为你们是可以在德明里带来改变的，只要你们肯去争取，是做得到的。既然你们已经在DHP, 就让它成为去美好的一段日子和环境好吗？

好喜欢教你们这两班，谢谢你们对我的支持。虽让我觉得我教的并不是很好，但是你们还是欣然接受，让我感到安慰。谢谢！

u guys have been really appreciative of me and i m so appreciative of that. to 3i, thanx for listening to me. all my silly stories. haha. sorrie for the lack of ghost stories. i dun really tell them. do not feel sad about staying in dhs k.. once u have decided, there is no room for regret ya.. keep on keeping on. thank for cheering for me too. haha.

to 3h and i, u guys ROCK my world!

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