gain

i love sun's latest album embrace.. yet in my heart there is still a special place for gain. i just love the album to bits. i like the feel of it.

so i sought for a man among them, who would make a wall, and stand in the gap, but i found no one.

God is looking.

for a new generation that will love Him with EVERYTHING they have, and love people fervently. who will lay down their lives for Him and impact their campuses.

God. raise up a new generation.

youths who are willing
kingdom-minded
love You wholeheartedly
love people fervently
holy dissatisfaction
hungry for You
yearn to be fruitful.

raise up youths that are different

that's my cry.

will you answer the call?

hello

haha. it's been a while i blogged. i thot it has been a really long time, only to realise it's only 2 weeks. but 2 weeks it's enough. after you've been through emerge, it's as if like one year has passed or sth, because so many things have happened and your life is so transformed!!!

this year's emerge, as usual, has been tremendous. it is as tremendous as usual, yet it is not as usual, because this year it is bigger, greater and better! God has been really good, so just some updates for u.

well first of all, this yr my dream came to pass and i made it to the finals of word power. it's an ordeal, ask all my frens the turmoil i went thru.. haha. nah just kidding. but we really almost din make it.. so.. thank you Jesus! we got second.. ((: so all thanks to jeremy and annie. i love u guys lots. u guys are great team members. annie i m so proud of you that you noe that verse.. and yes jeremy, u really have worked hard and earned ur keep. haaha. you make me look good being ur team member. (:

secondly, sun was back. celebrated her birthday. heard liu geng hong sing. (((: and propose at the same time.

thirdly, i met a bunch of pple that rox. the ntu pple!!!! yah and *** will say he is so surprised to see this. *** was surprised to see me at bbq.. haaah. so that is me la.. the girl who is totally not in tune with ntu.. nah just kidding. knowing them was a pleasant surprise God brought into my life. they are really funny pple tat light up my life. you guys rox..!

last but not least, God came, moved, touched and did a new work.

God, just wan to say thank you for moving once again. words cannot describe how i feel. thank you for loving me, forgiving me and always giving me a second chance. thank you for the call. thank you for being willing to use me.

i want to treasure this forever. this call you have given. this family you have placed in. these friends that are so precious.

i love my life, my cg, my church, my frens, my family, MY GOD.

spirit-filled

i m at fang's house now, supposed to do my assignment. but i dunno y there is no urgency, so it's just bad. gee. it's ok, i promise i will finish though it's already 11pm and i m only at chap 4. xiaoting jia you. haha.

anyway. i m so excited that emerge is coming. yes i m finally in word power finals! mus come n cheer for me k.. haha.

yup that's all pple. off to mug.

想家

从小就对“寄人篱下”这样的感觉不陌生，所以我一直认为自己是以很可以适应的人，又或许是我老了！。。所以我真的不喜欢陌生的环境，我真得很喜欢家的感觉。

现在家里的房间一团糟，可以我很讨厌两头不到岸的感觉。就是讨厌。。宿舍感觉很陌生，因为少了人的气息。。 但是家里又感觉少了我。

发现我真的需要常常与人相处。因为在宿舍，特别是假期里，是完全没有人的。寂寞的感觉常常会涌到心头来，（this sounds like a wrong expression. haha）虽然这样的时候不是很多，因为我其实没有什么时间去想这些事情。但是，我真的想念家的感觉。

以前我总觉得，家和宿舍的分别在哪里？反正我每天都是早出晚归。。 在哪里都没有分别。是有的是有的。。 想念家里有人的感觉。特别想念老爸。。想念有人会帮我关灯，然后骂我。。我真得很想念。

因为这样我想。。 或许下个学期我要回到我名副其实的狗窝去了。

但是又贪图那每天来回的3个小时。。

进退两难！

blessed

i really feel blessed beyond words.

last wk pst derek talked about being at the right place at the right time.

then he asked, how many of you know that u r at the right place at the right time?

and we were like agreeing. then he said, how many of u know.. that there r also people who r supposed to be here but they r not?

and i felt a tinge of sadness.

God has been so good to us this few weeks. wonderfully blessed by service every single weekend. and it's not just the weekends. during sot every day, we meet with God in worship. We learn to be led by the Spirit, and everything is just so cool. God keeps speaking to me every single day.

tdy pst preached a powerful powerful msg. blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God,

i want to see you remarkably clear. i want to experience you.
i want to be totally devoted to you.

one life
i lay at your altar
one love
i have with you
touch me again
fill me as you hold
my outstretched hands

one word
you know i will follow
one heart
broken to you
use me again
your mercies follow me
for all my days

i want to be more in love with u than i've ever been before.

i mean that

acquired taste.

loving God n lingering in His presence is an acquired taste.

i haven't updated for one week, but it felt like eternity. it seems like everything u have not heard from God was just revealed to you in this one week.

God is good.

i need brokenness.

God is moving.

sometimes i m scared. becos i dunno if i really can. can i?

sot again

officially attended 2 days of sot. it feels like it is so much more than 2 days. fri, sat, sun, mon. every day having new encounters, new revelations, it's so much more than what i can wish for. God is so good. He is answering our prayers!

i want to.. raise up a new generation of young people, who loves God, will not compromise, and build their lives on the sermon of the mount. In pst's words, no more convenient christianity. yes!

God is really doing a new work in City Harvest, and i want to be part of it! i want to be the end-time church He raises up, where we will see dreams and visions.

Sermon on the mount was really really good! I am so happy that Pastor is doing this. A new revival Lord..

Ask of me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance..

The sacrifices of the Lord are a broken and contrite heart..

purify our motives.. purify our hearts. raise up pple, that has a different spirit God..

sot

happy that exams r over today, totally excited that i am starting SOT tml! after hearing so much from everybody, i am just excited. But i want to start SOT right. (:

Today had a really nice talk with my. There is one thing that has not changed since i am young, i love talking to her. She is someone of great wisdom and can always provide me with great insights on things. It always triggers certain things while talking to her.

One thing i learn as a disciple is to press into my leader. As i grow older in God, this thing jus keeps coming up to me. It is important ting, to press into your leader. To draw from the man/woman of God. I remembered there was once God prompted me to go up to her, and ask her to pray for me, because I want to have what she has. I was freaked out, but I decided to obey God. In the past I used to be super scared of her, but i have learnt that that is silly. To be discipled is a good thing, becos u learn. We all must learn in the process to have a right attitude, not one of fear, but of respect and servanthood.

I thank God for her, for all that she has imparted to me, and I thank God for the many greater years to come!

The greatest leader of all is the greatest servant of all. God taught me that tdy.

I m really excited. But now it's 3 plus am! i better sleep soon. (:

i feel like i died, went up to heaven and lived again.

family

family day 2007. 1 may.

R we a family?

R u part of this family?

In a family,

We give because we love.

We give our time, our finances, our energy.

We sacrifice because we love.

In a family, we go all the way out not because u r asked to, but becos u love this family.
And because you love, you will do anything for ur family members.

Do you love ur family? Do you love the vision? R u a part of this family?

We do wad we do, becos we love.
We love, because He first loved us.

not because we r told to.

I wish you will read this. I wish you will understand.
Becos i love my family. But i m heartbroken. Becos u dun love our family. You noe that?

What happened has really broken my heart.

By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love, one for another.

You dun have to do it if it is too hard on you really. You dun have to bother if u dun love our family. Really. You dun.

woooooo

suddenly i was looking at the past yr papers. n i got a little bit scared. ok. thou shall not be scared. i think i really nd God to take me thru. gee.

简单

那天在报纸上看到一则有趣的文章。文章的结论是：

人生可以简简单单美满，美美满满简单。

今天在走路时，感到心情很漂亮。今天发生了一件令我好高兴的事！但是这里不方便说。。 (: God is so good.

人生可以是简单的。一个心想事成就让我好不开心。

i m happy. sho happy. sho sho happy.

做你的公主mv

this is really very nice. awesome.

散文日记

看到很多朋友的部落格。好想念这样写部落格的方式。所以我决定了！考试后我真的会set up wordpress blog. 我想开始用华文记录好多东西。。好想念





近来有很多扰人的事，脑海里一直围着那几件事打转。考试有像是个摆脱不了的负担，这也不是，那也不是。又有几件烦人又缠人的事，想摆脱也摆脱不了的东西。haix.





一件令我超级开心的事。是跟我的陈资凯聊天。对了，他使我的新上任男朋友。没有啦。。他是我的5岁外甥。他最近超可爱，而他是令我最开心的聊天对象。((:





上个星期和他妈妈聊天，然后和他讲话，他开始问我又可爱又好笑的问题，让在念书的我好不开心。





matthew: yiyi.. where r u now?


me: yiyi is in sch.


matthew: how come u still in sch?


me: becos yiyi is studying in sch. tml got exam.


matthew: how come u still studying in sch? how come u nv go home?


me: becos yiyi is studying in sch lor.


matthew: how come ur sch so late still haven close? how come u nv go home?


me: yiyi's sch dun close one. yiyi's not going home. going home tml.


matthew: how abt the tchers? are the tchers there also?


me: no matthew.. the tchers have gone home.


matthew: how come the tchers go home? then who teach u a lesson?


me: becos the teachers need to rest. yiyi studying myself..


matthew: how abt ur frens? r ur frens in sch..?





and so the conversation goes.





then he asked..





matt: is ur sch in frankel ave? (which for ur info is the add of his sch. ha)


me: no.. yiyi's sch in jurong west..


matt: how come ur sch not in frankel ave? how come ur sch in jurong?





...





matt: is ur sch like brighton montessori? (which is the name of his sch btw)


me: no.. yiyi's sch much bigger than brighton montessori.


matt: but brighton montessori is also very big! ur sch got toys?


me: no yiyi's sch no toys..


matt: how come no toys.. then then .. how about lego? does ur sch have lego?


me: no matthew.. yiyi's sch no lego..


matt: how come no lego.. then.. what about toilets? ur sch got toilets?


me: yes matthew.. yiyi's sch got toilet..


matthew: how come ur sch only got toilet.. (drifting away)





my beloved nephew. can u believe he is five? a few days.. he asked his mum to call me becos he wants to tok to me. to cont this conversation. and what i heard is before i picked up.. he is already toking to me. and after he hung up on me, he was still toking. haha.





my fave boy.

have u fallen in love with him? haha. i noe he is absolutely adorable. love him to bits.

there r many fantastic kids in my family. jus love them.

另外一件事，就是星期四是我最后一天在kumon。我会好想念。。我的同事，更会想念我的学生！下次才给你们照片看！(:

i thot this is a pretty interesting post. muahaha. self praise is no praise.

you are sovereign

God. you are sovereign.

yes i noe u r sovereign.

as ur child, i dun have to beg, dun have to lower my standing, dun have to try in that manner.

yes i know that.

i know that u reign.

i know that vengeance belongs to u.

i know that you reign.

i know that u will fight for me.

i know that u will protect me.

i know that u will come through for me.

i know that no weapon against me shall prosper.

i know that u r on my side.

i know that u r sovereign, so sovereign.

so i will fear not, fret not, worry not.

you r in absolute control. n no weapon no weapon no weapon formed against me shall prosper.

他们真的不了解。

嗯，我知道，没有几个人其实能够了解。我知道。

多么希望会找到一群能了解的人，会在等待，会两肋插刀。

你们常说你们会，有时候，在我最需要的时候，你们会在的。

有时候，在我最需要的时候，我是一个人躲在一旁哭泣的。

你是没有看到的。

我仍然觉得

友情是需要培养的。

但是，不想一个人去培养。

我不是无聊。不是寂寞。不是可怜。只想要有一个陪在身边的人。

就这样而已。

你真的了解吗？

我要友情。我要quality time. 我不要你施舍时间来陪我。我不要觉得自己好像在祈求别人的时间。我不要，我不要，我不要！

你了解吗？你们了解吗？有人了解吗？？

你们有尝试了解吗？

benny hinn

one of my fave christian books is good morning Holy Spirit. this was the book that really taught me how to get to know the Holy Spirit. and tdy even as i attend pst benny's meeting, i think it's just amazing.

this is what happens when u simply walk with the Holy Spirit, right?

i really crave to have such a relationship with the Holy Spirit, that when u sing and worship, the room is filled with the presence of God. that u can invite the Holy Spirit, and becos of ur relationship with Him, he will show up when u ask me to.

Holy Spirit, teach me how to noe u more.

Pst benny said. Jesus is coming back. We r running out of time.

urgency!

i have decided to move on

i have decided to move on.

i have dwelled too long in the past.

Jesus said, follow me.

noe wad?

even if u dun follow Him, He will still move on.

His life is to do the will of the Father.

i have decided to move on.

i have issued to all an invitation.

if u r with me, come with me to change the world.

if u r not with me, and u dun wan to move on, u can stay where u r.

it's not that i dun wan to bring u along, but u chose to stay where u r.

i m moving on. with or without u.

u choose.

i m NOT staying back. i m going where He wants me to go.

R u with me?

sun 做你的公主

或許你沒看出來　周圍的人都在猜
有種感覺正在我們之間展開
喜歡你偶而作怪　
不經意留露的壞 其實體貼實在　
孩子氣的胸懷
曾經有過的戀愛　彷彿一片空白
直到遇見你 我才真的存在

我只想做你的公主　
擁有那平凡的幸福
華麗的珍珠　不如眼底的專注
對我深深呵護　
我想我是你的公主
終結這多年的追逐
當你抱著我　地球也暫停腳步
我剎那間清楚　
你是我的幸福
沉潛太久的孤獨　這一刻獲得救贖
我忽然好想哭　感激你這一路
陪我笑　陪著我辛苦
無悔的付出

i really love this song.

thoughts

God looks at the heart.

sometimes i cannot understand, y people try to be someone else. is it in front of me, in front of others, y try to be someone else? even if tdy i can't see, God sees.

guys, God is not interested in the outward. God is not interested in wad u say, wad u promise, sometimes even wad u do, if wad u do is different from wad u feel.

God wants commitment and passion, from the inside out.

pls dun hide. be totally honest before God.

on another note, it's back again.

felt like God is putting me thru that test again.

i din make it the other time and God is a wonderful tcher.

he makes sure that i pass it. haha.

so it is back again.

brace urself to pass the test girl.