I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER.

was just listening to a song and felt like blogging. it has been a long time since last wk that i m going to sleep at this unearthly hour, and this time always makes me feel like blogging.

sorry peeps i m just going to blog some spiritual stuff. realised i have been doing that quite a bit nowadays.

it was a good meeting tdy n i enjoyed fellowshipping with pastor, but i was happy about what God spoke to me abt.

i have been wondering what's the next level like, and somehow He gave me a glimpse of it, and He kept on reminding me the things He has spoken to me. i felt it. the next level.

anyway, i m touching freedom in abt 15hours' time. it sure does not feel good to end exam at 7pm. but i will do well ya? i pray n i mug. hurhur. all the best guys.. and after that, it's really freedom.

i dun have much time to play, but the thought of meeting my frens, toking laughing n fellowshipping makes me happy. although i dun have a lot of time to enjoy, but i hope i will be able to let my hair down.

toking abt hair, hopefully get a new hairstyle too. :)

ciao peeps!

red symbolises my exhilaration.u feel it?

看完了恶作剧。 超棒的！虽然有人觉得 恶作剧2吻没有这么好看，但是，它真的是会让你想追看下去的戏，因为湘琴和直树的感情真的感觉好真挚！在片尾时，他们写道，湘琴和直树的爱情会一直延续下去。。陪伴着我们。。还真的有这种感觉。ok i sound like a total 花痴。

刚看了文茜的世界周报。哇。i like the issues brought up by her. a lot of insights. it was good! :)

k la i m going to get back to studying. honestly i feel bored lor. haix.

i felt last night. that all hell was going to break loose. or has already broken loose. and i dun like it, when i feel like i m right. so irritating.

and tdy, one happened aft another, and i feel a little tired, angry, frustrated.

i noe, i nd strength to fight. and it's another battle, another war.

i just feel a little tired. but it's ok, i will get up again.

like wad pastor said tdy, sometimes, u just have to be on the offensive. ya man.

i thot i did everything i could, din i? but last night he spoke thru a verse. that showed me the way into another world.

i need to find a way, to escape and to destress.

GIRL, fight the good fight of faith!

today i was watching huiying's match. and God impressed me on sth.

He said, it's not abt how u start, it's abt how u end.

although how u start is impt, the more impt thing is, how do u end.

"He who has started a good work within you will complete it"

Then i realise, why He impressed that verse in my heart, to fight the good fight, run the race, keep the faith.

and i purpose in my heart.

I WANT TO END WELL.

i feel a little drained at the end of the night.

was just toking to fang one of the days, and before i knew it, i shared sth that i have hidden inside me for a long time, even w/o me realising it.

i feel, sometimes i just nd frens. nd to have conversations for enjoyment, nd the fellowship to just relax a little. it's good to be serious, but sometimes i nd just a little fun n relaxation.

anyway, here's a big thank you to a fren.

thanx for the company, and the help rendered, for i could not have made it thru HL211 without you. God has been good, and you have been a really faithful friend as well! i enjoyed the company throughout this sem, thank you my fren. u r awesome. gratitude from the bottom of my heart. and yes i promise, i will treat you to a nice meal. haha.

God has been awfully good to me. i feel overwhelmed for all that He has done.

He is just amazing, don't you think so?

studied till 3 plus am yest night. n crazily, i dunno y, i could not get to sleep. i tried, n i ended up praying, and turning n tossing till past 4am.

this morning cecilia called me at 730am.

n i was feeling real tired, till i saw a sms, and it woke me up n i started praying.

burdened.really.

God we do what we can, pls do what we cannot.

if only you would pray.

was feeling just a little overwhelmed. received a sms, then received a call, which made me feel torn.

then I went to Him.

and He came.

swept me in His arms. and u noe everything is ok.

i just want to love Him more. pray more, seek Him more, read the Bible more.

i just want to be "more" of a Christian.

i just want to live "more" of the lifestyle i should be living.

i want to exemplify.

i want to carry the presence. and the anointing.

Prov 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.

thanks my fren. although u always always "question" my decisions, u really always make me think more. and u've changed! in the midst of our busy exams, i m really really glad u called. thanx for the constant reminder(s).

i m blessed to have frens like u guys. ppl who inspire me, challenge me, motivate me. guys, i m appreciative. thanx.

blogging. blogging. and blogging.

xq said i m really a blogger. i will tell u that.. i m really blogging profusely, but it's only becos it's the exam period. i really feel, that after next wk, i may be a rare guest here, or maybe not.

i feel horrid. dun ask me y. it's not the first time i go on such little sleep, but it was just not good though the paper went perfectly ok. i feel so drained. m going to slp in a while's time.

i m supposed to say TGIF! but i'm not really so keen, cos i need to study for mon's paper, within that very cramped time. BUT still. thank God it's friday, cos i m really looking forward to service this weekend.

the house of God, where His presence dwells. is just...

keep me in prayers pls guys! thanx. :)

i noe! i m blogging like there's no tomorrow. well, to show u all that i m really mugging, i must blog at this unearthly hour to testify to it. hurhur. just wanted to say sth funny. i was mugging, and my player was on shuffle mode, n i heard kok wee and jjj's voice, oh man, i had a good laugh. it was such good entertainment in the midst of my mugging. thanx guys, ur voice brightens up my day.

and to my dearest fren, THANK YOUUU!!! for never failing to wake me up n reminding to study. u r AMAZING!! hahaha. n u r like one of the best in giving me wake-up calls can? u r like so effective. so i m really really very appreciative. n u gonna do well so dun worry abt it! haha.

i m researching on 228 at this unearthly hour. hahhaha. but well, it's gonna be day break soon, n i do appreciate the sunrise. :) n it's only at this hour, that i can mug n be on msn at the same time.

byeeee peeps.

my fren posted this song, and i was reminded how i happened to hear it again in my com, and my heart was so warmed by it.

one more moment.

one more post before i hit the books again. m feeling a little exhausted after the many calls, but made connections with just that some ppl, n i m glad. :)

i cannot imagine how life will be like after exams, n i noe, it's time to get up n fight again.

was just toking to yulan, and yes, i was reminded of those thoughts i once had but had put behind for quite a while. u all really can afford to.

in abt 12 hrs, is my next exam. oh man that feels scary. i m really going back again. i feel a little overwhelmed in my heart, but i cannot really put it in words as to how and why i feel this way, so perhaps, just another time.

take care peeps.

just heard some news on channelnewsasia about the false reports of the Western media regarding the issue about Tibet. i felt sad, for some reason. after hearing so much abt the tibet issue, i had my reservations about it. that's y when i saw the facebook group about freeing tibet, i did not react, because i had qualms about what the western media is portraying with regard to this issue.

and it is so closely related to what i have learnt in class. the western media has always been biased against china, claiming that china lacks freedom of speech in media, which i do agree to a certain extent, however, i do not feel that the western media is embracing their values of freedom. the Chinese government has stopped the western correspondents from going into Tibet, and this restriction has directly or indirectly "caused" these untrue reports to arise. i am not criticising the Chinese government, just stating the fact that because western correspondents are unable to get in, it affects how true their reports are. i paid a visit to anti-cnn.com, as usual, i did not dare trust the comments totally, but i do understand that there may be an element of truth in what these people are saying.

just like how the Chinese exercise censorship in the media, the Western media takes on a biased view of things. then how much more democratic, free and liberal are they? i am not taking sides, just expressing my thoughts that sometimes things are simply beyond what we see on the surface. it is wiser my friends, to not take in everything you read and see in the media, and learn to exercise discretion.

and about the Tibet issue, the truth is, unless we get to see for ourselves, we would not know what is the exact situation in there. so talks about boycotting olympics and stuff are really silly, and what is freeing Tibet all about? haha. if somebody needs to be freed, maybe it is first Taiwan? but knowing the Chinese government, you know it's not really going to happen until something big takes place. oh man, this is bad, i am engaging politics on my blog. haha. i do not want to continue anymore, before i touch on even more sensitive issues and topics. :P these are just some comments after watching the short clip on cna.

ciao guys. back to my books.

p.s. i have just woken up so excuse me for the lack of cohesion in my writing.

当我想起我活着的原因
我的心
久久无法平息
我似乎已经忘了
当时投身于此的原因

我是否能再度
回到当初的自己
同样的温度
同样的热情
我的心
是否能再度燃烧
永不停息

我对你的眷恋
一天又一天
静静等待着
那承诺的实现

a lousy attempt, at a not so poetic poem. but i m glad i tried. (:

人因梦想而伟大。

记得在读 i 周刊时，五月天的专访后，记者是这么写的。

是啊，人因梦想而伟大。

今天，我一直看到欧洲。一直看到，一直看到。

看到 belinda 在阿根廷，看到名设计师在 florence.

我突然，爱上这个地方。真的。

喜欢 belinda 在节目中所说的。

我真的相信，人因梦想而伟大。

我为了什么而活？你，又为什么而活呢？

when i came back, i was reminded.

if only you would pray, He once said.

Ya. it has always been prayer, his word, and the spirit.

let's restore the passion.

刚好，听到933播着倔强。突然想到婷所说的，我真的有种莫名的感动。

i spent some of my afternoon looking at facebook, uploading photos n stuff. n i was looking thru helen's pics in italy. oh man it really made me drrrooooollllll! i just simply love europe can???



somebody blogged this, that God reads blogs, n i certainly think so.



so dear God, i have a little wish.



i wish that the one will take me to europe for honeymoon. haha.



i dunno.i really hope it comes to pass. if it doesn't, i pray that i will have a chance to tour europe with him. at least italy, france, n london??? hahha. i *HEART* europe!!!!

i m such a faithful blogger nowadays. haha. i wasted one and a half days doing nothing!!! urgh. m a little upset with myself. ok la. i din like do nothing, just that i was not pdtive in studying. i guess i will have to burn the oil tonight. yes i hope i will stay up, even if it's for just a little while. n i will MUG!!!!

i m just relieved that it's over. :) haha. i felt like if anything, this will be the toughest paper, n yes, to quote my fren, i m just glad to be out alive. hurhur. nah that's a joke.

i was feeling nostalgic today walking alone in ntu premises. after so many weeks, i finally paid a visit to the new library. it's not because i din go to library ok, it's becos i spent most of my time in the "chi-na" library. haha. n oooh, i m so impressed with the new library. i m slow, i know. haha. but it's a really nice place. n i was feeling nostalgic thinking that i m leaving the sch in a year's time. wad a privilege it is to be a student. u noe i was offered the minor in entrepreneurship, and i hesitated to accept it, but eventually i did, becos i rem wad i told joanna a while ago, that one reget i have in my life is to maximising my time in uni, n i figure, that this minor is going to make this uni life worth it. after all, it has to be a fulfilling experience right?

and i feel really loved. suddenly there r ppl who r so concerned for my exams. haha. usually it doesn't happen, becos i m quite relaxed abt exams too, BUT i do study. but this time round i badly want to do well, n to all my frens, thanks for all the smses, prayers and phone calls, they really encourage n motivate me alot. so that's all peeps. i'm gonna take a good break, and start mugging again.

i love sch, love being a student, and sometimes, even love exams. haha.

u noe i m now so conscious of what i write? n i m watching my words, so that every sentence sounds right, structurally and grammatically. hurhur.

a short one before i hit the books again.

i received a call in the middle of the night yest, from a rare guest.

n i was pleasantly surprised when i realised he had no agenda whatsoever, n simply called to remind me to study, "to put things into perspective", so he said.

and i m appreciative for this call that came out of nowhere.

thank you my fren.

n i have, like i was told, studied.

n i promise, i will really try to put in my 110% for these exams.

so back to the books. :) or rather, notes. haha. n let me swim in that sea of ancient Chinese philosophy, n i pray, i will not drown, but get to the other side. hurhur.

我快要抓狂了。读到孟子我就不行了。啊！！！！现在才发现，中国思想史还真是折磨人耶！*叹气*

但是，却对孔子这句话情有独钟。

“岁寒，然后知松柏之后凋也。”

呵呵。你一定在想这句话什么意思，不告诉你。哈哈。改天再来问我吧。:) 哈。

我要回到孟子了。:(

this morning i woke up and while i was bathing, this verse came into my mind.

2 Tim 4:7

"i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith."

and yes, in my heart a voice echoed, i want to fight the good fight, i want to finish the race, i want to keep the faith.

Phil 1:6
"... and He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."

i m standing upon it.

and we will triumph victoriously.