i admit. that it is really an emo night.

i cannot believe, how tears are flowing as i am typing this post.

the tears that have been hidden inside for so many days.

beneath the smile and laughter, there r a lot of heartaches.

i carry the burdens of others and fight for them. i wish someone will fight for me too.

i hate the superficiality. i really do.

i m afraid of being hurt. i really am.

i talked to meiyan abt it last wk, and when i was praying abt it in morning prayer, the tears just flowed. i told God, daddy it hurts a lot. and i never want to go back to the place again.

and i felt a teeny weeny little bit of that pain tonight.