Purposed in her heart

To always be contented with what God has given her

To always be thankful for the great life God has given to her

To always do the will of God in her life

To always love, in spite of

To discipline herself in every single area

To be faithful over what God has given to her

To always trust in Him, that everything is gonna be alright

She purposed in her heart

To be a woman aft His own heart
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不照我的意思，照你的意思成就

最近，倍感壓力。

不僅僅是外在的，更多的，或許是內在的許多掙扎。

開始辨別出來，這是一個極大的考驗。

起碼，我的感覺是如此。

腦海裡一直浮現一些畫面和言語。

God said of David, he is a man after My own heart, and do all My will.

我反复思索，有多少人真的可以成為凡事都遵行祂旨意的人啊？

記得陳牧師曾說過，我們會在“忠心”這方面受到試探。

我們會有這樣的誘惑，不要再忠心下去了。

你會想要走別人的路，而不是自己該走的路。

你會想要做別人所做的事，而不是自己該做的事。

你會想要擁有他人的事工，而不是忠心的守住你的事工。

你會想要擁有他人的生命，而不好好活出自己的生命。

問題：如果別人的事工看似比你的成功，別人的生命看似比你的幸福，別人的領袖看似比你的優秀，別人的家庭看似比你的快樂，你是否還能忠心的做你該做的事？

而我的領悟？

我們都有一條自己該走的路。

His life is never mine, neither is my life his.

有多時候，我們會很想要做比較。

But there is really no basis for comparision.

神賜給你我的命定，不是讓你有多成功或了不起，其實只是，單單跟隨祂，活出祂的旨意。

我的祈求：

Job 23:10

“When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. ”

“然而他知道我所行的路；他试炼我之後，我必如精金。 ”

我希望這是我生命的故事。

train is coming jingle

contrary to most people, i really think this jingle is super amusing.

and it gives me a good mood, cos it feels like x’mas is coming, haha, don’t you think so?

i am absolutely tickled by it. hurhur.

cheap thrill.

inspiration

i never truly understood the meaning of inspiration, until i met this couple, who laid down everything for the vision of God in their lives, then i understood true inspiration.

they truly inspire.

just like many around me have inspired me, in every single area.

and there came a secret desire, that i can live my life as an inspiration.

it is a burden in my heart.

the same DNA i caught, the same values i have, the spirit of sacrifice we carry, will be passed on, from this one, to the next, to the next and to the next generation.

it does affect me when people do not understand sacrifice.

because one of the essence of Christianity, is sacrifice. That is John 3:16.

it does affect me when people do not understand delayed gratification.

when they want something or someone, but they are not willing to wait for the right time.

when I saw the verse Acts 13:22, David did ALL of My will.

say “ALL” and all means, ALL.

how many of us, would one day be able to say, I have done everything God wants me to do.

My prayer, is that you, you and you, will walk worthy of the calling that God has given to you.

My prayer is, that my life can truly be an inspiration, that when u see how God has blessed me because I was willing to sacrifice, I was willing to lay down, I was willing to put aside my “wants”', as long as it is not in the will of God, God has blessed me 100 fold and beyond, and granted me the desires of my heart.

to walk worthy, of your calling. 

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and… I said “yes”.

made in CHC

that day a friend text me n told me, someone asked her, what did CHC teach you?

she asked me, if it were you, how would you reply?

this was my reply.

CHC taught me… everything.

From being a student, to being a teacher

From being a disciple, to being a discipler

From being a child, to being a parent

From being a girl, to being a woman

From being a single, to being a girlfriend and one day, to being a wife.

What I am today, my values, my attitudes, my perspective, my lifetyle, is imparted to me in this special place.

my friend put it aptly – made in CHC.

judge me if u like, but i m a product of CHC.

“You can leave a church, an organisation, a pastor, a leader, but you never leave a family.” – Ed Silvoso

this is my family.

my quiet monday

monday is such a pleasant day. haha.

no agenda, no deadlines.

just chilling time.

it was a slow monday…

eating at bugis, buying a pair of new shoes, and searching out books in the library.

after that, desserts with my baby! and home sweet home… haha.

i wanted to post abt dinner last night with dear dear’s family… it was his dad’s birthday.

had a great time, and his family is awesome. haha.

loving life.

enjoying all, in spite of :)

this week

題目越來越沒有創意。因為不知道要用什麼字眼，來形容此時此刻的心情。

神學院結束後，應該能松一口氣，but life, does not seem to allow you to do that.

我有點累了。這場仗，好像在不斷的延長，that makes me feel like, 我不想幹了。

但是，放棄，從來都不在我們的字典裡，不是嗎？

今早，送走一個很要好的朋友兼戰友，很驚訝，自己在機場的時候，淚情不自禁的流。

除了思念之情之外，也發現，因為身邊少了一個可以傾訴，可以並肩作戰的對象。

記得昨天看到一句話，是米雪說的，一個人，我依然會微笑。

記得去年，當祂對我說話時，我如何回應祂。最近又想起我們那段談話。

感覺。這是生命裡的新篇章，但不管怎麼樣，不管排山倒海，不管前面道路有多困苦，我們都要，一直不停的走下去。

ttz, you r missed. really.

but i will keep on fighting, keep on running, keep on keeping on.

i was reminded.

attitude is everything.

everything.

in the midst of everything, the most important thing, is my attitude.

because my attitude determines my altitude.

you can do it.

just a lil’ overwhelmed.

just a little.

長長的週末

哈哈哈。

這是哪門子的爛中文。長長的週末。

可是，真的是如此啊。

爽到～

開心，因為花了兩天時間和 dear dear 在一起。

雖然沒做什麼，只是吃吃飯，逛逛街，看看書，就很滿足了。（哦，我終於看完了一本！余華的《活著》很不錯。看到哭了耶，能這樣看完一本書，超有滿足感的。呵呵。）

人生簡單無比的樂趣。

可能是開始運動的關係，整個人都沒有那麼累，還是因為，太悠哉啦？？哈哈哈。

今天學了一個新句子。。。

曉亭小學堂時間。

學一學，這句話。

為虺弗摧，為蛇若何？

猜一猜。。。什麼意思？

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

不要懶惰了，自己去查字典吧！

哈哈。

好人做到底。。。

here you go. 我換到簡體了。因為從網路上摘下來的。

为虺弗摧，为蛇若何

意思是：小蛇不打死，成了大蛇怎么办？原喻要趁敌人弱小时就把它消灭，后泛指坏人要及早除掉

你。。。記得了嗎？

the ups (and downs) of life

cannot recall when was the last time i was so stretched.

in times like this, i am always amazed when i look at the leaders around me, especially the different pastors and all, how on earth do they manage???

it was a long day, been some time since I have done things like that, but it’s good cos i m stepping out of my comfort zone. am tremendously encouraged by the sermon I preached. how, when we step out of our comfort zone, and get involved, somehow, we will see miracles, and the glory of God manifested in our lives.

Yes we can. because all things work together for the good of those who love Him.

in times like this, i am awfully thankful to God for my boyfriend, the one i can always run to in times of need. at the end of the day, no matter what i face, i know i can run to him, and it seems that everything will be ok. he is my pillar of support. God given. Not that i don’t need God la, but sometimes God work through people with skin on. hahaha.

and of course, i am awfully grateful to God, because He is the anchor of my soul. He is my hope. He is the one i can hang on to, and i know because of Him, everything is going to be alright. Thank you Jesus for the hope you have filled my heart with.

Sleeping very soon, though a long day, yet still not v tired. Cos I ate super late :( boo hoo, and now i wish my food will digest faster.

gogogo, xiaoting, ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM.

anyway, for randomness sake, such a nice photo we took at 21st anniversary. oh and for that, it deserves another post for some another day, where I will thank my lovely God in heaven, for the opportunity to speak in the stadium. after an eleven yr break. wow.

it’s the time of the year

it’s yet again, the time of the year.

somehow this year, i was not particularly looking forward to the time of the year, and this year feels so much more low key as compared to the past years.

i used to look forward to it a lot more when i was younger, not any more now, not because i am older, but, hmm i also don’t know y. haha.

anyway, maybe it’s just because i am not in the mood these few days. the stress is building up on all sides. i just need to learn to relax a little and SMILE.

yes girl SMILE.

SMILE… trying to.

the miracle of life

my blog is very very very dead. i think. hahaha.

wow i just checked. the last post is exactly one month ago. or to be exact, one month and one day.

but i really don’t know what to post.

and why am i awake at this hour? because after 2 hours, i really cannot get to bed. and I gave up. so here I am.

after visiting Lifen n baby Jordan in January, today is really my first time visiting a friend whose child just came into the world yesterday.

it was such a surreal feeling.

and it’s the first time, that i really adore the newborn, admiring how cute she is.

i never could appreciate the beauty of newborns. but today i did.

and from the bottom of my heart, i felt happy for them.

生命的奇迹。

可以想象吗，神创造这世界的时候，祂到底放进多少心思，才有今天的宇宙呢？

一个男人和女人的连结，在九个月后，就有小生命诞生，而这小生命会慢慢成长，长大，成熟，生命本身，就是一个奇迹。

即使不认识神，在看到这么美丽的过程，也很难不去想象，我们的造物主是谁啊？祂怎么会有这样的智慧和本领，设计出这样延续下一代的方式。。。

而且，这也提醒了我，人与神的结合，也是如此。

the miracle of life.

乐熙，欢迎你来到这世界。

祝福你，在未来的日子，在爸爸和妈妈的呵护下，开心快乐的长大，and be, all that God wants you to be.

with love,

xiaoting & peter :)

Heartbreaks

Yesterday i heard a word that stayed with me. 同理心。

If i can translate it, i probably use the word empathy.

Dictionary.com says, it is the identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives.

Empathy is so important.

Something I experienced when I got attached, was how i would feel really sad, when something breaks my bf’s heart.

I would tear, when there are tears in his heart.

the same thing happened to him.

In the very same way, there are many close to my heart. And when their heart breaks, my heart breaks too.

That links me to empathy.

This is separate but yet related.

Are we able, to put ourselves in the shoes of others, and understand their situation, feelings and motives?

Or do we only see our point of view, and our view only.

do we put ourselves in others’ shoes.

our leaders, parents, friends, cg members.

to be continued…

Psalms 27

the word that God put in my heart yesterday.

Ps 27:13-14

I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
         That I would see the goodness of the LORD
         In the land of the living.

Wait on the LORD;
         Be of good courage,
         And He shall strengthen your heart;
         Wait, I say, on the LORD!

中文的感动

我想要重新拾起阅读的习惯，特别是中文文章。

因为时间的限制，读完一本书比较困难 。

所以决定，从不同人的文章和部落格开始。

并且在这里记载，感动我的话。

如果有文章要推荐，please do so! :)

 

今天看到这段话。

有人说 当你真心爱上一个人的时候

任何一点小事 都会让自己感动 都想与他分享

如果真是这样 那无疑的 我是幸福的

无疑的 我是幸福的。 :)

发现了一个新作者

我想读她的文章。

不是艺术可以取代宗教，而是宗教真实的体会与深度，赋予艺术一种非凡的内涵，因而走向超越的向度！

——陈韵琳：《超验的艺术》

Just thoughts

thoughts running through my mind.

it was a super-mega long day, eventful, fruitful and of course tiring.

things weighing upon my heart.

just allow me to rant.

i love my Pastor. Without him, and without his ministry, I will never be who I am and where I am today.

When you love a person, and you hurt when the person hurts, that is love.

And when people out there, and the enemy out there, hurls darts, it hurts you too. Someone used this word malice. How aptly put. I thought so too. Malice.

It all boils down to the intent of your heart. That is why King David said

“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
         Be acceptable in Your sight…” Ps 19:14

So, are the words of your mouth, and the meditation of your heart,acceptable in God’s sight? 

Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.

Someone said, the CHC DNA, have you caught it yet? there are some, who seemed like, they are really not catching it. And they are baffled, perplexed, frustrated.

www.konghee.com/blog

have you read it yet?

it reflects my pastor’s heart. really.

we are not blind. love is not blind. love sees. love looks at the heart.

Grace and Mercy

Pst Phil touched on mercy on Tues. “Goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life.”

Pst Bob taught about mercy today. I was not there, but was reminded of the importance of mercy.

I remembered, how Pastor will teach us, and Pst Ming will reiterate it, every time we see people making mistakes, don’t be quick to judge. But pray for them.

I remembered God spoke to me, to pray for my leaders, because they need a lot of wisdom to lead the church. And never to judge.

I read many who criticise, and feel provoked, but was reminded, not to judge, but to give grace and mercy.

The Lord will fight for us.

Learn to show mercy, in our word and deed.

Mercy triumphs over judgement.

Mercy.