the en104 hangover hit me today.
lol.
i was feeling pretty alive when i went for pm last night, and even after coming back, i din feel exhausted and all. but this morning when i woke up, the fatigue really hit me.
and the funny thing is, i was so tired, that on the way back in the bus, i was dozing off. this is unusual, because i was with my member! but i was so tired that i could not keep my eyes open. following which i needed to go out with my dad, and i literally slept from the beginning till the end. usually i will take that time to tok to daddy, but i was really too tired. and now, i m still feeling it. :)
wanted to update more and tok more on stuff, but perhaps after i have really recuperated. the fatigue is getting to me, and i can already see the 101 things i need to do this coming wk. and before anything, it's the ntu-nus camp. haha. lol i will back in sch again.
watching dark knight tml yeah. (:
Friday, July 18, 2008
so the game is officially over. hurhurhur. it was actually a very exciting game, and i realised, my threshold for no sleep has gone up one notch higher. it's crazy how i can analyse numbers when i have not slept for like 24-48 hours. wahahaha.
in the past one wk, we were playing this game called marketplace. J told me that it is a very very fun game, which i totally agree, and my group really went through the highs and the lows. and after a week of little sleep, the game is finally over, with us ending in 23 million debt, and i wonder what is gg to happen at the end of the day.
but this experience was cool, and from the bottom of my heart, i love inferno!!!! hahaha. we r a bunch of crazy idiots, who just totally whacked it after we hit riddo. wahahahahaha. and there were like so many crazy moments, and though we end up heavily in debt, we had tons tons of fun. INFERNO U ROCK. haha. i will post up pics n videos k? on uncle ben's game theory, ah huat's ah huat-ed moment, and i think our whole team just ah-huated. wahahhaa.
this is the end of en101-en104, and i wonder wad will happen to us after en104. But i had a total lot of fun through this, especially en104! and i think, one more time, my team rocks like mad. wahahaha. i love u guys! hurhurhur.
k la more updates after tday. i m feeling very alive, and looking forward to a week of rest before starting to pia again. and today i realised, freak i have not started on my FYP! haha.
k guys i will see u all. my beloved helen is back. date me!
in the past one wk, we were playing this game called marketplace. J told me that it is a very very fun game, which i totally agree, and my group really went through the highs and the lows. and after a week of little sleep, the game is finally over, with us ending in 23 million debt, and i wonder what is gg to happen at the end of the day.
but this experience was cool, and from the bottom of my heart, i love inferno!!!! hahaha. we r a bunch of crazy idiots, who just totally whacked it after we hit riddo. wahahahahaha. and there were like so many crazy moments, and though we end up heavily in debt, we had tons tons of fun. INFERNO U ROCK. haha. i will post up pics n videos k? on uncle ben's game theory, ah huat's ah huat-ed moment, and i think our whole team just ah-huated. wahahhaa.
this is the end of en101-en104, and i wonder wad will happen to us after en104. But i had a total lot of fun through this, especially en104! and i think, one more time, my team rocks like mad. wahahaha. i love u guys! hurhurhur.
k la more updates after tday. i m feeling very alive, and looking forward to a week of rest before starting to pia again. and today i realised, freak i have not started on my FYP! haha.
k guys i will see u all. my beloved helen is back. date me!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
in a nutshell, this is what i am studying for, for tml's exam. but to tell the truth, i still dun understand assets, liabilities and owner's equity. urgh. and why is a partnership good? i see no advantage whatsoever. in case u r wondering wad exam i m having tml, it's ACCOUNTING. the big A word.
u noe over the past few weeks, the comment that i get is i look tired. everybody just says i look tired! and G was so kua zhang to say i looked pale n tired!!!!!! goodness. and someone told me, it's that lack of energy in me. then i know what she is toking abt. it's that lack of energy.
thank God i am getting it back this wk, haha. to be able to be toking to chan eng on the train all the way.. is so xiaoting. hurhur. but i m so excited abt what i shared, and i loved the possibilities that was posed to me simply through toking to ppl. i m so glad...
this exam really doesn't feel like an exam. maybe for the fact that the percentage is not THAT high, but it is still high la. 30% leh. come on xiaoting focus. :P
finally i got a good look at who xiao jing teng is from bai fen bai yest. honestly, hmm, he doesn't look that fantastic next to xiao zhu. wahahahaha. but he is still quite cool la. esp his billard skills. how he thrashed xiao zhu WOWed me. hurhur.
back to mugging.
i sound like a bimbo. but i miss shopping. i realise chi bi is a really really nice show. catch it with me anyone?
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
i miss..
hanging out with my frens.
the 61 gang.
slacking and doing nothing.
having a life.
shopping.
i miss.. my cg and their nonsensical what-nots!
1.5 weeks more to go. to be exact. it's 10 days.
this is the question that has come up time and time again.
is worth it right? ha.
there's such a change in mindset and stuff.
indeed once u r stretched u will never go back to the same again.
yest i was in a pm. what touched me was the passion that i heard n felt in my soul. that passion that breaks u. that testimony that blows your mind.
seriously, i m very excited to noe what is in store. haha. in all aspects.
hanging out with my frens.
the 61 gang.
slacking and doing nothing.
having a life.
shopping.
i miss.. my cg and their nonsensical what-nots!
1.5 weeks more to go. to be exact. it's 10 days.
this is the question that has come up time and time again.
is worth it right? ha.
there's such a change in mindset and stuff.
indeed once u r stretched u will never go back to the same again.
yest i was in a pm. what touched me was the passion that i heard n felt in my soul. that passion that breaks u. that testimony that blows your mind.
seriously, i m very excited to noe what is in store. haha. in all aspects.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
i cant help, but still be in a blown-away state right now. i m still blown away, period.
He shows up in ways i have never imagined. God always surprises me, really.
thank you for being so real to each and every one of us, for being here. your very presence touched my heart in a big way. i m humbled, bowed over. thank you for touching hearts and changing lives. i can't help, but be in awe.
a lot of things r running thru my mind. all the different experiences this past month, what has happened, what not, what i have learned. i felt like i m in a whole new dimension. God has been really good, and i have been relying on His grace. :)
from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
i led one of the best worships i ever led tdy. he came n touched everyone, just like that. God moves in amazing ways isn't it?
i surrender all.
He shows up in ways i have never imagined. God always surprises me, really.
thank you for being so real to each and every one of us, for being here. your very presence touched my heart in a big way. i m humbled, bowed over. thank you for touching hearts and changing lives. i can't help, but be in awe.
a lot of things r running thru my mind. all the different experiences this past month, what has happened, what not, what i have learned. i felt like i m in a whole new dimension. God has been really good, and i have been relying on His grace. :)
from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
i led one of the best worships i ever led tdy. he came n touched everyone, just like that. God moves in amazing ways isn't it?
i surrender all.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
i feel like this on the inside. i cannot help but feel like going on and on about my rantings for the day, excited by the fact that i have no sch for one wk.
this one month felt like eternity.
thus, while i'm listening to presentations, i m dreaming away in lala land, thinking abt wad i do tdy, tml, day after tml, thinking about the many million ppl i will meet, 100 million things i will do, and frankly, the exam in 7 days' time is way low on my ttd list. WAHAHA.
was just reading a friend's blog, and rem about last night. seriously, to step into jw, to clap n sing like that, was woww. i felt a little drained, but i m happy with what God has done.
to think abt what is in store, the kind of changes i will be moving into, excite me.
i have been placed into strategic places, meet certain ppl, which me n j agree, is DIVINE.
i wonder what is in store. i m starting to really think, what i want to do one yr from now.
it was a fruitful talk, amidst our crappy tiredness.
a lot of things went thru my mind, things that i did not have time to think about, thoughts that suddenly crossed my mind.
just past the halfway mark, i was just looking back.
it is indeed an experience. and like what i told him, it really expanded my horizons. it touched my heart that someone knew exactly what i was toking about. but i just felt a little torn. and a little tug in the heart.
but now when i think abt it, there must be a way right? when GPDI's doctors and businessmen were mentioned. they r really the new breed.
wad to do.. where to go.. the involvement?
i wonder..
but i felt like this is another level.
he asked, r u ready to take up the cultural mandate?
it's a whole new chapter.
i'm loving it. :)
taking my first step.. a little scared.. a little apprehensive.. but excited n expectant.
show me.
a lot of things went thru my mind, things that i did not have time to think about, thoughts that suddenly crossed my mind.
just past the halfway mark, i was just looking back.
it is indeed an experience. and like what i told him, it really expanded my horizons. it touched my heart that someone knew exactly what i was toking about. but i just felt a little torn. and a little tug in the heart.
but now when i think abt it, there must be a way right? when GPDI's doctors and businessmen were mentioned. they r really the new breed.
wad to do.. where to go.. the involvement?
i wonder..
but i felt like this is another level.
he asked, r u ready to take up the cultural mandate?
it's a whole new chapter.
i'm loving it. :)
taking my first step.. a little scared.. a little apprehensive.. but excited n expectant.
show me.
Monday, June 30, 2008
上个星期，许多许多事情的发生，让我措手不及。我好久，都没有处于这样的状况，因此，我只能感觉惊慌失措。也让我发现，朋友的重要。
i was just a little disappointed. by ur decision. it seems not easy to befriend somebody all over again. i asked myself if i have gone too far, but i could not come to a decision. perhaps it has never mattered to you in the first place, but i wonder, why did it not even matter to you in the first place? what was the criterion for friends?
我发现，真的很不容易。
才渐渐了解，the marketplace is not for weaklings. 哈哈。
一语惊醒梦中人。不知道，为何同样的事会发生？连 ahma 都觉得我好笑。他和他的相似度，令我惊奇。哈哈。还好，我学聪明了。
回到宿舍，不喜欢离家的感觉。但是，扭开收音机，又开始喜欢这个夜晚的宁静，听着音乐，我好喜欢这种感觉。:)
i was very impacted, is it by svc today, or pm. touched. by how he met me. and spoke to me.
we were first called to enjoy his presence, before we do anything else isn't it? ya.
women are called, to be a supporter of the man's vision, isn't it? ya.
having said all, i would still choose you.
it's a promise.
i surrender all.
i was just a little disappointed. by ur decision. it seems not easy to befriend somebody all over again. i asked myself if i have gone too far, but i could not come to a decision. perhaps it has never mattered to you in the first place, but i wonder, why did it not even matter to you in the first place? what was the criterion for friends?
我发现，真的很不容易。
才渐渐了解，the marketplace is not for weaklings. 哈哈。
一语惊醒梦中人。不知道，为何同样的事会发生？连 ahma 都觉得我好笑。他和他的相似度，令我惊奇。哈哈。还好，我学聪明了。
回到宿舍，不喜欢离家的感觉。但是，扭开收音机，又开始喜欢这个夜晚的宁静，听着音乐，我好喜欢这种感觉。:)
i was very impacted, is it by svc today, or pm. touched. by how he met me. and spoke to me.
we were first called to enjoy his presence, before we do anything else isn't it? ya.
women are called, to be a supporter of the man's vision, isn't it? ya.
having said all, i would still choose you.
it's a promise.
i surrender all.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
有人问我,值得吗? 当时,我真的不知该怎么回答. 昨天回家的路途上,我在想,应该是值得的吧. 但是, 今早, 带着疲惫的身体, 我只能说, 我不知道.
但是, 昨天让我遇到的人与事, 真的很神奇, 让心里的一股热血沸腾, 而我这才了解, 他为何忙, 为什么而忙.
是神奇的.
问我以后要做什么. 我真的不知.
带我去一个很棒的地方吧.
thank you for all u standing by. is it the support, the standing in the gap, the understanding, it is much appreciated. i feel sad to miss out on some stuff, yet i know it's definitely a give and take situation. it will be over in no time.
ting jia you. (:
但是, 昨天让我遇到的人与事, 真的很神奇, 让心里的一股热血沸腾, 而我这才了解, 他为何忙, 为什么而忙.
是神奇的.
问我以后要做什么. 我真的不知.
带我去一个很棒的地方吧.
thank you for all u standing by. is it the support, the standing in the gap, the understanding, it is much appreciated. i feel sad to miss out on some stuff, yet i know it's definitely a give and take situation. it will be over in no time.
ting jia you. (:
Thursday, June 26, 2008
to quote someone, it has been a perfectly horrid day.
i cannot rem when was the last time i felt like this.
but thank God for all of u who stood by me. i feel blessed.
thanx for the listening ear, the encouragements, the concerns, and for being there.
your presence made a big difference.
n what God told me in the morning came to pass.
thanx.
i will be strong.
i cannot rem when was the last time i felt like this.
but thank God for all of u who stood by me. i feel blessed.
thanx for the listening ear, the encouragements, the concerns, and for being there.
your presence made a big difference.
n what God told me in the morning came to pass.
thanx.
i will be strong.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
yest night, when i thot abt not needing to wake up at 6. it felt STRANGE. i cannot rem when was the last time i slept till 12pm. n i wanted to go to work, cos it's really weird to be doing nothing, but in the end i was too sick that i gave up.
i m learning to enjoy this, n it was fun listening to different ppl's idea. i'm glad ours was so simple. haha. tml we start again, n i might be moving to hall for a week.
seriously, it feels so weird to be home that i dunno wad to do already. haha. everybody told me i shld rest. but wad do u do when u r resting? (:
ciao
i m learning to enjoy this, n it was fun listening to different ppl's idea. i'm glad ours was so simple. haha. tml we start again, n i might be moving to hall for a week.
seriously, it feels so weird to be home that i dunno wad to do already. haha. everybody told me i shld rest. but wad do u do when u r resting? (:
ciao
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
something that i felt sad about, because of the busy schedule, is the lack of fellowship with friends and people. i miss my friends and my life! haha. many times when i talk to them or meet up with them, i would be so exhausted i don't really have much energy to talk or to communicate. just want to say Sorry guys for not having enough time to spend with u! sounds weird but awfully true. :(
and to someone that called last night, my sincere apologies. you know i m really too exhausted, so hang on there for a while k? n i really appreciate u pressing into my life.
and to all who stood by me, xiaoting says thank u. thank u for putting up with my complaints, my mia-ing, for willing to be my fren even though u noe i m so bz i have no time to tok to u. thanks for all ur understanding, i'll be back soon! haha. and to those who rose up n stand in the gap, u r much appreciated.
thanks for all the help rendered really, the encouragement in time of need, want u to know, frens, u make part of me. it is God, and it is you who keep me going. another few more weeks to go, n i will be through.
jia you. (:
and to someone that called last night, my sincere apologies. you know i m really too exhausted, so hang on there for a while k? n i really appreciate u pressing into my life.
and to all who stood by me, xiaoting says thank u. thank u for putting up with my complaints, my mia-ing, for willing to be my fren even though u noe i m so bz i have no time to tok to u. thanks for all ur understanding, i'll be back soon! haha. and to those who rose up n stand in the gap, u r much appreciated.
thanks for all the help rendered really, the encouragement in time of need, want u to know, frens, u make part of me. it is God, and it is you who keep me going. another few more weeks to go, n i will be through.
jia you. (:
Saturday, June 21, 2008
| reality hit when i reached home. w/o the lappy beside my bed, i just feel a little empty, and realised how impt computer is to my life. i simply cannot live without msn u noe. haha. but anyway, there's no news on it la. well i m still hoping n praying, somehow maybe sth will happen. if not God will be nice enough to bless me with a new laptop i hope. (: after hearing what my fren said, i might really consider switching to apple. haha. well, that is if i dun get it back la. :P k let's pray hard. cg tml n attending weddings! yay! haha. thank God for a pc at home. n for frens who were there n encouraging. thanks peeps. |
Friday, June 20, 2008
i m just feeling a teeny weeny little upset. really. just that teeny weeny little bit.
i wish i have a little more faith. but i guess i m just a little tired too.
it doesn't help when u r hit, physically, mentally and emotionally.
i need to keep this going strong babe. girl u can do it.
my dear Lord, u r there right?
i wish i have a little more faith. but i guess i m just a little tired too.
it doesn't help when u r hit, physically, mentally and emotionally.
i need to keep this going strong babe. girl u can do it.
my dear Lord, u r there right?
Thursday, June 19, 2008
i cannot remember when was the last time i dreaded sch. i really loved sch a lot, even doing projects and assignments. but nowadays, sch is getting really dreadful. haix.i need to adjust my mentality and attitude to this thingy to start embracing business and business ideas. urgh. i spend a bit more time sleeping last night. so i m a bit happier. (:
but i had a great time in church praying tdy. i love going to church early n praying in the hse of God.
记得那个承诺：不离不弃。
but i had a great time in church praying tdy. i love going to church early n praying in the hse of God.
记得那个承诺：不离不弃。
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i want to go taiwan!!!!!!!!! suddenly i just feel like i want to be there for the youth camps.. haix. but it seems like it may not be so possible. i m crossing my fingers n hoping n praying! (:
God answered my prayers. (: after i prayed last wk. and yest's meeting was really good. God really spoke to me, taught me certain things, teach me what to do, where to go and things like that. and a big thank you to my beloved classmate for driving me to school. i am appreciative. (:
i need Your grace!
God answered my prayers. (: after i prayed last wk. and yest's meeting was really good. God really spoke to me, taught me certain things, teach me what to do, where to go and things like that. and a big thank you to my beloved classmate for driving me to school. i am appreciative. (:
i need Your grace!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
a big thanks to my co-host, for making these 2 days such fun fun time. i had a great time hosting with him, he was so funny, hilarious and relaxed. (: it's nice to meet a new friend like that. thanks sir!
and a big thanks for my friend. thanks for the card. (: it was timely, encouraging and unexpected. your acts of love and service really touch my heart. love being your fren.
i have safely finished one week, still alive and kicking. it's the start of a new one. though i was physically a little exhausted, i had a lot of great company and fun. at hosting the father's day buffet, i m telling u, my co-host was really good! haha. many ppl said it was great so praise God for that! and we had quite abit of fun at michelle's party. happy to catch up with the frens that i have missed. (:
thanking God, for the awesome ppl He has placed in my life. love Ya.
and a big thanks for my friend. thanks for the card. (: it was timely, encouraging and unexpected. your acts of love and service really touch my heart. love being your fren.
i have safely finished one week, still alive and kicking. it's the start of a new one. though i was physically a little exhausted, i had a lot of great company and fun. at hosting the father's day buffet, i m telling u, my co-host was really good! haha. many ppl said it was great so praise God for that! and we had quite abit of fun at michelle's party. happy to catch up with the frens that i have missed. (:
thanking God, for the awesome ppl He has placed in my life. love Ya.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
i wanted to... just take some time off. do nth, slack, and blog.
even when i blog, i do it in such a big hurry nowadays it irritates me. so, i m just going to ignore all tiredness and do what i want to do. ha.
讨厌格格不入的感觉
不知道有多久
没有踏入一个陌生的环境
而开始感觉 不自在
有时候
我并没有那么喜欢自己
不安全感 慢慢爬了进来
我讨厌！无法做回自己
请帮我 找知音
i din feel good and comfortable. maybe i was trying hard not to be myself. i miss all the good company but i realised i really need to step out. just wish that i would stop trying so hard.
hosted for father's day buffet today. it was really fun. haha. i had a fun co-host and i had a great time. it was fun toking to brian, eric and the rest, they gave me a really interesting perspective to matchmaking. it was an eye-opener, so this is what it is like. haha. tired, but i din feel stressed. which is good. i'm enjoying. one more day n my wkend is over. n it's back to sch again.
i felt like i want to grumble etc etc, but tdy, sth on the inside reminded me, come on ting, u can do better than this. n i rem the word that was given to me, you r being strengthened on the inside. indeed i m. and i started to realise, yes i m busy, but i m definitely not limited. xiaoting u can do it. (:
let's look forward.. to something more.
even when i blog, i do it in such a big hurry nowadays it irritates me. so, i m just going to ignore all tiredness and do what i want to do. ha.
讨厌格格不入的感觉
不知道有多久
没有踏入一个陌生的环境
而开始感觉 不自在
有时候
我并没有那么喜欢自己
不安全感 慢慢爬了进来
我讨厌！无法做回自己
请帮我 找知音
i din feel good and comfortable. maybe i was trying hard not to be myself. i miss all the good company but i realised i really need to step out. just wish that i would stop trying so hard.
hosted for father's day buffet today. it was really fun. haha. i had a fun co-host and i had a great time. it was fun toking to brian, eric and the rest, they gave me a really interesting perspective to matchmaking. it was an eye-opener, so this is what it is like. haha. tired, but i din feel stressed. which is good. i'm enjoying. one more day n my wkend is over. n it's back to sch again.
i felt like i want to grumble etc etc, but tdy, sth on the inside reminded me, come on ting, u can do better than this. n i rem the word that was given to me, you r being strengthened on the inside. indeed i m. and i started to realise, yes i m busy, but i m definitely not limited. xiaoting u can do it. (:
let's look forward.. to something more.
Friday, June 13, 2008
it has been a crazy life since monday.
i cannot remember when was the last time i slept so little for such a long period of time.
and i am amazed i am hanging on, just that everytime i hit home, it's almost immediately my head hits the bed.
and it's only the first module.
i need Your grace.
you know i always wanted to be stretched, to expand myself, because i know, when you are stretched, your life will not go back to the same again.
and i am being stretched.
since monday, the earliest i am home was yest, i reached home at 930. from sch. ha.
i was telling ahma this is so not xiaoting u know? i used to stay in sch for almost only precisely 20 hours a week. now is entirely different.
i need to pray, need to seek Your face, need to love You. (:
it's the 4th day, and it's going strong. 14 days feel like a long time, i wonder how pastor does it.
i'm supposed to blog abt this shock that hit me yest, but i guess it's becos i was so tired, i was so shocked. haha. or the other way round, whatever it is.
n i started to think. whenever i walk on the streets, there are so many ppl i know that i would bump into. some are just meant to be visitors, some meant to be passers-by, some meant to be here for a lifetime. and i cannot imagine how many ppl have passed thru my life. and yest, i was reminded of one of them. relationship is such an amazing thing isn't it? i felt that's the power of viral marketing. and sometimes i wonder, who are meant to pass by, who are meant to stay, who are meant to be thee frens.. that last for a lifetime? i was reminded of what pst robb said.
k i m going off to pray. xiaoting jia you.
i cannot remember when was the last time i slept so little for such a long period of time.
and i am amazed i am hanging on, just that everytime i hit home, it's almost immediately my head hits the bed.
and it's only the first module.
i need Your grace.
you know i always wanted to be stretched, to expand myself, because i know, when you are stretched, your life will not go back to the same again.
and i am being stretched.
since monday, the earliest i am home was yest, i reached home at 930. from sch. ha.
i was telling ahma this is so not xiaoting u know? i used to stay in sch for almost only precisely 20 hours a week. now is entirely different.
i need to pray, need to seek Your face, need to love You. (:
it's the 4th day, and it's going strong. 14 days feel like a long time, i wonder how pastor does it.
i'm supposed to blog abt this shock that hit me yest, but i guess it's becos i was so tired, i was so shocked. haha. or the other way round, whatever it is.
n i started to think. whenever i walk on the streets, there are so many ppl i know that i would bump into. some are just meant to be visitors, some meant to be passers-by, some meant to be here for a lifetime. and i cannot imagine how many ppl have passed thru my life. and yest, i was reminded of one of them. relationship is such an amazing thing isn't it? i felt that's the power of viral marketing. and sometimes i wonder, who are meant to pass by, who are meant to stay, who are meant to be thee frens.. that last for a lifetime? i was reminded of what pst robb said.
k i m going off to pray. xiaoting jia you.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
i was supposed to have gone out, but someone was very efficient and in the end i dun need to.
i m feeling bammed. fatigue.
i have muscleaches on my arms, shoulders, back, thighs and calves. haha.
so kua zhang right? i know.
3 days of OBS. i felt like it was ok yest. but totally, i m officially cui-ed.
to update, the night before OBS, i was trying to settle everything and pack. In the end, i slept at 430 am before waking up at 630 am to leave home and go for OBS. gosh. i was telling myself xiaoting u r mad. it's supposed to be xiong to the max and u r like almost dead already.
but amazingly, i survived. haha.
and God was good, cos on the first day, we just had a lot of team activities, which were not very strenous. and then we went out to learn kayaking, with the capsize drills and stuff. That was abt the most tiring thing we did. i thot we would end early la, but we were discussing some stuff for the next day, so i slept at 12 plus, woke up at 6am, 2nd day into OBS, and i have already lost my voice.
i m like super scared of heights, but then on the 2nd day, we had to do the high elements. honestly, cos i had already braced myself for it, it went ok. n it really helped when the ppl down there were cheering n telling u exactly wad to do. i love my team. haha. they were really really funny and fun to be with. we had uncountable fun moments. and i did go up the high elements. i wanted to try the really really high one, but it rained, so that really dampened our mood.
and after that, it was trekking. haha. we were supposed to walk to the other side of ubin. but acty, it was not that tiring, n we kept on taking photos along the way!!! we were like really enjoying ourselves n having fun.. and then we camped by the beach, and i was saboed into being one of the leaders for our sea expetition.
we were supposed to trek back to OBS camp, then change and kayak round ubin.
and we were supposed to leave our campsite at 6 plus, but they "turned us out" at 3am to go back to camp. n we only got 3 hrs of slp?? but it was ok la.
seriously, i thot that i will die in the sea or sth. haha. cos i just cannot make it!!!! but amazingly, i picked a super super good partner, who is a 2-star kayaker, and basically, he was the one paddling most of the way. n i learnt! not to kayak with my arm strength, but also with my back strength, and becos of my very zai partner, i had a lot of fun seriously.
to tell the truth, i learned to love the outdoors. esp during the kayaking. the sky was really pretty, the air was fresh, the water was cool and it was great fun. i felt bad cos most of the ppl really like pushed on thru, but for me, it was relaxing, and seriously, i m very very appreciative of my partner.
wad did i take back from OBS? our trainer asked us.
i m just glad i made it. n i realised, whether is it physically, mentally, spiritually, when i want to, it can be done. n i m just glad.
it was fun getting to know these ppl. different, fun. overall, i just had a lot of fun. haha. we really did a lot of nonsensical things, and i'm looking forward to the minor.
on another note,
sometimes i really feel it's inadequate. and the word came at such a time, and i cried and i cried and i cried. i really want to believe u for sth greater, and i pray, we would see that coming to pass.
would u believe? that it can be done. that there is something greater in store.
it has been burning in me.
that there must be something more.
i m feeling bammed. fatigue.
i have muscleaches on my arms, shoulders, back, thighs and calves. haha.
so kua zhang right? i know.
3 days of OBS. i felt like it was ok yest. but totally, i m officially cui-ed.
to update, the night before OBS, i was trying to settle everything and pack. In the end, i slept at 430 am before waking up at 630 am to leave home and go for OBS. gosh. i was telling myself xiaoting u r mad. it's supposed to be xiong to the max and u r like almost dead already.
but amazingly, i survived. haha.
and God was good, cos on the first day, we just had a lot of team activities, which were not very strenous. and then we went out to learn kayaking, with the capsize drills and stuff. That was abt the most tiring thing we did. i thot we would end early la, but we were discussing some stuff for the next day, so i slept at 12 plus, woke up at 6am, 2nd day into OBS, and i have already lost my voice.
i m like super scared of heights, but then on the 2nd day, we had to do the high elements. honestly, cos i had already braced myself for it, it went ok. n it really helped when the ppl down there were cheering n telling u exactly wad to do. i love my team. haha. they were really really funny and fun to be with. we had uncountable fun moments. and i did go up the high elements. i wanted to try the really really high one, but it rained, so that really dampened our mood.
and after that, it was trekking. haha. we were supposed to walk to the other side of ubin. but acty, it was not that tiring, n we kept on taking photos along the way!!! we were like really enjoying ourselves n having fun.. and then we camped by the beach, and i was saboed into being one of the leaders for our sea expetition.
we were supposed to trek back to OBS camp, then change and kayak round ubin.
and we were supposed to leave our campsite at 6 plus, but they "turned us out" at 3am to go back to camp. n we only got 3 hrs of slp?? but it was ok la.
seriously, i thot that i will die in the sea or sth. haha. cos i just cannot make it!!!! but amazingly, i picked a super super good partner, who is a 2-star kayaker, and basically, he was the one paddling most of the way. n i learnt! not to kayak with my arm strength, but also with my back strength, and becos of my very zai partner, i had a lot of fun seriously.
to tell the truth, i learned to love the outdoors. esp during the kayaking. the sky was really pretty, the air was fresh, the water was cool and it was great fun. i felt bad cos most of the ppl really like pushed on thru, but for me, it was relaxing, and seriously, i m very very appreciative of my partner.
wad did i take back from OBS? our trainer asked us.
i m just glad i made it. n i realised, whether is it physically, mentally, spiritually, when i want to, it can be done. n i m just glad.
it was fun getting to know these ppl. different, fun. overall, i just had a lot of fun. haha. we really did a lot of nonsensical things, and i'm looking forward to the minor.
on another note,
sometimes i really feel it's inadequate. and the word came at such a time, and i cried and i cried and i cried. i really want to believe u for sth greater, and i pray, we would see that coming to pass.
would u believe? that it can be done. that there is something greater in store.
it has been burning in me.
that there must be something more.
updates for OBS coming up next. stay tuned!
it was an enjoyable time, not as gruelling as i expected it to be.it was good. (:
sth that hit me when i first reached that
"You cannot discover new oceans unless you first lose sight of the shore."
it was so apt for me.
camp alive tml. (: it's gonna be OUTSTANDING.
it was an enjoyable time, not as gruelling as i expected it to be.it was good. (:
sth that hit me when i first reached that
"You cannot discover new oceans unless you first lose sight of the shore."
it was so apt for me.
camp alive tml. (: it's gonna be OUTSTANDING.
Friday, May 30, 2008
okk. my loooong awaited post. it has been such a long time since i blogged. though 1 week is not supposed to be that long, but still i do feel it's an awfully long time. u too right babes? haha.
first up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHANG TINGTING! for her bday on 27 may. (:
and second up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEO YONG XIANG! for his bday on 28 may. (: (he's my long lost good fren that just came back from philippines. lol.)
and third up, (like there's such a word) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIM BAY HUNG!
and guess wad, it's the end of my post. wahahhaa. jus kidding la.
i dunno wad to say also. but anyway, i just want to say.
it's so amazing how i always wanted to know that person, for his amazing talent, and God opened a way last yr.
and it's so amazing how i always wanted to know this person, for some reason that i will not disclose, and God opened a way again. i was so excited when i saw him walk into the room.
and for that matter, i m going to start praying, that i get to meet my 偶像。he's so awesome it's just such a privilege to be his friend. haha. he writes really well, and he's really smart. a God-lover and yet talented.
i love to meet God-lovers and talented ppl all over the world.
just in case i won't have time to blog, i will be in ubin from mon to wed. running n trekking n climbing n swimming somewhere. i pray i would be back in a piece, to get ready for camp ALIVE! u would pray for me too won't u? haha. if u want me back in a piece. and yes,
7 MORE DAYS TO CAMP ALIVE! R U READY FOR THE TIME OF UR LIFE?? (((:
first up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZHANG TINGTING! for her bday on 27 may. (:
and second up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEO YONG XIANG! for his bday on 28 may. (: (he's my long lost good fren that just came back from philippines. lol.)
and third up, (like there's such a word) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIM BAY HUNG!
and guess wad, it's the end of my post. wahahhaa. jus kidding la.
i dunno wad to say also. but anyway, i just want to say.
it's so amazing how i always wanted to know that person, for his amazing talent, and God opened a way last yr.
and it's so amazing how i always wanted to know this person, for some reason that i will not disclose, and God opened a way again. i was so excited when i saw him walk into the room.
and for that matter, i m going to start praying, that i get to meet my 偶像。he's so awesome it's just such a privilege to be his friend. haha. he writes really well, and he's really smart. a God-lover and yet talented.
i love to meet God-lovers and talented ppl all over the world.
just in case i won't have time to blog, i will be in ubin from mon to wed. running n trekking n climbing n swimming somewhere. i pray i would be back in a piece, to get ready for camp ALIVE! u would pray for me too won't u? haha. if u want me back in a piece. and yes,
7 MORE DAYS TO CAMP ALIVE! R U READY FOR THE TIME OF UR LIFE?? (((:
Thursday, May 22, 2008
this is my 600th post. :) i m so proud of this blog, really.
感叹时间的流逝。聚在一起时，才发现，有这么多朋友已经要踏入社会，这才让我感受到自己一年后就要毕业的真实感。
这六月，我将会踏出自己很大的一步。我以为自己是个冒险家，却惊然发现，人都是喜欢躲在自己最舒服的角落的。那么，我只好强迫自己，离开舒适的精神状态，挑战自己。
对于我是否能胜任，我真的不知道。但是，在我心中，却冒出这样一个慰藉，只要我想，我一定可以的。但是，却记得今天和jy讲的，it's not what I have, but it's who You are.
所以，我会很珍惜六月这段日子。我希望，我会锻炼出一个很坚强的晓亭。经一事，长一智。i hope that i will be able to stretch myself in a great way, but it's not me but You. Let it be that i will grow, intellectually, but also spiritually, and see You moving in a great way.
no eye has seen.
感叹时间的流逝。聚在一起时，才发现，有这么多朋友已经要踏入社会，这才让我感受到自己一年后就要毕业的真实感。
这六月，我将会踏出自己很大的一步。我以为自己是个冒险家，却惊然发现，人都是喜欢躲在自己最舒服的角落的。那么，我只好强迫自己，离开舒适的精神状态，挑战自己。
对于我是否能胜任，我真的不知道。但是，在我心中，却冒出这样一个慰藉，只要我想，我一定可以的。但是，却记得今天和jy讲的，it's not what I have, but it's who You are.
所以，我会很珍惜六月这段日子。我希望，我会锻炼出一个很坚强的晓亭。经一事，长一智。i hope that i will be able to stretch myself in a great way, but it's not me but You. Let it be that i will grow, intellectually, but also spiritually, and see You moving in a great way.
no eye has seen.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
我永远不会忘记
主你那丰富恩典
如今我在天父怀中
因为你舍下自己
你不看我的过去
只是完全接纳我
主你的爱何等伟大
我的心完全融化
我亲爱救主
我心何等感谢
你单单在意
我这爱你的心
我愿一生
追求跟随我主
谦卑为你 服事这世界
我亲爱救主
我要一生敬拜
在我生命中
你是唯一的爱
毫无保留
我愿献上所有
何等渴慕能为你而活 耶稣我主
动人的歌。
the bigness. the dedication. the glory. enthralls me greatly.
there must be something more.
we have not arrived.
if only you would pray.
i purposed in my heart that i m going to blog. but my life is so boring that u wun want to do wad's up. just kidding la. haha. i went sentosa again on mon, almost had a heatstroke. the heat is so scary nowadays. no kidding. anw the heat was so overwhelming i dunno wad else to say. haha. but then, i still din get tanned. i wonder wad is wrong. ha. and we celebrated the sat boyz birthday. it was a really lame time we had. the only word i would say is LAME. haha. pics another time ba, but they r also really lame pics!!! n mx was the ultimate la. but he was funny. and i went home totally exhausted.
had a wonderful mtg w pastor last night, and he taught us this song. it really melted my heart, and i woke up with this song in my head.
let's return, back to the first love.
and teach me how to pray.
主你那丰富恩典
如今我在天父怀中
因为你舍下自己
你不看我的过去
只是完全接纳我
主你的爱何等伟大
我的心完全融化
我亲爱救主
我心何等感谢
你单单在意
我这爱你的心
我愿一生
追求跟随我主
谦卑为你 服事这世界
我亲爱救主
我要一生敬拜
在我生命中
你是唯一的爱
毫无保留
我愿献上所有
何等渴慕能为你而活 耶稣我主
动人的歌。
the bigness. the dedication. the glory. enthralls me greatly.
there must be something more.
we have not arrived.
if only you would pray.
i purposed in my heart that i m going to blog. but my life is so boring that u wun want to do wad's up. just kidding la. haha. i went sentosa again on mon, almost had a heatstroke. the heat is so scary nowadays. no kidding. anw the heat was so overwhelming i dunno wad else to say. haha. but then, i still din get tanned. i wonder wad is wrong. ha. and we celebrated the sat boyz birthday. it was a really lame time we had. the only word i would say is LAME. haha. pics another time ba, but they r also really lame pics!!! n mx was the ultimate la. but he was funny. and i went home totally exhausted.
had a wonderful mtg w pastor last night, and he taught us this song. it really melted my heart, and i woke up with this song in my head.
let's return, back to the first love.
and teach me how to pray.
Friday, May 16, 2008
ok i m going to do a quick one, i wanna go running again.
sorry that i took so long to update, the last post was actually typed in sentosa, while i was waiting for my fren at the internet kiosk. and yes, i went sentosa on mon!
you wun acty believe it, becos i went shopping b4 that, and i only reached sentosa at 8pm! but seriously, there is another side to sentosa in the night, and i simply love it. i m really glad at the end of the day i told my fren that i would go. :) although i was v upset with some stuff. haha.
we took the sky ride, had fun with the luge, and it was really a great time. i needed the air, i needed the break, and i knew that. i think the best thing was toking with my fren, i seriously din think toking would help, becos i was feeling all so moody, but i realised, it did help, even though just a little bit.
and to my fren, just want to say thank you, although once again u will not read this, and u r really so terrible sometimes. but somehow toking to u always help, and u seem to noe what i m going thru, and seem to understand me in the spiritual. for some reason, that little contact we have is always magnified in the spiritual and i treasure my fellowship with u. although there r times i still feel you're terrible, and i only get to talk to u like 10times a year, but i m glad it's always quality time. like wad i have said, u never fail to make me think, and without me saying, u seem to always be able to know and sense a lot of things, and i m really appreciative of this friendship we have. sometimes i feel you're moving on so fast and it scares me, but to think again, we're just different. i seem to be taking things slow nowadays, hopefully not too slow.
but anw, back to sentosa. i sat at siloso beach toking to God at 1 am, and He spoke to me. Ting the deeper the water, the bigger the ship it can carry. If you noe what God is toking abt. i dun really want to explain la. those of u who knew what happened, u prob understand. and i m really thankful, that He was there, spoke to me and made my day.
then i told God i will pick up, and the next day in pm He came and blew me away. I really pray it will not stop there. there must be sth more isn't it?
it has been quite crazy ever since exams ended. i noe. i seem to be online lesser and lesser, coming home later and later, but all this time serving God, praying is so well spent. and now, i m excited, though nervous and scared at the same time abt what is going to happen.
that's all peeps for my long update. i may be gg sentosa again on mon, if not i dunno wad i'll be doing. haha. but i m gonna take a break definitely. it's another wkend in the spirit. i promise u. haha. we have really been praying a lot lately!!!! but it is good. amen.
spirit, blow us away. yes Lord, blow me away.
sorry that i took so long to update, the last post was actually typed in sentosa, while i was waiting for my fren at the internet kiosk. and yes, i went sentosa on mon!
you wun acty believe it, becos i went shopping b4 that, and i only reached sentosa at 8pm! but seriously, there is another side to sentosa in the night, and i simply love it. i m really glad at the end of the day i told my fren that i would go. :) although i was v upset with some stuff. haha.
we took the sky ride, had fun with the luge, and it was really a great time. i needed the air, i needed the break, and i knew that. i think the best thing was toking with my fren, i seriously din think toking would help, becos i was feeling all so moody, but i realised, it did help, even though just a little bit.
and to my fren, just want to say thank you, although once again u will not read this, and u r really so terrible sometimes. but somehow toking to u always help, and u seem to noe what i m going thru, and seem to understand me in the spiritual. for some reason, that little contact we have is always magnified in the spiritual and i treasure my fellowship with u. although there r times i still feel you're terrible, and i only get to talk to u like 10times a year, but i m glad it's always quality time. like wad i have said, u never fail to make me think, and without me saying, u seem to always be able to know and sense a lot of things, and i m really appreciative of this friendship we have. sometimes i feel you're moving on so fast and it scares me, but to think again, we're just different. i seem to be taking things slow nowadays, hopefully not too slow.
but anw, back to sentosa. i sat at siloso beach toking to God at 1 am, and He spoke to me. Ting the deeper the water, the bigger the ship it can carry. If you noe what God is toking abt. i dun really want to explain la. those of u who knew what happened, u prob understand. and i m really thankful, that He was there, spoke to me and made my day.
then i told God i will pick up, and the next day in pm He came and blew me away. I really pray it will not stop there. there must be sth more isn't it?
it has been quite crazy ever since exams ended. i noe. i seem to be online lesser and lesser, coming home later and later, but all this time serving God, praying is so well spent. and now, i m excited, though nervous and scared at the same time abt what is going to happen.
that's all peeps for my long update. i may be gg sentosa again on mon, if not i dunno wad i'll be doing. haha. but i m gonna take a break definitely. it's another wkend in the spirit. i promise u. haha. we have really been praying a lot lately!!!! but it is good. amen.
spirit, blow us away. yes Lord, blow me away.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Friday, May 09, 2008
it is amazing. how God speaks. ever since a few weeks ago, He has been burning things in my heart. and today, once again, He reminded me of the vision.
a new generation of disciples. u remember? it was there already, a few years ago.
i never realise how close i was, until He opened my eyes.
He is really a good God.
God has really been speaking to me, in prayer meetings, in my quiet time, He has been laying the vision once again. Remind me of things He has spoken, inspire faith in my heart. I am so grateful.
a new generation of disciples He said.
breakthru He said.
spirit of faith He said.
be like Joshua and Caleb He said.
disciples of a different spirit. who will follow Him fully.
i m so touched by the word. tdy when i read the Bible, i teared. becos He said.
i m not a man that i would lie. whatever i have spoken, it shall surely come to pass.
my God is moving.
sth is happening.
i m so excited, on the inside.
and yes, we will pray.
a new generation of disciples. u remember? it was there already, a few years ago.
i never realise how close i was, until He opened my eyes.
He is really a good God.
God has really been speaking to me, in prayer meetings, in my quiet time, He has been laying the vision once again. Remind me of things He has spoken, inspire faith in my heart. I am so grateful.
a new generation of disciples He said.
breakthru He said.
spirit of faith He said.
be like Joshua and Caleb He said.
disciples of a different spirit. who will follow Him fully.
i m so touched by the word. tdy when i read the Bible, i teared. becos He said.
i m not a man that i would lie. whatever i have spoken, it shall surely come to pass.
my God is moving.
sth is happening.
i m so excited, on the inside.
and yes, we will pray.
Monday, May 05, 2008
it was a packed week after exams. i was so bz i really din get time to just rest n spend time with myself. as a result? i m really tired. even though i slept. i woke up feeling like...
又有那种心痛的感觉。
我已经很久
没有如此掉下眼泪
我讨厌
凭空的誓言
空洞的话语
当初，我在不得已下，做了这个决定。
还不容易，整理思绪，整装待发。
但是。。
我终究逃不过失望的命运。
ok i sound emo. that is bad. just some rantings from yest. let's not talk the talk pls. it's hurtful to some extent. n i pray, God will give me my aaron and hur, joshua and caleb.
disappointments r so inevitable. but sometimes, when they r ppl close to ur heart, it's just crushes u on the inside.
anyway
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SOON JIAN YONG!
he's one of the funniest guys i have met in my life. lol. thanx for all the joy n laughter u brought. keep on loving Him more each day!
and with this, i will close. going off. thinking wad shld i do to dissipitate my exhaustion. haha.
又有那种心痛的感觉。
我已经很久
没有如此掉下眼泪
我讨厌
凭空的誓言
空洞的话语
当初，我在不得已下，做了这个决定。
还不容易，整理思绪，整装待发。
但是。。
我终究逃不过失望的命运。
ok i sound emo. that is bad. just some rantings from yest. let's not talk the talk pls. it's hurtful to some extent. n i pray, God will give me my aaron and hur, joshua and caleb.
disappointments r so inevitable. but sometimes, when they r ppl close to ur heart, it's just crushes u on the inside.
anyway
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SOON JIAN YONG!
he's one of the funniest guys i have met in my life. lol. thanx for all the joy n laughter u brought. keep on loving Him more each day!
and with this, i will close. going off. thinking wad shld i do to dissipitate my exhaustion. haha.
Sunday, May 04, 2008
ok. i m so supposed to blog i noe. this is my long overdue post. i m sorry my faithful readers, for the disappointment. u r supposed to like get a glimpse of xiaoting's oh-so-exciting post-exam life. i noe! but i have nth much for u leh.haha.
ok so here goes. i ended on wed, supposing at a disgustig hr of 7pm, but i could not take it any longer and decided to leave simpy at 630. God bless my paper. seriously, that is becos by that time, almost of the ppl r gone. u take 1hr to finish the paper only. haha. then i was supposed to go suntec and do some *ahem ahem* stuff, and realised, i could not!!! i was so disappointed and went to sit in hair inn with fang doing her hair. i felt so sad la. i wasted the 1st 4 hrs of my post exam away.
then..
we were supposed to go to lakeside fishing village for prawn fishing. jeanie was trying! but that place was really not very nice la. it din have a nice smell, and there were a lot of flies. but we already bought like a lot of bbq food (and a lot means, crabsticks, hotdogs, nuggets, marshmellow AND more crabsticks AND more hotdogs and yadayada) so we decided we shall go west coast park n bbq. so, jeanie drove to holland v and we bought the charcoal and stuff. then we went to west coast park.
so it's my first time there! and i like the place somehow. i dunno y. it's tranquil. and so we reached there at.. a whooping 2am! and start bbq-ing at 3? haha.and finished at 4am? it was just madness. but the food was plain delicious. i love hotdogs n nuggets. haha. thanx mx and jt. :):) then we chilled out at mac and i took the first train and SLEPT all the way.
now i m feeling tired. haha. but anyway it has been a very exciting post exam, but i dun really have time to play. we need to get down to doin stuff. and yes, i feel like my life is constantly about giving ppl surprises,i m just cracking my brain all the time abt how to SURPRISE YOU.haha. so surprising right? it's just fun hanging out with my members la. they have a great sense of humour. and jy just cracked the joke of the week. want to noe? ask me. it's crazy cos it's really so funny. anyway, i m just glad that your God is a miracle healer and he answers prayers and loves me and you. i totally agree! yeah. hahahhaa. it's funny. so happy 18th my dearest alice. we have improved. becos u r surprised. haha.
ok i will try to get some pics up. the rest probably at facebk or multiply. jus look out for them la hor. i realised, the ppl around me r really very funny. there is so much joy in my life. i feel blissful.
anw i have officially started work peeps. it's a money world, and yes i nd money. whahaha. k it's a long long post. we shall see again. maybe aft a pretty long tme. :)
ok so here goes. i ended on wed, supposing at a disgustig hr of 7pm, but i could not take it any longer and decided to leave simpy at 630. God bless my paper. seriously, that is becos by that time, almost of the ppl r gone. u take 1hr to finish the paper only. haha. then i was supposed to go suntec and do some *ahem ahem* stuff, and realised, i could not!!! i was so disappointed and went to sit in hair inn with fang doing her hair. i felt so sad la. i wasted the 1st 4 hrs of my post exam away.
then..
we were supposed to go to lakeside fishing village for prawn fishing. jeanie was trying! but that place was really not very nice la. it din have a nice smell, and there were a lot of flies. but we already bought like a lot of bbq food (and a lot means, crabsticks, hotdogs, nuggets, marshmellow AND more crabsticks AND more hotdogs and yadayada) so we decided we shall go west coast park n bbq. so, jeanie drove to holland v and we bought the charcoal and stuff. then we went to west coast park.
so it's my first time there! and i like the place somehow. i dunno y. it's tranquil. and so we reached there at.. a whooping 2am! and start bbq-ing at 3? haha.and finished at 4am? it was just madness. but the food was plain delicious. i love hotdogs n nuggets. haha. thanx mx and jt. :):) then we chilled out at mac and i took the first train and SLEPT all the way.
now i m feeling tired. haha. but anyway it has been a very exciting post exam, but i dun really have time to play. we need to get down to doin stuff. and yes, i feel like my life is constantly about giving ppl surprises,i m just cracking my brain all the time abt how to SURPRISE YOU.haha. so surprising right? it's just fun hanging out with my members la. they have a great sense of humour. and jy just cracked the joke of the week. want to noe? ask me. it's crazy cos it's really so funny. anyway, i m just glad that your God is a miracle healer and he answers prayers and loves me and you. i totally agree! yeah. hahahhaa. it's funny. so happy 18th my dearest alice. we have improved. becos u r surprised. haha.
ok i will try to get some pics up. the rest probably at facebk or multiply. jus look out for them la hor. i realised, the ppl around me r really very funny. there is so much joy in my life. i feel blissful.
anw i have officially started work peeps. it's a money world, and yes i nd money. whahaha. k it's a long long post. we shall see again. maybe aft a pretty long tme. :)
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
was just listening to a song and felt like blogging. it has been a long time since last wk that i m going to sleep at this unearthly hour, and this time always makes me feel like blogging.
sorry peeps i m just going to blog some spiritual stuff. realised i have been doing that quite a bit nowadays.
it was a good meeting tdy n i enjoyed fellowshipping with pastor, but i was happy about what God spoke to me abt.
i have been wondering what's the next level like, and somehow He gave me a glimpse of it, and He kept on reminding me the things He has spoken to me. i felt it. the next level.
anyway, i m touching freedom in abt 15hours' time. it sure does not feel good to end exam at 7pm. but i will do well ya? i pray n i mug. hurhur. all the best guys.. and after that, it's really freedom.
i dun have much time to play, but the thought of meeting my frens, toking laughing n fellowshipping makes me happy. although i dun have a lot of time to enjoy, but i hope i will be able to let my hair down.
toking abt hair, hopefully get a new hairstyle too. :)
ciao peeps!
red symbolises my exhilaration.u feel it?
sorry peeps i m just going to blog some spiritual stuff. realised i have been doing that quite a bit nowadays.
it was a good meeting tdy n i enjoyed fellowshipping with pastor, but i was happy about what God spoke to me abt.
i have been wondering what's the next level like, and somehow He gave me a glimpse of it, and He kept on reminding me the things He has spoken to me. i felt it. the next level.
anyway, i m touching freedom in abt 15hours' time. it sure does not feel good to end exam at 7pm. but i will do well ya? i pray n i mug. hurhur. all the best guys.. and after that, it's really freedom.
i dun have much time to play, but the thought of meeting my frens, toking laughing n fellowshipping makes me happy. although i dun have a lot of time to enjoy, but i hope i will be able to let my hair down.
toking abt hair, hopefully get a new hairstyle too. :)
ciao peeps!
red symbolises my exhilaration.u feel it?
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
i felt last night. that all hell was going to break loose. or has already broken loose. and i dun like it, when i feel like i m right. so irritating.
and tdy, one happened aft another, and i feel a little tired, angry, frustrated.
i noe, i nd strength to fight. and it's another battle, another war.
i just feel a little tired. but it's ok, i will get up again.
like wad pastor said tdy, sometimes, u just have to be on the offensive. ya man.
i thot i did everything i could, din i? but last night he spoke thru a verse. that showed me the way into another world.
i need to find a way, to escape and to destress.
GIRL, fight the good fight of faith!
and tdy, one happened aft another, and i feel a little tired, angry, frustrated.
i noe, i nd strength to fight. and it's another battle, another war.
i just feel a little tired. but it's ok, i will get up again.
like wad pastor said tdy, sometimes, u just have to be on the offensive. ya man.
i thot i did everything i could, din i? but last night he spoke thru a verse. that showed me the way into another world.
i need to find a way, to escape and to destress.
GIRL, fight the good fight of faith!
Friday, April 25, 2008
today i was watching huiying's match. and God impressed me on sth.
He said, it's not abt how u start, it's abt how u end.
although how u start is impt, the more impt thing is, how do u end.
"He who has started a good work within you will complete it"
Then i realise, why He impressed that verse in my heart, to fight the good fight, run the race, keep the faith.
and i purpose in my heart.
I WANT TO END WELL.
He said, it's not abt how u start, it's abt how u end.
although how u start is impt, the more impt thing is, how do u end.
"He who has started a good work within you will complete it"
Then i realise, why He impressed that verse in my heart, to fight the good fight, run the race, keep the faith.
and i purpose in my heart.
I WANT TO END WELL.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
i feel a little drained at the end of the night.
was just toking to fang one of the days, and before i knew it, i shared sth that i have hidden inside me for a long time, even w/o me realising it.
i feel, sometimes i just nd frens. nd to have conversations for enjoyment, nd the fellowship to just relax a little. it's good to be serious, but sometimes i nd just a little fun n relaxation.
anyway, here's a big thank you to a fren.
thanx for the company, and the help rendered, for i could not have made it thru HL211 without you. God has been good, and you have been a really faithful friend as well! i enjoyed the company throughout this sem, thank you my fren. u r awesome. gratitude from the bottom of my heart. and yes i promise, i will treat you to a nice meal. haha.
God has been awfully good to me. i feel overwhelmed for all that He has done.
He is just amazing, don't you think so?
was just toking to fang one of the days, and before i knew it, i shared sth that i have hidden inside me for a long time, even w/o me realising it.
i feel, sometimes i just nd frens. nd to have conversations for enjoyment, nd the fellowship to just relax a little. it's good to be serious, but sometimes i nd just a little fun n relaxation.
anyway, here's a big thank you to a fren.
thanx for the company, and the help rendered, for i could not have made it thru HL211 without you. God has been good, and you have been a really faithful friend as well! i enjoyed the company throughout this sem, thank you my fren. u r awesome. gratitude from the bottom of my heart. and yes i promise, i will treat you to a nice meal. haha.
God has been awfully good to me. i feel overwhelmed for all that He has done.
He is just amazing, don't you think so?
Sunday, April 20, 2008
studied till 3 plus am yest night. n crazily, i dunno y, i could not get to sleep. i tried, n i ended up praying, and turning n tossing till past 4am.
this morning cecilia called me at 730am.
n i was feeling real tired, till i saw a sms, and it woke me up n i started praying.
burdened.really.
God we do what we can, pls do what we cannot.
if only you would pray.
this morning cecilia called me at 730am.
n i was feeling real tired, till i saw a sms, and it woke me up n i started praying.
burdened.really.
God we do what we can, pls do what we cannot.
if only you would pray.
was feeling just a little overwhelmed. received a sms, then received a call, which made me feel torn.
then I went to Him.
and He came.
swept me in His arms. and u noe everything is ok.
i just want to love Him more. pray more, seek Him more, read the Bible more.
i just want to be "more" of a Christian.
i just want to live "more" of the lifestyle i should be living.
i want to exemplify.
i want to carry the presence. and the anointing.
Prov 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.
thanks my fren. although u always always "question" my decisions, u really always make me think more. and u've changed! in the midst of our busy exams, i m really really glad u called. thanx for the constant reminder(s).
i m blessed to have frens like u guys. ppl who inspire me, challenge me, motivate me. guys, i m appreciative. thanx.
then I went to Him.
and He came.
swept me in His arms. and u noe everything is ok.
i just want to love Him more. pray more, seek Him more, read the Bible more.
i just want to be "more" of a Christian.
i just want to live "more" of the lifestyle i should be living.
i want to exemplify.
i want to carry the presence. and the anointing.
Prov 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your path.
thanks my fren. although u always always "question" my decisions, u really always make me think more. and u've changed! in the midst of our busy exams, i m really really glad u called. thanx for the constant reminder(s).
i m blessed to have frens like u guys. ppl who inspire me, challenge me, motivate me. guys, i m appreciative. thanx.
Friday, April 18, 2008
blogging. blogging. and blogging.
xq said i m really a blogger. i will tell u that.. i m really blogging profusely, but it's only becos it's the exam period. i really feel, that after next wk, i may be a rare guest here, or maybe not.
i feel horrid. dun ask me y. it's not the first time i go on such little sleep, but it was just not good though the paper went perfectly ok. i feel so drained. m going to slp in a while's time.
i m supposed to say TGIF! but i'm not really so keen, cos i need to study for mon's paper, within that very cramped time. BUT still. thank God it's friday, cos i m really looking forward to service this weekend.
the house of God, where His presence dwells. is just...
keep me in prayers pls guys! thanx. :)
xq said i m really a blogger. i will tell u that.. i m really blogging profusely, but it's only becos it's the exam period. i really feel, that after next wk, i may be a rare guest here, or maybe not.
i feel horrid. dun ask me y. it's not the first time i go on such little sleep, but it was just not good though the paper went perfectly ok. i feel so drained. m going to slp in a while's time.
i m supposed to say TGIF! but i'm not really so keen, cos i need to study for mon's paper, within that very cramped time. BUT still. thank God it's friday, cos i m really looking forward to service this weekend.
the house of God, where His presence dwells. is just...
keep me in prayers pls guys! thanx. :)
i noe! i m blogging like there's no tomorrow. well, to show u all that i m really mugging, i must blog at this unearthly hour to testify to it. hurhur. just wanted to say sth funny. i was mugging, and my player was on shuffle mode, n i heard kok wee and jjj's voice, oh man, i had a good laugh. it was such good entertainment in the midst of my mugging. thanx guys, ur voice brightens up my day.
and to my dearest fren, THANK YOUUU!!! for never failing to wake me up n reminding to study. u r AMAZING!! hahaha. n u r like one of the best in giving me wake-up calls can? u r like so effective. so i m really really very appreciative. n u gonna do well so dun worry abt it! haha.
i m researching on 228 at this unearthly hour. hahhaha. but well, it's gonna be day break soon, n i do appreciate the sunrise. :) n it's only at this hour, that i can mug n be on msn at the same time.
byeeee peeps.
and to my dearest fren, THANK YOUUU!!! for never failing to wake me up n reminding to study. u r AMAZING!! hahaha. n u r like one of the best in giving me wake-up calls can? u r like so effective. so i m really really very appreciative. n u gonna do well so dun worry abt it! haha.
i m researching on 228 at this unearthly hour. hahhaha. but well, it's gonna be day break soon, n i do appreciate the sunrise. :) n it's only at this hour, that i can mug n be on msn at the same time.
byeeee peeps.
my fren posted this song, and i was reminded how i happened to hear it again in my com, and my heart was so warmed by it.
one more moment.
one more post before i hit the books again. m feeling a little exhausted after the many calls, but made connections with just that some ppl, n i m glad. :)
i cannot imagine how life will be like after exams, n i noe, it's time to get up n fight again.
was just toking to yulan, and yes, i was reminded of those thoughts i once had but had put behind for quite a while. u all really can afford to.
in abt 12 hrs, is my next exam. oh man that feels scary. i m really going back again. i feel a little overwhelmed in my heart, but i cannot really put it in words as to how and why i feel this way, so perhaps, just another time.
take care peeps.
one more moment.
one more post before i hit the books again. m feeling a little exhausted after the many calls, but made connections with just that some ppl, n i m glad. :)
i cannot imagine how life will be like after exams, n i noe, it's time to get up n fight again.
was just toking to yulan, and yes, i was reminded of those thoughts i once had but had put behind for quite a while. u all really can afford to.
in abt 12 hrs, is my next exam. oh man that feels scary. i m really going back again. i feel a little overwhelmed in my heart, but i cannot really put it in words as to how and why i feel this way, so perhaps, just another time.
take care peeps.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
just heard some news on channelnewsasia about the false reports of the Western media regarding the issue about Tibet. i felt sad, for some reason. after hearing so much abt the tibet issue, i had my reservations about it. that's y when i saw the facebook group about freeing tibet, i did not react, because i had qualms about what the western media is portraying with regard to this issue.
and it is so closely related to what i have learnt in class. the western media has always been biased against china, claiming that china lacks freedom of speech in media, which i do agree to a certain extent, however, i do not feel that the western media is embracing their values of freedom. the Chinese government has stopped the western correspondents from going into Tibet, and this restriction has directly or indirectly "caused" these untrue reports to arise. i am not criticising the Chinese government, just stating the fact that because western correspondents are unable to get in, it affects how true their reports are. i paid a visit to anti-cnn.com, as usual, i did not dare trust the comments totally, but i do understand that there may be an element of truth in what these people are saying.
just like how the Chinese exercise censorship in the media, the Western media takes on a biased view of things. then how much more democratic, free and liberal are they? i am not taking sides, just expressing my thoughts that sometimes things are simply beyond what we see on the surface. it is wiser my friends, to not take in everything you read and see in the media, and learn to exercise discretion.
and about the Tibet issue, the truth is, unless we get to see for ourselves, we would not know what is the exact situation in there. so talks about boycotting olympics and stuff are really silly, and what is freeing Tibet all about? haha. if somebody needs to be freed, maybe it is first Taiwan? but knowing the Chinese government, you know it's not really going to happen until something big takes place. oh man, this is bad, i am engaging politics on my blog. haha. i do not want to continue anymore, before i touch on even more sensitive issues and topics. :P these are just some comments after watching the short clip on cna.
ciao guys. back to my books.
p.s. i have just woken up so excuse me for the lack of cohesion in my writing.
and it is so closely related to what i have learnt in class. the western media has always been biased against china, claiming that china lacks freedom of speech in media, which i do agree to a certain extent, however, i do not feel that the western media is embracing their values of freedom. the Chinese government has stopped the western correspondents from going into Tibet, and this restriction has directly or indirectly "caused" these untrue reports to arise. i am not criticising the Chinese government, just stating the fact that because western correspondents are unable to get in, it affects how true their reports are. i paid a visit to anti-cnn.com, as usual, i did not dare trust the comments totally, but i do understand that there may be an element of truth in what these people are saying.
just like how the Chinese exercise censorship in the media, the Western media takes on a biased view of things. then how much more democratic, free and liberal are they? i am not taking sides, just expressing my thoughts that sometimes things are simply beyond what we see on the surface. it is wiser my friends, to not take in everything you read and see in the media, and learn to exercise discretion.
and about the Tibet issue, the truth is, unless we get to see for ourselves, we would not know what is the exact situation in there. so talks about boycotting olympics and stuff are really silly, and what is freeing Tibet all about? haha. if somebody needs to be freed, maybe it is first Taiwan? but knowing the Chinese government, you know it's not really going to happen until something big takes place. oh man, this is bad, i am engaging politics on my blog. haha. i do not want to continue anymore, before i touch on even more sensitive issues and topics. :P these are just some comments after watching the short clip on cna.
ciao guys. back to my books.
p.s. i have just woken up so excuse me for the lack of cohesion in my writing.
人因梦想而伟大。
记得在读 i 周刊时，五月天的专访后，记者是这么写的。
是啊，人因梦想而伟大。
今天，我一直看到欧洲。一直看到，一直看到。
看到 belinda 在阿根廷，看到名设计师在 florence.
我突然，爱上这个地方。真的。
喜欢 belinda 在节目中所说的。
我真的相信，人因梦想而伟大。
我为了什么而活？你，又为什么而活呢？
when i came back, i was reminded.
if only you would pray, He once said.
Ya. it has always been prayer, his word, and the spirit.
let's restore the passion.
刚好，听到933播着倔强。突然想到婷所说的，我真的有种莫名的感动。
记得在读 i 周刊时，五月天的专访后，记者是这么写的。
是啊，人因梦想而伟大。
今天，我一直看到欧洲。一直看到，一直看到。
看到 belinda 在阿根廷，看到名设计师在 florence.
我突然，爱上这个地方。真的。
喜欢 belinda 在节目中所说的。
我真的相信，人因梦想而伟大。
我为了什么而活？你，又为什么而活呢？
when i came back, i was reminded.
if only you would pray, He once said.
Ya. it has always been prayer, his word, and the spirit.
let's restore the passion.
刚好，听到933播着倔强。突然想到婷所说的，我真的有种莫名的感动。
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
i spent some of my afternoon looking at facebook, uploading photos n stuff. n i was looking thru helen's pics in italy. oh man it really made me drrrooooollllll! i just simply love europe can???
somebody blogged this, that God reads blogs, n i certainly think so.
so dear God, i have a little wish.
i wish that the one will take me to europe for honeymoon. haha.
i dunno.i really hope it comes to pass. if it doesn't, i pray that i will have a chance to tour europe with him. at least italy, france, n london??? hahha. i *HEART* europe!!!!
somebody blogged this, that God reads blogs, n i certainly think so.
so dear God, i have a little wish.
i wish that the one will take me to europe for honeymoon. haha.
i dunno.i really hope it comes to pass. if it doesn't, i pray that i will have a chance to tour europe with him. at least italy, france, n london??? hahha. i *HEART* europe!!!!
i m such a faithful blogger nowadays. haha. i wasted one and a half days doing nothing!!! urgh. m a little upset with myself. ok la. i din like do nothing, just that i was not pdtive in studying. i guess i will have to burn the oil tonight. yes i hope i will stay up, even if it's for just a little while. n i will MUG!!!!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
i m just relieved that it's over. :) haha. i felt like if anything, this will be the toughest paper, n yes, to quote my fren, i m just glad to be out alive. hurhur. nah that's a joke.
i was feeling nostalgic today walking alone in ntu premises. after so many weeks, i finally paid a visit to the new library. it's not because i din go to library ok, it's becos i spent most of my time in the "chi-na" library. haha. n oooh, i m so impressed with the new library. i m slow, i know. haha. but it's a really nice place. n i was feeling nostalgic thinking that i m leaving the sch in a year's time. wad a privilege it is to be a student. u noe i was offered the minor in entrepreneurship, and i hesitated to accept it, but eventually i did, becos i rem wad i told joanna a while ago, that one reget i have in my life is to maximising my time in uni, n i figure, that this minor is going to make this uni life worth it. after all, it has to be a fulfilling experience right?
and i feel really loved. suddenly there r ppl who r so concerned for my exams. haha. usually it doesn't happen, becos i m quite relaxed abt exams too, BUT i do study. but this time round i badly want to do well, n to all my frens, thanks for all the smses, prayers and phone calls, they really encourage n motivate me alot. so that's all peeps. i'm gonna take a good break, and start mugging again.
i love sch, love being a student, and sometimes, even love exams. haha.
u noe i m now so conscious of what i write? n i m watching my words, so that every sentence sounds right, structurally and grammatically. hurhur.
i was feeling nostalgic today walking alone in ntu premises. after so many weeks, i finally paid a visit to the new library. it's not because i din go to library ok, it's becos i spent most of my time in the "chi-na" library. haha. n oooh, i m so impressed with the new library. i m slow, i know. haha. but it's a really nice place. n i was feeling nostalgic thinking that i m leaving the sch in a year's time. wad a privilege it is to be a student. u noe i was offered the minor in entrepreneurship, and i hesitated to accept it, but eventually i did, becos i rem wad i told joanna a while ago, that one reget i have in my life is to maximising my time in uni, n i figure, that this minor is going to make this uni life worth it. after all, it has to be a fulfilling experience right?
and i feel really loved. suddenly there r ppl who r so concerned for my exams. haha. usually it doesn't happen, becos i m quite relaxed abt exams too, BUT i do study. but this time round i badly want to do well, n to all my frens, thanks for all the smses, prayers and phone calls, they really encourage n motivate me alot. so that's all peeps. i'm gonna take a good break, and start mugging again.
i love sch, love being a student, and sometimes, even love exams. haha.
u noe i m now so conscious of what i write? n i m watching my words, so that every sentence sounds right, structurally and grammatically. hurhur.
Monday, April 14, 2008
a short one before i hit the books again.
i received a call in the middle of the night yest, from a rare guest.
n i was pleasantly surprised when i realised he had no agenda whatsoever, n simply called to remind me to study, "to put things into perspective", so he said.
and i m appreciative for this call that came out of nowhere.
thank you my fren.
n i have, like i was told, studied.
n i promise, i will really try to put in my 110% for these exams.
so back to the books. :) or rather, notes. haha. n let me swim in that sea of ancient Chinese philosophy, n i pray, i will not drown, but get to the other side. hurhur.
i received a call in the middle of the night yest, from a rare guest.
n i was pleasantly surprised when i realised he had no agenda whatsoever, n simply called to remind me to study, "to put things into perspective", so he said.
and i m appreciative for this call that came out of nowhere.
thank you my fren.
n i have, like i was told, studied.
n i promise, i will really try to put in my 110% for these exams.
so back to the books. :) or rather, notes. haha. n let me swim in that sea of ancient Chinese philosophy, n i pray, i will not drown, but get to the other side. hurhur.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
this morning i woke up and while i was bathing, this verse came into my mind.
2 Tim 4:7
"i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith."
and yes, in my heart a voice echoed, i want to fight the good fight, i want to finish the race, i want to keep the faith.
Phil 1:6
"... and He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."
i m standing upon it.
and we will triumph victoriously.
2 Tim 4:7
"i have fought the good fight, i have finished the race, i have kept the faith."
and yes, in my heart a voice echoed, i want to fight the good fight, i want to finish the race, i want to keep the faith.
Phil 1:6
"... and He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ."
i m standing upon it.
and we will triumph victoriously.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
just wanted to blog a quick one. exams in 3 days my frens! n yes, as u can see, xiaoting is really not in the mugging mode. haha. nobody even feel that i m having exams. BUT. i m really going to mug hard n do well this time round.
well, i got into the minor in entrepreneurship. i dunno to be happy or sad really. haha. it's really a great programme but i will burn 1 and 1/2 months of my hols in sch. :( but i have already accepted the offer so i guess i m in. haha.
u noe i was writing my essay on thurs night, and realised how my English has "deproved", and according to my fren, there is no such word too! haix. and my fren was laughing at me for how CMI my English has become. yes people, officially i m very sad. i used to have great grammar and i hate making spelling mistakes, but now... haix. it's time to buck up on english again u noe? i m definitely going to spend my hols reading, reading and more reading. promise!
i love every sat cos i love going for cg. sounds cliche, but it's really true. every sat when i walk home, i will always be smiling becos u guys bring soooo much joy into my life. i was telling mingli just that i really love my people to bits; they are the ones who make it all worthwhile. and yes she agreed with me that my members r so fun n funny. haha. love u guys!
felt like i might be a bit mean just now, but it's really all abt trust. n i wish that u can trust me a bit more. haix. i dunno is it unwise of me to tell u, even before i have decided, but i really hope no one, and i mean no one, will come n bug me abt it. i can feel it, that it's not going to be an easy route.
it will really be mugging, mugging n more mugging for the next few weeks. n i pray, for the next few weeks, i can really give it my all and cross my fingers, hoping that i can get the As that i want. and yes ppl, pls correct my English if it sounds terrible. haix. i need to improve! on my English AND Chinese. Gee. till then, ciao!
well, i got into the minor in entrepreneurship. i dunno to be happy or sad really. haha. it's really a great programme but i will burn 1 and 1/2 months of my hols in sch. :( but i have already accepted the offer so i guess i m in. haha.
u noe i was writing my essay on thurs night, and realised how my English has "deproved", and according to my fren, there is no such word too! haix. and my fren was laughing at me for how CMI my English has become. yes people, officially i m very sad. i used to have great grammar and i hate making spelling mistakes, but now... haix. it's time to buck up on english again u noe? i m definitely going to spend my hols reading, reading and more reading. promise!
i love every sat cos i love going for cg. sounds cliche, but it's really true. every sat when i walk home, i will always be smiling becos u guys bring soooo much joy into my life. i was telling mingli just that i really love my people to bits; they are the ones who make it all worthwhile. and yes she agreed with me that my members r so fun n funny. haha. love u guys!
felt like i might be a bit mean just now, but it's really all abt trust. n i wish that u can trust me a bit more. haix. i dunno is it unwise of me to tell u, even before i have decided, but i really hope no one, and i mean no one, will come n bug me abt it. i can feel it, that it's not going to be an easy route.
it will really be mugging, mugging n more mugging for the next few weeks. n i pray, for the next few weeks, i can really give it my all and cross my fingers, hoping that i can get the As that i want. and yes ppl, pls correct my English if it sounds terrible. haix. i need to improve! on my English AND Chinese. Gee. till then, ciao!
Friday, April 11, 2008
heyy guys, i finally finished my essay. Honestly, i never thought that at 6,7,8 am, my brain is still effectively working. apparently, it did not fail me. and yes, i m officially finished with my essay. :) and now i m going to sch without sleeping to hand it in and to do some reasearch.
i m sooo proud of myself. haha. for staying up to finish this thing. it's a great sense of achievement.
ms ching, u see it? haha.
i m sooo proud of myself. haha. for staying up to finish this thing. it's a great sense of achievement.
ms ching, u see it? haha.
ok. i m going to do one last post for now n i m really going to embark on that seemingly insurmountable literature essay. haha. oh God i really nd ur grace. :)
there's just such a smile on my face nowadays really. God has been so good, and His mercy and love has just been pouring. I am just so happy. Really. Even when i was toking to huiying yest on msn, she could sense the joy flowing out of me. i m really happy.
first up, so glad that jian yong is back! :) it feels weird that i have been toking to him on msn when he is in europe, and aft waiting for soooo loooong, he's really back, n to use the word ting used, it's surreal. n yes, the only thing i m sad abt is that i was not at the airport.URGH. haha. i wanted so much to be there! but from their descriptions, i may come back feeling really tired too. so... haha.
acty, i dunno wad else i want to blog. haha. i m so excited for cg this wk, i can sense it's gonna be such a great one. well, till then, it's mugging, mugging n more mugging!
keep me in ur prayers peeps!
and all thanks to my good fren, i m really really staying up to do my essay tonight. FANG u see this? i will come back n blog once i m done. so that i can testify to it. haha. i feel so energetic now. byeee guys. :)
LIFE IS SOOO BEAUTIFUL! :)
there's just such a smile on my face nowadays really. God has been so good, and His mercy and love has just been pouring. I am just so happy. Really. Even when i was toking to huiying yest on msn, she could sense the joy flowing out of me. i m really happy.
first up, so glad that jian yong is back! :) it feels weird that i have been toking to him on msn when he is in europe, and aft waiting for soooo loooong, he's really back, n to use the word ting used, it's surreal. n yes, the only thing i m sad abt is that i was not at the airport.URGH. haha. i wanted so much to be there! but from their descriptions, i may come back feeling really tired too. so... haha.
acty, i dunno wad else i want to blog. haha. i m so excited for cg this wk, i can sense it's gonna be such a great one. well, till then, it's mugging, mugging n more mugging!
keep me in ur prayers peeps!
and all thanks to my good fren, i m really really staying up to do my essay tonight. FANG u see this? i will come back n blog once i m done. so that i can testify to it. haha. i feel so energetic now. byeee guys. :)
LIFE IS SOOO BEAUTIFUL! :)
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
i fell in love with this song after hearing the little girl sing it on bai fen bai. and i want to dedicate this song to my dear ALICE. haha.
《隐形的翅膀》张韶涵
每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤 也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望
不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳 也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望
我终于 看到 所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻 歌声多嘹亮
我终于 翱翔
用心凝望不害怕 哪里会有风 就飞多远吧
隐形的翅膀 让梦恒久比天长
留一个 愿望 让自己想象
this song is beautiful. (:
HY, i m really happy. :) let's rem Bob the builder. ha.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
i woke up in somewhat of a shock that it's already 3am. and like wad fang say, haix, i always dun manage to stay awake. oh man. i feel upset with myself for slacking. now i need a miracle. i noe everything will be ok, haix, but that doesn't mean i can excuse myself for procrastination n lack of discipline. i m gg back to listen to what pst tan has said the last 2 weeks again.
soo many things on my mind. so many things that happened.
alice was saying that my ppl shld be feeling more troubled n frustrated, i guess so ba, but i m suffering from my share too.
i really hope that everything is gonna be alright.
i pray that everything is gonna be alright.
i had so much on my mind that i acty dreamt of all of u ;ast night. alice, ting, ying, and somewhat weird, but leon.
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.
i will hang on to that.
soo many things on my mind. so many things that happened.
alice was saying that my ppl shld be feeling more troubled n frustrated, i guess so ba, but i m suffering from my share too.
i really hope that everything is gonna be alright.
i pray that everything is gonna be alright.
i had so much on my mind that i acty dreamt of all of u ;ast night. alice, ting, ying, and somewhat weird, but leon.
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.
i will hang on to that.
Monday, April 07, 2008
it was such an eventful week and weekend that i m just glad it's over. in the last few days, my emotions went thru such highs and lows, but God has been good through it all.
During service today, i start to wonder, why is it that all these r happening? in the midst of me going to have exams, i feel the heat and pressure. not from my studies, but from the devil. and i felt a little sad, a little tired and weary.
but God was good. He showed up powerfully in the CG meeting, n i m more than thankful.
and tdy during service, i felt a boost of faith. at the end of the service, i was praising God with all that i had. becos i rem wad i preached, that praise is the language of faith. and indeed when it ended, i felt faith in my emotional tank. I rem wad pst said, that success puts a demand on ur heart. yes it does, but with God, we will prevail. and i really felt at the end of the service, that everything is going to be ok, and that me, and the cg will be victorious.
and i pray, that at the end of the valley, i will see the light.
and the breakthrough will come.
i m gonna pray, hang on, and press thru.
thanks to all that spared that listening ear. thanks to MY for being there,no matter how late and tired. You r an awesome leader to me. thanks fang yes, for picking up my call 1am in the morning, when i was so depressed. u r appreciated. thanks to G for that msg that really encouraged me, and ur concern. thanks to my members and all who stood by me.
i love the fellowship. the joy that's released in this place. i love u e357, u really light up my life. and thanks to MY leaders, it has been a joy fellowshipping with u!
to cecilia(hope u r reading this), happy 20th! u have a great destiny in u u noe that? like really. enjoy :)
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.
this is the verse this week. and..
yea though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil. u r with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me. :)
YES!!!
WE WILL BREAKTHROUGH. HURHUR. I BELIEVE IT YEAH? :)
During service today, i start to wonder, why is it that all these r happening? in the midst of me going to have exams, i feel the heat and pressure. not from my studies, but from the devil. and i felt a little sad, a little tired and weary.
but God was good. He showed up powerfully in the CG meeting, n i m more than thankful.
and tdy during service, i felt a boost of faith. at the end of the service, i was praising God with all that i had. becos i rem wad i preached, that praise is the language of faith. and indeed when it ended, i felt faith in my emotional tank. I rem wad pst said, that success puts a demand on ur heart. yes it does, but with God, we will prevail. and i really felt at the end of the service, that everything is going to be ok, and that me, and the cg will be victorious.
and i pray, that at the end of the valley, i will see the light.
and the breakthrough will come.
i m gonna pray, hang on, and press thru.
thanks to all that spared that listening ear. thanks to MY for being there,no matter how late and tired. You r an awesome leader to me. thanks fang yes, for picking up my call 1am in the morning, when i was so depressed. u r appreciated. thanks to G for that msg that really encouraged me, and ur concern. thanks to my members and all who stood by me.
i love the fellowship. the joy that's released in this place. i love u e357, u really light up my life. and thanks to MY leaders, it has been a joy fellowshipping with u!
to cecilia(hope u r reading this), happy 20th! u have a great destiny in u u noe that? like really. enjoy :)
all things work tog for the good of those who love Him.
this is the verse this week. and..
yea though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil. u r with me, your rod and your staff, they comfort me. :)
YES!!!
WE WILL BREAKTHROUGH. HURHUR. I BELIEVE IT YEAH? :)
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Thursday, April 03, 2008
ok. now i feel ready to tok, or rather write. let's start.
today i was just sitting in the cab, n thinking abt random stuff, n i dunno y, suddenly i feel that God was so good to me. I still cannot honestly rem wad i was thinking abt, but i rem His presence came n warmed me gently. and there again. He was there alright.
after the quiz, went to meet meltoh's boss. i know him, becos i rem him from israel trip, even before i met him. and it's so strange that he acty rems me, and he made a comment, wad a strong impression. hmm. to put it simply, i like him. not becos of anything, but one thing cos of his spirituality. when he spoke abt his life n everything, tears pricked my eyes. i felt God. n i noe, this is one boss i would like to have. more than just abilities, talent, intellect, wad impress me the most is people's love for God and that closeness to Him. he carries God, now that i recall, i feel moved toking to him, really.
i guess i m a step closer to destiny. i will never think that i will tok abt this career as destiny, n to tell the truth, the money factor is such a pull. but actually, i really feel destiny nearing me. no kidding. n from tdy, i felt a step closer. i know exactly where i m heading and what i m heading towards. i noe there r a few barriers to cross, and just maybe, after this, i will be there. at least i feel that He is drawing me there.
that meeting stirred up so much in me, that when i was downstairs, i felt God so near that tears came to my eyes. destiny.
meeting wanquan. given a chance to disciple and to challenge. i m thankful.
celebrating eugene's bday. i honestly felt, he has grown up. i could almost feel tears well up in his eyes, and really, all the sowing has been worth it. n i m just reminded, this is wad loving people is about isn't it? i really love u guys.
and toking to ying. i felt a lot. i know wad phase u r at. and i wish...
u noe over the years, i began to learn more abt being a ldr. and one of the things God has done in me, is a heart for people. and i really learn to love my members. and i wish that i could express it so fully, from the bottom of my heart, i really love every one of u, and i really wish, u will see God's destiny fulfilledin your life.
and it's never too much to say it again, it is a privilege.
today i was just sitting in the cab, n thinking abt random stuff, n i dunno y, suddenly i feel that God was so good to me. I still cannot honestly rem wad i was thinking abt, but i rem His presence came n warmed me gently. and there again. He was there alright.
after the quiz, went to meet meltoh's boss. i know him, becos i rem him from israel trip, even before i met him. and it's so strange that he acty rems me, and he made a comment, wad a strong impression. hmm. to put it simply, i like him. not becos of anything, but one thing cos of his spirituality. when he spoke abt his life n everything, tears pricked my eyes. i felt God. n i noe, this is one boss i would like to have. more than just abilities, talent, intellect, wad impress me the most is people's love for God and that closeness to Him. he carries God, now that i recall, i feel moved toking to him, really.
i guess i m a step closer to destiny. i will never think that i will tok abt this career as destiny, n to tell the truth, the money factor is such a pull. but actually, i really feel destiny nearing me. no kidding. n from tdy, i felt a step closer. i know exactly where i m heading and what i m heading towards. i noe there r a few barriers to cross, and just maybe, after this, i will be there. at least i feel that He is drawing me there.
that meeting stirred up so much in me, that when i was downstairs, i felt God so near that tears came to my eyes. destiny.
meeting wanquan. given a chance to disciple and to challenge. i m thankful.
celebrating eugene's bday. i honestly felt, he has grown up. i could almost feel tears well up in his eyes, and really, all the sowing has been worth it. n i m just reminded, this is wad loving people is about isn't it? i really love u guys.
and toking to ying. i felt a lot. i know wad phase u r at. and i wish...
u noe over the years, i began to learn more abt being a ldr. and one of the things God has done in me, is a heart for people. and i really learn to love my members. and i wish that i could express it so fully, from the bottom of my heart, i really love every one of u, and i really wish, u will see God's destiny fulfilledin your life.
and it's never too much to say it again, it is a privilege.
it was an oh-so-emo day i felt. first of all meeting up with meltoh's boss who shared stuff that almost made me tear. i was really holding the tears back.
then meeting wanquan, celebrated bday for eugene. and toking to ying.
each was an experience on its own, that really stirred me up thinking so hard.
God was there, every step of the way. I felt He was so near me tdy. I felt like i had a brush with destiny. I felt like i was so close.
and I am just appreciative.
He really spoke today, really. like really. from this morning till now. and He still is.
i will just hang on there for a little, i know it is sooo close. i know.
just want u to know, i love every single one of you. frens n members, u r great ppl God has placed in my hearts. really. THANK YOU.
then meeting wanquan, celebrated bday for eugene. and toking to ying.
each was an experience on its own, that really stirred me up thinking so hard.
God was there, every step of the way. I felt He was so near me tdy. I felt like i had a brush with destiny. I felt like i was so close.
and I am just appreciative.
He really spoke today, really. like really. from this morning till now. and He still is.
i will just hang on there for a little, i know it is sooo close. i know.
just want u to know, i love every single one of you. frens n members, u r great ppl God has placed in my hearts. really. THANK YOU.
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