1. on weight and fat or fats
刚才在回家的路上，看到了镜子里的我。是啊，不满意的地方太多了。。。身材、肚腩、大腿、屁股。。。
可是我得到一个结论。
If I am not willing to work hard and change what I see, I have no right to complain about what I see.
减肥其实不难，但需要恒心和毅力。
多少次我多么希望自己，和那些天生就瘦、新陈代谢能力超强的人一样。
但我也发现自己真的不是这样。
我是那种什么也不吃也可能胖的人。（当然这是夸张，but u get the idea）
新的一年里，我要努力开心做自己。
我会努力的减肥，因为我觉得我需要开心。
不代表不瘦就不能开心，但现在的我，自信心大受打击。
这是自我形象的问题，起码我需要能够对镜子里的我，会心的一笑。起码我需要喜欢我所看到的自己。
#dontjudgeme
2. on 对错
最近和朋友聊天的时候提起，我们的人生，什么时候变得那么复杂？
突然之间，我感觉是非变模糊。
我再也不知什么是完全的是、什么是完全的非。
特别关于人事物。尤其是人事物。
我其实不想活在这样的环境里，但我明白，这是长大的过程。
多希望自己无需面对这些情况。。。但这是人生。
#perspectives #growingup
So… 2014 has officially started.
What an eventful year.
I have been telling people… motherhood has changed me… in ways beyond my wildest imagination.
What I can see is many tangible things I have lost…. freedom… space etc…
What I cannot see is what I have gained… that is so intangible but real…
Perhaps God is teaching me, the best things in life cannot be measured by physical or material results. It is felt with the heart. I do feel it in my heart.
For 2014:
I want to prosper… body soul and spirit.
Body:
1. Eating Clean
2. Exercising regularly!
Soul:
1. Books, books and books!
Spirit:
Self explanatory…
Welcoming u 2014! It’s gonna be an awesome yr!
I stumbled upon Theresa’s blog one or two years back… (I could not even remember how and when!) But I was very touched by her posts that were so candid yet brutally honest about her fight with cancer.
When I knew she wrote a book and released it, I was so excited and eager to get hold of one! (Especially when I love reading real life stories; how inspiring they always are)
I finished it in one night, captivated by her account of how she emerged from her battle with cancer.
She is one courageous person, and it is amazing how God uses our lives to be a blessing and inspiration to others.
If you know of someone battling with cancer, or someone with a loved one facing cancer, I honestly recommend you to grab the book!
It’s such a good read!!
Much talk has been going around regarding the strike PRC drivers went on a few days ago. It is a first in many years for our Singapore society, obviously stirring up quite a storm in our supposedly-peaceful society.
Just wanted to pen down some thoughts I have, but I am of course no social analyst, but personally I do feel for the PRC drivers. It was said that lines of communications are open, perhaps in formality, but honestly, where and how can these drivers fend for their rights?
这些人人生地不熟，离乡背井来到一个陌生的地方工作，对这里的制度和系统不熟悉。说实在的，他们到底能找谁去帮他们争取福利，或是摆脱不平等的待遇？我自己认识一些在新的外籍人士，特别是劳工阶级的，我常感觉他们处于被剥削的状态，但却投报无门。
I have been reading some articles, and i do agree with many of them that say these workers have little bargaining power. For these people, it is almost seen as a “privilege” to be able to come to Singapore and work here. If you are not happy with what you are getting, you can jolly well leave this job and go somewhere else.
So much more is needed to be done for these labour workers in Singapore, really.
thankful. (:
Now at week 27, going on to 28, I am starting to feel really pregnant and bulky. Feeling a little clumsy and that my skin is super stretched…
But just really thankful.
Today is the first time i experienced water retention in such a real way! my fingers and toes were swollen when i woke up, it was so bad that I could not really move my fingers in the morning… they felt too tight. My toes looked so bloated…
I think what is the most exciting at this stage… is not just feeling the baby move… but "seeing” the baby move! Not that u can see it with your naked eye… but the baby moves so much nowadays, i can see my clothes moving when she moves! She will jerk and if I am resting anything on my tummy, my hand will jerk as well. That is a very thrilling feeling… Hahaha…
Counting my blessings… 
说时光飞逝，还真的不夸张。
当你看自己的肚子一天天变大，才发现时间很快的与我们擦身而过。
怀孕这个过程，的确很奇妙。
这一个星期，孩子不停的动，不停的踢，似乎要提醒周围的人她的存在。
是的，是个女的。
孩子有时候会很好动，最奇妙的是，在播放赞美敬拜时，她总是会动起来。好爱这一点啊！
我祈求我的孩子长大，也会热爱神的同在。
to be a lover of His presence. (:
I was thinking what to name this post, only to realise, every entry i post up, is a musing in process.
Had an amazing leaders’ meeting with Pst YK last night at YMCA, and I am still soaking in the presence from last night. 2 verses that God placed in my heart.. that is still resounding in my mind.
Ex 33:13 Show me Your way… that I may know You…
Moses prayed.
It came as a revelation to me yesterday..
Many times we pray, God show me Your way. But how many people pray… God show me Your way, that I may know You?
We pray for the will of God… but what is our motive?
Show me Your way… not for my success… not for my ministry… not for my vision… but show me Your way, so that I may know You.
I want to walk in Your will, so that I may know You.
The former has always been my prayer… but the latter… came as a revelation yesterday.
Was reminded of what Pastor Tan shared with us last week.
God brings us to mountaintops… and through valleys… so that we may know Him in a greater way.
发现到上帝常常让我经历一些看似孤单的日子… 这些时候，也叫我更亲近祂，更认识祂。
After attending Chinese Cg yesterday, i was reminded of the word God gave me on 15 April…. When God asked me…
Show me your heart.
What is in your heart today?
Those words struck my heart… and I could not help it… but break down and cried and cried and cried…
I never dared to tell God what is in my heart.
It’s too impossible, it’s too big… and I am too small… too inadequate..
But that day, God put courage in me… i stepped up to the altar and told God… yes i believe you can use me…
In You, I can.
I was reminded of the word again yesterday. And tears overwhelmed me. I could not help myself. I was reminded of how God spoke to me… and less than 1 mth later… i will have a chance interpreting for one of the greatest man of God alive…
Behold what manner of love has our Father bestowed upon us…
如果骄傲没被现实大海冷冷拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上 会开出勇敢的花
可以在疲惫的时光
闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
又能边走着边哼着歌
用轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独的重量
多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀
很高兴一路上我们的默契那么长
穿过风又绕个弯 心还连着
像往常一样
最初的梦想紧握在手上
最想要去的地方
怎么能在半路就返航
最初的梦想绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂
最初的梦想绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂
这么多年来，似乎是一定的，挫折会在生命的循环里出现，而且总是在我下定决心后，它一定会来干扰我。
当下，我按捺不住心中的委屈和难过。
有时候会觉得，没有人看到我的牺牲、我的委屈，你那么努力，又是为了什么？不为名、不为利、不为钱，如果在外面的话，过得应该会舒服很多吧？我不知道，我从来都没想过，直到今天。
今天，竟然有这样的念头闪过，放弃的念头，但我也知道，它仅仅是个念头。
熬过了这么多个年头，你总是会，拍拍自己的肩膀，扫一扫灰尘，再站起来吧。
是你的就是你的，你只要相信，争取。
尽管肉眼看到的是现实的否定（更难过的是，有时候是人的否定），但在灵里面，我看到的是天父的肯定。
祂相信我，这，就足够了。
祂觉得我可以，那也就足够了。
但即使有一天，真的没实现，我还是会忠心的做，你要我做的事。
这是我的委身和摆上。
对你的承诺。
这是我活着的理由。
最近的心情不太漂亮，健康情況不理想，搞得我疑神疑鬼。
工作有些令人喘不過氣，極其渴望能放個假，但現在只有忙裡偷閒的份。
想念和朋友聚一聚的時光，對生活的快步伐感到疲累，只希望我不需要有一堆的deadlines追著我。
因為心情不漂亮，人也跟著感覺不漂亮。
最近參加的一場婚禮，讓我感覺到，其實，做人，開心知足就好。
很多事情不是外在的，而是內在的，我們有時候太注重外表，卻常常忘記，其實內在更重要。
內心所充滿的，就會在外面表達出來。
重新調整自己，等待五月份再次出發！
I have always felt burdened for different people, different situations, but this is one period in my life, that i perpetually feel burdened.
Maybe like what Sun shared, i just got to learn to connect people to God, and then Jesus will do the work.
I feel too tired to fight for myself, so let God fight for me.
I wish that God will do all the speaking, all the convicting, so that i can be free from all these things.
Whenever i feel like running away, it’s a bad thing, n that’s exactly what i want to do now. I just wish God will wave his magic wand and everything will be ok. And I can pretend everything did not happen, n it was just all a nightmare.
On retrospect, maybe I am just taking this thing too seriously, and I should learn to lighten up or something.
I feel that I’m not doing what I should do, the spiritual way. but i think i don’t have the courage and strength.
so God, over to You please?
While i was preparing a V day present for hubby, i browsed through all our honeymoon photos, and it brought back such fond memories!
Sunrise at 花蓮！
水岸森林會館
莫內花園畫展
浮潛@墾丁
小徑民宿 @ 墾丁
墾丁水族館！
Just some random photos.
Hubby will probably upload all on FB! 
*warning: this is an emo post, just for today.
today i found myself thinking about something…
這些年來，事過境遷。。。
很多人、事、物都改變。。。
身邊的人也改變了。
漸漸的，認識的人多，朋友越來越多，但是。。。
知心的朋友還真的沒幾個。
今天，我在思考的一個問題是。。。
當有一天，我真正面對什麼事情時，除了老公以外，我第一個找的人會是誰？
我傾訴的對象會是誰？我尋找的對象會是誰？
陳牧師曾經說過，我們每個人都需要有這樣的一個人。
當我感到如此難過時，我竟然不知道。。。
我要找誰哭泣。
心中的感覺很複雜。
不是生氣，但是失望、是難過、是沮喪、是疑惑、是混亂。
我已經很久。。。沒有這種感受了。
可能是這些日子來，我都沒有正視過這個問題。我知道它或許存在。。。
而今天，當我真正知道它存在時，我的感覺是。。。手足無措。
知道了又怎麼樣？我又不能做什麼。
可能這種無助感是最可怕的吧。
到底。。。什麼是可信的，什麼是不可信的。。。
什麼是真、什麼是假。。。
求你以你的真理引導我。。。
Here i am, sitting in my interpreter’s room, the room that I spend a lot of time in, interpreting and encountering God too…
The year 2011 never fails us, and has gone by like a wind.
And 2012 has sneaked up on us quietly.
Every year i get really nostalgic, but amazingly, i did not, and allowed 2012 to just arrive.
Every year i seem to know what it holds, but this year i am still quite clueless. Hahahaha.
And surprisingly, I have no urge to make resolutions. Haha.
But there are desires, thoughts, rantings…
Yesterday I had my boss talk to me… and his sheer concern of me, my work and marriage touched me deeply. I am so blessed.
Today, i finally made it to the gym for the first time in 2012.
As I was listening to 张茂松牧师 on my ipod, he said this…
利未人只能跟着祭坛，他们不能跟着机遇、不能跟着食物走，只能跟着祭坛。
What a word. What a reminder.
I can only follow after the altar, I can only follow after Him, I am a levite. And I will be contented.
A verse God recently gave me:
Ps 16:5-6., 11
5 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
(: thank You Jesus.
met a friend on my way home today, and we were talking and sharing.
she asked me, is it tough being a cell group leader…
i told her, yes and no.
i said, honestly, when God calls us, He never promised us it will be easy. it is not just about being a CGL. the fact is, to do anything for God, it is difficult.
but i told her, one of my greatest satisfaction and fulfilment, is to see people live out God’s best for their lives. I wish that they would see, how I live my life, they can follow after my footsteps and see that they can have this too.
I shared with her… the way our pastors and leaders live their lives… we follow after them…. just like Jesus is our forerunner… that is why Paul says, imitate me as I imitate Christ.
but one of the toughest thing honestly? is not to give up.
how… when people make mistakes, you just keep showing grace… keep showing grace… keep showing grace…
when you feel that you have already come to the end of yourself, you just keep showing grace, keep loving, keep believing, keep sowing, keep praying… and never give up.
#keeponkeepingon
sometimes you feel like what you say don’t matter.
sometimes you feel like giving up.
sometimes you feel like it’s pointless.
but you just got to keep on believing, keep on fighting, keep on keeping on.
So many thoughts running through my head as i wake this morning.
Frustrations and restlessness in my soul.
The kind of frustration, wishing things will turn out your way, but you know life is never perfect.
you deal with imperfect people, imperfect situations, imperfect world, and an imperfect life.
but sometimes, you honestly wish, things can change for the better. Honestly.
That one will make a right decision.
That one will live worthy of his/her calling in life.
That one will not take what he/she has for granted.
That one will live out God’s fullest for their life.
That one will meet Jesus and their lives be changed.
Oh God, just living out your perfect will for us.
That will be awesome.
Amen.
昨天，在回家的路上，就在Paya Lebar 地鐵站遇到一個人。
這個人看起來很年輕，可能才20幾歲，他拿著一把吉他，在地鐵站外彈著。
第一個印象，這個人很窮嗎？為什麼需要這麼做？
他看起來很平凡，彈著吉他，我也打算就這樣走過了，但走過的時候，他一開口唱歌，我嚇到了，因為他的聲音實在很好聽！
他的聲音很有磁性，很感人，很醇厚的一把嗓子，令我留下深刻的印象。
我立即轉過頭，放兩塊錢放在他的吉他包裡，才看到一張Letter of Busking的信件在裡頭。
原來he is a busker!
新加坡很少有busking的概念，每一次看到這些人，我們有時候甚至會用可憐的眼光看他們，但我卻發現，他是特別在這裡表演的。當下，我的想法完全改變了，自己也覺得有點不好意思，我怎麼會有這種可憐他和瞧不起他的想法。
離開之後，突然很想鼓勵他，就回頭，跟他要了聯絡號碼，還對他說，你的聲音很好聽。他眼中的感激，讓我好感動。
他的勇氣，給我很大的鼓勵，他還在當兵，但卻選擇用這樣的方式追求他的夢想，好勇敢啊！
Dreams are worth the chase, 不是嗎？
it has been suchhhhh a long time since i really blogged something decent. Life has this ability of just zooming past you, and sometimes, i really do treasure that little time i have to stop, think and reflect. Or “inflect”, the latest word we learnt in service recently.
I was just reading some other blogs, and many were blogging about their motherhood journeys, and I was thinking about my own marriage journey.
Tomorrow marks the 5th month into the marriage, and I know we both have such a long way to go.
The wedding is over, the honeymoon is over, even the weight is gained back, but what we are now left with, is each other.
We are not perfect, and there are moments we quarrel, we argue, we fight, we have conflicts, and at the end of the day, it’s commitment that keeps us going. After interpreting for n weddings, everytime we end up with a conflict, the words of all the pastors will come back to my mind, especially the words of Pst Aries that say, we always need to forgive and forget.
There are even days that I miss my singlehood, and miss my old room, which is not my room really anymore. Good on my dad, haha, who gives me no way to turn back. It has semi-evolved into a room filled with the smell of books and paintings.
But it is a way of no turning back. Once you have stepped into it, we never turn back really, and like what Pst Zhuang says, welcome to marriage, we share only one space.
And no matter what happens, it is for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish and to obey….
in spite of all our imperfections. I still really, do love you.
这样的时刻，心情很沉重。。。
我在想。。。
是不是因为自己多管闲事招惹出来的？
是不是自己太苛刻，把我的标准强加在别人身上？
是不是我太judgemental所造成的。。。
is it in the flesh or in the spirit?
…
认为发表了自己的看法之后，结果却。。。
*叹气。。。*
林前13：4-8
爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈；爱是不嫉妒；爱是不自夸，不张狂，
不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶，
不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理；
凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。
爱是永不止息。
昨天在看这处经文，想起牧师说的话。
这段话真的不是写给夫妻，而是写给教会里的弟兄姐妹。
这么多时候，在教会里，或婚礼上都会读这处经文，但昨天，它才真正在我心中沉淀了。
要爱人爱到这种境界，很难吧。
难怪我们爱，因为祂先爱我们。
因为只有借着基督的爱，我们才能够这样去爱人。
看了看，这个标准好高啊。哈哈。
最近很渴望有些清净、安静的时间。
很希望在忙碌的生活中，可以找到属于自已的一片天地和空间。
目前还在寻找着。。。
结婚之前，回到家就会累到不行。
结婚之后，时间流逝的速度，快得惊人。
我必须追着时间跑，找回属于自己的那么一个小天地。
最近很想很想回到看书的习惯，但专注力却大大减少。
有好书请介绍！特别是中文书。。。 
有一点这种感觉。这个地方让我想念那些在垦丁的日子。哈哈。
好想花上一天的时间，泡在书店。。。
好想去度假。。。
好想。好想。
i have learnt a lot in this season, and learnt, that every time something happens, God is teaching me to become a better person, and become better in my attitude.
Saw an amazing verse on Mon night.
1 Thess 3:12-13
12 And may the Lord make you increase and abound in love to one another and to all, just as we do to you, 13 so that He may establish your hearts blameless in holiness before our God and Father at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ with all His saints.
Our hearts are blameless in holiness, when we increase and abound in love to one another and to all.
We always thought,to be blameless and holy is simply to walk right, but God says, when we increase and abound in love, our hearts will be blameless in holiness.
It’s all about Love.
自我疑惑。
Self-doubt is prevalent, in my life.
很久沒有這樣的感覺。記不起，上一次懷疑自己是什麼時候。
奇怪的是，有人說，我有很多要向你學習的。
我看著自己，想說，我真的沒有什麼值得你學習的。
最近，不停的懷疑自己，感覺自己一無是處。
我總是需要，再一次通過這個考驗，提醒自己，我的價值在耶穌基督裡。
這個比賽，沒有其他的競爭者，只有你自己。
你是你最大的敵人。
我們活著，不是為了討好任何人。
昨天，聖靈提醒我，we live for the audience of one.
我們的觀眾只有一位。
我們為祂而活。
Do not look to the left or the right, 當跑你該跑的路，當做你該做的事。
We don’t live to please men, we only live for the approval of God.
But we live, to serve men and to serve God.
The heart of a servant.
Lord, lead me in this season, and I pray, I will pass this test with flying colors.
Joshua my hero.
our 22nd anniversary has come, and has gone.
it went past so fast, even before i really realised it.
but somehow, it left a deep mark in me.
was just wondering in my heart, what a privilege.
what a privilege to hear from the pastor of the world largest church, and to hear him say, i am back in my own church.
what a man of faith he is.
no wonder he built the world largest church.
it’s time, to dream n have visions again.
and your vision will guide you, and change you.
on my list of fave people in the world – e357.
happy 22nd!
I kept on reminding myself.
we all have this unique path to walk.
that is why God always tells us.
do not look to the left, nor to the right.
walk the walk that He has ordained you to walk.
上一週，因為育強牧師的關係，會機會遇到一些大人物。
和他們團契，聆聽他們的故事，為他們做翻譯。
結果？
累到不行，但同時間，也開心到不行。
很久沒有服事得這麼開心了。那一種喜樂，是筆墨無法形容的。
JOY.
回來之後，疲累的身軀躺在床上，感覺神對我說。
服事我應該是這樣的。雖然疲累，但不是拖累。
負擔，不是重擔。
那種滿足感和喜樂，是我好像好久都沒有感受到的。
真正服事祂的喜樂。應當是如此。
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Show me Your glory.
週間祂給了我這個經文。
週末牧師講到這篇經文。
讓我感動到不行。
求你顯出你的榮耀。
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人與人之間的關係，是如此的脆弱。
需要呵護、栽培。
不能當作理所當然。
需要精心培養。
人不能疏離、不能孤立。
Error increases with distance.
距離越遠，錯誤越大。
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Some thoughts for this week.
1 Sam 1:19
19 Then they rose early in the morning and worshiped before the LORD, and returned and came to their house at Ramah. And Elkanah knew Hannah his wife, and the LORD remembered her.
20 So it came to pass in the process of time that Hannah conceived and bore a son, and called his name Samuel, saying, “Because I have asked for him from the LORD.”
Samuel – This name means “heard by God”.
上一次真正的坐下来写点东西，感觉像是好久好久以前的事。
我们结婚，已经有6个星期了吧。除掉蜜月的两个星期，回到新加坡，适应婚姻生活也只有一个月。这一个月里，几乎是酸甜苦辣都经历过。
一回到新加坡，不同的事情就接踵而来。我当时还在想，有时候，生活是否就能稍停片刻，等一等我呢？我都快喘不过气来了。奇怪的是，结了婚之后，真的发生了很多事情。不管是在家里、事工、工作等等，事情就像浪潮一样，不停的冲向我。
现在终于稍微站稳了点。
想说的东西或许太多。。。我们就一点一点来吧 :)
尽管生活充满了起起落落，但婚姻生活真的还是很幸福的。
牧师昨天说到，当我们得到改变，外在也会跟着改变。很妙的是，许多人遇见了我后，都说我变了。看到了幸福、看到了美丽等等等（哎呦，听起来像在自夸，哈哈）可是我真的感觉幸福。记得我曾经这么祷告过，神啊，不管你让我经历什么，只要有他，有你，我什么都不怕，我什么都能度过。现在，真有点这样的感觉。
想想，我应该写开心的事，还是内心最近在琢磨的事呢？
最近，有些事情发生，让我不停的在思考，人与人之间的关系。
其实，人类是如此复杂的动物，而也因此，人与人之间的关系真是复杂到不行。有时候，你多么希望人和人之间可以那么直接的去分享你们的感受。多么希望会有少些猜忌、少些误会、少些妒忌，而是人与人之间，以最坦诚、最真实、最客观的一面去面对彼此，那么人与人之间，或许就少了很多问题吧？
因此我发现，我非常珍惜的朋友和导师，是那些真的能够坦诚相对的人。
人际关系是如此的脆弱，即使十年、二十年的感情和关系，也能在一夕间摧毁。
感觉好像越来越沉重了。
提点别的。这次的蜜月，我们到了台湾。
当时决定去台湾时真的很挣扎。人家都到欧洲、澳洲、日本看似浪漫的地方，我干嘛这么特别，就要选一个人家不会去的地方嘛。
但心中的那一股冲动，是一定要听的。
所以我进行了一系列的计划，而我们抵达台北，再到宜兰，再到花莲，再到垦丁，再回到台北，快乐到不行。哈哈哈哈。
真的很开心可以这样来游台湾。
蜜月里一切，再找个机会诉说吧。:)
This is the sunrise we saw at hualien at our hotel during honeymoon. breathtaking, isn’t it?
counting down 24 hrs. to the BIG DAY.
many asked me, so how is it, are you ready… etc etc.
the feeling is… i don’t know what to feel.
we were busy tying down the details, and it is only during moments like this, that reality hits me, and i feel, i am really getting married.
it’s apprehension, nervousness, fear, and excitement all mixed together.
i think the strongest feeling that I am feeling, is unbelief.
can’t believe i m getting married. the second last day lying on my bed.
surreal.
side track, i love listening to Danny Yeo on City Radio Online. (:
it is so scary that the big day is coming up in just a few hours.
i don’t really dare to count even, because the next few days look like climbing Mount Everest to me.
there r just so many tasks ahead, and so many decisions to make, and it looks insurmountable.
JIA YOU BABE. YOU CAN DO IT.
was brooding over the wedding for quite a while, until i decided that it’s time to snap out of it, and i did.
began to thank Him, praise Him, and started to see amazing miracles happen.
sowed a seed 3 wks ago, and received a blessing yest that is beyond my wildest imagination.
Phil 4:19 is true.
whatever you sow, you shall surely reap, that is true too.
yet the wedding is also taking a toll in many areas.
challenges that we face in this whole process… and sometimes when i hear about others, i just wish that it will all be a little simpler and smoother.
but it’s ok. (: He allows me to go through becos He knows we can. and we will.
Today Sun tweeted.
“slowly but surely, inch by inch, prayer by prayer… u win! to you that’s out there, pls don’t give up!”
Thank u for the encouragement. We can do this. (:
one of the things that could possibly plague our lives and paralyse us the most, is the thoughts and feelings of inadequacy.
more often than not, the thoughts of “can i do it”, “i don’t think I am good enough” floods our minds… and deters us from doing what God wants us to do.
But my Bible says,
Phil 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I will stand on that. (:
38 days to the BIG DAY!
i have to admit. i am stressed. with a capital S.
i never thought i will be this stressed, but of course i am still holding up and handling well.
no wonder they have this term called bride-zillas.
people asked me, what am i stressed with and why i am stressed.
i told them, actually to me, i really don’t need a perfect wedding.
a wedding is a one-day event, but marriage is for life.
yet in the midst of it all, there are still the struggles and challenges that you will go through.
how to communicate with people, how to work with people, how to get things done, how to plan things from scratch (like itinerary, places to visit and stay), how to reno a house (choose paint colors, furniture, cabinet colors, type of door, where u want your electrical points to be, what kinds of tiles u want for ur bathroom and kitchen and the list goes on)
now you know why I am stressed.
Stressed not because it affects my one-day wedding, but stressed because it affects my life after that.
my cousin said, the 2 most stressful things – wedding and house.
and i am in the midst of it both.
but i was very encouraged by Pst Phil’s word on Sun.
In everything and for everything, thank God.
I will. I figured that it is not going to be a smooth process (looking at how things are going), therefore I conclude, that no matter that comes my way, I am going to give thanks.
and that has already started to revolutionise my world.
I purposed that no matter what happens, i will not grumble or complain. I choose to give thanks.
Thank You Jesus for a great husband-to-be.
Thank You Jesus for great-in-laws and family.
Thank You Jesus for a house we can move into.
Thank You Jesus for provision every step of the way.
Thank You Jesus for the angels that are for us.
Thank You Jesus i found the right gowns and shoes.
Thank You Jesus for my beautiful photos.
Thank You Jesus for a great wedding venue and wedding date.
Thank You Jesus for great friends.
Thank You Jesus for nice bathroom tiles. (haha)
Thank You Jesus that my pastors can make it for the wedding.
Thank You Jesus for the many friends who are so willing to lend their helping hand.
I am blessed. and I thank YOU!!!!
Phil 4:6-7
Rom 8:28
as i promised.
we supposed to reserve the best for the last… so this is just a sneak peek to some of the photos. hurhur.
WOOHOO~
i am officially 2 months away from May 15!!!!
As compared to a little depressed me a few days ago, I am now feeling much better, cheerful, thankful and really excited.
Yes there r many things waiting for me to do… yet God is so good.
In the midst of it all He brought us people, favours, finances, and I am believing, that all things work together for the good of those who love Him! (:
So now… i am down to confirming my wedding decoration, my caterer (food is very impt!) and I have already chosen my gowns!
I am one excited girl, because it is very exciting to put on THAT GOWN. u know u know!? Haha. I can’t wait to put up sneak peeeeekkkksssss so be patient!
Btw THE BIG DAY IS MAY 15 SO KEEP URSELF FREE!!!
OH before we go on to DA BIG DAY, we first must go through A NEW DAY!
hahahahhaa. We are going to suntec this weekend! YIPPIEEEEE!
and one more thing, i have been gaining weight after i entered phase 3…. SCREAMSSSSSSSSS. but its ok. i m praying, believing by faith, that SOMEHOW, i don’t know how, my body will listen to me, stop gaining weight, and start losing weight! AMEN.
2 more kg to go babe… YOU CAN DO IT!
People have been asking me… how are my preparations going???
After all, I am like counting down 2 months to DA BIG DAY!
Honestly, i cannot believe it. It’s a little too surreal. Haha.
That day, as I was praying for our big day, God gave me a verse.
Prov 16:9
A man plans his ways, but the Lord directs his steps.
人心筹算他的道路，惟有耶和华指引他的脚步。
That brought me tremendous encouragement, knowing that as we plan our way, my Lord will direct our steps. Every step of the way.
Till may 15 and beyond.
I wish I can post up pretty pictures for you… but not yetttt. Hurhur.
Soonnnnnnn. (:
Oh btw, as of today, I have lost about 4.5 kg for my wedding.
I am thinking if it is enough. Obviously one can never lose enough. Haha.
Spot the difference.
it was an extremely memorable valentine’s day.
for good and bad reasons.
兩人之間的感情是需要栽培的。
on a separate note, 大世界is really a pretty nice show!
something that keeps me connected to my friends is really social networking, especially when i cannot find the time to meet the whole world, and i love fb-ing at this time randomly, just to be updated with the world.
有時候，生活的步伐太快，快到你可能連自己都失去了。
somebody told me someone said this lately, people have changed.
sorry for the random statement, but as i think about it, i cannot help but feel how much people have changed around me.
perhaps i have too.
probably the sad thing is they have changed and moved on from your life, and our paths drift furthur and furthur away. i don’t know. are there friendships that can remain forever till eternity? i certainly hope so.
有哪一些是值得你去維持的友情。。。而又有哪一些，是不把你當一回事的朋友？又有哪些只用口說，卻毫無行動呢？
說了別人，也總要檢討自己。
i am sounding pessimistic tonight, much contrary to the normal self.
這幾天過得很快，很多事情接二連三的發生，我連喘氣的時間都沒有，處理自己情緒的時間也沒有，再加上做不完的事，又可能加上每一天的雨，讓我特別感慨人事已變。maybe it is becos of torres who requested to transfer out of liverpool. hahaha. of cos not.
On a happier note, God has given us amazing friends, leaders and people around me too. God, I am incredibly grateful for that, especially grateful for my lovely members, whom i know, many of which are willing even, to lay down their lives for me.
Thankful.
honestly, i did feel it. a teeny weeny sting in the heart.
sad that we were not really “friends”.
just a little.
relationships r harder to manoeuvre as we grow.
and sometimes, it does affect u, just that little bit.
每个月的28日是我最喜欢的一天。我总是对28情有独钟。
在这个月的28日，在那么多天的整理之下，我总算把房间清理完毕。
其实，我不知道是不是真的完毕，但还是有十足的成就感。
这次的大扫除是前所未有的大规模，因为是为搬家做准备。
我丢出的，给掉的，大概有20多袋东西吧。
哈哈。
很多人跟我说，我应该学习不要浪费。
或许吧。
我很少有机会，在这种时候，坐在书桌前默默的思考，看着别人的文字，思考、反思、写博客。
通常都是精疲力尽的回到家，需要处理处理不完的事，我们的生命似乎充满着许多“噪音”。有时候真的需要静下来，好好的思考。
这两个星期，请了假，只因为我的房间已经乱到不行。我已经受不了了！！所以今天一口气就从早上9点一直清理到晚上6点。虽然还没完成我大扫除的工作，但看到那一包包的垃圾和被丢出来的东西，还是有种莫名的满足感。:)
真的很喜欢清理房间后的感觉。也真的很希望，搬到新家后，我能够把家里整理得井然有序。看到家里整齐的感觉，不会有很大的满足感吗？ :)
倒数106 天！
Getting married is an awesome thing, because you really get to experience the supernatural grace of God.
God is really good to us, every step of the way. :)
We had an awesome shoot yesterday, and we are thankful for all the help rendered to us all this while.
Thank You Jesus.
This must have been one of the most hectic new years I have entered into.
I am swarmed with wedding preparations, and it is probably the biggest project one could ever undertake (or maybe not). There r many many decisions to make, big ones and small ones, and you have to decide everything. Gee.
For now, i am really feeling tired although i am only entering into the third week of the yr. I need the grace and wisdom of the Lord like never before. Honestly.
This yr is going to be a yr of preparation, whichever area it is in my life. :)
Today was D-day construction part 1. Big thanks to my MUA, PG, and Aaron, who did an awesome job shooting. :)
Meaningful photos and great team.
Wonderful weather.
CCK, Dover, Siglap and Langsat. :)
Thank you Jesus!
Before I know it, 2010 has come to an end.
This year is really a year that I saw about the most number of changes in my life.
Needless to say, it was from getting attached to getting engaged, and in 4 months’ time, getting married.
This year is probably one of those years that I blogged the least, and spent the least time alone.
This year was also the year that I saw many changes in my CG, and by the grace of God, we have gone from glory to glory.
This year is the year that I went for missions to interpret, went onstage to interpret, and seeing myself growing in a great way in the area of my ministry.
This is also the year that I learnt to grow up – to handle finances, to do adult stuff more than ever before.
When I was praying this morning, I just can’t stop telling God how thankful I am to Him. For bringing the most important person into my life. For what He has done in my cg. For how He has taken me from faith to faith, glory to glory. For all the new-found frenships and old ones kept. For breakthroughs after breakthroughs. For His grace that helped me to grow and sustained me.
Thank You Jesus.
And here’s to a greater 2011. :)
Had our own mini CG thanksgiving, and it was one of the most beautiful CG meetings I have been to.
Kudos to Evelyn and Dong, we had such a great time of games! They did such a great job :) *clapsssss*
Next up, the presence of God was tangibly felt as we sang How awesome is this place, and my God reigns. It was a beautiful moment as I saw all my members lifting up their hands, just worshipping the Lord and declaring that "my God reigns". Yes Jesus you reign, in our lives, in CHC, in E357. And a big thank you to Chee Wee, who did such a great job every week on the guitar, contributing greatly to the atmosphere. :)
And thank you for evelyn, for sharing how God has touched and brought you through in every area of your life.
I honestly meant every word that I shared, and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, for being so flexible, so willing, so persevering, so full of faith and so loving.
Thank you Eve, Chee Wee and Val! You guys had to put this up in a short period of time, and you did it :) Thank you for THANK YOU :)
Thank you for your generosity, for sowing into God's house, you guys are GIVING!
Thank you to Dong, for your passion for the lost, it nv fails to inspire me and touch my heart.
Thank you to Yifeng, for always availing yourself, taking such great initiative, to help out in every area possible.
Thank you to Chee Wee once again, who has done such a great job on the guitar, it makes my job as a songleader a breeze.
Thank you to Yuk, for loving God the way you do, and inspiring me with your simple love for God. (And a BIG thank you to Cally for your heart for people, and for helping Yuk becoming all that he is!)
Thank you to Alvin, for not giving up on God in spite of it all, you inspire me w your perseverance. And Kelvin, the other perseverance award goes to you, for persisting on this yr in every area of your life.
And to Eve, thank you so much for standing in the gap, God has great things in store for you.
And to everyone in E357, thank you for being here in 2010. I thank God for you, making mentions of u in my prayers.
Thank you to Dong, for rallying the people in a time to appreciate me, I was truly touched.
What a song you all chose, Do I make you proud.
Tears well up as I look into your faces, yes all of you make me very proud.
And though KT is funny as usual, but thank you for appreciating me :) Keep on keeping on.
And Eve, thank u for allowing me to be your leaders.
And Dong, that poem is beautiful! Maybe u shld consider E Lit after all. Can u pleaseeeeeee put up that poem here? Haha. I was so moved by that heartfelt poem. I love u dong! Thank you for being such an awesome member, for always being here, for being so teachable, you make the job of a leader so easy.
To Zhang Tingting!!!!! I miss you sooooooo much!!!! But i guess you will miss us much more!
Thank you gal for standing by me all these yrs. You saw my weaknesses as a leader, yet you stuck around, serving God and serving me, sharing my heart, fighting battles with me. You truly saw what many don't see, and my prayer for you always, (yes even when you r in China, I am still praying for you, out of sight, but definitely not out of mind) that you will fulfill God's destiny for your life, and become the person that God wants you to be. You have a great future ahead! And honestly, I can't wait for 7 Jan.
So thank you!
A special shout out to all from w497, thank you guys! It has not been easy going through the changes, but u guys hung around, stuck around, and I thank you for that! Thank you for allowing me to be your leader. Love u all *muacks*
I woke up in the middle of the night doing this at 3am becos I just want to pen down this beautiful memory.
What a great thanksgiving we had.
And Jesus, thank you for being the Lord of our lives. Thank you for knitting us tog as one, in one family, for giving us one another, that when we are tired and weary, we know someone is there to spur us around. We love you Jesus :)
So E357, thank you for fighting the good fight of faith, and let's end 2010 with a BIG bang! Souls saved this Christmas, disciples added, and a great zone thanksgiving awaits us!
LOVE YOU ALL!!
"Do I Make You Proud"
I've never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that's who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It's only just beginning
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
Myself in spite of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.
Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved
This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud
Yes you do!
the most amazing time we had at UP!
we are now going UP, to the next level.
thank God for the awesome committee, it was mind-blowing.
and i am so happy i met w God all over again.
it is a privilege to be a levite in this house.
love my pastors, leaders, and all the co-workers alongside me.
and love my God, who is bigger than anything in the world.
THANK U JESUS. :)
Jesus spent 3.5 years imparting to His disciples.
as i was reading the Word, i realised, He was just trying to teach them something, or rather, impart to them, the kingdom mind and the kingdom life.
He spent 3.5 years living life with them, and be a model of the kingdom life.
He spent 3.5 years teaching them, imparting the kingdom mind.
At the end of the day, it was so that they would catch His mind and live His life, and do what He has done, in a greater proportion.
God has called us, to change our thinking to be like His, to change our lives to be like His.
But many want their own mindsets and their own lifestyles (or the world’s) more than His.
Are you and I willing, for God to do that transformation work in us? To think like He wants us to think, and live like He wants us to live?
i forgot to add. the reason why i am awake now, is because i spent the last 4 hrs packing my room.
just wanted a freshness in my room.
what Pst said is true. Our room does reflect the condition of our soul.
And I m getting my room cleaned up, in order.
God answered my cry today.
Not during the BS, not because someone spoke to me, not when i prayed, but just through the simple sharing of one, of how God reminded her of a verse. and it blessed me so much.
Ps 84:5-7
Blessed is the man whose strength is in You,
Whose heart is set on pilgrimage.
As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
They make it a spring;
The rain also covers it with pools.
They go from strength to strength;
Each one appears before God in Zion.
I don’t know how to tell you, how much this verse actually speaks to me. but every part of these 3 verses speak right into my situation.
I m blessed.
My strength is in God.
My heart is set on pilgrimage, till i come to the place that He wants me to be.
The Valley of Baca is not a permanent place, it’s a place that we pass through.
When i pass through it, with my great attitude, i will make it a spring.
The rain of the Holy Spirit will overflow the valley of Baca with blessings.
I will go from strength to strength.
And I will appear before God in Zion, blameless.
When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.
this season spells tough all over it, and from the bottom of my heart, i really feel that i dunno how to do this.
i dunno who to talk to.
i dunno what to do with it.
it’s just so difficult and sticky.
1 Cor 10:13
莫道谗言如浪深，莫言迁客似沙沉。
千淘万漉虽辛苦，吹尽狂沙始到金。
- 刘禹锡
解释：
不要说流言蜚语如同凶恶的浪涛一样令人恐惧，也不要说被贬谪的人好像泥沙一样永远颓废沉迷。淘金要经过千遍万遍的过滤，要历尽千辛万苦，最终才能淘尽泥沙，得到闪闪发光的黄金。
约伯记23：10
“然而他知道我所行的路；他试炼我之後，我必如精金。 ”
最近，倍感壓力。
不僅僅是外在的，更多的，或許是內在的許多掙扎。
開始辨別出來，這是一個極大的考驗。
起碼，我的感覺是如此。
腦海裡一直浮現一些畫面和言語。
God said of David, he is a man after My own heart, and do all My will.
我反复思索，有多少人真的可以成為凡事都遵行祂旨意的人啊？
記得陳牧師曾說過，我們會在“忠心”這方面受到試探。
我們會有這樣的誘惑，不要再忠心下去了。
你會想要走別人的路，而不是自己該走的路。
你會想要做別人所做的事，而不是自己該做的事。
你會想要擁有他人的事工，而不是忠心的守住你的事工。
你會想要擁有他人的生命，而不好好活出自己的生命。
問題：如果別人的事工看似比你的成功，別人的生命看似比你的幸福，別人的領袖看似比你的優秀，別人的家庭看似比你的快樂，你是否還能忠心的做你該做的事？
而我的領悟？
我們都有一條自己該走的路。
His life is never mine, neither is my life his.
有多時候，我們會很想要做比較。
But there is really no basis for comparision.
神賜給你我的命定，不是讓你有多成功或了不起，其實只是，單單跟隨祂，活出祂的旨意。
我的祈求：
Job 23:10
“When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold. ”
“然而他知道我所行的路；他试炼我之後，我必如精金。 ”
我希望這是我生命的故事。
contrary to most people, i really think this jingle is super amusing.
and it gives me a good mood, cos it feels like x’mas is coming, haha, don’t you think so?
i am absolutely tickled by it. hurhur.
cheap thrill.
i never truly understood the meaning of inspiration, until i met this couple, who laid down everything for the vision of God in their lives, then i understood true inspiration.
they truly inspire.
just like many around me have inspired me, in every single area.
and there came a secret desire, that i can live my life as an inspiration.
it is a burden in my heart.
the same DNA i caught, the same values i have, the spirit of sacrifice we carry, will be passed on, from this one, to the next, to the next and to the next generation.
it does affect me when people do not understand sacrifice.
because one of the essence of Christianity, is sacrifice. That is John 3:16.
it does affect me when people do not understand delayed gratification.
when they want something or someone, but they are not willing to wait for the right time.
when I saw the verse Acts 13:22, David did ALL of My will.
say “ALL” and all means, ALL.
how many of us, would one day be able to say, I have done everything God wants me to do.
My prayer, is that you, you and you, will walk worthy of the calling that God has given to you.
My prayer is, that my life can truly be an inspiration, that when u see how God has blessed me because I was willing to sacrifice, I was willing to lay down, I was willing to put aside my “wants”', as long as it is not in the will of God, God has blessed me 100 fold and beyond, and granted me the desires of my heart.
to walk worthy, of your calling.
that day a friend text me n told me, someone asked her, what did CHC teach you?
she asked me, if it were you, how would you reply?
this was my reply.
CHC taught me… everything.
From being a student, to being a teacher
From being a disciple, to being a discipler
From being a child, to being a parent
From being a girl, to being a woman
From being a single, to being a girlfriend and one day, to being a wife.
What I am today, my values, my attitudes, my perspective, my lifetyle, is imparted to me in this special place.
my friend put it aptly – made in CHC.
judge me if u like, but i m a product of CHC.
“You can leave a church, an organisation, a pastor, a leader, but you never leave a family.” – Ed Silvoso
this is my family.
monday is such a pleasant day. haha.
no agenda, no deadlines.
just chilling time.
it was a slow monday…
eating at bugis, buying a pair of new shoes, and searching out books in the library.
after that, desserts with my baby! and home sweet home… haha.
i wanted to post abt dinner last night with dear dear’s family… it was his dad’s birthday.
had a great time, and his family is awesome. haha.
loving life.
enjoying all, in spite of :)
題目越來越沒有創意。因為不知道要用什麼字眼，來形容此時此刻的心情。
神學院結束後，應該能松一口氣，but life, does not seem to allow you to do that.
我有點累了。這場仗，好像在不斷的延長，that makes me feel like, 我不想幹了。
但是，放棄，從來都不在我們的字典裡，不是嗎？
今早，送走一個很要好的朋友兼戰友，很驚訝，自己在機場的時候，淚情不自禁的流。
除了思念之情之外，也發現，因為身邊少了一個可以傾訴，可以並肩作戰的對象。
記得昨天看到一句話，是米雪說的，一個人，我依然會微笑。
記得去年，當祂對我說話時，我如何回應祂。最近又想起我們那段談話。
感覺。這是生命裡的新篇章，但不管怎麼樣，不管排山倒海，不管前面道路有多困苦，我們都要，一直不停的走下去。
ttz, you r missed. really.
but i will keep on fighting, keep on running, keep on keeping on.
哈哈哈。
這是哪門子的爛中文。長長的週末。
可是，真的是如此啊。
爽到～
開心，因為花了兩天時間和 dear dear 在一起。
雖然沒做什麼，只是吃吃飯，逛逛街，看看書，就很滿足了。（哦，我終於看完了一本！余華的《活著》很不錯。看到哭了耶，能這樣看完一本書，超有滿足感的。呵呵。）
人生簡單無比的樂趣。
可能是開始運動的關係，整個人都沒有那麼累，還是因為，太悠哉啦？？哈哈哈。
今天學了一個新句子。。。
曉亭小學堂時間。
學一學，這句話。
為虺弗摧，為蛇若何？
猜一猜。。。什麼意思？
不要懶惰了，自己去查字典吧！
哈哈。
好人做到底。。。
here you go. 我換到簡體了。因為從網路上摘下來的。
为虺弗摧，为蛇若何
意思是：小蛇不打死，成了大蛇怎么办？原喻要趁敌人弱小时就把它消灭，后泛指坏人要及早除掉
你。。。記得了嗎？
cannot recall when was the last time i was so stretched.
in times like this, i am always amazed when i look at the leaders around me, especially the different pastors and all, how on earth do they manage???
it was a long day, been some time since I have done things like that, but it’s good cos i m stepping out of my comfort zone. am tremendously encouraged by the sermon I preached. how, when we step out of our comfort zone, and get involved, somehow, we will see miracles, and the glory of God manifested in our lives.
Yes we can. because all things work together for the good of those who love Him.
in times like this, i am awfully thankful to God for my boyfriend, the one i can always run to in times of need. at the end of the day, no matter what i face, i know i can run to him, and it seems that everything will be ok. he is my pillar of support. God given. Not that i don’t need God la, but sometimes God work through people with skin on. hahaha.
and of course, i am awfully grateful to God, because He is the anchor of my soul. He is my hope. He is the one i can hang on to, and i know because of Him, everything is going to be alright. Thank you Jesus for the hope you have filled my heart with.
Sleeping very soon, though a long day, yet still not v tired. Cos I ate super late :( boo hoo, and now i wish my food will digest faster.
gogogo, xiaoting, ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM.
anyway, for randomness sake, such a nice photo we took at 21st anniversary. oh and for that, it deserves another post for some another day, where I will thank my lovely God in heaven, for the opportunity to speak in the stadium. after an eleven yr break. wow.
it’s yet again, the time of the year.
somehow this year, i was not particularly looking forward to the time of the year, and this year feels so much more low key as compared to the past years.
i used to look forward to it a lot more when i was younger, not any more now, not because i am older, but, hmm i also don’t know y. haha.
anyway, maybe it’s just because i am not in the mood these few days. the stress is building up on all sides. i just need to learn to relax a little and SMILE.
yes girl SMILE.
SMILE… trying to.
my blog is very very very dead. i think. hahaha.
wow i just checked. the last post is exactly one month ago. or to be exact, one month and one day.
but i really don’t know what to post.
and why am i awake at this hour? because after 2 hours, i really cannot get to bed. and I gave up. so here I am.
after visiting Lifen n baby Jordan in January, today is really my first time visiting a friend whose child just came into the world yesterday.
it was such a surreal feeling.
and it’s the first time, that i really adore the newborn, admiring how cute she is.
i never could appreciate the beauty of newborns. but today i did.
and from the bottom of my heart, i felt happy for them.
生命的奇迹。
可以想象吗，神创造这世界的时候，祂到底放进多少心思，才有今天的宇宙呢？
一个男人和女人的连结，在九个月后，就有小生命诞生，而这小生命会慢慢成长，长大，成熟，生命本身，就是一个奇迹。
即使不认识神，在看到这么美丽的过程，也很难不去想象，我们的造物主是谁啊？祂怎么会有这样的智慧和本领，设计出这样延续下一代的方式。。。
而且，这也提醒了我，人与神的结合，也是如此。
the miracle of life.
乐熙，欢迎你来到这世界。
祝福你，在未来的日子，在爸爸和妈妈的呵护下，开心快乐的长大，and be, all that God wants you to be.
with love,
xiaoting & peter :)
Yesterday i heard a word that stayed with me. 同理心。
If i can translate it, i probably use the word empathy.
Dictionary.com says, it is the identification with and understanding of another's situation, feelings, and motives.
Empathy is so important.
Something I experienced when I got attached, was how i would feel really sad, when something breaks my bf’s heart.
I would tear, when there are tears in his heart.
the same thing happened to him.
In the very same way, there are many close to my heart. And when their heart breaks, my heart breaks too.
That links me to empathy.
This is separate but yet related.
Are we able, to put ourselves in the shoes of others, and understand their situation, feelings and motives?
Or do we only see our point of view, and our view only.
do we put ourselves in others’ shoes.
our leaders, parents, friends, cg members.
to be continued…
the word that God put in my heart yesterday.
Ps 27:13-14
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!
thoughts running through my mind.
it was a super-mega long day, eventful, fruitful and of course tiring.
things weighing upon my heart.
just allow me to rant.
i love my Pastor. Without him, and without his ministry, I will never be who I am and where I am today.
When you love a person, and you hurt when the person hurts, that is love.
And when people out there, and the enemy out there, hurls darts, it hurts you too. Someone used this word malice. How aptly put. I thought so too. Malice.
It all boils down to the intent of your heart. That is why King David said
“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
Be acceptable in Your sight…” Ps 19:14
So, are the words of your mouth, and the meditation of your heart,acceptable in God’s sight?
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Someone said, the CHC DNA, have you caught it yet? there are some, who seemed like, they are really not catching it. And they are baffled, perplexed, frustrated.
have you read it yet?
it reflects my pastor’s heart. really.
we are not blind. love is not blind. love sees. love looks at the heart.
Pst Phil touched on mercy on Tues. “Goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life.”
Pst Bob taught about mercy today. I was not there, but was reminded of the importance of mercy.
I remembered, how Pastor will teach us, and Pst Ming will reiterate it, every time we see people making mistakes, don’t be quick to judge. But pray for them.
I remembered God spoke to me, to pray for my leaders, because they need a lot of wisdom to lead the church. And never to judge.
I read many who criticise, and feel provoked, but was reminded, not to judge, but to give grace and mercy.
The Lord will fight for us.
Learn to show mercy, in our word and deed.
Mercy triumphs over judgement.
Mercy.
what an irony, that after such a great conference last week, that we were on tv just the following day, apparently it wasn’t something that positive.
i have been thinking hard, and of course praying hard these few days.
it is interesting to observe reactions from everybody, members of the public, the media, the church family and of course those who are ever-present, the critics.
this thing came to my mind when this whole issue erupted, that i was so reminded of what dr cho said. his words were etched in my mind. he said, that God told him to live in the 4th dimension. You can see as the 3rd dimension sees, or you can choose to live in the 4th dimension, to see what God sees, and speak what God speaks.
You know what? People can argue and criticise all they want, they can say whatever they like to say, they might even win the argument or the debate, but at the end of the day, we cannot deny the reality of the 4th dimension. cannot deny how, even though Dr cho’s age was catching up with him, how we sense his love and such a pure spirit that he has. how he carried such an anointing of the Lord with him. how can we, describe this with the 3rd dimension?
And many who are in the 3rd dimension, try to argue against us, criticise us, analyse us but they still fail to comprehend, why oh why, is CHC like that?
I will choose the 4th dimension, to see as God sees, speak as God speaks. The media can say what they want, the critics can say what they want, i will choose to believe in what God says about the situation. Amen.
The other thing is, i am so proud of my spiritual family. we have never claimed that we are perfect, but we are one united family. i m so overwhelmed, when i read on facebook and twitter, how people said they will stand by Pst, Sun and the leadership. It is not just the staff and the leaders, but i can sense the love from the family. I love you all so much! in times like these, many would have left, but you guys stayed, gave your support and trusted YOUR and MY family, and we will continue to stand.
I love my family. I love CHC. I love my home.
Yes, like many have said, if not for CHC, i would never be where I am today. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. Don’t separate God from the church, it’s quite impossible. God moves through the church, and in the church, after all, Jesus is the head of this body. :) And He reigns!
Jia you people, let’s continue to pray for this house!
we should always, always, always be appreciative of people.
there r so many times, that we just take people for granted.
and hereeeeee, i want to thank my BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU FOR BEING THE WORLD BEST BOYFRIEND!!!!!!
i honestly think so.
what am i to do, without a man who loves me so much.
SO HUGS AND KISSES FOR YOU!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: Pls excuse the author’s mushiness, because, it’s MY blog!!!
那天，祂说。
你所做的一切，只因为你爱我，也只因为，我要你怎么做。
和任何人无关。
祂提醒我，祂对彼得说的话。
『与你何干，你跟从我吧』
是啊，我们生命的呼召，就只是单单跟从祂。
其他的，一点有不重要。
有些人蒙召做保罗、有些人蒙召做彼得、又有人蒙召做约翰。
但有些人一生，只能做安德烈。
你会甘心乐意的跟从祂吗？
做祂要你做的事。
『不可偏离左右』，只要单单跟从祂。
i just like giving up.
and i cried and cried and cried and cried.
i don’t want to go home.
Came back to hotel and skyped with dear and slept at 2 plus am, praying that my nose will be ok the next day.
Pulled myself our of bed at 8 plus am for breakfast with Pst Stephen.
That was so fun! Pst Stephen had been in ministry for so long and he shared with me very exciting stories… about his salvation, his life, CHC in earlier days, his relationship with Pst Kong. I loooovvveeeee it. Had lots of fun talking to him and hearing from him. I m excited about the meetings already.
Signing off now, going to take some rest, work, till the first meeting tonight.
:))))) excited.
thoughts of the day: God is really in control. He is somehow so in control in ways we do not know. Sometimes we try too hard to help him, we need to learn to trust and be led. :)
byeeeee peeeepppppssssss!
It was a mad rush yesterday, trying to pack everything after SOT, and settle everything before i board the flight.
it was a small plane, so the take off was much more felt than usual.
i never missed someone so much in my entire life i think, except maybe mum.
felt so terrible when the plane took off and i was all alone.
i used to love flying a lot, but i realised i loved a certain someone more.
thank God that they were showing Did you hear about the Morgans so I had fun watching it. :)
caught some sleep and caught a slight cold too. so my nose was all runny on the train. hurhur.
a Taiwan friend of CHC picked us up and checked us into the hotel at 12 plus am. Thank you so much! i prayed and told God, the only thing i really need is internet access, and thank God that they have it. i m so blessed.
so here i am blogging, and i will probably update u guys in kaohsiung!
i m so sorry that i don’t have photos. did not bring a camera cos camera spoilt and i forgot to borrow one. silly me. :(
thank u baby for the little black book. it keeps me a little more sane.
love this day!
was just reading someone’s blog that touched me a lot.
missed that sentimental n nostalgic part of me.
ever since i started dating, i really seldom spent time thinking abt things.
and tonight, i sat there, just thinking.
i’m flying to taiwan in approximately 42 hours. i know i m going to miss my baby, but i also know, i really need this break.
things have been zooming past me too fast.
work, ministry, relationship and life.
i need a breather. i need to think.
i need You.
so many things have happened, that there r days i sat there, thinking, i dunno how to do it without You.
i love You. :)
dear God
we often do not understand why things happen the way they do.
there have been so much going on lately, sometimes it seems that it’s more than what i can bear.
sometimes i wish, i can just take a big break and press the reset button.
but still i’m thankful to you, for the cross of calvary. without which, i could never have my life today. i honestly dunno, where i will be without You.
there are too many impossible situations in life, that we just cannot deal with on our own, and we desperately need You.
so from the bottom of my heart, I’m asking for that strength that will take me through. and also my frens who are hurting too.
thank You.
many things happened this easter.
falling terribly sick is one of them.
God won’t you come… and make everything better?
manifest Yourself.
Yesterday, this passage caught my eye. And I was so touched by it as I read it again.
God told Jeremiah about the good figs. The promise that He gave to me.
Jer 24:6-7
6 My eyes will watch over them for their good, and I will bring them back to this land. I will build them up and not tear them down; I will plant them and not uproot them.
7 I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the LORD. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will return to me with all their heart.
