虽然是有那么的一点想念team 19的人，但是也很开心终于可以返回南大校园。
昨天，好不容易，终于找到了“草根书局”在哪里，遇见了鼎鼎大名的英培安先生，还和他聊上了几句话。在南大上课时，常常会受到激励，希望自己真的能够成为双语人才。这是上翻译课得到最大的启示。
辜鸿鸣，马建忠，他们俩都认为中国要富强，当时需要“译才”。译才必须精通双语，并且熟悉两国的文化。辜鸿鸣更了不起，懂得9种语言，并且是真正的双语人才。
所以，上了这些课后，我才深深体会，我需要加强自己的语文程度。
晓亭，加油吧！
Thursday, September 06, 2007
random
今天坐在巴士车站时，突然想到一样小时候我们常做的事。
记得12岁那年，我们总是会要求大家帮我们写autograph，而里头写的常常是一些有的没有的诗。
有一个是这样写到的。
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
小时候，真得不懂这句话的意义，或许只是在扮“小大人”。但是，回想起来，这句话对现在的我们，却是那么适当。
记得12岁那年，我们总是会要求大家帮我们写autograph，而里头写的常常是一些有的没有的诗。
有一个是这样写到的。
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
小时候，真得不懂这句话的意义，或许只是在扮“小大人”。但是，回想起来，这句话对现在的我们，却是那么适当。
认识他，好像挺久了。可是却像是今时今日才知道事实，他原来是这样的人。
我一直以为，他是一个正人君子，好好先生，百分百情人。尽管以前发生这么多事，我还是相信的。
我猛然发现，一直以来，我认为的友情是不值钱的，更从来没有看过一个比他更践踏友情和感情的人。
为他伤害的人感到不值
为自己的愚蠢感到愚蠢
我们终究回到“童言无忌”时说的那番话，
“知人知面不知心
劝你交友要小心
不要交个没良心
怕你以后会伤心”
not impressed. by ur talent, looks and charisma.
but shocked, at ur total lack of character.
我上了一堂宝贵的课。
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
我很久没有下笔写点东西了。有时候，生活的步伐很快，快到我连停下来思考的时间都没有。
我。。毕业了。
thanx to all who cheered for me, thanx to my cg, thanx to meiyan, jeanie and xuan, thanx to weijian, ken, yang hong and ming xun, and thanx to sot team 19.
奇怪的是，我并没有伤感的感觉。当然不是因为我没有感觉，认识我的人都知道，我是个感情富裕的人。哈哈。可是，这次没有那种。。oh i m going to miss u.
反而觉得，something awaits me.
对，就是这种感觉。
很开心看到我撒的种子在成长，收割的时间快到了。
我正式开学了。
我。。毕业了。
thanx to all who cheered for me, thanx to my cg, thanx to meiyan, jeanie and xuan, thanx to weijian, ken, yang hong and ming xun, and thanx to sot team 19.
奇怪的是，我并没有伤感的感觉。当然不是因为我没有感觉，认识我的人都知道，我是个感情富裕的人。哈哈。可是，这次没有那种。。oh i m going to miss u.
反而觉得，something awaits me.
对，就是这种感觉。
很开心看到我撒的种子在成长，收割的时间快到了。
我正式开学了。
Sunday, September 02, 2007
我的最后一天
再过几个小时，我们就要毕业了。 真的要毕业了。
4个月又14天，酸甜苦辣，我们熬过了。
喜欢dr jeff 所说的，我们像是停在码头的船只，等着要离开港口。
那天我看着录影，心中有万分不舍。
这个港口是我的避风港。坐在那里，看着录影，他问我，你准备好了吗？
我的回答是
prepare me Lord.
many r called, few r chosen.
4个月又14天，酸甜苦辣，我们熬过了。
喜欢dr jeff 所说的，我们像是停在码头的船只，等着要离开港口。
那天我看着录影，心中有万分不舍。
这个港口是我的避风港。坐在那里，看着录影，他问我，你准备好了吗？
我的回答是
prepare me Lord.
many r called, few r chosen.
Monday, August 27, 2007
updates
just some random updates.
最近忙得快疯了，而且维彪，helen不是要飞了，就是已经飞了。神学院就快要毕业了，这是我最后一个星期，好快哦。
although busy, i had a crazy time last wk at graduation dinner and hanging out with 61 peeps. these 2 weeks r very precious because it's like the last of everything. last of having all of us hanging out tog with biao n helen, last of biao, last of helen, last of sot, and last of team 19.
i think after this week, i will have withdrawal symptoms. nah jus kidding.
but frankly speaking, i really cannot imagine wad it will be like after i graduate. God i noe u will be there. i will need your grace and mercy.
God spoke to me last weekend. such a strong word. such an encounter. i love You Lord.
i think after this wk, i will be ready to emerge.
how bout u?
最近忙得快疯了，而且维彪，helen不是要飞了，就是已经飞了。神学院就快要毕业了，这是我最后一个星期，好快哦。
although busy, i had a crazy time last wk at graduation dinner and hanging out with 61 peeps. these 2 weeks r very precious because it's like the last of everything. last of having all of us hanging out tog with biao n helen, last of biao, last of helen, last of sot, and last of team 19.
i think after this week, i will have withdrawal symptoms. nah jus kidding.
but frankly speaking, i really cannot imagine wad it will be like after i graduate. God i noe u will be there. i will need your grace and mercy.
God spoke to me last weekend. such a strong word. such an encounter. i love You Lord.
i think after this wk, i will be ready to emerge.
how bout u?
Monday, August 20, 2007
random
现在坐在麦当劳里，教朋友读书。(: 其实我很想念那从早到晚坐在快餐店里，读书的感觉。记得我在考‘A’水准时，我和cecilia在singpost做了一整天，那里成了我读书的地方。我觉得‘A’水准我真的还蛮努力，所以。。
这个星期应该是很忙的。。 但是现在我有一个很轻松的心情。我喜欢努力读书的感觉，我喜欢努力去做一件事的感觉。这星期五有讲道的测验，我很希望我能够考好。
不知道你们有没有发现，当我在用中文写博客时，我的思维很不清楚。哈哈。
ok, 说一些较正经的。
昨天和芳去看“不能说的秘密”，走出来的感觉，或许要用“大跌眼镜”来形容。我一直以来蛮欣赏周杰伦，却从来都不是他的忠实歌迷，特别是他的专辑风格，在我眼里，一直是一成不变。但是，很多人看了这出戏，都告诉我这出戏很棒，所以我决定去看一看。
我不能说我很喜欢这出戏，但是周杰伦在戏里显露的才华，他想出来的剧本，故事里所贯穿的主题，让你觉得他这个人不只是虚有其表，相反的，我觉得他是一个隐藏着内涵的人。(: 他成功地让我改观。
这是一部我会推荐的电影，去看吧，如果你对周杰伦的印象和我一样，你应该会对他改观。
这个星期应该是很忙的。。 但是现在我有一个很轻松的心情。我喜欢努力读书的感觉，我喜欢努力去做一件事的感觉。这星期五有讲道的测验，我很希望我能够考好。
不知道你们有没有发现，当我在用中文写博客时，我的思维很不清楚。哈哈。
ok, 说一些较正经的。
昨天和芳去看“不能说的秘密”，走出来的感觉，或许要用“大跌眼镜”来形容。我一直以来蛮欣赏周杰伦，却从来都不是他的忠实歌迷，特别是他的专辑风格，在我眼里，一直是一成不变。但是，很多人看了这出戏，都告诉我这出戏很棒，所以我决定去看一看。
我不能说我很喜欢这出戏，但是周杰伦在戏里显露的才华，他想出来的剧本，故事里所贯穿的主题，让你觉得他这个人不只是虚有其表，相反的，我觉得他是一个隐藏着内涵的人。(: 他成功地让我改观。
这是一部我会推荐的电影，去看吧，如果你对周杰伦的印象和我一样，你应该会对他改观。
Sunday, August 19, 2007
walking ard in green hair.
green hair has great pros and cons. :)
like ur fren can recognise u from afar.
like strangers will tok to u becos of ur green hair.
like u cannot be late for class becos u r so conspicuous. really.
but i still like my green hair. go green peeps.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
大三的第一个学期开始了，时间还真得过得很快。我在想，或许我要设立一个中文博客，把心情记录在里头。:)
可是我每次说了都没有做。。 那就算了吧。哈哈。
这个星期是我这学期第一次到学校去，感觉挺不一样的。觉得人与事都还是一样，但是自己的心境却完全改变了。所以，感觉是陌生的。
可是，很开心的是，这次可以上一些不同的课，我喜欢上陈老师的课！他说得很对，你在ntu，不是和人挤巴士，就是和人挤电梯，哈哈。你知道吗，我突然发现，南大真的多了好多人！现在，不管在哪一个时间搭巴士，简直挤到不行，太夸张了。你可不可以想象，我的学校的人口一直在增长。。 不喜欢挤巴士的感觉。:( 发现陈老师住在我家附近。上他的课真有趣。:)
这几个月，这几天，令我开心的是，我认识很多新朋友。yay.
如果只剩下我一个人，我一定会奋斗下去的。相信我。
我的华语变烂了，英文也变烂了。真糟糕。
futh 和 tsai 飞了。当然，他们离开的感觉和helen走的感觉不一样。只是61的人好像有点少。
我认为，futh有一个很棒的爸爸！我觉得，他是我遇过的父亲中，其中最棒的一位。他真的懂得如何教育自己的孩子，为人慷慨，有修养，晓亭欣赏他。
我知道自己有点开始语无伦次，请不要怪我。夜已深。。。
我要看“不能说的秘密”
我今天学了一个成语。“夜郎自大”
晚安咯！
可是我每次说了都没有做。。 那就算了吧。哈哈。
这个星期是我这学期第一次到学校去，感觉挺不一样的。觉得人与事都还是一样，但是自己的心境却完全改变了。所以，感觉是陌生的。
可是，很开心的是，这次可以上一些不同的课，我喜欢上陈老师的课！他说得很对，你在ntu，不是和人挤巴士，就是和人挤电梯，哈哈。你知道吗，我突然发现，南大真的多了好多人！现在，不管在哪一个时间搭巴士，简直挤到不行，太夸张了。你可不可以想象，我的学校的人口一直在增长。。 不喜欢挤巴士的感觉。:( 发现陈老师住在我家附近。上他的课真有趣。:)
这几个月，这几天，令我开心的是，我认识很多新朋友。yay.
如果只剩下我一个人，我一定会奋斗下去的。相信我。
我的华语变烂了，英文也变烂了。真糟糕。
futh 和 tsai 飞了。当然，他们离开的感觉和helen走的感觉不一样。只是61的人好像有点少。
我认为，futh有一个很棒的爸爸！我觉得，他是我遇过的父亲中，其中最棒的一位。他真的懂得如何教育自己的孩子，为人慷慨，有修养，晓亭欣赏他。
我知道自己有点开始语无伦次，请不要怪我。夜已深。。。
我要看“不能说的秘密”
我今天学了一个成语。“夜郎自大”
晚安咯！
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
getting attached
not me,haha. i noe wad u r thinking.
to So and So,
congratulations! haha. although u r confused, i can sense love is in the air.
(:
on another note, everybody seems to be getting attached nowadays. now u readers, dun tag on this comment. haha. i noe wad u gonna say.
to So and So,
congratulations! haha. although u r confused, i can sense love is in the air.
(:
on another note, everybody seems to be getting attached nowadays. now u readers, dun tag on this comment. haha. i noe wad u gonna say.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Saturday, August 11, 2007
my call from you
was actually feeling not so happy about some stuff.
but when i came and saw the pictures, i feel my spirit lifting up.
and i remember my call.
your call took me o'er
to raise up a new generation of young pple, who will love God wholeheartedly, love pple fervently, who will lay down their lives for the kingdom.
my greatest honour will always be
to serve my Lord and king
God of my forever
God of my youth
God of my all
it is a priveilege.
i want to raise up disciples. that these i see will become world shakers, history makers.
use me teach me guide me.
but when i came and saw the pictures, i feel my spirit lifting up.
and i remember my call.
your call took me o'er
to raise up a new generation of young pple, who will love God wholeheartedly, love pple fervently, who will lay down their lives for the kingdom.
my greatest honour will always be
to serve my Lord and king
God of my forever
God of my youth
God of my all
it is a priveilege.
i want to raise up disciples. that these i see will become world shakers, history makers.
use me teach me guide me.
Friday, August 10, 2007
discipleship
pst kong taught on discipleship on thurs. i jus feel like blogging more on it.
he said,
it's when we live lives with our discipler, that is when..
your values are challenged.
your attitude is fine-tuned.
and character developed.
but to learn, you first must want to be taught.
and to be discipled, you must personally avail urself to ur discipler.
obedience is an action.
submission is an attitude.
that no matter wad happens, i will always honour my leader and not be rude to them.
when pst taught that, i was so so so impacted.
it's not that i have nv heard it before.. but.. the importance of discipleship.
the importance of having a right attitude.
pst kept on reiterating this point.
that ur attitude is so impt.
and that 1.5 hours really changed my life.
and after that session, i asked myself..
have i been a good disciple?
and can i raise up strong disciples for God?
a disciple is a trained worker with a great attitude.
my desire.. is that i can learn how to make disciples,
and that i will raise up disciples, ppl who r willing to be taught, who have a great attitude, who r broken and desire to do great things for God.
so that we can take this Gospel to the four corners of this world.
God use me, teach me, guide me.
he said,
it's when we live lives with our discipler, that is when..
your values are challenged.
your attitude is fine-tuned.
and character developed.
but to learn, you first must want to be taught.
and to be discipled, you must personally avail urself to ur discipler.
obedience is an action.
submission is an attitude.
that no matter wad happens, i will always honour my leader and not be rude to them.
when pst taught that, i was so so so impacted.
it's not that i have nv heard it before.. but.. the importance of discipleship.
the importance of having a right attitude.
pst kept on reiterating this point.
that ur attitude is so impt.
and that 1.5 hours really changed my life.
and after that session, i asked myself..
have i been a good disciple?
and can i raise up strong disciples for God?
a disciple is a trained worker with a great attitude.
my desire.. is that i can learn how to make disciples,
and that i will raise up disciples, ppl who r willing to be taught, who have a great attitude, who r broken and desire to do great things for God.
so that we can take this Gospel to the four corners of this world.
God use me, teach me, guide me.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
not feeling well
recently, i have been falling sick quite abit which is bad. but i seldom let my sickness get to me and defeat me totally, jus like how i m now. i m still gonna write my sermons, brace myself, and go to sch tml.
we had a powerful powerful session with pst kong this morning. n i m so glad that in spite of my circumstances, i was there. really. i think this is a lesson that would change my life.
God.
i want to be a disciple so that i can be a disciple maker.
and that is just such a desire within me, to see more, do more, for the kingdom.
create in me a new heart Lord.
God is looking.. for that one man, one woman, who will avail himself/herself to Him. to be discipled, and to change the world.
i pray i will be found faithful.
many r called, few r chosen, even lesser will be found faithful.
let me be that one.
we had a powerful powerful session with pst kong this morning. n i m so glad that in spite of my circumstances, i was there. really. i think this is a lesson that would change my life.
God.
i want to be a disciple so that i can be a disciple maker.
and that is just such a desire within me, to see more, do more, for the kingdom.
create in me a new heart Lord.
God is looking.. for that one man, one woman, who will avail himself/herself to Him. to be discipled, and to change the world.
i pray i will be found faithful.
many r called, few r chosen, even lesser will be found faithful.
let me be that one.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
about sun
love her. she's doing amazing things all throughout the world.
登上了世界的舞台。我们以你为荣。
check this out.
www.wretch.cc/blog/helloSUN
we r proud of u. no doubt of that.
登上了世界的舞台。我们以你为荣。
check this out.
www.wretch.cc/blog/helloSUN
we r proud of u. no doubt of that.
Monday, July 30, 2007
deliverance
on another note, deliverance has been great. it is a joy to pray for my members and also see so many of them getting delivered. btw, will put up some pics of my bday. y not jus check out yulan's webby. haah.
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my 21st
had a wonderful wonderful time. i think this is the best bday i had so far.
i m really happy this birthday.
just want to say thank you to..
1. my cg.
Guys thank you for the lovely surprise! u guys r amazing and so creative. haaha. i absolutely loved the idea (: You have been a blessing in my life! thank you!
2. my family.
i m so glad that this yr my family was here, especially my dad. he has been great! (: and my lovely cousins bought me a digi camera. the one thing that i need and want so much.
3. my fellow leaders.
wad more to say other than thank you. haha.
and everyone who was there on friday. my21st was awesome because of u. thank u.
u can tell i m really lz to tok more about it.
在踏入21岁之前，我真的觉得我需要跨出那信心的一步。
就像我曾说的，我真的觉得是时候了。但是，我也知道我们不可以纸上谈兵，我不可以说说而已。
我要晋升。
我们需要甩开每一个我们给自己的藉口，更不可以留下后路让自己走。
我要封锁每一条让我停滞不动的道路。
我要让自己没有办法，一定要向前。
i m really happy this birthday.
just want to say thank you to..
1. my cg.
Guys thank you for the lovely surprise! u guys r amazing and so creative. haaha. i absolutely loved the idea (: You have been a blessing in my life! thank you!
2. my family.
i m so glad that this yr my family was here, especially my dad. he has been great! (: and my lovely cousins bought me a digi camera. the one thing that i need and want so much.
3. my fellow leaders.
wad more to say other than thank you. haha.
and everyone who was there on friday. my21st was awesome because of u. thank u.
u can tell i m really lz to tok more about it.
在踏入21岁之前，我真的觉得我需要跨出那信心的一步。
就像我曾说的，我真的觉得是时候了。但是，我也知道我们不可以纸上谈兵，我不可以说说而已。
我要晋升。
我们需要甩开每一个我们给自己的藉口，更不可以留下后路让自己走。
我要封锁每一条让我停滞不动的道路。
我要让自己没有办法，一定要向前。
Friday, July 27, 2007
costa sands pasir ris
now at chalet. jus finished our steamboat. we had so much fun! hahaa. this is where u see the real side to everybody. wahahaha. anyway, tdy somebody asked if i m excited. i realised it's really a lot a lot of work. haaha. but anyway, hope everything will be great tml.
再过一天，就是21岁了。
今天在走路回家时，我就在想这事。
the time has come. 他说。
该准备的已经准备好了，是时候跨出那一步。
过了21岁后，还要等多久？
let's step out.
再过一天，就是21岁了。
今天在走路回家时，我就在想这事。
the time has come. 他说。
该准备的已经准备好了，是时候跨出那一步。
过了21岁后，还要等多久？
let's step out.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
wishlist
my wishlist for my 21st bday. due to popular demand.
ok many have asked me wad do i want for my bday. this is wad i really. (tell me wad u wan, wad u really really want) ha. anyway, i noe many of the things r out of ur budget, so it's ok. ur thought is appreciated.
1. a good n nice digi cam.
2. a good n nice handphone.
3. a good n nice mp3 player. muahaha.
4. a new wallet.
5. perfume
6. clothes, bags, belts, shoes.. u get wad i mean.
i jus wan to say this, i really dun dare to put up my wishlist, jus in case i end up having 10 bottles of perfumes for my birthday. u guys jus exercise ur discretion ok? haha.
and i used to really want a NUM bag. my members know that. but i haven been into the shop for a long time, n i think their bags r kinda ex. but if u see a nice bag in there, i dun mind. and really, i have 50dollars off their bags. so u can ask me for the voucher too. muaahhaha.
yup that is it. see ya on fri!
ok many have asked me wad do i want for my bday. this is wad i really. (tell me wad u wan, wad u really really want) ha. anyway, i noe many of the things r out of ur budget, so it's ok. ur thought is appreciated.
1. a good n nice digi cam.
2. a good n nice handphone.
3. a good n nice mp3 player. muahaha.
4. a new wallet.
5. perfume
6. clothes, bags, belts, shoes.. u get wad i mean.
i jus wan to say this, i really dun dare to put up my wishlist, jus in case i end up having 10 bottles of perfumes for my birthday. u guys jus exercise ur discretion ok? haha.
and i used to really want a NUM bag. my members know that. but i haven been into the shop for a long time, n i think their bags r kinda ex. but if u see a nice bag in there, i dun mind. and really, i have 50dollars off their bags. so u can ask me for the voucher too. muaahhaha.
yup that is it. see ya on fri!
Friday, July 20, 2007
61
sorry for flooding my blog. haha.
那天在这么多天后，终于看到61的朋友，可惜大便不能来。
我很喜欢见到chow。他是一个与众不同的老师，他总是能够和我们打成一片。和他在一起没有冷场的时候，我们总是能无所不谈，而看到61的人，总是能让我想念61的日子。
i love 61.
61 给我的感觉就是不一样。可能是在那里遇到的朋友，我很珍惜61的outing。
彪，gonna miss u really. 你总是我们的joker,更珍惜你和kw的presence.你们总是能让开怀大笑，想到以前的一切，总是让我好开心好开心。
helen, 你一直都会在我心里有个特别的位置。因为你是个很特别的朋友，真的。love u.
现在不想写给其他人，时间到了就会写吧。只是想到我可能很久很久都不会看到全部聚集在一起，总会有点难过。
天下无不散之筵席
感觉我们长大了。
也感觉it's time to step out.
make this yr the best yr yet.
我们要翻转世界
那天在这么多天后，终于看到61的朋友，可惜大便不能来。
我很喜欢见到chow。他是一个与众不同的老师，他总是能够和我们打成一片。和他在一起没有冷场的时候，我们总是能无所不谈，而看到61的人，总是能让我想念61的日子。
i love 61.
61 给我的感觉就是不一样。可能是在那里遇到的朋友，我很珍惜61的outing。
彪，gonna miss u really. 你总是我们的joker,更珍惜你和kw的presence.你们总是能让开怀大笑，想到以前的一切，总是让我好开心好开心。
helen, 你一直都会在我心里有个特别的位置。因为你是个很特别的朋友，真的。love u.
现在不想写给其他人，时间到了就会写吧。只是想到我可能很久很久都不会看到全部聚集在一起，总会有点难过。
天下无不散之筵席
感觉我们长大了。
也感觉it's time to step out.
make this yr the best yr yet.
我们要翻转世界
我们长大了
我感觉到自己老了
很喜欢做的一件事情，是看到61的朋友。在61，我们就是有着一种不一样的默契。感觉就是不一样。也是在和他们聚在一起时，我感觉自己在成长。
这个星期，当我告诉别人我要21岁时，我的堂姐们都是，哇，这么快！
是啊，这么快。我长大了
正在和维彪谈话，只有21岁的人，才会说到我们要做什么，去哪里吧。
我以前从来不觉得21岁有什么了不起。现在才觉得，其实老了，责任也多了。
but maturity doesn't come with age, it comes with the shouldering of responsibility. that's right.
我要长大了
(:
很喜欢做的一件事情，是看到61的朋友。在61，我们就是有着一种不一样的默契。感觉就是不一样。也是在和他们聚在一起时，我感觉自己在成长。
这个星期，当我告诉别人我要21岁时，我的堂姐们都是，哇，这么快！
是啊，这么快。我长大了
正在和维彪谈话，只有21岁的人，才会说到我们要做什么，去哪里吧。
我以前从来不觉得21岁有什么了不起。现在才觉得，其实老了，责任也多了。
but maturity doesn't come with age, it comes with the shouldering of responsibility. that's right.
我要长大了
(:
Monday, July 16, 2007
taiwan emerge
脱颖而出
我为此行感谢神
因为他是信实的
在新加坡 台湾
我的生命
因你而改变
能服侍你
是我这辈子最大的荣幸
it is a priveilege to serve.
thank u for making me a part of history,
我要为你翻转世界。
我为此行感谢神
因为他是信实的
在新加坡 台湾
我的生命
因你而改变
能服侍你
是我这辈子最大的荣幸
it is a priveilege to serve.
thank u for making me a part of history,
我要为你翻转世界。
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
lovely day
u know after so many days, this is one of the most wonderful days i have.
i woke up feeling that God is smiling over me and everything will just be ok.
and i had a beautiful time in bible sch. God was so good. thank you for the word. thank you for that shoulder and that ray of light i know i need in time of need.
and i had a great time toking and fellowshipping with ting n yl. u guys r growing up! n i m so glad about it yah? keep on growing.
n *** i hope u r reading this. i pray u r not brooding over it ok? yah i will not 看不起你. so pls be strong n well and u will do great! and i will do great too.
n my fren, although i have so many so many things to do, i jus wan to say..
i was so glad that i went to meet u. it was worth it. haha. although i went with reluctance, but i must say, i m happy that i went.
u r a fren i will treasure for a long time, becos i want to see us doing great things! dun brood and be frustrated over all those things k.. like wad i said, u will do great! so let's jia you tog. ((:
n u r an encouragement to me, by the fact that u r willing to share, i m very happy.thank you! ((:
many r called, few r chosen.
in conclusion, i m a very happy girl. and to add on to that, i m going taiwan tml!!!!!!
thank u Lord for the great day and the great life.
i just want to shout out loud
I LOVE YOU!!!
i woke up feeling that God is smiling over me and everything will just be ok.
and i had a beautiful time in bible sch. God was so good. thank you for the word. thank you for that shoulder and that ray of light i know i need in time of need.
and i had a great time toking and fellowshipping with ting n yl. u guys r growing up! n i m so glad about it yah? keep on growing.
n *** i hope u r reading this. i pray u r not brooding over it ok? yah i will not 看不起你. so pls be strong n well and u will do great! and i will do great too.
n my fren, although i have so many so many things to do, i jus wan to say..
i was so glad that i went to meet u. it was worth it. haha. although i went with reluctance, but i must say, i m happy that i went.
u r a fren i will treasure for a long time, becos i want to see us doing great things! dun brood and be frustrated over all those things k.. like wad i said, u will do great! so let's jia you tog. ((:
n u r an encouragement to me, by the fact that u r willing to share, i m very happy.thank you! ((:
many r called, few r chosen.
in conclusion, i m a very happy girl. and to add on to that, i m going taiwan tml!!!!!!
thank u Lord for the great day and the great life.
i just want to shout out loud
I LOVE YOU!!!
Monday, July 09, 2007
good night's rest
i feel happy. because for once in so many months, i had a terrific night rest. i slept so well. gee.
yest i slept at 11 plus! woke up at 7 this morning feeling so good. Jesus i love u! ((:
yest i slept at 11 plus! woke up at 7 this morning feeling so good. Jesus i love u! ((:
Sunday, July 08, 2007
挥着翅膀的女孩
was jus feeling a bit low. then i saw the song ken send me in my email.
昨天晚上我就这样扭开电视，看到容祖儿在唱歌，这首歌叫 挥着翅膀的女孩
我并没有注意歌词 只是觉得旋律很美
今天看到歌词
我哭了
谢谢你
common grace
挥着翅膀的女孩 容祖儿
当我还是一个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 不懂爱 从过去 到现在
直到他也离开 留我在云海徘徊
明白没人能取代 他曾给我的信赖
See Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
不能一直依赖 别人给我拥戴
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
就算风雨覆盖 我也不怕重来
我已不是那个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 用力爱 仍信 真爱
风雨来 不避开 谦虚把头低下来
像沙鸥来去天地 只为寻一个奇迹
See Me Fly I'm Proud To Fly Up High
生命已经打开 我要那种精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我盼有一天能和你相见
骄傲的对着天空说 是藉着你的风
Let Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
生命已经打开 我要那种精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我不会孤单 因为你都在
believe me i can fly
昨天晚上我就这样扭开电视，看到容祖儿在唱歌，这首歌叫 挥着翅膀的女孩
我并没有注意歌词 只是觉得旋律很美
今天看到歌词
我哭了
谢谢你
common grace
挥着翅膀的女孩 容祖儿
当我还是一个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 不懂爱 从过去 到现在
直到他也离开 留我在云海徘徊
明白没人能取代 他曾给我的信赖
See Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
不能一直依赖 别人给我拥戴
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
就算风雨覆盖 我也不怕重来
我已不是那个懵懂的女孩
遇到爱 用力爱 仍信 真爱
风雨来 不避开 谦虚把头低下来
像沙鸥来去天地 只为寻一个奇迹
See Me Fly I'm Proud To Fly Up High
生命已经打开 我要那种精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我盼有一天能和你相见
骄傲的对着天空说 是藉着你的风
Let Me Fly
I'm Proud To Fly Up High
生命已经打开 我要那种精彩
Believe Me I Can Fly
I Am Singing In The Sky
你曾经对我说 做勇敢的女孩
我不会孤单 因为你都在
believe me i can fly
Friday, July 06, 2007
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
台湾！！
终于在等了两年后，我可以再一次回台湾。
今天我在和vicki说，我真的很想很想去台湾！神是信实的！有时候，有些东西总是会让你在灵里兴奋起来。现在就开始了。
好开心，再过两个星期，就要开学了。这次的开学充满期待，我要作盐作光！
而能够再回校之前去台湾，真令我开心不过。
今天我在和vicki说，我真的很想很想去台湾！神是信实的！有时候，有些东西总是会让你在灵里兴奋起来。现在就开始了。
好开心，再过两个星期，就要开学了。这次的开学充满期待，我要作盐作光！
而能够再回校之前去台湾，真令我开心不过。
Saturday, June 30, 2007
当这世界。。
当这世界不在的时候，你否会与我守候？
我可能会把这整个部落格变成华文，那个让我感到既亲近又疏远的语言。
很久没有写散文，没有用漂亮的文字，来形容我那有时糟糕的心情。
失落
沮丧
讨厌刚强
尽在不言中
我没有你想象中的好，坚强
有时候 我真希望
不只我一个在战场上
让我拥有那一分钟的软弱吧
因为你是我软弱中的刚强
我可能会把这整个部落格变成华文，那个让我感到既亲近又疏远的语言。
很久没有写散文，没有用漂亮的文字，来形容我那有时糟糕的心情。
失落
沮丧
讨厌刚强
尽在不言中
我没有你想象中的好，坚强
有时候 我真希望
不只我一个在战场上
让我拥有那一分钟的软弱吧
因为你是我软弱中的刚强
Friday, June 29, 2007
happiness is love..
Day 4
st Augustine said:
He who is filled with love is filled with God Himself.
Love stretches ur heart and makes u big on the inside.
suddenly i feel that i may miss hall after all. i love the peace and the envt here. although most of the time i m alone, esp during sot, but the tranquility is amazing.
i love it when it's into the wee hours, and i have my radio playing. it feels good.
my hse is a bit too constipated.
st Augustine said:
He who is filled with love is filled with God Himself.
Love stretches ur heart and makes u big on the inside.
suddenly i feel that i may miss hall after all. i love the peace and the envt here. although most of the time i m alone, esp during sot, but the tranquility is amazing.
i love it when it's into the wee hours, and i have my radio playing. it feels good.
my hse is a bit too constipated.
Monday, June 25, 2007
prayer answered.
God is good. so good.
i was praying that God will speak. n He spoke. the same thing He spoke to me.
God take it a bit deeper i pray. a deeper work i pray. a greater ability to discern the things of the spirit i pray.
i was praying that God will speak. n He spoke. the same thing He spoke to me.
God take it a bit deeper i pray. a deeper work i pray. a greater ability to discern the things of the spirit i pray.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
i am happy and content because i think i m
i can't remember who i was toking to about being happy. i was reading a r bernard's book abt happiness. i promised u i will do it every day! well i m trying. (:
anyway, tdy he said that happiness is a way of mind.
so, despite of what happened just now, i will choose to be happy.
Happiness requires to train yourself to see the good in everything, no matter what happens.
God i will decide to do that.
ken rem wad i told u tdy? i said i dun like to be angry. becos if i m angry i cant be happy. n if i can, i want to be always happy. n not make life difficult for myself. (:
anyway, tdy he said that happiness is a way of mind.
so, despite of what happened just now, i will choose to be happy.
Happiness requires to train yourself to see the good in everything, no matter what happens.
God i will decide to do that.
ken rem wad i told u tdy? i said i dun like to be angry. becos if i m angry i cant be happy. n if i can, i want to be always happy. n not make life difficult for myself. (:
carrying a lot of things in my heart, but not sharing. tok abt happier stuff.
tdy went out with helen. babe i love u! it's just wonderful everytime i go out with u. i jus feel comfortable with u, toking to u. gee. n i cant believe u r leaving so soon when i really din get to hang out much with u... will spend more time with u.
bought my makeup and stuff.. so happy. haha. n bought a vest tat's really nice at forever 21! which i think it really suits me anyway.
service was good tdy.
sch starting in 1 month plus time. so fast.
i jus did my hair. when i get a chance will post up a nice pic of it. dun get a shock alright? haha.
tdy went out with helen. babe i love u! it's just wonderful everytime i go out with u. i jus feel comfortable with u, toking to u. gee. n i cant believe u r leaving so soon when i really din get to hang out much with u... will spend more time with u.
bought my makeup and stuff.. so happy. haha. n bought a vest tat's really nice at forever 21! which i think it really suits me anyway.
service was good tdy.
sch starting in 1 month plus time. so fast.
i jus did my hair. when i get a chance will post up a nice pic of it. dun get a shock alright? haha.
Friday, June 22, 2007
are you willing to celebrate your life today?
if you had to be the person you are today for the rest of your life, will you be happy? if not, it's time to change now.
i will not. n i will change now. dun look back n say yest i was happy. dun look forward and say some day i will be happy. look at your present and choose to celebrate. today be all that God wants u to be. (:
so far i have really done it. one day at a time.
tdy i experienced the goodness of God. he is so good.
and everything will work to your time and season. love u.
i will not. n i will change now. dun look back n say yest i was happy. dun look forward and say some day i will be happy. look at your present and choose to celebrate. today be all that God wants u to be. (:
so far i have really done it. one day at a time.
tdy i experienced the goodness of God. he is so good.
and everything will work to your time and season. love u.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
happiness is..
i was just thinking that i want to pick up a book and read. n saw dr a.r. bernard's book on the shelf. so i decided to do what he said, to read one entry every day and to pen down my thoughts, just that i m blogging here.
he said.
happiness is finding wisdom and understanding.
my thoughts.
the happiest life u can live is probably the life that God has intended for u to live. but for u to do that, u must be able to look at things from God's perspective. to be a wise person, u need to dig into His word. Billy Graham said, knowledge is horizontal but wisdom is vertical. It comes from above. Every day, we need a renewed mind so that we can live the life God intended for us.
if u wan to be a happier person, be a wiser person. (:
God's words for today.
Salt creates thirst.
he said.
happiness is finding wisdom and understanding.
my thoughts.
the happiest life u can live is probably the life that God has intended for u to live. but for u to do that, u must be able to look at things from God's perspective. to be a wise person, u need to dig into His word. Billy Graham said, knowledge is horizontal but wisdom is vertical. It comes from above. Every day, we need a renewed mind so that we can live the life God intended for us.
if u wan to be a happier person, be a wiser person. (:
God's words for today.
Salt creates thirst.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
一片宁静
好享受这样的一个时刻。今天是星期天下午。现在在宿舍里。宿舍什么人也没有，学校是一片安静的。我好享受这样的一个时刻。。。坐在这里，听着933，没有dj，只有歌曲，让我的心情自由的漂浮。。
有时候真的觉得生活很充实，却又忙得怕人，所以这样一个人的时刻是让我感到很开心的。。
虽然我还有很多的deadlines，but i appreciate this moment of peace.
was just looking thru ken's friendster. and just feeling a little nostalgic. xiaoting is feeling alone, but not lonely, and i love this moment of solitude. really.
i wish i can have more of this. no phone calls, no msges waiting for me, just enjoying my sunday afternoon.
i love it.
有时候真的觉得生活很充实，却又忙得怕人，所以这样一个人的时刻是让我感到很开心的。。
虽然我还有很多的deadlines，but i appreciate this moment of peace.
was just looking thru ken's friendster. and just feeling a little nostalgic. xiaoting is feeling alone, but not lonely, and i love this moment of solitude. really.
i wish i can have more of this. no phone calls, no msges waiting for me, just enjoying my sunday afternoon.
i love it.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
gain
i love sun's latest album embrace.. yet in my heart there is still a special place for gain. i just love the album to bits. i like the feel of it.
so i sought for a man among them, who would make a wall, and stand in the gap, but i found no one.
God is looking.
for a new generation that will love Him with EVERYTHING they have, and love people fervently. who will lay down their lives for Him and impact their campuses.
God. raise up a new generation.
youths who are willing
kingdom-minded
love You wholeheartedly
love people fervently
holy dissatisfaction
hungry for You
yearn to be fruitful.
raise up youths that are different
that's my cry.
will you answer the call?
so i sought for a man among them, who would make a wall, and stand in the gap, but i found no one.
God is looking.
for a new generation that will love Him with EVERYTHING they have, and love people fervently. who will lay down their lives for Him and impact their campuses.
God. raise up a new generation.
youths who are willing
kingdom-minded
love You wholeheartedly
love people fervently
holy dissatisfaction
hungry for You
yearn to be fruitful.
raise up youths that are different
that's my cry.
will you answer the call?
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
hello
haha. it's been a while i blogged. i thot it has been a really long time, only to realise it's only 2 weeks. but 2 weeks it's enough. after you've been through emerge, it's as if like one year has passed or sth, because so many things have happened and your life is so transformed!!!
this year's emerge, as usual, has been tremendous. it is as tremendous as usual, yet it is not as usual, because this year it is bigger, greater and better! God has been really good, so just some updates for u.
well first of all, this yr my dream came to pass and i made it to the finals of word power. it's an ordeal, ask all my frens the turmoil i went thru.. haha. nah just kidding. but we really almost din make it.. so.. thank you Jesus! we got second.. ((: so all thanks to jeremy and annie. i love u guys lots. u guys are great team members. annie i m so proud of you that you noe that verse.. and yes jeremy, u really have worked hard and earned ur keep. haaha. you make me look good being ur team member. (:
secondly, sun was back. celebrated her birthday. heard liu geng hong sing. (((: and propose at the same time.
thirdly, i met a bunch of pple that rox. the ntu pple!!!! yah and *** will say he is so surprised to see this. *** was surprised to see me at bbq.. haaah. so that is me la.. the girl who is totally not in tune with ntu.. nah just kidding. knowing them was a pleasant surprise God brought into my life. they are really funny pple tat light up my life. you guys rox..!
last but not least, God came, moved, touched and did a new work.
God, just wan to say thank you for moving once again. words cannot describe how i feel. thank you for loving me, forgiving me and always giving me a second chance. thank you for the call. thank you for being willing to use me.
i want to treasure this forever. this call you have given. this family you have placed in. these friends that are so precious.
i love my life, my cg, my church, my frens, my family, MY GOD.
this year's emerge, as usual, has been tremendous. it is as tremendous as usual, yet it is not as usual, because this year it is bigger, greater and better! God has been really good, so just some updates for u.
well first of all, this yr my dream came to pass and i made it to the finals of word power. it's an ordeal, ask all my frens the turmoil i went thru.. haha. nah just kidding. but we really almost din make it.. so.. thank you Jesus! we got second.. ((: so all thanks to jeremy and annie. i love u guys lots. u guys are great team members. annie i m so proud of you that you noe that verse.. and yes jeremy, u really have worked hard and earned ur keep. haaha. you make me look good being ur team member. (:
secondly, sun was back. celebrated her birthday. heard liu geng hong sing. (((: and propose at the same time.
thirdly, i met a bunch of pple that rox. the ntu pple!!!! yah and *** will say he is so surprised to see this. *** was surprised to see me at bbq.. haaah. so that is me la.. the girl who is totally not in tune with ntu.. nah just kidding. knowing them was a pleasant surprise God brought into my life. they are really funny pple tat light up my life. you guys rox..!
last but not least, God came, moved, touched and did a new work.
God, just wan to say thank you for moving once again. words cannot describe how i feel. thank you for loving me, forgiving me and always giving me a second chance. thank you for the call. thank you for being willing to use me.
i want to treasure this forever. this call you have given. this family you have placed in. these friends that are so precious.
i love my life, my cg, my church, my frens, my family, MY GOD.
Monday, May 28, 2007
spirit-filled
i m at fang's house now, supposed to do my assignment. but i dunno y there is no urgency, so it's just bad. gee. it's ok, i promise i will finish though it's already 11pm and i m only at chap 4. xiaoting jia you. haha.
anyway. i m so excited that emerge is coming. yes i m finally in word power finals! mus come n cheer for me k.. haha.
yup that's all pple. off to mug.
anyway. i m so excited that emerge is coming. yes i m finally in word power finals! mus come n cheer for me k.. haha.
yup that's all pple. off to mug.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
想家
从小就对“寄人篱下”这样的感觉不陌生，所以我一直认为自己是以很可以适应的人，又或许是我老了！。。所以我真的不喜欢陌生的环境，我真得很喜欢家的感觉。
现在家里的房间一团糟，可以我很讨厌两头不到岸的感觉。就是讨厌。。宿舍感觉很陌生，因为少了人的气息。。 但是家里又感觉少了我。
发现我真的需要常常与人相处。因为在宿舍，特别是假期里，是完全没有人的。寂寞的感觉常常会涌到心头来，（this sounds like a wrong expression. haha）虽然这样的时候不是很多，因为我其实没有什么时间去想这些事情。但是，我真的想念家的感觉。
以前我总觉得，家和宿舍的分别在哪里？反正我每天都是早出晚归。。 在哪里都没有分别。是有的是有的。。 想念家里有人的感觉。特别想念老爸。。想念有人会帮我关灯，然后骂我。。我真得很想念。
因为这样我想。。 或许下个学期我要回到我名副其实的狗窝去了。
但是又贪图那每天来回的3个小时。。
进退两难！
现在家里的房间一团糟，可以我很讨厌两头不到岸的感觉。就是讨厌。。宿舍感觉很陌生，因为少了人的气息。。 但是家里又感觉少了我。
发现我真的需要常常与人相处。因为在宿舍，特别是假期里，是完全没有人的。寂寞的感觉常常会涌到心头来，（this sounds like a wrong expression. haha）虽然这样的时候不是很多，因为我其实没有什么时间去想这些事情。但是，我真的想念家的感觉。
以前我总觉得，家和宿舍的分别在哪里？反正我每天都是早出晚归。。 在哪里都没有分别。是有的是有的。。 想念家里有人的感觉。特别想念老爸。。想念有人会帮我关灯，然后骂我。。我真得很想念。
因为这样我想。。 或许下个学期我要回到我名副其实的狗窝去了。
但是又贪图那每天来回的3个小时。。
进退两难！
Monday, May 21, 2007
blessed
i really feel blessed beyond words.
last wk pst derek talked about being at the right place at the right time.
then he asked, how many of you know that u r at the right place at the right time?
and we were like agreeing. then he said, how many of u know.. that there r also people who r supposed to be here but they r not?
and i felt a tinge of sadness.
God has been so good to us this few weeks. wonderfully blessed by service every single weekend. and it's not just the weekends. during sot every day, we meet with God in worship. We learn to be led by the Spirit, and everything is just so cool. God keeps speaking to me every single day.
tdy pst preached a powerful powerful msg. blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God,
i want to see you remarkably clear. i want to experience you.
i want to be totally devoted to you.
one life
i lay at your altar
one love
i have with you
touch me again
fill me as you hold
my outstretched hands
one word
you know i will follow
one heart
broken to you
use me again
your mercies follow me
for all my days
i want to be more in love with u than i've ever been before.
i mean that
last wk pst derek talked about being at the right place at the right time.
then he asked, how many of you know that u r at the right place at the right time?
and we were like agreeing. then he said, how many of u know.. that there r also people who r supposed to be here but they r not?
and i felt a tinge of sadness.
God has been so good to us this few weeks. wonderfully blessed by service every single weekend. and it's not just the weekends. during sot every day, we meet with God in worship. We learn to be led by the Spirit, and everything is just so cool. God keeps speaking to me every single day.
tdy pst preached a powerful powerful msg. blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God,
i want to see you remarkably clear. i want to experience you.
i want to be totally devoted to you.
one life
i lay at your altar
one love
i have with you
touch me again
fill me as you hold
my outstretched hands
one word
you know i will follow
one heart
broken to you
use me again
your mercies follow me
for all my days
i want to be more in love with u than i've ever been before.
i mean that
Monday, May 14, 2007
acquired taste.
loving God n lingering in His presence is an acquired taste.
i haven't updated for one week, but it felt like eternity. it seems like everything u have not heard from God was just revealed to you in this one week.
God is good.
i need brokenness.
God is moving.
sometimes i m scared. becos i dunno if i really can. can i?
i haven't updated for one week, but it felt like eternity. it seems like everything u have not heard from God was just revealed to you in this one week.
God is good.
i need brokenness.
God is moving.
sometimes i m scared. becos i dunno if i really can. can i?
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
sot again
officially attended 2 days of sot. it feels like it is so much more than 2 days. fri, sat, sun, mon. every day having new encounters, new revelations, it's so much more than what i can wish for. God is so good. He is answering our prayers!
i want to.. raise up a new generation of young people, who loves God, will not compromise, and build their lives on the sermon of the mount. In pst's words, no more convenient christianity. yes!
God is really doing a new work in City Harvest, and i want to be part of it! i want to be the end-time church He raises up, where we will see dreams and visions.
Sermon on the mount was really really good! I am so happy that Pastor is doing this. A new revival Lord..
Ask of me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance..
The sacrifices of the Lord are a broken and contrite heart..
purify our motives.. purify our hearts. raise up pple, that has a different spirit God..
i want to.. raise up a new generation of young people, who loves God, will not compromise, and build their lives on the sermon of the mount. In pst's words, no more convenient christianity. yes!
God is really doing a new work in City Harvest, and i want to be part of it! i want to be the end-time church He raises up, where we will see dreams and visions.
Sermon on the mount was really really good! I am so happy that Pastor is doing this. A new revival Lord..
Ask of me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance..
The sacrifices of the Lord are a broken and contrite heart..
purify our motives.. purify our hearts. raise up pple, that has a different spirit God..
Friday, May 04, 2007
sot
happy that exams r over today, totally excited that i am starting SOT tml! after hearing so much from everybody, i am just excited. But i want to start SOT right. (:
Today had a really nice talk with my. There is one thing that has not changed since i am young, i love talking to her. She is someone of great wisdom and can always provide me with great insights on things. It always triggers certain things while talking to her.
One thing i learn as a disciple is to press into my leader. As i grow older in God, this thing jus keeps coming up to me. It is important ting, to press into your leader. To draw from the man/woman of God. I remembered there was once God prompted me to go up to her, and ask her to pray for me, because I want to have what she has. I was freaked out, but I decided to obey God. In the past I used to be super scared of her, but i have learnt that that is silly. To be discipled is a good thing, becos u learn. We all must learn in the process to have a right attitude, not one of fear, but of respect and servanthood.
I thank God for her, for all that she has imparted to me, and I thank God for the many greater years to come!
The greatest leader of all is the greatest servant of all. God taught me that tdy.
I m really excited. But now it's 3 plus am! i better sleep soon. (:
Today had a really nice talk with my. There is one thing that has not changed since i am young, i love talking to her. She is someone of great wisdom and can always provide me with great insights on things. It always triggers certain things while talking to her.
One thing i learn as a disciple is to press into my leader. As i grow older in God, this thing jus keeps coming up to me. It is important ting, to press into your leader. To draw from the man/woman of God. I remembered there was once God prompted me to go up to her, and ask her to pray for me, because I want to have what she has. I was freaked out, but I decided to obey God. In the past I used to be super scared of her, but i have learnt that that is silly. To be discipled is a good thing, becos u learn. We all must learn in the process to have a right attitude, not one of fear, but of respect and servanthood.
I thank God for her, for all that she has imparted to me, and I thank God for the many greater years to come!
The greatest leader of all is the greatest servant of all. God taught me that tdy.
I m really excited. But now it's 3 plus am! i better sleep soon. (:
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
family
family day 2007. 1 may.
R we a family?
R u part of this family?
In a family,
We give because we love.
We give our time, our finances, our energy.
We sacrifice because we love.
In a family, we go all the way out not because u r asked to, but becos u love this family.
And because you love, you will do anything for ur family members.
Do you love ur family? Do you love the vision? R u a part of this family?
We do wad we do, becos we love.
We love, because He first loved us.
not because we r told to.
I wish you will read this. I wish you will understand.
Becos i love my family. But i m heartbroken. Becos u dun love our family. You noe that?
What happened has really broken my heart.
By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love, one for another.
You dun have to do it if it is too hard on you really. You dun have to bother if u dun love our family. Really. You dun.
R we a family?
R u part of this family?
In a family,
We give because we love.
We give our time, our finances, our energy.
We sacrifice because we love.
In a family, we go all the way out not because u r asked to, but becos u love this family.
And because you love, you will do anything for ur family members.
Do you love ur family? Do you love the vision? R u a part of this family?
We do wad we do, becos we love.
We love, because He first loved us.
not because we r told to.
I wish you will read this. I wish you will understand.
Becos i love my family. But i m heartbroken. Becos u dun love our family. You noe that?
What happened has really broken my heart.
By this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you have love, one for another.
You dun have to do it if it is too hard on you really. You dun have to bother if u dun love our family. Really. You dun.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
woooooo
suddenly i was looking at the past yr papers. n i got a little bit scared. ok. thou shall not be scared. i think i really nd God to take me thru. gee.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
散文日记
看到很多朋友的部落格。好想念这样写部落格的方式。所以我决定了！考试后我真的会set up wordpress blog. 我想开始用华文记录好多东西。。好想念
近来有很多扰人的事，脑海里一直围着那几件事打转。考试有像是个摆脱不了的负担，这也不是，那也不是。又有几件烦人又缠人的事，想摆脱也摆脱不了的东西。haix.
一件令我超级开心的事。是跟我的陈资凯聊天。对了，他使我的新上任男朋友。没有啦。。他是我的5岁外甥。他最近超可爱，而他是令我最开心的聊天对象。((:
上个星期和他妈妈聊天，然后和他讲话，他开始问我又可爱又好笑的问题，让在念书的我好不开心。
matthew: yiyi.. where r u now?
me: yiyi is in sch.
matthew: how come u still in sch?
me: becos yiyi is studying in sch. tml got exam.
matthew: how come u still studying in sch? how come u nv go home?
me: becos yiyi is studying in sch lor.
matthew: how come ur sch so late still haven close? how come u nv go home?
me: yiyi's sch dun close one. yiyi's not going home. going home tml.
matthew: how abt the tchers? are the tchers there also?
me: no matthew.. the tchers have gone home.
matthew: how come the tchers go home? then who teach u a lesson?
me: becos the teachers need to rest. yiyi studying myself..
matthew: how abt ur frens? r ur frens in sch..?
and so the conversation goes.
then he asked..
matt: is ur sch in frankel ave? (which for ur info is the add of his sch. ha)
me: no.. yiyi's sch in jurong west..
matt: how come ur sch not in frankel ave? how come ur sch in jurong?
...
matt: is ur sch like brighton montessori? (which is the name of his sch btw)
me: no.. yiyi's sch much bigger than brighton montessori.
matt: but brighton montessori is also very big! ur sch got toys?
me: no yiyi's sch no toys..
matt: how come no toys.. then then .. how about lego? does ur sch have lego?
me: no matthew.. yiyi's sch no lego..
matt: how come no lego.. then.. what about toilets? ur sch got toilets?
me: yes matthew.. yiyi's sch got toilet..
matthew: how come ur sch only got toilet.. (drifting away)
my beloved nephew. can u believe he is five? a few days.. he asked his mum to call me becos he wants to tok to me. to cont this conversation. and what i heard is before i picked up.. he is already toking to me. and after he hung up on me, he was still toking. haha.
my fave boy.
近来有很多扰人的事，脑海里一直围着那几件事打转。考试有像是个摆脱不了的负担，这也不是，那也不是。又有几件烦人又缠人的事，想摆脱也摆脱不了的东西。haix.
一件令我超级开心的事。是跟我的陈资凯聊天。对了，他使我的新上任男朋友。没有啦。。他是我的5岁外甥。他最近超可爱，而他是令我最开心的聊天对象。((:
上个星期和他妈妈聊天，然后和他讲话，他开始问我又可爱又好笑的问题，让在念书的我好不开心。
matthew: yiyi.. where r u now?
me: yiyi is in sch.
matthew: how come u still in sch?
me: becos yiyi is studying in sch. tml got exam.
matthew: how come u still studying in sch? how come u nv go home?
me: becos yiyi is studying in sch lor.
matthew: how come ur sch so late still haven close? how come u nv go home?
me: yiyi's sch dun close one. yiyi's not going home. going home tml.
matthew: how abt the tchers? are the tchers there also?
me: no matthew.. the tchers have gone home.
matthew: how come the tchers go home? then who teach u a lesson?
me: becos the teachers need to rest. yiyi studying myself..
matthew: how abt ur frens? r ur frens in sch..?
and so the conversation goes.
then he asked..
matt: is ur sch in frankel ave? (which for ur info is the add of his sch. ha)
me: no.. yiyi's sch in jurong west..
matt: how come ur sch not in frankel ave? how come ur sch in jurong?
...
matt: is ur sch like brighton montessori? (which is the name of his sch btw)
me: no.. yiyi's sch much bigger than brighton montessori.
matt: but brighton montessori is also very big! ur sch got toys?
me: no yiyi's sch no toys..
matt: how come no toys.. then then .. how about lego? does ur sch have lego?
me: no matthew.. yiyi's sch no lego..
matt: how come no lego.. then.. what about toilets? ur sch got toilets?
me: yes matthew.. yiyi's sch got toilet..
matthew: how come ur sch only got toilet.. (drifting away)
my beloved nephew. can u believe he is five? a few days.. he asked his mum to call me becos he wants to tok to me. to cont this conversation. and what i heard is before i picked up.. he is already toking to me. and after he hung up on me, he was still toking. haha.
my fave boy.
have u fallen in love with him? haha. i noe he is absolutely adorable. love him to bits.
there r many fantastic kids in my family. jus love them.
另外一件事，就是星期四是我最后一天在kumon。我会好想念。。我的同事，更会想念我的学生！下次才给你们照片看！(:
i thot this is a pretty interesting post. muahaha. self praise is no praise.
Friday, April 20, 2007
you are sovereign
God. you are sovereign.
yes i noe u r sovereign.
as ur child, i dun have to beg, dun have to lower my standing, dun have to try in that manner.
yes i know that.
i know that u reign.
i know that vengeance belongs to u.
i know that you reign.
i know that u will fight for me.
i know that u will protect me.
i know that u will come through for me.
i know that no weapon against me shall prosper.
i know that u r on my side.
i know that u r sovereign, so sovereign.
so i will fear not, fret not, worry not.
you r in absolute control. n no weapon no weapon no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
yes i noe u r sovereign.
as ur child, i dun have to beg, dun have to lower my standing, dun have to try in that manner.
yes i know that.
i know that u reign.
i know that vengeance belongs to u.
i know that you reign.
i know that u will fight for me.
i know that u will protect me.
i know that u will come through for me.
i know that no weapon against me shall prosper.
i know that u r on my side.
i know that u r sovereign, so sovereign.
so i will fear not, fret not, worry not.
you r in absolute control. n no weapon no weapon no weapon formed against me shall prosper.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Saturday, April 14, 2007
benny hinn
one of my fave christian books is good morning Holy Spirit. this was the book that really taught me how to get to know the Holy Spirit. and tdy even as i attend pst benny's meeting, i think it's just amazing.
this is what happens when u simply walk with the Holy Spirit, right?
i really crave to have such a relationship with the Holy Spirit, that when u sing and worship, the room is filled with the presence of God. that u can invite the Holy Spirit, and becos of ur relationship with Him, he will show up when u ask me to.
Holy Spirit, teach me how to noe u more.
Pst benny said. Jesus is coming back. We r running out of time.
urgency!
this is what happens when u simply walk with the Holy Spirit, right?
i really crave to have such a relationship with the Holy Spirit, that when u sing and worship, the room is filled with the presence of God. that u can invite the Holy Spirit, and becos of ur relationship with Him, he will show up when u ask me to.
Holy Spirit, teach me how to noe u more.
Pst benny said. Jesus is coming back. We r running out of time.
urgency!
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i have decided to move on
i have decided to move on.
i have dwelled too long in the past.
Jesus said, follow me.
noe wad?
even if u dun follow Him, He will still move on.
His life is to do the will of the Father.
i have decided to move on.
i have issued to all an invitation.
if u r with me, come with me to change the world.
if u r not with me, and u dun wan to move on, u can stay where u r.
it's not that i dun wan to bring u along, but u chose to stay where u r.
i m moving on. with or without u.
u choose.
i m NOT staying back. i m going where He wants me to go.
R u with me?
i have dwelled too long in the past.
Jesus said, follow me.
noe wad?
even if u dun follow Him, He will still move on.
His life is to do the will of the Father.
i have decided to move on.
i have issued to all an invitation.
if u r with me, come with me to change the world.
if u r not with me, and u dun wan to move on, u can stay where u r.
it's not that i dun wan to bring u along, but u chose to stay where u r.
i m moving on. with or without u.
u choose.
i m NOT staying back. i m going where He wants me to go.
R u with me?
sun 做你的公主
或許你沒看出來 周圍的人都在猜
有種感覺正在我們之間展開
喜歡你偶而作怪
不經意留露的壞 其實體貼實在
孩子氣的胸懷
曾經有過的戀愛 彷彿一片空白
直到遇見你 我才真的存在
我只想做你的公主
擁有那平凡的幸福
華麗的珍珠 不如眼底的專注
對我深深呵護
我想我是你的公主
終結這多年的追逐
當你抱著我 地球也暫停腳步
我剎那間清楚
你是我的幸福
沉潛太久的孤獨 這一刻獲得救贖
我忽然好想哭 感激你這一路
陪我笑 陪著我辛苦
無悔的付出
i really love this song.
有種感覺正在我們之間展開
喜歡你偶而作怪
不經意留露的壞 其實體貼實在
孩子氣的胸懷
曾經有過的戀愛 彷彿一片空白
直到遇見你 我才真的存在
我只想做你的公主
擁有那平凡的幸福
華麗的珍珠 不如眼底的專注
對我深深呵護
我想我是你的公主
終結這多年的追逐
當你抱著我 地球也暫停腳步
我剎那間清楚
你是我的幸福
沉潛太久的孤獨 這一刻獲得救贖
我忽然好想哭 感激你這一路
陪我笑 陪著我辛苦
無悔的付出
i really love this song.
Monday, April 09, 2007
thoughts
God looks at the heart.
sometimes i cannot understand, y people try to be someone else. is it in front of me, in front of others, y try to be someone else? even if tdy i can't see, God sees.
guys, God is not interested in the outward. God is not interested in wad u say, wad u promise, sometimes even wad u do, if wad u do is different from wad u feel.
God wants commitment and passion, from the inside out.
pls dun hide. be totally honest before God.
on another note, it's back again.
felt like God is putting me thru that test again.
i din make it the other time and God is a wonderful tcher.
he makes sure that i pass it. haha.
so it is back again.
brace urself to pass the test girl.
sometimes i cannot understand, y people try to be someone else. is it in front of me, in front of others, y try to be someone else? even if tdy i can't see, God sees.
guys, God is not interested in the outward. God is not interested in wad u say, wad u promise, sometimes even wad u do, if wad u do is different from wad u feel.
God wants commitment and passion, from the inside out.
pls dun hide. be totally honest before God.
on another note, it's back again.
felt like God is putting me thru that test again.
i din make it the other time and God is a wonderful tcher.
he makes sure that i pass it. haha.
so it is back again.
brace urself to pass the test girl.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
although i have been whining abt the tons of reports that i have to write, especially 342, i still kind of enjoy really doing it. it has been pretty exciting getting down to writing it and also to research and find out all those things happening in the international society, a quest for knowledge. i never thought i could digest a book as theoretical as this, i thot it would be really tough to "swallow" it all. but i was wrong. i did enjoy reading all these things. (: though sometimes i can get a bit sleepy.
but now, 515am in the morning, sitting at canteen b and attempting to do my 342 is an achievement indeed. go for it xiaoting.
easter is coming!
He is the reason for this season.
jia you.
but now, 515am in the morning, sitting at canteen b and attempting to do my 342 is an achievement indeed. go for it xiaoting.
easter is coming!
He is the reason for this season.
jia you.
Monday, April 02, 2007
朋友
nothing happens by chance.
nothing happens automatically.
昨天很不经意的。。 这样对朋友说
“感情是需要我们去刻意经营的。”
这次。。 我对友情的感受很多
无可逃避的，在不同的地方念书，自己和别人的距离越来越远。
但是，我非常非常珍惜友情。
真的
不管你是在新加坡
或是在美国
只要你在我心里占一席之位
我就一定会抽出时间
和你聊上那一句话
我知道
时间很少
事情很多
never ending projects, reports, essays, tut, homework
but u noe sth?
frens r still so impt
“友情是需要你我去刻意经营的”
sometimes we think that.. even if we dun spend time with one another
it is ok.
things will still remain the same.
really?
有时候我觉得。。
有些东西真的已经变了。
nothing happens automatically.
昨天很不经意的。。 这样对朋友说
“感情是需要我们去刻意经营的。”
这次。。 我对友情的感受很多
无可逃避的，在不同的地方念书，自己和别人的距离越来越远。
但是，我非常非常珍惜友情。
真的
不管你是在新加坡
或是在美国
只要你在我心里占一席之位
我就一定会抽出时间
和你聊上那一句话
我知道
时间很少
事情很多
never ending projects, reports, essays, tut, homework
but u noe sth?
frens r still so impt
“友情是需要你我去刻意经营的”
sometimes we think that.. even if we dun spend time with one another
it is ok.
things will still remain the same.
really?
有时候我觉得。。
有些东西真的已经变了。
Saturday, March 24, 2007
sun
好爱你的新专辑《拥抱》
谢谢你的勇敢
给我力量一直不断的走下去
谢谢你的歌声
给了我无限感动
让我在最黑暗的夜晚
也不觉得孤单
是你的坚持
让我坚持到底
不停下来
是你的阳光
照亮我的心
我没有听到另一把能让我如此感动的声音
谢谢你的坚持
谢谢你不放弃
一直一直透过音乐把感动和爱带给我们
love u sun.
read an article that moved me so much. i love her courage. thank you.
谢谢你的勇敢
给我力量一直不断的走下去
谢谢你的歌声
给了我无限感动
让我在最黑暗的夜晚
也不觉得孤单
是你的坚持
让我坚持到底
不停下来
是你的阳光
照亮我的心
我没有听到另一把能让我如此感动的声音
谢谢你的坚持
谢谢你不放弃
一直一直透过音乐把感动和爱带给我们
love u sun.
read an article that moved me so much. i love her courage. thank you.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
戏剧
今天戏剧盒的人来到南大，谈关于戏剧方面的东西。
他们的一字一句，牵动了我的心。
我不知道这是不是我的calling, 但是我想参与媒体工作。不是记者，不是新闻播报员，我也不懂我要的是什么，可是，心里总有一点的不满足，my soul needs sth more.
或许会做广播，戏剧。。我也不知道，但是我要参与aesthetics的东西。i need to fulfill my soul.
met Him yest.
it was wonderful.
to feel Him close by, speaking straight into my life.
to have His logos jump out on me.
i never want to lose this love for u.
only wan to love u more. n more. n more. n more.
a sip is not enough. i need a well, a fountain of ever lasting water.
draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.
be there Lord.
他们的一字一句，牵动了我的心。
我不知道这是不是我的calling, 但是我想参与媒体工作。不是记者，不是新闻播报员，我也不懂我要的是什么，可是，心里总有一点的不满足，my soul needs sth more.
或许会做广播，戏剧。。我也不知道，但是我要参与aesthetics的东西。i need to fulfill my soul.
met Him yest.
it was wonderful.
to feel Him close by, speaking straight into my life.
to have His logos jump out on me.
i never want to lose this love for u.
only wan to love u more. n more. n more. n more.
a sip is not enough. i need a well, a fountain of ever lasting water.
draw near to Him and He will draw near to you.
be there Lord.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
i feel kinda tired. with the tons of reports due plus exams in one month, it's a little bit scary. but God is always good.
was reminded tdy on how i always lean upon the Lord for strength. N God reminded me to do that again.
"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. "
had a wonderful zone meeting.
on another note, tdy did our presentation for game play.
总觉得自己可以做得更好，虽然面对的限制很多，但我还是想做到最好。真的有放进不少努力，所以觉得老师的批评还是相当残酷的。
但是我们总是需要面对批评，才能够学习，我还是更好的学习吧。
真的好累
was reminded tdy on how i always lean upon the Lord for strength. N God reminded me to do that again.
"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. "
had a wonderful zone meeting.
on another note, tdy did our presentation for game play.
总觉得自己可以做得更好，虽然面对的限制很多，但我还是想做到最好。真的有放进不少努力，所以觉得老师的批评还是相当残酷的。
但是我们总是需要面对批评，才能够学习，我还是更好的学习吧。
真的好累
Monday, March 12, 2007
allow me to be emo for just these few minutes.
the end of something marks the beginning of something greater. God kept on reminding me.
it was a tough decision to make. but i noe God has sth greater in store. so i did it. and here's for u.
to my dearest cg,
i love u. (:
to peter,
everytime we gather and tok bout u, that one word is lame. other than that, mx will always mention how scared u r of me and how tense up u r. (: but i wan u to noe that i m so proud of u! especially when u called me n tell me bout ur results, at the moment i felt so so so proud of u and i jus wanted to tell the whole world that u did it! i noe u struggled real hard with ur studies in the past 2 yrs, but yet i also noe that u really did all that u could for this exam and u really did it! i m so proud of u! u do have a talent n a gift amidst all that lameness. grow to be a man of a greater stature n fulfill the vision i gave to this cg in the beginning of this yr. fulfill ur destiny.
to jordan,
thank u for being so teachable. since the first day u came, u have been teachable and always so willing to be taught. u r always so willing and available, always there, always faithful and u r so great as a member! i see tremendous potential in ur life so really develop ur relationship in God and grow the best u can! u will shine!
to iris,
it has not been an easy road for u i think. from how u first came and got saved, and see people close to u backsliding, but yet u have held on. i noe there r times our faith in God will waver, sometimes it happen for me too, but keep on holding on to God and walk with Him. i noe u will do well in e195.
to huiying,
from that girl that i first saw 2 yrs ago up till tdy, u have come a long way. n i m thankful to God for that. to see u loving the things of God, being excited abt the things of God, becoming more n more spiritual reminds me always y i m still doing the things that i m doing. ur enthusiasm spreads! (: so keep on shining for Him wherever u go..
last but not least,
to ying.
it has been a long discipleship and walk with u, as ur leader and fren. since u were sec 1, that girl with that 2 little plaits, whom i took such a long time to get u to come for cg n svc, to this girl that i see today, strong, spiritual, mature, serving God in this kingdom, i m inspired. gal i saw how u grow all the way, from that little girl till today, it is not easy to let u go. u have been great as a disciple and a helper, enduring all that scoldings from me, standing in the gap, sharing my burden and making things happen, and always loving people, it has been a priveilege to be ur discipler. i pray with all of my heart that i will see u soar like an eagle and fulfill God's call for ur life. you were born, for such a time as this.
it has really not been an easy decision. but this marks sth greater. the rest of us in E357, let's see God's kingdom in this place. (: we spend 2 yrs of our lives tog, it has been awesome, and it will be more awesome.
i love e357. old n new.
the end of sth marks the beginning of sth greater.
the end of something marks the beginning of something greater. God kept on reminding me.
it was a tough decision to make. but i noe God has sth greater in store. so i did it. and here's for u.
to my dearest cg,
i love u. (:
to peter,
everytime we gather and tok bout u, that one word is lame. other than that, mx will always mention how scared u r of me and how tense up u r. (: but i wan u to noe that i m so proud of u! especially when u called me n tell me bout ur results, at the moment i felt so so so proud of u and i jus wanted to tell the whole world that u did it! i noe u struggled real hard with ur studies in the past 2 yrs, but yet i also noe that u really did all that u could for this exam and u really did it! i m so proud of u! u do have a talent n a gift amidst all that lameness. grow to be a man of a greater stature n fulfill the vision i gave to this cg in the beginning of this yr. fulfill ur destiny.
to jordan,
thank u for being so teachable. since the first day u came, u have been teachable and always so willing to be taught. u r always so willing and available, always there, always faithful and u r so great as a member! i see tremendous potential in ur life so really develop ur relationship in God and grow the best u can! u will shine!
to iris,
it has not been an easy road for u i think. from how u first came and got saved, and see people close to u backsliding, but yet u have held on. i noe there r times our faith in God will waver, sometimes it happen for me too, but keep on holding on to God and walk with Him. i noe u will do well in e195.
to huiying,
from that girl that i first saw 2 yrs ago up till tdy, u have come a long way. n i m thankful to God for that. to see u loving the things of God, being excited abt the things of God, becoming more n more spiritual reminds me always y i m still doing the things that i m doing. ur enthusiasm spreads! (: so keep on shining for Him wherever u go..
last but not least,
to ying.
it has been a long discipleship and walk with u, as ur leader and fren. since u were sec 1, that girl with that 2 little plaits, whom i took such a long time to get u to come for cg n svc, to this girl that i see today, strong, spiritual, mature, serving God in this kingdom, i m inspired. gal i saw how u grow all the way, from that little girl till today, it is not easy to let u go. u have been great as a disciple and a helper, enduring all that scoldings from me, standing in the gap, sharing my burden and making things happen, and always loving people, it has been a priveilege to be ur discipler. i pray with all of my heart that i will see u soar like an eagle and fulfill God's call for ur life. you were born, for such a time as this.
it has really not been an easy decision. but this marks sth greater. the rest of us in E357, let's see God's kingdom in this place. (: we spend 2 yrs of our lives tog, it has been awesome, and it will be more awesome.
i love e357. old n new.
the end of sth marks the beginning of sth greater.
Friday, March 09, 2007
whenever i m scared n overwhelmed, this song rings in my head.
all this time
since the day that i was born
i nv known a time like this
i dun wan to let u down
some people see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were n ask why not. what your mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.
all this time
since the day that i was born
i nv known a time like this
i dun wan to let u down
some people see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were n ask why not. what your mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
was just reading a fren's blog to realise that leaders r only human. alot of times when i look at the lders ard me, somehow i feel that they r so amazing and they look so "shen". but yet, tdy i jus feel, ldrs r really only human.
we can get disappointed
we can be frustrated
we can be discouraged
we can be angry
we can get hurt
we need relationships
we need frens
we need God
i m only human. gee
my mind is in a really blank mode now. i wan to type but dunno wad to type.
God............. what should we do? n what can we do?
we can get disappointed
we can be frustrated
we can be discouraged
we can be angry
we can get hurt
we need relationships
we need frens
we need God
i m only human. gee
my mind is in a really blank mode now. i wan to type but dunno wad to type.
God............. what should we do? n what can we do?
Monday, February 12, 2007
...
today he asked me.
"will u carry on?"
"yes i will.if u ask me to."
"will u go on for me?"
"yes Lord,for you i will do it."
"even though it's not going to be easy,will u still do for it for me?"
"yes Lord i will.for you i will.'
and then he asked me.
"will u stay?"
"yes if u ask me to i will"
"thank you girl"
"at your word i will do it.i love you.enough to give it up for you."
"at your word Lord.it's hard n painful.but if u say it,i will do it."
"will u carry on?"
"yes i will.if u ask me to."
"will u go on for me?"
"yes Lord,for you i will do it."
"even though it's not going to be easy,will u still do for it for me?"
"yes Lord i will.for you i will.'
and then he asked me.
"will u stay?"
"yes if u ask me to i will"
"thank you girl"
"at your word i will do it.i love you.enough to give it up for you."
"at your word Lord.it's hard n painful.but if u say it,i will do it."
Monday, February 05, 2007
singapore
blogging again. to pen some thots for the day.
toked to liu xiao peng tdy while having meeting. he is hilarious. no wonder everybody asked me to take his lesson. hahaha.
but he said sth that really taught me sth tdy.
i remembered.. when i was in china, i felt so much like y r these pple so "chong yang".. they feel so much that the things out of china r better.. and they look "out" for china to think there is a greater world out there, when i simply feel that it is the contrary, that they have so much assets n talents in china themselves!
then tdy liu lao shi said sth that sort of like gave me a revelation. haven we.. the so-called "elites".. also despised what is of Singapore.. thinking that it is LC, of no quality, and always thinking that the cultured things r so much better. but tdy liu lao shi gave me a total different perspective.
he is totally in love with "ben tu" movies.. like i not stupid, money not enough etc. and he said.. that all these feel like a "nan han" from the lower income pple in singapore.. and he loves the songs n everything.. thinking that they r so cool..
he said.. what is wrong with singlish? for a culture and background as complicated as ours, it is interesting how we develop the lang that belongs to us uniquely.. this is singapore! and y must singaporeans get rid of singlish.. or despise wad is local?
i m amazed. this is a perspective that i've not heard before. and to my amusement/amazement, we r just like the mainland chinese that i saw huh.. who r so convinced that what is outside is so much better than what is inside.. but actually, there is sth valuable in this island i live in.
i think i shld learn to change my perspective, to stop being so "chong yang", and to love "ben tu", and to be proud of being a singaporean.
3 cheers to singapore!
toked to liu xiao peng tdy while having meeting. he is hilarious. no wonder everybody asked me to take his lesson. hahaha.
but he said sth that really taught me sth tdy.
i remembered.. when i was in china, i felt so much like y r these pple so "chong yang".. they feel so much that the things out of china r better.. and they look "out" for china to think there is a greater world out there, when i simply feel that it is the contrary, that they have so much assets n talents in china themselves!
then tdy liu lao shi said sth that sort of like gave me a revelation. haven we.. the so-called "elites".. also despised what is of Singapore.. thinking that it is LC, of no quality, and always thinking that the cultured things r so much better. but tdy liu lao shi gave me a total different perspective.
he is totally in love with "ben tu" movies.. like i not stupid, money not enough etc. and he said.. that all these feel like a "nan han" from the lower income pple in singapore.. and he loves the songs n everything.. thinking that they r so cool..
he said.. what is wrong with singlish? for a culture and background as complicated as ours, it is interesting how we develop the lang that belongs to us uniquely.. this is singapore! and y must singaporeans get rid of singlish.. or despise wad is local?
i m amazed. this is a perspective that i've not heard before. and to my amusement/amazement, we r just like the mainland chinese that i saw huh.. who r so convinced that what is outside is so much better than what is inside.. but actually, there is sth valuable in this island i live in.
i think i shld learn to change my perspective, to stop being so "chong yang", and to love "ben tu", and to be proud of being a singaporean.
3 cheers to singapore!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
photo updates!
these r the pics i took from Hk macau n shen zhen. pls enjoy! more pics to come! stay tuned.. otherwise pls visit stargazing28.multiply.com
Saturday, January 20, 2007
it's funny..
how i have taken up a whole new challenge.. and the devil launches his attack. good try.
i feel like i m at wit's end, but yet i know i must once again rise up, to call what You have called me.
I will answer the call, rise up to the occasion, and do what it takes to be that person You wan me to be.
2007 will be great.. and it will be the greatest yr!
here's to..
excellent academic results
growth in the cell
growth in xiaoting's life
growth in chc
and here's to xiaoting being the person god has intended her to be..
cheers!
i feel like i m at wit's end, but yet i know i must once again rise up, to call what You have called me.
I will answer the call, rise up to the occasion, and do what it takes to be that person You wan me to be.
2007 will be great.. and it will be the greatest yr!
here's to..
excellent academic results
growth in the cell
growth in xiaoting's life
growth in chc
and here's to xiaoting being the person god has intended her to be..
cheers!
Monday, January 15, 2007
world shaker. history maker.
i promise u.
against all odds i will make it. with You.
all this time
since the day that i was born
i nv known a time like this
i dun wan to let you down
against all odds i will make it. with You.
all this time
since the day that i was born
i nv known a time like this
i dun wan to let you down
Sunday, December 24, 2006
christmas
i m really supposed to be sleeping now. but i jus wanted to blog abt this.
i always love attending big celebration services, just like our xmas tdy.
tdy after i watched the drama, when i was holding the candle, i was just so filled with awe.. and with thanksgiving. in my heart i was telling God.. thank You for coming 2000 yrs ago for me, n for u and the entire human race. (:
and the second time i was holding the candle, Jesus spoke to me. Ting i came to be a light to this world, to dispel darkness, n whoever has me, they will not live in darkness, i will light up their life, just like the little candle that lit me up. i may not be able to see many steps ahead, but becos of the light that is guiding me, i can walk every step of the way.
he leads. n he lives.
happy birthday Jesus.
n merry xmas to all.
i always love attending big celebration services, just like our xmas tdy.
tdy after i watched the drama, when i was holding the candle, i was just so filled with awe.. and with thanksgiving. in my heart i was telling God.. thank You for coming 2000 yrs ago for me, n for u and the entire human race. (:
and the second time i was holding the candle, Jesus spoke to me. Ting i came to be a light to this world, to dispel darkness, n whoever has me, they will not live in darkness, i will light up their life, just like the little candle that lit me up. i may not be able to see many steps ahead, but becos of the light that is guiding me, i can walk every step of the way.
he leads. n he lives.
happy birthday Jesus.
n merry xmas to all.
Friday, December 22, 2006
戏后感想
很神奇的一件事是，每一次看一些笨到不行的家庭温馨影片，我都会哭得稀里哗啦。记得有一次我很伤心的回家，看着《我家四个宝》的大结局，我竟然哭了起来。真是荒谬。
刚才又在电视上看了类似的电影，又哭得稀里哗啦。电影的尾端写着：
献给那些为爱坚持和牺牲的人
突然想起以前常跟朋友说的话，现在走的这条路，似乎困难重重。天天都在“打仗”，好不辛苦。但话又说回来，我那时这么对朋友说，有什么值得争取的东西又是轻而易举的呢？
生命里值得我们追求的东西，不是都需要我们去披荆斩棘，才能得到吗？
success is not a destination. it is a journey. now i sound like some motivation speaker, which i hate.
总觉得每个人的生命里，都需要一个我们去坚持的理由。我常对朋友说，(yes n again) 其中一个让我这么珍惜有他的日子，因为他给了我活着的意义。我讨厌一些无聊的推动力，来逼我做我不想做的事。什么你需要一张好文凭啦，你需要赚很多钱等。。这些并不是不好的，但是，只为了追求这些而生存，我的生活也太没意义了。
当我看到老一辈的人时，总觉得感慨。看到我退休的老师们，爸爸和他的朋友，脸上流露着沧桑，希望我以后不会是这样。一股。。我们在这社会打滚了几十年，这世界是没有什么意义的。。 如果活了半百年，而又这样的感慨，实在令人感到难过。
所以。。
2007年的心愿，就是尽心地过每一天，活出自信，活出精彩，在我在生命里的这一篇添上美丽的色彩。
i wanna live a legacy behind.
刚才又在电视上看了类似的电影，又哭得稀里哗啦。电影的尾端写着：
献给那些为爱坚持和牺牲的人
突然想起以前常跟朋友说的话，现在走的这条路，似乎困难重重。天天都在“打仗”，好不辛苦。但话又说回来，我那时这么对朋友说，有什么值得争取的东西又是轻而易举的呢？
生命里值得我们追求的东西，不是都需要我们去披荆斩棘，才能得到吗？
success is not a destination. it is a journey. now i sound like some motivation speaker, which i hate.
总觉得每个人的生命里，都需要一个我们去坚持的理由。我常对朋友说，(yes n again) 其中一个让我这么珍惜有他的日子，因为他给了我活着的意义。我讨厌一些无聊的推动力，来逼我做我不想做的事。什么你需要一张好文凭啦，你需要赚很多钱等。。这些并不是不好的，但是，只为了追求这些而生存，我的生活也太没意义了。
当我看到老一辈的人时，总觉得感慨。看到我退休的老师们，爸爸和他的朋友，脸上流露着沧桑，希望我以后不会是这样。一股。。我们在这社会打滚了几十年，这世界是没有什么意义的。。 如果活了半百年，而又这样的感慨，实在令人感到难过。
所以。。
2007年的心愿，就是尽心地过每一天，活出自信，活出精彩，在我在生命里的这一篇添上美丽的色彩。
i wanna live a legacy behind.
Monday, December 11, 2006
a penny for ur thoughts
some things some pple said in the week that really spoke into my heart.
"If we have an escapist mentality, we will miss God big time. "
~sophie
"The Holy Spirit always do a greater work in the newer generation. If you are 24 and under, u r the next generation, n u will see God move in a greater way. John --> Jesus --> disciples. Greater works u will do than me, Jesus said. Dun say, not yet. Dun say, let me wait till tml, next yr, 5 years later. Today is the day of salvation. Rise up u new generation n equip urself to do the greater work! there will be a greater anointing, and the Holy Spirit will come, and He will use you for the greater works!!"
~sth pst tan said in my words.
pastor tan once said in one service.
"Disappointment is the hijacker of ur plane, that stops u from getting to ur destination."
equip me for the greater works. like how u used mary, use me.
let it be to me according to Your word.
"If we have an escapist mentality, we will miss God big time. "
~sophie
"The Holy Spirit always do a greater work in the newer generation. If you are 24 and under, u r the next generation, n u will see God move in a greater way. John --> Jesus --> disciples. Greater works u will do than me, Jesus said. Dun say, not yet. Dun say, let me wait till tml, next yr, 5 years later. Today is the day of salvation. Rise up u new generation n equip urself to do the greater work! there will be a greater anointing, and the Holy Spirit will come, and He will use you for the greater works!!"
~sth pst tan said in my words.
pastor tan once said in one service.
"Disappointment is the hijacker of ur plane, that stops u from getting to ur destination."
equip me for the greater works. like how u used mary, use me.
let it be to me according to Your word.
Monday, December 04, 2006
in addition.
oh a few more things i forgot to blog bout.
last mon was miss sim's birthday! happy bday gal! love yaaaaaa! (((((:
and last fri was hui ying's bday too. sweet 16!
last sat went out to eat with esther daryl n sophie. seriously,i was really inspired by esther. working for her under half a yr.. i learnt some stuff but not alot cos i was too scared all the time. but now esther being in our zone, i really look up to her. n for once, i m unable to express the reason y i think she is so cool. really. but she has alot of confidence, she is a great leader, but she is not jus zai in the spiritual aspect, although she is really very zai as a spiritual ldr, she is more amazing than that. oh God help me to be like her!
and .. and..
DIYA ROCKS BIG TIME AT SUPERSTAR!!!!!
oh man i m jus so proud of her. i think she was so great n so cool.. i hope she really keeps it up all that way! go diya!
last mon was miss sim's birthday! happy bday gal! love yaaaaaa! (((((:
and last fri was hui ying's bday too. sweet 16!
last sat went out to eat with esther daryl n sophie. seriously,i was really inspired by esther. working for her under half a yr.. i learnt some stuff but not alot cos i was too scared all the time. but now esther being in our zone, i really look up to her. n for once, i m unable to express the reason y i think she is so cool. really. but she has alot of confidence, she is a great leader, but she is not jus zai in the spiritual aspect, although she is really very zai as a spiritual ldr, she is more amazing than that. oh God help me to be like her!
and .. and..
DIYA ROCKS BIG TIME AT SUPERSTAR!!!!!
oh man i m jus so proud of her. i think she was so great n so cool.. i hope she really keeps it up all that way! go diya!
the past one week.
it has been an eventful week. God has been revealing many things to me and i learnt many many things. exams r finally over.
i love the service today. i dunno y but suddenly i m treasuring the days in church so much. yest i was jus standing outside the audi n i really felt the presence n anointing over city harvest. i love u church. n i feel like i jus wan to fall in love with You all over again. to be down at Your feet o Lord.
prayer meeting was awesome. i thot cg meeting was great too. feel like the breakthrough is coming.. we jus got to pray UNTIL we feel the presence n power of God.
tdy during prayer meeting, God was speaking to me. n God was telling me.. all that i had to do is to be like shamgar.. to hear n to obey. and the key to ur walk is to pray, hear n obey n pray.
i jus wan to fall in love with you. fall in love with you. nth beats spending with u lord. i can play, get wild, have fun with my frens, but i wan you.. so much in my life. becos without u, there is nth in my life. let it not get mechanical. let everything flow.. out of a love for You.
i love the service today. i dunno y but suddenly i m treasuring the days in church so much. yest i was jus standing outside the audi n i really felt the presence n anointing over city harvest. i love u church. n i feel like i jus wan to fall in love with You all over again. to be down at Your feet o Lord.
prayer meeting was awesome. i thot cg meeting was great too. feel like the breakthrough is coming.. we jus got to pray UNTIL we feel the presence n power of God.
tdy during prayer meeting, God was speaking to me. n God was telling me.. all that i had to do is to be like shamgar.. to hear n to obey. and the key to ur walk is to pray, hear n obey n pray.
i jus wan to fall in love with you. fall in love with you. nth beats spending with u lord. i can play, get wild, have fun with my frens, but i wan you.. so much in my life. becos without u, there is nth in my life. let it not get mechanical. let everything flow.. out of a love for You.
Friday, December 01, 2006
it's december!!!
i can't believe it!!!! we have stepped into the month of december! oh man.. and in a matter of 30 days, we r coming to an end of 2006! i really want to end this yr well with a super big bang! oh God i need ur grace oh so much!
jus read abt the ahs prom night. reminds me so much of my dhs and hc days. due to me toking more frequently to my ex-classmates, i miss uniform sch days so much! can't wait to get tog with the dhs and hwa chong frens!!! and my dear helen girl, i can't wait for u to come back! i havent seen u for a yr!!!! can we like go count down tog and get wild???? haaaha.
suddenly i really miss hanging out with frens n stuff. to all those who r reading my blog now.. especially my ex-classmates, i wan u to know that i miss u so much!!!! miss hanging out with all of u!!!! can we pls organise some outings.. and for those pple in 4e, come on man let's go out! haaha. stop waiting for somebody to organise.. haaha. i m jus gonna call somebody n initiate it.. i m so good at arrowing people. but pple, i miss u!!!!!!!!!
it's kind of SHOCKING to find out.. that all of us r going to be 21 next yr, and that the guys r all going into uni and become our juniors. muahahaha. but it's cool and it's brilliant n i simply cannot wait to meet up with all of u...
so for the month of december.. this is the song for u! Let's get loud.. let's get loud! haaaha
nah.. the mth of december marks a month of SOULS N BREAKTHROUGHS!
n it marks ending the yr with a BIG BANG!
n it marks reflections.. for all the wrong things i have done n need to change.. and to think abt wad i m going to do for the rest of my life.. haaha.
n it marks planning my 21st birthday! i think it's realli gonna get loud.. haaaaha.
n it marks meeting up with frens.. all the dhs pple and hwa chong pple.. let's meet up!
n it marks helen coming back.. u dunno how much i miss u girl..
n it marks CHRISTMAS!!!! christmas is coming...!!!
He's the reason for da season. so everything is going to be so great!
let's have a wonder-licious... DECEMBER N CHRISTMAS!!!!
jus read abt the ahs prom night. reminds me so much of my dhs and hc days. due to me toking more frequently to my ex-classmates, i miss uniform sch days so much! can't wait to get tog with the dhs and hwa chong frens!!! and my dear helen girl, i can't wait for u to come back! i havent seen u for a yr!!!! can we like go count down tog and get wild???? haaaha.
suddenly i really miss hanging out with frens n stuff. to all those who r reading my blog now.. especially my ex-classmates, i wan u to know that i miss u so much!!!! miss hanging out with all of u!!!! can we pls organise some outings.. and for those pple in 4e, come on man let's go out! haaha. stop waiting for somebody to organise.. haaha. i m jus gonna call somebody n initiate it.. i m so good at arrowing people. but pple, i miss u!!!!!!!!!
it's kind of SHOCKING to find out.. that all of us r going to be 21 next yr, and that the guys r all going into uni and become our juniors. muahahaha. but it's cool and it's brilliant n i simply cannot wait to meet up with all of u...
so for the month of december.. this is the song for u! Let's get loud.. let's get loud! haaaha
nah.. the mth of december marks a month of SOULS N BREAKTHROUGHS!
n it marks ending the yr with a BIG BANG!
n it marks reflections.. for all the wrong things i have done n need to change.. and to think abt wad i m going to do for the rest of my life.. haaha.
n it marks planning my 21st birthday! i think it's realli gonna get loud.. haaaaha.
n it marks meeting up with frens.. all the dhs pple and hwa chong pple.. let's meet up!
n it marks helen coming back.. u dunno how much i miss u girl..
n it marks CHRISTMAS!!!! christmas is coming...!!!
He's the reason for da season. so everything is going to be so great!
let's have a wonder-licious... DECEMBER N CHRISTMAS!!!!
其实我并没有什么也别想写的东西，感觉好像是硬逼自己坐在电脑面前，脑袋一片空白，手指却不停的打着。不知从哪一个时候开始，我学习如何让自己的脑袋放空。以前的我，脑袋总是充满了101条思绪。现在的我，却好像有点失了魂的样，有点和自己的思想和心情隔绝了。
i need to get in touch with my soul. i wonder how i can do that.
我好想飞。好想做一些很疯狂的事。有时候人在忙碌的时候，或许会迷失自己。我感觉晓亭迷路了好久，快点找到回家的路吧。
来临的一月，我想要消失。你想不想跟着一起来？让我们随风飞去，消失在人海中吧。
一个人 消失在人海中
如何 在人海找到自己 那是关键
我快要到家了 请等一等我吧。
i need to get in touch with my soul. i wonder how i can do that.
我好想飞。好想做一些很疯狂的事。有时候人在忙碌的时候，或许会迷失自己。我感觉晓亭迷路了好久，快点找到回家的路吧。
来临的一月，我想要消失。你想不想跟着一起来？让我们随风飞去，消失在人海中吧。
一个人 消失在人海中
如何 在人海找到自己 那是关键
我快要到家了 请等一等我吧。
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
sth new to blog abt
ooo. finally the exams r over! haaha. seriously i dun feel the sense of happiness i thot i will feel. nevertheless, i m happy, and i think i have worked hard. (not too bad la. quite hard)
went out with a fren tdy. i had quite a lot of fun n learned quite a lot of things. n from here, i m going to blog.
Hey gal,
what happened really changed my thinking. rem i used to tell u those things i said last time (pls dun reveal wad i said to him k).. i feel like i shld take them back, but i wun. but i must say, i m impressed. haaah. and this will make somebody's head very big. i really hope it will not, but this is from the bottom of my heart.
knowing him since quite a while ago makes us think that he is casual, laidback, and not much of a passionate person. no doubt we agreed he will make a very good bf, somehow we thot he din really proved to be so. but gal, i thot he has proven what we said right.
when i was toking to him, from the little things that he said, i learnt a lot of things. n i have to say, i think u found someone u can entrust urself to. no doubt there r things to be changed, but everyone of us has, but when u find someone who has a heart for you, and who thinks abt u in every little thing, i think that is wonderful. and i can really feel that love, care n concern in his voice. he is a great bf to have. and u r a great gf to have to, of course.
and girl, i think u r blessed. i m kinda convinced that he is really a great person.. and i hope he will live with passion and achieve great things.
and from the bottom of my heart, wishing u love forevermore.
to him,
i dunno if u will end up reading this or not, but u really impressed me big time. haah. u must be wondering y. i end up feeling that she is really the girl for u.
treasure her big time k.. i feel that my fren is so precious. n i think i know u will.
and dream big! and plan big! and do big things! i think u really can. so go there n do it, and be the BIGGEST TREE u can be, and provide the greatest shelter, stability and security.
and the most sincere blessings from my heart, your fren,
xiaoting
went out with a fren tdy. i had quite a lot of fun n learned quite a lot of things. n from here, i m going to blog.
Hey gal,
what happened really changed my thinking. rem i used to tell u those things i said last time (pls dun reveal wad i said to him k).. i feel like i shld take them back, but i wun. but i must say, i m impressed. haaah. and this will make somebody's head very big. i really hope it will not, but this is from the bottom of my heart.
knowing him since quite a while ago makes us think that he is casual, laidback, and not much of a passionate person. no doubt we agreed he will make a very good bf, somehow we thot he din really proved to be so. but gal, i thot he has proven what we said right.
when i was toking to him, from the little things that he said, i learnt a lot of things. n i have to say, i think u found someone u can entrust urself to. no doubt there r things to be changed, but everyone of us has, but when u find someone who has a heart for you, and who thinks abt u in every little thing, i think that is wonderful. and i can really feel that love, care n concern in his voice. he is a great bf to have. and u r a great gf to have to, of course.
and girl, i think u r blessed. i m kinda convinced that he is really a great person.. and i hope he will live with passion and achieve great things.
and from the bottom of my heart, wishing u love forevermore.
to him,
i dunno if u will end up reading this or not, but u really impressed me big time. haah. u must be wondering y. i end up feeling that she is really the girl for u.
treasure her big time k.. i feel that my fren is so precious. n i think i know u will.
and dream big! and plan big! and do big things! i think u really can. so go there n do it, and be the BIGGEST TREE u can be, and provide the greatest shelter, stability and security.
and the most sincere blessings from my heart, your fren,
xiaoting
Monday, November 27, 2006
it has not been a very easy time. i feel like i m in the wilderness. n that my faith is being tested. i kept asking God, y r things not happening.. then i had a thought. maybe the angels delivering my answers r wrestling with the demons, so I NEED TO KEEP ON PRAYING.
i have nv or as far as i can remember, got myself into such a situation. i need help from You God.
daddy you will not allow us to go thru anything we cannot bear. and for every situation, there is always a way out. so i m really trusting in You. to come through for me.... Lord. help me. please.
i have nv or as far as i can remember, got myself into such a situation. i need help from You God.
daddy you will not allow us to go thru anything we cannot bear. and for every situation, there is always a way out. so i m really trusting in You. to come through for me.... Lord. help me. please.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
do i look silly in this thing? i love it. haah. cos it's like sth that some mongolian princess will wear. but i look really dumb right? haah.
me n qi were really sound asleep n some evil pple took our pictures. haha.
my very good fren. 
this was taken on my birthday.celebrated it with my cg at 85.
this is evidence that i know belinda! but i m not sure if she remembers us. we were from the same bus in israel! i think she is pretty.
Friday, November 24, 2006
it has been a long week.
i realise i always recuperate by sleeping. is it physically, emotionally, or mentally.
it is not always that effective.
not as effective as the presence of God anyway.
but i slept. and left 6 chaps of my astronomy untouched. n left 1 plain prata n 1 egg prata untouched. wad a waste of my money. ha.
sometimes God leave u hanging to the thinest line possible, so that u can hang on the biggest God possible.
i feel like.. if God is not going to see me through, i m dead.
yep.
but.. He is going to see me thru. so..
LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL. DESPITE ITS IMPERFECTIONS. THANK U!
i realise i always recuperate by sleeping. is it physically, emotionally, or mentally.
it is not always that effective.
not as effective as the presence of God anyway.
but i slept. and left 6 chaps of my astronomy untouched. n left 1 plain prata n 1 egg prata untouched. wad a waste of my money. ha.
sometimes God leave u hanging to the thinest line possible, so that u can hang on the biggest God possible.
i feel like.. if God is not going to see me through, i m dead.
yep.
but.. He is going to see me thru. so..
LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL. DESPITE ITS IMPERFECTIONS. THANK U!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
is there anything too hard for Me?
Eze 22:30
so i sought for a man among, who would make a wall and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, but i found no one.
For a moment, i thot i was wrong.
Meiyan said sth, that i felt it might be really so. it went into my spirit.
perhaps it is time for a change. a big change.
"is there anything too hard for Me?"
i serve a BIG God. what bout u?
so i sought for a man among, who would make a wall and stand in the gap before Me on behalf of the land, but i found no one.
For a moment, i thot i was wrong.
Meiyan said sth, that i felt it might be really so. it went into my spirit.
perhaps it is time for a change. a big change.
"is there anything too hard for Me?"
i serve a BIG God. what bout u?
Saturday, November 18, 2006
enjoying
was jus chilling out with chan eng at sing post. i know. wad a place right. haah.i was waiting for my bag. which i manage to slash the price from 32.90 to 25! it's either the person really jack up the price so much or i m a good bargainer. haaah.
but i feel deprived for so long. that for so long.. i think almost for one mth.. i have no life. n i realise how much i miss fun.. miss shopping.. miss hanging out. i need a breather! to all who r reading my blog right now, if u r free, u r invited to hang out with xiaoting after 29nov. haah. pls... ask me out to play! anything will do. i m considering to.. go to the zoo? go shopping.. watch movies.. vivo city.. etc etc etc. n i m going HK in jan i think n i hope.
my grandma jus moved into my hse. n i used to think that it is such a horror. but i realise, it is not so bad afterall. she is really nice. and having an old lady in the hse is nice. i realise old pple can jus get lonely. and they r jus looking for company. i love my grandma! haah.
i love my life. all thanks to the river that flows.
but i feel deprived for so long. that for so long.. i think almost for one mth.. i have no life. n i realise how much i miss fun.. miss shopping.. miss hanging out. i need a breather! to all who r reading my blog right now, if u r free, u r invited to hang out with xiaoting after 29nov. haah. pls... ask me out to play! anything will do. i m considering to.. go to the zoo? go shopping.. watch movies.. vivo city.. etc etc etc. n i m going HK in jan i think n i hope.
my grandma jus moved into my hse. n i used to think that it is such a horror. but i realise, it is not so bad afterall. she is really nice. and having an old lady in the hse is nice. i realise old pple can jus get lonely. and they r jus looking for company. i love my grandma! haah.
i love my life. all thanks to the river that flows.
Friday, November 17, 2006
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
one last blog
i m going back hall. tml is my exam. somehow i feel like... i dunno. but this exam is really impt to me. i guess i have not taken exams so seriously since a long time ago. becos the xiaoting in jc n secondary n pri has been really hardworking. but since i came to uni, i forgot what it is like to work hard.
but i must get started now. n i have had a track record for the past 13 weeks. n i pray n i pray, i can run the last lap well and fight the good fight of faith.
i m still looking to my good grades. n today is the last day. xiaoting u must really start mugging very hard!!!
i really need grace. need grace to study hard in the midst of exams plus all the different activities.
God, empower me to succeed. thank You.
but i must get started now. n i have had a track record for the past 13 weeks. n i pray n i pray, i can run the last lap well and fight the good fight of faith.
i m still looking to my good grades. n today is the last day. xiaoting u must really start mugging very hard!!!
i really need grace. need grace to study hard in the midst of exams plus all the different activities.
God, empower me to succeed. thank You.
God's word for this week
John 7:37-38
"..'If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scriptures have said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water. "
I need the rivers of living water. i need to drink from the well that never runs dry.
when u r in the Spirit, there is a river and that is a flow. things dun get hard going. things dun get dry. becos the river flows.
Holy Spirit rain down upon me, upon us, upon my cg, upon this church i pray.
i wan to know the one who holds my hand as i run this race.
more of You Holy Spirit.
what lies ahead of me looks scary n insurmountable. but becos u r here, n u hold my hand day by day, everything is going to be ok. thank You.
"..'If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scriptures have said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water. "
I need the rivers of living water. i need to drink from the well that never runs dry.
when u r in the Spirit, there is a river and that is a flow. things dun get hard going. things dun get dry. becos the river flows.
Holy Spirit rain down upon me, upon us, upon my cg, upon this church i pray.
i wan to know the one who holds my hand as i run this race.
more of You Holy Spirit.
what lies ahead of me looks scary n insurmountable. but becos u r here, n u hold my hand day by day, everything is going to be ok. thank You.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
i m always very appreciative of pst ulf's appearance. becos he nv fails to remind me wad i m missing out on. haha. whenever i see him, i will think n wonder n be in awe. becos he always demonstrates that "high" level that a minister can go up to. n i wish i have that kind of anointing n love n relationship with God.
it seems like as u grow older, u become more n more set in ur ways. n u have less n less desire for the extraordinary. i hate that happening to me. i wan to have a DEEP hunger for the things of God. a THIRST for the Holy Spirit n for what God has in store for me.
sometimes when u get busy, u jus get too busy to think. i have sort of spent less n less time thinking. n cos of the lack of laptop, i blog less n less. i like blogging. cos blogging makes me think. forces me to think.
yest studied at th airport overnight with ting zimu n jeremy. m amazed by zimu. he demonstrates an amazing depth of knowledge n opinions for his age.
noe wad? i wan to really have that kind of depth. jus now jeremy mentioned that terence (not that terence, haha) has depth. n i kind of have been missing out on that for a while. i really wan to be a great leader, who is anointed, who is fruitful, and i wan to have the rivers of living water flowing out of me. yet i also wan to be someone who qualifies to be sum1 great in the marketplace. that pple look up to u for ur wisdom, ur knowledge.
it is only when i grew up, that i learn, what did pst mean by ur life changes only when ur thinking changes.
Lord, help me put on ur mind everyday.
help me to have a heart after you.
help me to love like u do.
help me to have a hunger like Jesus has.
i wan to love u more more more than ever before.
i wan to be more in love with u more than ever before.
i wan the Holy Spirit. so much.
感觉还蛮痛的
最讨厌的应该是尽心去做一件事 却不得要领
有时候感觉
因为某件事情的发生
世界好像要垮下来了
但是
常常这么想
从另一个角度
things r really not so bad..
so when u learn to look at it from a different perspective.
when u learn to let go n let God
而当你知道 不管发生什么事
he is in control.
everything will be ok.
n i love you Lord for that very assurance. (((:
it seems like as u grow older, u become more n more set in ur ways. n u have less n less desire for the extraordinary. i hate that happening to me. i wan to have a DEEP hunger for the things of God. a THIRST for the Holy Spirit n for what God has in store for me.
sometimes when u get busy, u jus get too busy to think. i have sort of spent less n less time thinking. n cos of the lack of laptop, i blog less n less. i like blogging. cos blogging makes me think. forces me to think.
yest studied at th airport overnight with ting zimu n jeremy. m amazed by zimu. he demonstrates an amazing depth of knowledge n opinions for his age.
noe wad? i wan to really have that kind of depth. jus now jeremy mentioned that terence (not that terence, haha) has depth. n i kind of have been missing out on that for a while. i really wan to be a great leader, who is anointed, who is fruitful, and i wan to have the rivers of living water flowing out of me. yet i also wan to be someone who qualifies to be sum1 great in the marketplace. that pple look up to u for ur wisdom, ur knowledge.
it is only when i grew up, that i learn, what did pst mean by ur life changes only when ur thinking changes.
Lord, help me put on ur mind everyday.
help me to have a heart after you.
help me to love like u do.
help me to have a hunger like Jesus has.
i wan to love u more more more than ever before.
i wan to be more in love with u more than ever before.
i wan the Holy Spirit. so much.
感觉还蛮痛的
最讨厌的应该是尽心去做一件事 却不得要领
有时候感觉
因为某件事情的发生
世界好像要垮下来了
但是
常常这么想
从另一个角度
things r really not so bad..
so when u learn to look at it from a different perspective.
when u learn to let go n let God
而当你知道 不管发生什么事
he is in control.
everything will be ok.
n i love you Lord for that very assurance. (((:
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
random n goong.
i dunno how it happened. but i felt in love with goong. i m not supposed to, i guess, but i jus could not really help it. it jus happened one day. anyway i m so glad that i have finished watching it after endless sleepless nights of looking at shin goon. hahaha.
我猜想
每个女孩的心里都有一个属于她的童话故事
而每个女孩都期待自己的白马王子
但是你又会发现
戏里面你能看到的信
或许在真实的世界里
是不会出现的
but anyway. it is over. although i m still in love with shin goon. haha.
everytime u climb to mountain top, u can expect to see a valley?
i m still learning to get used to hall life. it's not too bad now, after i brought my hifi in. i realise i cant live without music. i rather have some weird dj toking to me den to be reading in sheer silence. scary.
but i think i really love the privacy of my room. n hall enables me to sleep n eat alot. but i hate it when there is no hot water for my bath!!! haha. lame right but ya.
i m really gonna mug this time round. jus taught the pple in cg last wk abt how.. when u lay down ur life for God, u enter into a covenant relationship with him, then He will gather all of heaven to empower u to succeed. i thot this is how i m feeling right now.
thank u Jesus.
thank You for being so gracious, for forgiving the things that i have done.
thank You for letting me know that in every valley, u r there.
thank You for giving me hope.
thank You for ur blessing, for empowering me to succeed.
and thank You that u made me. (:
love ya.
我猜想
每个女孩的心里都有一个属于她的童话故事
而每个女孩都期待自己的白马王子
但是你又会发现
戏里面你能看到的信
或许在真实的世界里
是不会出现的
but anyway. it is over. although i m still in love with shin goon. haha.
everytime u climb to mountain top, u can expect to see a valley?
i m still learning to get used to hall life. it's not too bad now, after i brought my hifi in. i realise i cant live without music. i rather have some weird dj toking to me den to be reading in sheer silence. scary.
but i think i really love the privacy of my room. n hall enables me to sleep n eat alot. but i hate it when there is no hot water for my bath!!! haha. lame right but ya.
i m really gonna mug this time round. jus taught the pple in cg last wk abt how.. when u lay down ur life for God, u enter into a covenant relationship with him, then He will gather all of heaven to empower u to succeed. i thot this is how i m feeling right now.
thank u Jesus.
thank You for being so gracious, for forgiving the things that i have done.
thank You for letting me know that in every valley, u r there.
thank You for giving me hope.
thank You for ur blessing, for empowering me to succeed.
and thank You that u made me. (:
love ya.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
无可救药
暗戀是一種禮貌
暗地裡蓋一座城堡
然後再當你的警衛跑腿跟小貓
隨時你要我重灌電腦
隨時你要我隨傳隨到買麵包 雞排跟水餃
你每次對著我笑
你的笑裡面有毒藥
我看著你出了神還丟掉了解藥
可能你從來沒感覺到
最好你永遠感覺不到
愛上你 越來越無可救藥
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才慢慢體會到
幸福是被愛的人需要
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才狠狠決定要
就愛吧就醬吧就不逃
愛你到無可救藥
-阿信-
he is cool. ha.
暗地裡蓋一座城堡
然後再當你的警衛跑腿跟小貓
隨時你要我重灌電腦
隨時你要我隨傳隨到買麵包 雞排跟水餃
你每次對著我笑
你的笑裡面有毒藥
我看著你出了神還丟掉了解藥
可能你從來沒感覺到
最好你永遠感覺不到
愛上你 越來越無可救藥
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才慢慢體會到
幸福是被愛的人需要
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我 才狠狠決定要
就愛吧就醬吧就不逃
愛你到無可救藥
-阿信-
he is cool. ha.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
hall 4
today is my second night in hall. i was initially very excited to stay in hall. but yest while i was in sch, i thot abt how "lonely" my hall is gonna be, with no roommate, no laptop, no music, i felt like my heart sank. I m scared of the silence in it.. and i miss home. :( i know i sound so kiddish.. n it is so unlike me becos i m usually not like that. i thot i was independent n stuff too, n i still think i m, but prob not as much. haha. i really miss the security of home.
家是我的避风港
是每天我回去
最向往的地方
家有我熟悉的味道
由能牵动我心的音乐
由我不需要用脑放轻松的电视
没错
我好想家
而且我发现
想的不是家人
是家
it's so good to be home.
i din realise i will take time to adapt. really din. n i realise my heart is attached to alot of things at home. n i m super dependent on my com. without msn, without blogging, i feel empty!! haix.
ok, to take things at a lighter note, i m ok. haah. jus missing home alot. esp my bed n my com. n everything la. realli.
害相思
i m still here! going home tml. n coming back on sun night. i will mug hard ok.. haah.
家是我的避风港
是每天我回去
最向往的地方
家有我熟悉的味道
由能牵动我心的音乐
由我不需要用脑放轻松的电视
没错
我好想家
而且我发现
想的不是家人
是家
it's so good to be home.
i din realise i will take time to adapt. really din. n i realise my heart is attached to alot of things at home. n i m super dependent on my com. without msn, without blogging, i feel empty!! haix.
ok, to take things at a lighter note, i m ok. haah. jus missing home alot. esp my bed n my com. n everything la. realli.
害相思
i m still here! going home tml. n coming back on sun night. i will mug hard ok.. haah.
Friday, October 27, 2006
fake.
i m scared of pple who r fake. i m serious. i hate discovering hypocrites in my life. get thee behind me!
i hate my time being wasted.
i know it's not supposed to be reciprocrated.
but i dun owe ____ anything, do i?
i m kind of tired. to do this for ____ and to leave nothing for __ .
it doesnt feel good not to be ____________.
fill in the blanks.
i hate my time being wasted.
i know it's not supposed to be reciprocrated.
but i dun owe ____ anything, do i?
i m kind of tired. to do this for ____ and to leave nothing for __ .
it doesnt feel good not to be ____________.
fill in the blanks.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
thoughts and more thoughts
like what i said. i have been having a lot of thoughts lately. i hope i can blog them down.
to whoever that is reading this right now. this is the first time u r hearing xiaoting's dream i think. except for a few close frens, i din reveal it to anybody. and now it is. *drumroll*
when i was younger, i wanted to serve full-time one day. but when i first heard pastor preach abt the marketplace, i wanted to go into the marketplace as well. there i was. torn. i could not figure whether i should go full-time or go into the marketplace.
then i tried out different jobs. n somebody who really sparked off an idea in me was kevin. i had almost nv ever dreamed of being an entrepreneur. (i jus din think i was cut out for it) but it was him who gave me the idea and told me i have what it takes. and that was when i really started thinking. amazing how God uses pple isnt it? n kevin said sth that really impacted me. which i felt it was God speaking thru him. wow. well God uses non-believers too. He said i could start sth and become successful and let it run, while at the same time i can serve God. this implying that i could serve full-time, yet not draw a salary from the church, what's more giving to His house. i was still pondering bout it.
till a couple of weeks ago. pst mentioned this very idea in church. n God confirmed the word. i felt a sense of excitement in my heart to really be a high flier in my career yet serve God. like bro wahju (sorry i dunno how to spell his name)
tdy i was toking to my cousin. i told her my dream one day is to be so rich, that i can have houses all over asia. n whenever pastors go overseas for missionaries, i can house them. n whenever my relatives go overseas, i can house them.
we were in a cab. n when i got down, the cab driver said, 希望你的梦想实现。
and i said, 会的。
that went straight into my spirit.
when we were at sph, when i told wang lao shi n biao i wanted to be an entrepreneur, they laughed. but dear all, xiaoting has nv been one who would settle for the average, the norm, the usual. i wan the extraordinary in my life.
who said.. 中文系的学生一定要当老师，参与媒体工作？
who said.. 南大中文系不应该是你的选择？
who said.. 中文系的学生不可以出来创业，有一天成为百万富翁？
my friends, when i came to know Jesus, one thing He did, He took out the impossible in my life.
in Him, all things r possible.
and i hope my life will be a living testimony to
with man it is impossible. but with God, all things r possible.
u believe that? i do.
to whoever that is reading this right now. this is the first time u r hearing xiaoting's dream i think. except for a few close frens, i din reveal it to anybody. and now it is. *drumroll*
when i was younger, i wanted to serve full-time one day. but when i first heard pastor preach abt the marketplace, i wanted to go into the marketplace as well. there i was. torn. i could not figure whether i should go full-time or go into the marketplace.
then i tried out different jobs. n somebody who really sparked off an idea in me was kevin. i had almost nv ever dreamed of being an entrepreneur. (i jus din think i was cut out for it) but it was him who gave me the idea and told me i have what it takes. and that was when i really started thinking. amazing how God uses pple isnt it? n kevin said sth that really impacted me. which i felt it was God speaking thru him. wow. well God uses non-believers too. He said i could start sth and become successful and let it run, while at the same time i can serve God. this implying that i could serve full-time, yet not draw a salary from the church, what's more giving to His house. i was still pondering bout it.
till a couple of weeks ago. pst mentioned this very idea in church. n God confirmed the word. i felt a sense of excitement in my heart to really be a high flier in my career yet serve God. like bro wahju (sorry i dunno how to spell his name)
tdy i was toking to my cousin. i told her my dream one day is to be so rich, that i can have houses all over asia. n whenever pastors go overseas for missionaries, i can house them. n whenever my relatives go overseas, i can house them.
we were in a cab. n when i got down, the cab driver said, 希望你的梦想实现。
and i said, 会的。
that went straight into my spirit.
when we were at sph, when i told wang lao shi n biao i wanted to be an entrepreneur, they laughed. but dear all, xiaoting has nv been one who would settle for the average, the norm, the usual. i wan the extraordinary in my life.
who said.. 中文系的学生一定要当老师，参与媒体工作？
who said.. 南大中文系不应该是你的选择？
who said.. 中文系的学生不可以出来创业，有一天成为百万富翁？
my friends, when i came to know Jesus, one thing He did, He took out the impossible in my life.
in Him, all things r possible.
and i hope my life will be a living testimony to
with man it is impossible. but with God, all things r possible.
u believe that? i do.
Friday, October 20, 2006
thoughts and ideas
i actually have alot of thots in my brain.esp after class.u jus feel like blogging.but sadly,i forgot abt them.n some of them r unsuitable to be written here.haix.i m sorry to deprive u.haah.let me jus blog some random stuff k..
a couple of posts ago, i wrote bout how much i like long ying tai. now i beg to differ. dun really like pple who use emotions to get their way. yep shan1 dong4 xing4. recently i have become lazy to type chinese. yes i have. forgive me for that frens. haah.
tdy when i saw that scene, thoughts flooded my mind n heart. i know it seems like this is not the time for it, n yet i know i have also promised you greater things. sth is tugging at my heart. i know i have high expectations, n yet within me there also lies a fear. and u noe what i m afraid of. u noe how i try to look like i dun care, but u noe deep within i do.
i m searching for my resonance.
a couple of posts ago, i wrote bout how much i like long ying tai. now i beg to differ. dun really like pple who use emotions to get their way. yep shan1 dong4 xing4. recently i have become lazy to type chinese. yes i have. forgive me for that frens. haah.
tdy when i saw that scene, thoughts flooded my mind n heart. i know it seems like this is not the time for it, n yet i know i have also promised you greater things. sth is tugging at my heart. i know i have high expectations, n yet within me there also lies a fear. and u noe what i m afraid of. u noe how i try to look like i dun care, but u noe deep within i do.
i m searching for my resonance.
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